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(Thursday 31 May 2007-)
+5/31/2007 09:53:00 pm]*
Title: u'll nvr walk alone-
i guess the reason why people should nvr be left alone is because it brings lots of troublesome thoughts. yup. was spending time with mum at home. but she's kinda tired so i was playing com games. strangely without disturbance. haha :D ok, it kept me going n i was enjoying. but after it, i was panicking. thinking what are the things we're lacking n lots of 'what ifs' were running in my head... shoots, it might quite obvious cuz denis just told me not to stress so much. amazing, can read minds...
i also had this fantasy arising when i was scanning jher frenster account n saw master addison as a link between me n jher... and somemore he put his email add on it so i added him!! okay, it sounds lame...
but the wrong things will be coming at the wrong time... please, bless me n our whole team. i know you will...
i'm nervyLabels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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+5/31/2007 03:55:00 pm]*
Title: sorry, no cookies-
Hey!!
it's holiday today as in NOW n thank goodness there's some day like this for us before the show tmr. finally, more hours of sleep. ah...zzz. haha :D
yup, some of our production team might be baking cookies now...- wait, i'll crack my tiny winy empty brain n try recall who they are... oh, sondra, zehra, martina, hana, siti, matthew... (-if any mistakes, PARDON ME!!!) haha :) sound so retard... reali, credits to ALL of them. their commitments are simply 1000%!! and, no typo errors!!
but i made this decision not to join them when they asked yest. cuz i was totally flat at rehearsal. or rather, the whole day.
this was what happened.
-headache right at waking
-woke up late
-got rushed by dad
-worsened headache
-got scolding by him for being slow
-mini argument (-oh well, i lost... cuz..)
-horrible headache
-pet n binni unwell; gonna be late=> forced to take charge
-was dumb, didn't reject him that i was unwell too
-bothered by all idling around
-irritated by those late
-worried for those that delayed makeup n tech run
-blurred by scenes jumping all over
-got pissed by the attitude of mag (-good thing i got over very quickly... yaay! kinda managed myself well! haha:D)
-low morale to see sharon being sick (-but she's so pro to get her job done with fabulous ideas to the play... incredible!!)
-hated to be juggled around by mr chan n pet at the curtain thingy
-disliked me going to the audience seat n dozed off
-was angry at log running off when i called for meeting
-(-last, phew!) slept when got home at 9. n waking at 9 today. haha. completely dead for half day :)
sorry that i couldn't help with cakes n cookies. felt that i might cause more trouble if i went. ok, sounds like excuse but hope you getit... but i promise, i'll buy them!!
ohh!! the canoeist got all the feminine girls excited. Haha :) seeing them so despo n enthu was the first time mann... anyway, apparently attention was all on the guy kenny (-i hope i spelt right...)the rest of the guys had none. quite scary to see him on stage from behind(i was at the left wing then..) short yet vry broad shoulders with slim hips... haha :D i didn't see his face, but they said he's hot. ah, whatever.. ~.~
feel thankful for being comforted by some massages by jon n bev. they're gooood! was kinda entertained when shu anne's grumbling. don't ask why, it just sound funny :D... many ppl have been trying to tell me not to give up or smth llike that. alicia, sondra, sarah n many many more... you all Rock!! Love you all Forever!!
btw, i hate the way ppl say that i've no life when i wasn't going anywhere today. haha, not reali that pissed larh...
anyway, peace to ALL ^.^v!!Labels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Tuesday 29 May 2007-)
+5/29/2007 11:16:00 pm]*
Title: stress-
hey
drama's stressful. yet i'm confused. dunno why girls cry when they kena damn stress or pressure by ppl. ok, sarah n keley did some time ago. all bcuz of the difference in expectations in them i suppose. or, misunderstanding.
pet? better, (-but, like me) inability to manage time well.. haha, junior must be similar to senior meh??
then maybe that's why we need the entertainment after drama today. went to island creamery. where our grp were outcasted by the rest. in the end had three diff grps. log ppl. main grp. n outcasted.
but i gotta name my mates in the grp. zehra, sarah, keley, qazim n joel (-pukky!!). we simply rock!! not like the others who were so bloody loud, but zehra reali brought the atmosphere high up on our side. yea! she rules!
but the disease of cam-whoring was like, wow! everywhere!! then all seemed to be blaming qazzie for intro-ing this. haha :) we've got lots of intersesting poses. eye-catching ones. yay! be attractive!!
our outcasted grp. more pics coming!!
oh, left jocelyn going to sondra's home alone when i could've taken 156 with either her or keley. cuz she's like.. asked at morn... sounded somewhat like booking.. hmm.. felt sorry for sondra n joc...
lastly, feel incapable to convince keley when she cried. k, she's gal. so i turned childish to keep her happy or smth like that. if guy, i'd force him to be thinking with logic... that's what i'd be thinking if for me...
Labels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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+5/29/2007 09:29:00 pm]*
Title: flood!!-
hey
seemed bored with the morning blues after sleepin so late yest nite right before drama. but things started to brighten up when i saw jher n her fren walking to the canteen. then i had an aim from then. try to go near her.
okay i did some stupid stuff that made me waste quite alot of time. like purposely going to see her a few more times by getting out. created lots of excuses for myself everytime i went out. but bcuz my eyesight was kinda poor, i couldn't reali see her well enuf that i might be fantasising for moments. hehee. then when she finished her maths lecture, (-who doesn't take maths??) i deliberately walk past her n her grp of frens like.. quite alot of times!! kinda obvious i think... perhaps not.
what!! i bloodily pissed that i can't be the active way i wanna be - be enthusiastic about what i do. there i was too shagged...
oh, then i've just got this random feeling that life's full of obvious stuff.
heard pet's secret admirer saying this so early in the morning...
"i wonder if pet is here already..." voom, he's gone!! btw, it was 7:33, but the rehearsal was suppposed to be 7:45... and i never fail to stop laughing whenever i hear such despo stuff, as if he's thinking that the whole world dunno abt this secret being disclosed... erm, how pathetic.
some ppl getting so close to the others. like naturally. n only those blind will think that these couples are not together. ok, real jealous abt this... it's flooding in drama le la!! haha :DLabels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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+5/29/2007 12:01:00 am]*
Title: worry-
i'm getting worried now by two things. one is the inability to control ppl at drama - apparently lost the grip. released my tension by telling to keley today. now it seems better. or i'll snap.
the other is the rising hint of me getting something that seems uncomfy. kena jected when talk abt ecs. all the time today. how inspiring. then started to ask how good she is... okay la, was warned before... but well, too tired to argue then. but after taking some drugs at dinner just then, i realised it's scary...
O hell! to choose love by another's eyes.
sondra's line very cool... so random... sigh, that's me...
sigh, too tired
peace n nights to allLabels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Monday 28 May 2007-)
+5/28/2007 11:53:00 pm]*
Title: in the audi ext...-
it's on the last saturday where the log ppl were all alone in the audi ext... but smth's going on unknowingly...
Labels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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+5/28/2007 10:01:00 pm]*
Title: retarded me-
hey
crazy day.
ltc was fun. got to know lots of funny ppl like martin n... debbie? ya, should be. from dance. they're just too crazy. even i'm just like no kick to them larh. with my spastic level. then there's from science ppl. si ming n... err... i forgot him. wei xiang i think... made our group sound like some special one lidat. "the amoeba". seems retarded at first, but we, or at least me, have accepted it after some ridiculous name... or rather, unique name, ' round egg'. ohh, i almost forgot my partner at ltc. tiff was really good mate to talk to. or i'll be staring into space. haha :D
tired after the hot day of activites. kena gang-banged by scc ppl in the defence n conquer game. haha, unexpected stuff. should have planned for this. but we're good at attacking. managed to get the 'flag' by one of our blind folded ppl legally. whoosh!! integrity!!
bloody angry with things not done at drama today. somemore i wasn't there. can't help it la. ltc n meetin with mr ang for econs. forced ourselves, meaning yza n i, to ask them to him questions. great feeling. made us think fast n well on the spot. if exam lidat right, sure can do well one... of course, yza also did a fantastic job in asking. sure better than ana. she left for smth else. Slacker.
oh, went abit off... as always. wanted fin to stay back so i can discuss with him abt it. thank goodness that pet him n i are doing now... at 2330 hrs... but seriously, bcuz of him not picking up his phone when we need his help. for log n sounds. got ****ed-up. slammed my precious phone onto the ministage. it hanged eventually. stupid me. lucky there's so many girls near there. or i'll just turn violent n kick the stage or smth. thank you all. <3>
Labels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Sunday 27 May 2007-)
+5/27/2007 09:33:00 pm]*
Title: contact foul-
hey it's sunday nite before the school hols n i don't know how many stuff i've not done. loads.
the only thing that has worsen today is that i went to tampines mall with mum n dad today. rare. very. but its actually cuz i gotta buy the gun for drama. sigh, still busy at work. but might not be suitable for it. seems a lil fake... anyway, was always on the move to comfort mum. dad scolded her for being unaware at the side of the road, like a little girl. ohh, how childish. haha :D n apparently she loved it like no other!!
n... my first time wearin contacts was today. supposed to wear for four hrs, but in the end wore it for eight hrs. now i've got tired eyes. red lines appearing liao. its kinda dumb, wore it n yet brought my spects box. it's for show actually. mum n dad nvr liked it. okay, be straight. she condemned it. wth. wait!! i think she found that already. wow, can see from anywhere... perhaps she's acting dumb. alright, hope she'll just accept it one day.
anyway, bless everyone from now on. be it ltc, the play or to those having anything at all.
peace ^.^v!! (-hate when ppl say me being act cute with this)Labels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Saturday 26 May 2007-)
+5/26/2007 09:56:00 pm]*
Title: Deprived!!-
hey
was just reading n seeing some of the blogs n accounts on friendster. felt so depressed about the way i am. so anti-social. no life. n the pics on these places were so... ... so memorable la! then of course there are some that are cool, nice n funny... from singyen, dawn, andrew n singyen. :D
yup, triggered my mind to many things in the past. had smiles all over :) :D
:D
:DLabels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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+5/26/2007 07:10:00 pm]*
Title: dilemma-
i'm in a confused state now. yest aft reading (-or browsin) into somewhere (-err, ya!!), i found that there were pictures of herd that just cannot be erased, even when drama sessions were held. then whenever i stone, they popped-up more. perhaps i did some wierrd things, but the feeling ws good. brought me thrill n will to try to talk to herd in one way or another. btw, she's not so bitch as some might have said...
until minutes ago when i read jher stressful blog. sounded somewhat lianzz (-or rather, like pet). haha :D
and just then, i realised tat the two of them'd be nowhere near my sight from now on. it's seems like my candle of hope being squashed flat by of gust of cool breeze. sigh, sad days ahead...
what's more? i've just counted. only 11 free dayz for stuff like hw n revision. ok, start work NOW.
and btw, just found this mark on my hand. quite irritating.
still, peace to allLabels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Friday 25 May 2007-)
+5/25/2007 09:56:00 pm]*
Title: busy body-
hey
lots of things happened after leaving home. was re-thinking about what sat said about dawn after seeing her friendster by accidental press of button. learnt a new skill at optical shop. bulled alot with the taxi driver while going to school. felt lost in drama. was observing the way jon was at dinner - what emo type. haha :D. listened to pet's history. (-as what pet said abt mii on bus) bitched to angeline abt daniel khoo khoo bird. [btw, it's kityee's birthday. what coincidence! :D] found a wierd world while talking to her n her fren. shall draw it n show it some day.
in all, kept busy throughout. only then can i forget her.Labels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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+5/25/2007 01:56:00 pm]*
Title: life's a hell-
spent time killing myself by doing nothing to this blog
didn't rest enuf. feels headache now.
haven't buy lots of stuff. die soon.
gonna be bad mood at ppl later. hope i don't.
screw today. maybe sightseeing helps a littleLabels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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+5/25/2007 08:40:00 am]*
Title: When i'm free-
i've been noticing what i'm doing when i'm unoccupied. not like nth to do, just when my mind is being empty.
at gp paper 2, got bored with the paragraphs of words. and my mind wandered off to those behind, thinking they'd be staring at me (-oh yes, i was sittin at the front-left corner of the class). then i returned by thinking what were the mistakes i made so far, like in the passage, n whether they can be forgiven.
shoots, had been a nuisance in drama. slacking around at times, call the others to join in, disturbed some ppl... fine, irreversible. hope time will let it subside.
then somehow or rather the daze end up thinking of her. n that's where i had to brush off that retarded obsession of mine n continue with my answering. but thank goodness, not seeing her for three school days consecutively has kinda cleared my mind.Labels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Thursday 24 May 2007-)
+5/24/2007 09:56:00 pm]*
Title: <3 sharonbaby-
hey
i'm supposed to tell ya about my kinda first class outing trip with 15. haha. second last day of term. but smth has become more impt than that today.
just had sharon baby's sms like an hour ago. it went smth like this
to all my loved ones, thanks for all the support, trust and encouragement throughout this tough period. really appreciate it. just to inform you that i have resigned and will be joining singapore chinese girls school on june the 25. thanks for all the best wishes.
totally loss of words. stunned of it. maybe cuz i was too busy these dayz n dint anticipate this to happen.
well, i did reply the sms.
hey erm, i dunno what to say... wish ya well there, but do come to cj and see us okay??
it sounds that i'm so heck care about where sharonbaby will be after the holidays, but reali, no. perhaps bad at language. i just wanted to mean that no matter what i'll support her in anywhere. that's the first part. as for the second part, was trying to cheer her up from another angle. hope i dont get misunderstood.
it seems like i've just lost a sis. someone who was so close n led me to have good roles during my time under her care. but hey, if she doesn't come to see us, why not we go to see her whenever free?? anyway, hope she can start afresh, free from mr ambitious. dunno why i made him sound so nice. haha :DLabels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Wednesday 23 May 2007-)
+5/23/2007 05:27:00 pm]*
Title: days(daze) off-
hey
dad's off today so we could spend time studying tgt. yup, he's also got exam tmr. the chim chim one, i suppose. anyway, we're havin lunch just then n he started talkin about the things i need to know about gp. hmm, it went so far... jumped from econs to hist, then to some politics. haha, seemed funny to see two people occupying seats for nth!! only like 50% went into my head. those interesting ones like history n some econs. then the rest of my time was enjoying the lovely air-conditioned envoironment. felt a letdown to dad, but redeemed myself by reading more when got back. now i feel that i've gained alot more knowledge n skills for exam. might be suitable for gp tomorrow, but here's something, confidence's losing when my previous practice questions in class never seem to be of any standard at all. hope peace will be with me from now...
that's what hong taa drew in class the other day. supposedly from ODAC, but i just loved the shading of the 'A' letter. yup, my target for gp, although i know i'll miss the target by a mile. or miles.
Labels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Tuesday 22 May 2007-)
+5/22/2007 08:29:00 pm]*
Title: smile-
hey
kinda strange day with wierd ppl yet feelin comforted by my encouraging gp essay mark. not reali that good though, but will definitely spur me on for better results. n also, seeing her smile in the lt did make me alive from the tired day. perhaps it''s her famous icon
peace ^.^v!!Labels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Monday 21 May 2007-)
+5/21/2007 10:55:00 pm]*
Title: my fav so far-
If the heart is always searching
Can you ever find a home?
I've been looking for that someone
I can't make it on my own.
Dreams can't take the place of loving you
There's gotta be a million reasons why it's true.
When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.
How long will I be waiting,
To become a better man?
Gonna tell you that I love you,
In the best way that I can.
I can't take a day without you here,
You're the light that makes my darkness disappear.
When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.
Every day, I start to realize,
I can reach my tomorrow,
I can hold my head high,
And it's all because you're by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.
When you look me in the eyes.
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.
OhLabels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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+5/21/2007 06:55:00 pm]*
Title: hey if anything happens, tell the teacher that i'm in the toilet!!-
this morning i was listening to this song 'look me in the eyes' in dad's car n it suddenly hyped me up to start the day off, as if expecting that smth might occur.
well, it did. soon after i stepped into the class. dumped my bag. took my pencil case, the blue little one, saw fin's pen n grabbed it with me while attempting to rush out of class. but there was a teacher outside who was apparently rushing us all to go for assembly cuz it dint seem to be raining(-it was drizzling at 1st). so dropped it n went out for it...
when it was called off due to heavier rain, i cheong-ed back n took the almost inkless pen from my desk n aimed at fin's class...
"hey if anything happens, tell the teacher that i'm in the toilet!!" was what i told yza.
response, "you're talking as if smth will happen lidat..."
while walking along my corridor i met her from distance. she n her frens. i said hi in the direction to her friend but my focus was on her. sigh. too attractive. haha. anw, her fren waved back. but most imptly, i saw her smile that was so sweet while she kinda tilted her head in an act cute position. ok, not act cute. she's what... (-haha!!:D)
eventually i delivered my pen, but that was the critical factor that spurred me on for the day. nwd i was super duper N2 during chem tutorial today.
btw, it lasted throughout the day. even though lots of running at pe. n also, before the day ended, the group of her n her frens walked past my class. i was getting out of the back door. first thing i saw was her. a 'lil surprised. but said goodbye to all of them. felt good that i'm not so anti-social towards ppl.
but that smile still lingers.Labels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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+5/21/2007 06:54:00 pm]*
Title: A MIDSUMMER NIGHT'S bedtime DREAM-
hey that's what i was penning before i went to bed...
erm 20 may 2007, 2348hrs
it's bedtime now and mum n dad might have expected me to be sound by now. but NO, all bcuz of what was running in my head just now. it's been reapeating so many times that methinks i might have just spilled some words while packing my bag moments ago.
okay. just then, i had this gut feeling that i should either throw away this idea or start approaching her.
i was flippin through the drama script when there was an image of pet tan's reactions when she heard that there's a secret admirer somewhere near her. we're all at far east then i could literally imagine her gettin choke from her plate of rice...
alright back to my case, imagine this secret of mine(-okay, quite alot of ppl know that liao) that i like her is spread throughout when first, we only met (or reali chatted) for less than 10 times since i noticed her in cj, seems to be closer to her classmates than her all the time and last, seldom interact during lessons. ie. lectures.
it'd been so shocking for anyone when we're just hi-bye frens n yet suddenly such thing is heard by the other party. or perhaps, far worse from that.
pet's situation randomly crossed my mind. you see, it's kinda one-way traffic. for me, it's kinda the same. only diff's that pet's more lianzzz(-oops). haha :D
presently, my timetable tells me to go with studies. exams comin' in a few days n lots of filings overdue. gp's a topic that needs practice!! if i do smth horrendous, it's pointless to kill myself for her right?? what's more, she's beginning to mug hard already. alright, stop doing trash stuff!!
or if i dispose my notion, my schooling life will be meaningless with zero motivaion. mug, mug n mug. CCAs are just to get credits. be anti-social... be a hated figure in school.
i don't know what to do. 2b or not 2b. God, please guide me to something suitable for me. joy in social life or satisfaction in academics?? hope i'll dream of an answer soon.
shoots, my eyesight's worsening!! writing in complete darkness is a torture. but nvm, just a short while only...
0029hrs ENDLabels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Sunday 20 May 2007-)
+5/20/2007 03:35:00 pm]*
Title: thanks-
yo. can't believe that i'm bloggin at this exam time period.
anw, thanks to pet who is the only one who is so strong in drama. and, duh, the only one who can help mii to counter the so many political problems arisin nowadays... sigh, i can't shout n argue to those rascals who think they're so big shots like what she's been doing... for mii, can only do it to those small fries :D did once yesterday in st pauls rm. but one similarity in outcome. they still don't listen. wth. n btw, as i told pet, i've been running away from fighting with those so-called big shots n that's why i felt so incapable of handlin ppl. imagine mii still not learnin much from the exco. it'd've wasted much of their time.
credits also to sondra. she gave me a whole lot of craze aft drama yest though i had a bloody bad gastric problem n horrible throat. ok, a lil unique that we all were play actin to be couples after our late lunch.
feel good that i've got my interest in studies cuz of angie's inspiration. yeah, no more slack! juz that now's my tiny winy break. ;)
charles juz rock. he's got all the funny stuff at lunch yest. like wei sheng in mss last time. oops, both are in scouts! did the perfect style of acting like someone who's not so beng. erm, reference to gab tiggery. haha :D
n... acceptance by classmates in religious class. at least participated more on thurs. yay!! :>
lastly, to anyone who has brought smiles to me :D
hope i can bring happiness to everyone around me :)Labels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Friday 18 May 2007-)
+5/18/2007 07:53:00 pm]*
Title: feelin retard-
i've been out of com for so many days n i found i've lots of mails n unaccomplished daily tasks... sigh, lots to catch up!!
send the mail to juniors
do my files
do my tuts
think hard abt what to do to survive in jc, as what angie said today
read on the news on net, ma'am damo says bbc's good!!
plan of a period of time to train so i'll be able to compete in sports next yr. then be versatile in both drama(-like pet tan; damn pro!!) n in sports(-like gab; my latest role model!!)
forget abt the alphabetical sequence from 't' onwards. bothering me nowadays
how many more?? many many more!! haha :)
BUT!! there's smth i'm real sry, HAPPY BIRTHDAY baby sharon!! jus missed this, may 17!!
peace ^.^v!!Labels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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+5/18/2007 07:11:00 pm]*
Title: the good n the bad-
it’s sports carnival day. but i just nvr seem to like any of them every year. for the past few years, i can’t reali run so the saturdays were just a waste of time. this yr, good. involvement of all atudents. or at least most. but rubbish day for me. but anyway, glad that 33 won. they’re just too good.
our class was in the dumb peach orange t shirt n it’s so obvious from all the others. sounds cool, but feels quite extra. haha :) then we’re standing at the field for most of the time while cheering for those running on the tracks. shit, reminds me of the bad memories on 23 april... arghh. but thank goodness that our senior won smth. third i think. we could only stare. sigh, hope it gets over soon.
one thing: mr ang was real quick. nwd he got first in teachers’ race... but forgot that mr chris tay actually slipped n fall, so we don’t reali know how fast he is. and btw, shocked that he asked for hw when he’s in charge for frisbee. n also he started calling my jersey name, somewhat like the way the two sickos nick n john try to sound seductive. eww.
ultimate frisbee. grouped in 33, 26 n 7. dint play agst 26, cuz felt like tryin to let the rest play when i got this feeling of not fighting with others which might have broken bonds with some of them. but if i remembered right, these are the guys that will never mind if they aren’t playin!! wow, so N2. fine! we drew that game. 4-4. alright, someone would have told me that i was better for me to warm up n practise bef any competition, but i seriously dont believe it. that first game was the most impt of all!! okay, state the facts first. second game agst 7, won 10-0. class 26 lost to 33 at 3-0 n won t7 at 8-0. n it was up to us to fight for it. the game with 33 started without gab n me; we went to watch softball. ****. by right, conceding 5 would have meant that we’re tied with them. but hong taa n nick were on field with kj already, so i told myself that i’ll wait for turnover n let them be satisfied with what they were playin n i’ll takeover. then smth surprising. lost 4 goals in less than 5 mins. by the fifth goal, i swapped with honda. sounded like ****ing angry n forced him reali. sorry to him la. but thank goodness that he was kinda willing to do so. then the worst has yet to come. miraculously, i let in 3 goals n missed 2 scoring chances while seeing ana doing poor marking skills against larissa that seemed so pro, which for t7, i had perfect catching record larh! abit boasting, but that’s what made me pissed inside. yet on the outside, i was busy cheering my mates on. we all knew we’d lose. all we had left was just a tiny winy hope that can save us. by then, all our supporters were either gone to other games or stoning at the grandstand. i saw this while rushing to my base. how saddening!! in the end, missed the quarters my goal difference of 1. i’m at total fault. i think i dint mark the guy well enuf. thinking that i might reach for it, i simply jumped. at mid air, wrong choice. then that fella got the final goal. some more kj failed in this already earlier before. wth.
okay, forgone netball. had been asking if zul or yk would let me take that place in netball. those bunch of jackasses never allowed me to... i bet that they’re happy to get their 2nd place... but felt kinda lively when we cheered the T15 on by scoring 15 goals in the semis agst 14. did countdowns. okay, they’re good!! :D then at the final agst carmen’s class. 33(-again??). i did lots of screaming to our side. just to compete with the noise level at 33 side. wonder who’s that female voice whom i was trying to outbeat...?? haha, so obvious... anw, the rest of those ard me was kinda quiet when see that we’re losing. me is the only idiot being so spastic. yu hao felt real small agst that tall b baller from senior class. fast n strong, according to lestee. oh, rem it’s david guy. superb. instrumental to the team. n also their female scorer. heard it’s netball capt. nwd, only like missed 5 shots durin semi n final combined. okay, was dying for her to miss all the time. lost by 10 goals, but did 15 proud. good job!!
of course, during the netball games. lots of sightseeing.
went with 35 to go for lunch. or aft tea. wadever. felt odd wearing orange in the midst of reds, whites n the blue. it was kinda okay, just that i was stoning much when they all were talking...settled at cine basement. was still recovering from the lost n stayed shh most of the time. yup, my mind was blank. till all of them went off the table, except penguin n i. asked a question that i wasn’t willing to answer. “okay, they’re not here...” was what she said n so for me, just short ans. but the most shocking is that she actually said that i should owe her a favour if i... ok, write till this much. but seriously, it still lingers my mind now. then before leaving for home, saw gabby~’s fren. finally rem her name. clarissa. but felt bad when she said i was ignoring her whenever she walks past me or whatsoever. okay, no more such problems. but i had smth easier to rem frm now, gabby calls her sasa n her t shirt was this name too. so there’s no way i’ll dao her... but sory for the past...
felt good that she's cheerful these days. apparently the mind was cleared. but i dint get the chance to try talk about anythin... always with her clyc... fine, i just learnt this today "expect smethin n nth'll come... wish for nth n magic'll rise!!" okay, i guess tt's y denis says guys mature 3 yrs less... haha :D
wanna carry this forward from yest. binni said this
“hey i find that terence looks abit like pet tan...” =.= so random!! but nvm, another thing to add to my list!!Labels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Tuesday 15 May 2007-)
+5/15/2007 09:14:00 pm]*
Title: glance thru things-
feeling high, yet kept my cool. that's what happened to me in school today.
was so near to her in places like along the corridor and also in her class. but since there were so many of her peers around and that she was having fun, i just shut my brain and tried hard to stare at somewhere else. tough thing to do, but hey, rem? i'm an actor!! hiding things are my best acts... but i do know that things like this cannot be buried forever... even gav tried to say smth related to that. j lo said it yest. apparently that jackass spread it. okay, but thankfully, he was kinda quiet while at the corridor. it'd've been !@#$%^&... haha.
<--- i just don't believe it. yza's handwriting is soooo coooool!!!
oh, just forgot that i've got 3 big tasks 2b done by tonight... toodles!! :)Labels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Monday 14 May 2007-)
+5/14/2007 08:59:00 pm]*
Title: wierd-
if you tell me that drama is fun, i'd believe you.
if you tell me that my class loves poker games, i'd believe you.
if you tell me that drama ppl are cool, i'd believe you.
if you tell me that my class has lots of sickos, i'd believe you.
if you tell me that drama ppl are hot, i'd believe you.
BUT if you tell me that today is a normal day, i'd condemn you.
lots of strange things happened. wierdos.
had good comments about my hair. thanks to all. but i still think it makes me look like a 賊. thinking that the whole world is crazy or smth. or my world is insane. is it cuz ppl find those guyz様衰衰good looking?? wth. haha, dont know how to say those in english. oh, also heard smth like "still as blur"... thanks mann.
had been speaking of so many vulgarities today. no need for egs, but they all came so naturally. and even during chinese lesson, when it was so loud. sigh, couldn't believe it. hope i can change tmr, and that the religious program might clear me from these evil thoughts.
went to class 33 so early in the morning... err that's not my class. wanted to collect money from the 3 girls for the show, but i just forgot that even in first three months, they're almost everyday late. nwd couldn't clear my problems before the day started.
saw gabq's fren while passing t33... oops, dint realise that!! okay, kinda unexpected... and when i left for home just, that guy intended for night study. she? night staring... haha.
found that i'm kinda free to have time to blog here when there's night study in school... btw, i only heard this during announcements!!
happy late mom's day to all!!Labels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Sunday 13 May 2007-)
+5/13/2007 10:10:00 pm]*
Title: hippo's lines-
for the second weekend in a row, i haven't seen her for 4 days... or rather, i won't. not even in any of the lectures, cuz there isnt!! haha, but wait!.. smth sounds so familiar
"Four days will quickly steep themselves into night,
Four mights will quickly dream away in time"
hope it works for me. but i'm still hoping there can be a day where i can tell my tiny winy secrets without being disclosed. and erm, that's the real meaning of secrets. telling someone to release the stress or pain inside, and comfort those who are weak. well, i am...Labels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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+5/13/2007 03:05:00 pm]*
Title: trim the grass-
emo day to see myself being another swee liang after a mini makeover... hope i don't get laughs in future... pleaseLabels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Saturday 12 May 2007-)
+5/12/2007 09:33:00 am]*
Title: parliament house first timer-
yest was the preview. seemed useless, couldn't help but stare at how ppl did their jobs.
at the house, there's a "Raemand" guy who's has this action that's so ... ... that sarah has to imitate his err... broken wrist action. haha
while doing nth, went ard the place close to inside out. excited n a lil afraid to be caught out of position. fun though.
funny lit nite. almost all plays relate to brother paul. he accepted them all! incredible!! real open! i suppose he has this sense of his own humour... imagine other ppl... might have rejected somehow or rather...
i'll try guess what was the lit side that happened to the plays... okay maybe not, will take forever.. haha. but what i loved was the penguin!! erm, roy. kinda lame, but funny in such an atmosphere. ok, gong-fusing.. oh, i realised i know 3 penguins!!
felt envy of pinky.. talked about... ... then made fun of me... but alright. let's forget about it... no, i can't... sigh. but i can un why. wrong timing...
towards the end. jen won the best script prize. congrats to her, but i still don't know what is it about.. nvm.. i guess that's why she was busy with work bef our show yest.. haha :)
i've got no mood for srt. see how things go... she's got a grand hair!!
my sketch during phys tut
sneak preview @ backstage bef showLabels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Thursday 10 May 2007-)
+5/10/2007 10:18:00 pm]*
Title: can i stop?-
feeling shacked, oops, SHAGGED now. but have this gut damn idea that i must blog at this moment. ****, don’t know what to do...
hated the side of me today. was an extra in all aspects and so irritated myself throughout the bloody day. just had this idea of being the star of the day, but now i find it disgusting... in the parliament house when sharon needed the “music guy”, ie. fin, i shouted smth like “fin, GO!!” in angry tone. sorry to him or to the rest who were giving me the weird stares then. in fact, i disliked the effects of trying to do smth special yet in the end created unhappiness. but i think i did the right thing; he was just hiding in one of the seats, and i could jolly well see him!!
then before that, in the dance studio, i still can’t believe that i was acting like joel. the cute make up bloke. yup, reali acting on purpose. then i remembered gave me that strange feeling... perhaps i didn’t realised it was wrong, but i’m here to seek for forgiveness...
and also, skipped around the dance studio like the devil during renaissance night n yrs ago... real unproductive, seemed like spastic.sigh, smth’s wrong. very wrong.
during the rehearsal i had gastric pain. lasted all the way until we sat down at bk... lots of cam whores at the old parliament house n one funny clip, they said they’re gonna put it on utube. ‘ll tell ya then!! there were also lots of jokes n laughters, but every laugh i made, had pain right from the stomach. felt that juice was gushing thru the throat.. unbearable. at bk, qazim n doug formed the backbone for our entertainment. of course, biqi gab n binni also. but i was the one who went almost shhh... all the way. stoning i suppose. only laughter was when the 2 lead characters laughed for no reason but just to beat all the other groups in that. doug was L O U D!! haha =D, i reali laughed...
i just knew why i’m like this today.
got a bloody elbow after physics lecture. there’s a jackass in my class, for no reason, when i had to run past him just to grab smth from the class... bag i think... n prepare to help for drama, stuck his left elbow n crashed onto my chin. ouch, but so rush, i managed to flash the middle finger to him n told ana to tell him to “**** his own asshole...” that kinda calmed me for a moment. but i still find it too random n extreme... he just deserved it.
was down cuz given advices on better grooming. chao kinda gave me the idea that i should get a pair of contacts. but mum n dad nvr allowed!! so that’s the confusion... then there’re a whole lot of ppl said i should get my hair “styled” one day... somehow or rather on another day, i’d’ve accepted these comments. but today, i took them very seriously.
oh, in the morning, sash asked me about the same question at gp lect, but it’s kinda loud that i hope rachel, who was sitting in front, din’t hear that... it’s kinda worrying... haha
actually i had this idea of shutting down my system one day. rest my useless arms n memo-less brain by getting the asm hanged. hope i don't have to get to this stage.
thank goodness i had some activeness when she’s kinda lively in school. a chain-effect on me, haha. just felt that it was a pity not to see her when we left for the parliament house... aww, some more she’s not going on 1st june... hope things turn around... haha, impossible. :D
btw, the coke light at bk was boo... felt like zzz... nights!!
^.^v!! peaceLabels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Wednesday 9 May 2007-)
+5/09/2007 11:12:00 pm]*
Title: catching for breath-
felt real uneasy about the pimple above my lip today. everytime i start writing on the piece of paper, there’s just a bit of flesh that somehow or rather distracts me from writing smoothly. no wonder did writings real slowly.. haha :)
hong taa’s birthday. sang the song before gp lesson started. smart, cut some of the time seeing lengthy words
managed to sell 3 tickets to ppl in class33.. hmm, how ironic. but yay!! i did smth good!!
oh, seeing her with her usual way of stoning seemed funny, despite some giving a long face. what’s more!? her dark-framed oval spects just makes her look more like 清姨!! incredible!!
LTC without my so-called mate made me feel odd today. okay, was a lil rude, she’s tiffanie. i doubt if i spell it right. thank goodness there’s some of my classmates... but hey! just found that there are many ppl in my class who were supposed to go for this short talk. very short, haha :D anyway, saw clare in the talk. looked very different, but shan’t elaborate on that... too sensitive to blog. then joel was the joker of the theatre. “who’s afraid of heights?” first to raise hand. lol, mr tan, vp, answered him by “ wow, the big n tall ones are afraid of heights. then you must in fear everyday. don’t worry, you all will be down to earth before going up...” hey!!! it’s so critical!! lucky thing is that they can accept this.. phew!
the medicine was still in effect when drama. carried boxes, yet for a weight like this, it felt numb. also couldn’t help pet.. only to see her breakdown.. aww, sad. but nvm, bless that. kitty boomed since calculation was screwed. holes in pockets of all the departments, sigh. hope we pull the first show off.
went wrong bus while hurrying to compass. took 985 instead of 966, thank goodness in the end went to take cab at kallang. probably scared the driver when i banged the door before n after leaving the vehicle. he seemed obedient. then when he asked where i wanna go, i said this whole lot of chunk, as if i’m being the asm. haha, mixed my ientity!! :)
scary ride. damn fast. like more than 100km per hour in short roads, but too tired to care for safety...
some random quotes
“ i’ll think i’ll stay here to beautify the place and just to balance you...”
“ (sighs) i’d rather be a male prostitute than to be a teacher...”
peace :DLabels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Tuesday 8 May 2007-)
+5/08/2007 09:48:00 pm]*
Title: quotations-
econs lecture was total lameness, just some quotes, lack time so will be short
"(brian, i hope right) you become ash i also can recognise you ah..." sound so cantonese.. haha
as to the convo when john wore pe t shirt
"why u wear pe t shirt?
"i'm special."
"okay, i give you 5 mins. you better go change n be quick..."
"i got skin infection"
"tell me lah!"
"i got skin infection..." it's okay, john's a lil funny when serious..
lame joke.
"why the skeleton crossed the road?"
"he wanted to go to The Body Shop..."
"nestle owns loreal, n loreal owns body shop"
(imagine your milo is kinda higher rank than the perfume...)
yesterday's oxy-moron
"hey you are pretty ugly..." talking to someone in the class, juzt forgot who mr ang was referring to :DLabels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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+5/08/2007 09:27:00 pm]*
Title: poem, my first on blog-
Life’s unfair
People picked in the name of glory
Others left stranded, feeling empty
(Or maybe not for some)
Tossed around like trash-
Called upon needed
Dump aside when unimportant
Why?
Unequal strengths? Ha, bull
Tired of being enthu? Worse!
Cuz for one with horrible memory
Zero talent
Minimal sources n network
Sucky managing skills
And experience like exam marks
I gotta count myself lucky
Just by being kpo
Where learning this from renaissance dayz reali helped
Only to find wei qiang to be thousand times better
And here I am, imitating as his shadow
But hey! I’m here to shine!
Take all of us to the 40k feet (out beat simen, haha)
Round 1 tmr
Going in as a TnT group (wow, mr chan thot of this!!)
Will blow them all up!
K, lame
Hope to learn smth new though
I’m sure we’ll
But wait!! The ‘T’s haven’t reali talked
Tmr’ll start!!
peace, :DLabels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Sunday 6 May 2007-)
+5/06/2007 03:51:00 pm]*
Title: auch-
under immense pain. my arms, they cannot be straightened. muscles stretched when do so. imagine me marching with hands walking in a wierd way.. on the streets. ppl'd run off. eyes all on me (-in a bad way). now using a mouse as if i gotta reach for it. dad tried to gimme some massage. dint reali helped. still pain, suffering, agony, sadness!
realised why, did workout too much. now burnout. stupid, but learnt my first lesson. good thing is that, my mind's high!! i'll reveal that later... ...
peace ^.^v!
dont tire yourselfLabels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Saturday 5 May 2007-)
+5/05/2007 05:31:00 pm]*
Title: low IQ n EQ-
hey i just bumped into a garang guni guy at ground level under my block. he's a REAL a-ho. i was holding my hp n heading towards the lift lobby that ***ker stopped me by saying some words, chinese words that i can nvr un. neither do i wanna know. stupidly, i was so kpo that turned my featherlight head. fuck, he was asking if i'm gonna sell any handphones at home. but that jackass was bloody eyeing on the one i'm holding!! by then, i finally woke up. sigh, FINALLY. tried to bull smth to that fella n said that i'd some newspapers to give him, if he wanted. "当然garang guni要有报纸la!!" knn! that fucker say as if i'm surely gonna give him lidat. shit larh, should have given him that kind of stinking attitude n chao.. but okay, once a nincompoop, always a nincompoop(-still like that line), that jerk said he'd come up to my house to get the papers n see if i have any used handphones to sell. it happened. was damn scared when i got home.. but still gotta give him that. so took it out, but me, again SO dumb, when he left, i said smth like "erm so sorry, none is reali functioning.." and had to hear things like "never mind la! just see only.." can't tahan leh!! okay, i took out my hp, damn old one. the t230 one i think(-so ancient that i doubt if anyone remembers it). he seriously check you know. plug in the batttery n... ... too long-winded... ...just fallen asleep... zzz ...haha. dealt it at 4 bucks. oh, i just realised i dint negotiate!! wth, fucking blur!!... finally left, but he confessed that he actually wanted me to sell my red sexy bitchy phone, haha, just added the adjectives. "f-off," that's what my mind was telling.Labels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Thursday 3 May 2007-)
+5/03/2007 09:45:00 pm]*
Title: crisis-
habit crisis. is starting to walk like someone. kinda sloppy way. it’s like normal walking, but when the heels touch the ground, there’s this force that jerks the body upwards. then since the body won’t fly up, the head is kinda jerked n it’s that instant coordination that makes the entire body feel very lively n free. yet it’s still a crisis when it’s so random... haha. :)
health crisis. have been taking drugs since tuesday. today also. so stayed up late till one or two these dayz. price to pay? lil eyebags... haha, not reali that impt but sleepin in tutorials is the main problem. did minimum at maths lesson today. sigh.
fitness crisis. monday’s residue though. failed two stations. thank goodness there’s a second chance next week.
academic crisis. dint do any hw. still got pi 2b done. what!!?? gonna die soon..
physical crisis. feeling shacked. after 31 assisted pull ups, thanks to matthias. he just rocks... what more??
emotional crisis. darren said that my quote was in the IN newspaper. oh, how cool!! but different context. fine! i’d like to see this though.
material crisis. broke a part of my watch during pe and just now, my window handle in the living room. unbelievable.
life crisis. found that the drug isn’t stong enoug. feeling high. then a lil sleepy.. hahaLabels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Wednesday 2 May 2007-)
+5/02/2007 09:53:00 pm]*
Title: drinks for 3-
it’s a day worth remembering.
the scenario at the canteen was real funny. gavin as usual was talking in his ah beng way, even when gossiping.. haha, he was asking for mandy’s name when her class was just beside ours at break. took quite a while.. then gabriel came to the table. there was a moment of stoneness. he was staring at her while she did the same n smiled at the same time.. something fishy..
the coldness was gone s he stepped forward n reached his hand to her..
she took a two dollar note n placed on her hand. he answered this when gavin asked, “oh, we made a bet.” WTH!!?? what a spoiler.
went down late to the canteen cuz of voting n foolishly bought a fish n chips. but meiling said that chris tay was gonna ask for letter if late.. so when confused, cheong-ed to a table where someone i know take care of it.. saw philip, thought he won’t have training so he’d tc for me. but he was in a hurry. so left earlier, can’t blame him though, took too long. but i told myself that i owe him a drink. so will i for both lestee n victoria. they waited for me to finish my disgusting plate of cold hard food, yet the 3 o’clock bell never rang. didn’t finish then, so they left n hurried to their odac place (-oops, forgot where lestee said it was…). felt much better when he said they always go there last minute. oh, smth pai seh happened. one fries fell off my mouth n towards my trousers when either one was talking to me when i was eating. still feeling dumb abt that.
sharon did a cool way to test the cast’s fluidity. dance thru music!! nice, but i couldn’t join, had stuff to do. could only rock as i was walking in the lt. took a video, but told myself that i won’t bring this up again. they were pissed. it made me feel sad.
rosheni was asking me the same thing again. the answer became so cliché. but i decided not to be the spoiler n tell her the tiny winy bits of detail.. afraid of the spell. anyway, knowing that she’s (not ros) down i don’t wanna be an asshole n try anything bad. taking advantage of such stuff just seems bad.
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Tuesday 1 May 2007-)
+5/01/2007 03:08:00 pm]*
Title: moody-
horrible day to start off. reali bad tummy ache. then i didn't really know if the class would have asked me to go out for spiderman or smth.. apparently no calls, perhaps won't have at all.. anyway, would have become the spoiler if i went.
i have no intention of getting this skin but while trying to change into a new one, i got this previous one that i had. if i had some more time, i'd love to.. blah!
i'm feeling tired now. yet there're so many up coming tasks. no time to do things, those that'll make me a 'lil more happy..Labels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Thursday 31 May 2007-)
+5/31/2007 09:53:00 pm]*
Title: u'll nvr walk alone-
i guess the reason why people should nvr be left alone is because it brings lots of troublesome thoughts. yup. was spending time with mum at home. but she's kinda tired so i was playing com games. strangely without disturbance. haha :D ok, it kept me going n i was enjoying. but after it, i was panicking. thinking what are the things we're lacking n lots of 'what ifs' were running in my head... shoots, it might quite obvious cuz denis just told me not to stress so much. amazing, can read minds...
i also had this fantasy arising when i was scanning jher frenster account n saw master addison as a link between me n jher... and somemore he put his email add on it so i added him!! okay, it sounds lame...
but the wrong things will be coming at the wrong time... please, bless me n our whole team. i know you will...
i'm nervyLabels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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+5/31/2007 03:55:00 pm]*
Title: sorry, no cookies-
Hey!!
it's holiday today as in NOW n thank goodness there's some day like this for us before the show tmr. finally, more hours of sleep. ah...zzz. haha :D
yup, some of our production team might be baking cookies now...- wait, i'll crack my tiny winy empty brain n try recall who they are... oh, sondra, zehra, martina, hana, siti, matthew... (-if any mistakes, PARDON ME!!!) haha :) sound so retard... reali, credits to ALL of them. their commitments are simply 1000%!! and, no typo errors!!
but i made this decision not to join them when they asked yest. cuz i was totally flat at rehearsal. or rather, the whole day.
this was what happened.
-headache right at waking
-woke up late
-got rushed by dad
-worsened headache
-got scolding by him for being slow
-mini argument (-oh well, i lost... cuz..)
-horrible headache
-pet n binni unwell; gonna be late=> forced to take charge
-was dumb, didn't reject him that i was unwell too
-bothered by all idling around
-irritated by those late
-worried for those that delayed makeup n tech run
-blurred by scenes jumping all over
-got pissed by the attitude of mag (-good thing i got over very quickly... yaay! kinda managed myself well! haha:D)
-low morale to see sharon being sick (-but she's so pro to get her job done with fabulous ideas to the play... incredible!!)
-hated to be juggled around by mr chan n pet at the curtain thingy
-disliked me going to the audience seat n dozed off
-was angry at log running off when i called for meeting
-(-last, phew!) slept when got home at 9. n waking at 9 today. haha. completely dead for half day :)
sorry that i couldn't help with cakes n cookies. felt that i might cause more trouble if i went. ok, sounds like excuse but hope you getit... but i promise, i'll buy them!!
ohh!! the canoeist got all the feminine girls excited. Haha :) seeing them so despo n enthu was the first time mann... anyway, apparently attention was all on the guy kenny (-i hope i spelt right...)the rest of the guys had none. quite scary to see him on stage from behind(i was at the left wing then..) short yet vry broad shoulders with slim hips... haha :D i didn't see his face, but they said he's hot. ah, whatever.. ~.~
feel thankful for being comforted by some massages by jon n bev. they're gooood! was kinda entertained when shu anne's grumbling. don't ask why, it just sound funny :D... many ppl have been trying to tell me not to give up or smth llike that. alicia, sondra, sarah n many many more... you all Rock!! Love you all Forever!!
btw, i hate the way ppl say that i've no life when i wasn't going anywhere today. haha, not reali that pissed larh...
anyway, peace to ALL ^.^v!!Labels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Tuesday 29 May 2007-)
+5/29/2007 11:16:00 pm]*
Title: stress-
hey
drama's stressful. yet i'm confused. dunno why girls cry when they kena damn stress or pressure by ppl. ok, sarah n keley did some time ago. all bcuz of the difference in expectations in them i suppose. or, misunderstanding.
pet? better, (-but, like me) inability to manage time well.. haha, junior must be similar to senior meh??
then maybe that's why we need the entertainment after drama today. went to island creamery. where our grp were outcasted by the rest. in the end had three diff grps. log ppl. main grp. n outcasted.
but i gotta name my mates in the grp. zehra, sarah, keley, qazim n joel (-pukky!!). we simply rock!! not like the others who were so bloody loud, but zehra reali brought the atmosphere high up on our side. yea! she rules!
but the disease of cam-whoring was like, wow! everywhere!! then all seemed to be blaming qazzie for intro-ing this. haha :) we've got lots of intersesting poses. eye-catching ones. yay! be attractive!!
our outcasted grp. more pics coming!!
oh, left jocelyn going to sondra's home alone when i could've taken 156 with either her or keley. cuz she's like.. asked at morn... sounded somewhat like booking.. hmm.. felt sorry for sondra n joc...
lastly, feel incapable to convince keley when she cried. k, she's gal. so i turned childish to keep her happy or smth like that. if guy, i'd force him to be thinking with logic... that's what i'd be thinking if for me...
Labels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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+5/29/2007 09:29:00 pm]*
Title: flood!!-
hey
seemed bored with the morning blues after sleepin so late yest nite right before drama. but things started to brighten up when i saw jher n her fren walking to the canteen. then i had an aim from then. try to go near her.
okay i did some stupid stuff that made me waste quite alot of time. like purposely going to see her a few more times by getting out. created lots of excuses for myself everytime i went out. but bcuz my eyesight was kinda poor, i couldn't reali see her well enuf that i might be fantasising for moments. hehee. then when she finished her maths lecture, (-who doesn't take maths??) i deliberately walk past her n her grp of frens like.. quite alot of times!! kinda obvious i think... perhaps not.
what!! i bloodily pissed that i can't be the active way i wanna be - be enthusiastic about what i do. there i was too shagged...
oh, then i've just got this random feeling that life's full of obvious stuff.
heard pet's secret admirer saying this so early in the morning...
"i wonder if pet is here already..." voom, he's gone!! btw, it was 7:33, but the rehearsal was suppposed to be 7:45... and i never fail to stop laughing whenever i hear such despo stuff, as if he's thinking that the whole world dunno abt this secret being disclosed... erm, how pathetic.
some ppl getting so close to the others. like naturally. n only those blind will think that these couples are not together. ok, real jealous abt this... it's flooding in drama le la!! haha :DLabels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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+5/29/2007 12:01:00 am]*
Title: worry-
i'm getting worried now by two things. one is the inability to control ppl at drama - apparently lost the grip. released my tension by telling to keley today. now it seems better. or i'll snap.
the other is the rising hint of me getting something that seems uncomfy. kena jected when talk abt ecs. all the time today. how inspiring. then started to ask how good she is... okay la, was warned before... but well, too tired to argue then. but after taking some drugs at dinner just then, i realised it's scary...
O hell! to choose love by another's eyes.
sondra's line very cool... so random... sigh, that's me...
sigh, too tired
peace n nights to allLabels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Monday 28 May 2007-)
+5/28/2007 11:53:00 pm]*
Title: in the audi ext...-
it's on the last saturday where the log ppl were all alone in the audi ext... but smth's going on unknowingly...
Labels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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+5/28/2007 10:01:00 pm]*
Title: retarded me-
hey
crazy day.
ltc was fun. got to know lots of funny ppl like martin n... debbie? ya, should be. from dance. they're just too crazy. even i'm just like no kick to them larh. with my spastic level. then there's from science ppl. si ming n... err... i forgot him. wei xiang i think... made our group sound like some special one lidat. "the amoeba". seems retarded at first, but we, or at least me, have accepted it after some ridiculous name... or rather, unique name, ' round egg'. ohh, i almost forgot my partner at ltc. tiff was really good mate to talk to. or i'll be staring into space. haha :D
tired after the hot day of activites. kena gang-banged by scc ppl in the defence n conquer game. haha, unexpected stuff. should have planned for this. but we're good at attacking. managed to get the 'flag' by one of our blind folded ppl legally. whoosh!! integrity!!
bloody angry with things not done at drama today. somemore i wasn't there. can't help it la. ltc n meetin with mr ang for econs. forced ourselves, meaning yza n i, to ask them to him questions. great feeling. made us think fast n well on the spot. if exam lidat right, sure can do well one... of course, yza also did a fantastic job in asking. sure better than ana. she left for smth else. Slacker.
oh, went abit off... as always. wanted fin to stay back so i can discuss with him abt it. thank goodness that pet him n i are doing now... at 2330 hrs... but seriously, bcuz of him not picking up his phone when we need his help. for log n sounds. got ****ed-up. slammed my precious phone onto the ministage. it hanged eventually. stupid me. lucky there's so many girls near there. or i'll just turn violent n kick the stage or smth. thank you all. <3>
Labels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Sunday 27 May 2007-)
+5/27/2007 09:33:00 pm]*
Title: contact foul-
hey it's sunday nite before the school hols n i don't know how many stuff i've not done. loads.
the only thing that has worsen today is that i went to tampines mall with mum n dad today. rare. very. but its actually cuz i gotta buy the gun for drama. sigh, still busy at work. but might not be suitable for it. seems a lil fake... anyway, was always on the move to comfort mum. dad scolded her for being unaware at the side of the road, like a little girl. ohh, how childish. haha :D n apparently she loved it like no other!!
n... my first time wearin contacts was today. supposed to wear for four hrs, but in the end wore it for eight hrs. now i've got tired eyes. red lines appearing liao. its kinda dumb, wore it n yet brought my spects box. it's for show actually. mum n dad nvr liked it. okay, be straight. she condemned it. wth. wait!! i think she found that already. wow, can see from anywhere... perhaps she's acting dumb. alright, hope she'll just accept it one day.
anyway, bless everyone from now on. be it ltc, the play or to those having anything at all.
peace ^.^v!! (-hate when ppl say me being act cute with this)Labels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Saturday 26 May 2007-)
+5/26/2007 09:56:00 pm]*
Title: Deprived!!-
hey
was just reading n seeing some of the blogs n accounts on friendster. felt so depressed about the way i am. so anti-social. no life. n the pics on these places were so... ... so memorable la! then of course there are some that are cool, nice n funny... from singyen, dawn, andrew n singyen. :D
yup, triggered my mind to many things in the past. had smiles all over :) :D
:D
:DLabels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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+5/26/2007 07:10:00 pm]*
Title: dilemma-
i'm in a confused state now. yest aft reading (-or browsin) into somewhere (-err, ya!!), i found that there were pictures of herd that just cannot be erased, even when drama sessions were held. then whenever i stone, they popped-up more. perhaps i did some wierrd things, but the feeling ws good. brought me thrill n will to try to talk to herd in one way or another. btw, she's not so bitch as some might have said...
until minutes ago when i read jher stressful blog. sounded somewhat lianzz (-or rather, like pet). haha :D
and just then, i realised tat the two of them'd be nowhere near my sight from now on. it's seems like my candle of hope being squashed flat by of gust of cool breeze. sigh, sad days ahead...
what's more? i've just counted. only 11 free dayz for stuff like hw n revision. ok, start work NOW.
and btw, just found this mark on my hand. quite irritating.
still, peace to allLabels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Friday 25 May 2007-)
+5/25/2007 09:56:00 pm]*
Title: busy body-
hey
lots of things happened after leaving home. was re-thinking about what sat said about dawn after seeing her friendster by accidental press of button. learnt a new skill at optical shop. bulled alot with the taxi driver while going to school. felt lost in drama. was observing the way jon was at dinner - what emo type. haha :D. listened to pet's history. (-as what pet said abt mii on bus) bitched to angeline abt daniel khoo khoo bird. [btw, it's kityee's birthday. what coincidence! :D] found a wierd world while talking to her n her fren. shall draw it n show it some day.
in all, kept busy throughout. only then can i forget her.Labels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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+5/25/2007 01:56:00 pm]*
Title: life's a hell-
spent time killing myself by doing nothing to this blog
didn't rest enuf. feels headache now.
haven't buy lots of stuff. die soon.
gonna be bad mood at ppl later. hope i don't.
screw today. maybe sightseeing helps a littleLabels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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+5/25/2007 08:40:00 am]*
Title: When i'm free-
i've been noticing what i'm doing when i'm unoccupied. not like nth to do, just when my mind is being empty.
at gp paper 2, got bored with the paragraphs of words. and my mind wandered off to those behind, thinking they'd be staring at me (-oh yes, i was sittin at the front-left corner of the class). then i returned by thinking what were the mistakes i made so far, like in the passage, n whether they can be forgiven.
shoots, had been a nuisance in drama. slacking around at times, call the others to join in, disturbed some ppl... fine, irreversible. hope time will let it subside.
then somehow or rather the daze end up thinking of her. n that's where i had to brush off that retarded obsession of mine n continue with my answering. but thank goodness, not seeing her for three school days consecutively has kinda cleared my mind.Labels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Thursday 24 May 2007-)
+5/24/2007 09:56:00 pm]*
Title: <3 sharonbaby-
hey
i'm supposed to tell ya about my kinda first class outing trip with 15. haha. second last day of term. but smth has become more impt than that today.
just had sharon baby's sms like an hour ago. it went smth like this
to all my loved ones, thanks for all the support, trust and encouragement throughout this tough period. really appreciate it. just to inform you that i have resigned and will be joining singapore chinese girls school on june the 25. thanks for all the best wishes.
totally loss of words. stunned of it. maybe cuz i was too busy these dayz n dint anticipate this to happen.
well, i did reply the sms.
hey erm, i dunno what to say... wish ya well there, but do come to cj and see us okay??
it sounds that i'm so heck care about where sharonbaby will be after the holidays, but reali, no. perhaps bad at language. i just wanted to mean that no matter what i'll support her in anywhere. that's the first part. as for the second part, was trying to cheer her up from another angle. hope i dont get misunderstood.
it seems like i've just lost a sis. someone who was so close n led me to have good roles during my time under her care. but hey, if she doesn't come to see us, why not we go to see her whenever free?? anyway, hope she can start afresh, free from mr ambitious. dunno why i made him sound so nice. haha :DLabels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Wednesday 23 May 2007-)
+5/23/2007 05:27:00 pm]*
Title: days(daze) off-
hey
dad's off today so we could spend time studying tgt. yup, he's also got exam tmr. the chim chim one, i suppose. anyway, we're havin lunch just then n he started talkin about the things i need to know about gp. hmm, it went so far... jumped from econs to hist, then to some politics. haha, seemed funny to see two people occupying seats for nth!! only like 50% went into my head. those interesting ones like history n some econs. then the rest of my time was enjoying the lovely air-conditioned envoironment. felt a letdown to dad, but redeemed myself by reading more when got back. now i feel that i've gained alot more knowledge n skills for exam. might be suitable for gp tomorrow, but here's something, confidence's losing when my previous practice questions in class never seem to be of any standard at all. hope peace will be with me from now...
that's what hong taa drew in class the other day. supposedly from ODAC, but i just loved the shading of the 'A' letter. yup, my target for gp, although i know i'll miss the target by a mile. or miles.
Labels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Tuesday 22 May 2007-)
+5/22/2007 08:29:00 pm]*
Title: smile-
hey
kinda strange day with wierd ppl yet feelin comforted by my encouraging gp essay mark. not reali that good though, but will definitely spur me on for better results. n also, seeing her smile in the lt did make me alive from the tired day. perhaps it''s her famous icon
peace ^.^v!!Labels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Monday 21 May 2007-)
+5/21/2007 10:55:00 pm]*
Title: my fav so far-
If the heart is always searching
Can you ever find a home?
I've been looking for that someone
I can't make it on my own.
Dreams can't take the place of loving you
There's gotta be a million reasons why it's true.
When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.
How long will I be waiting,
To become a better man?
Gonna tell you that I love you,
In the best way that I can.
I can't take a day without you here,
You're the light that makes my darkness disappear.
When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.
Every day, I start to realize,
I can reach my tomorrow,
I can hold my head high,
And it's all because you're by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.
When you look me in the eyes.
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.
OhLabels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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+5/21/2007 06:55:00 pm]*
Title: hey if anything happens, tell the teacher that i'm in the toilet!!-
this morning i was listening to this song 'look me in the eyes' in dad's car n it suddenly hyped me up to start the day off, as if expecting that smth might occur.
well, it did. soon after i stepped into the class. dumped my bag. took my pencil case, the blue little one, saw fin's pen n grabbed it with me while attempting to rush out of class. but there was a teacher outside who was apparently rushing us all to go for assembly cuz it dint seem to be raining(-it was drizzling at 1st). so dropped it n went out for it...
when it was called off due to heavier rain, i cheong-ed back n took the almost inkless pen from my desk n aimed at fin's class...
"hey if anything happens, tell the teacher that i'm in the toilet!!" was what i told yza.
response, "you're talking as if smth will happen lidat..."
while walking along my corridor i met her from distance. she n her frens. i said hi in the direction to her friend but my focus was on her. sigh. too attractive. haha. anw, her fren waved back. but most imptly, i saw her smile that was so sweet while she kinda tilted her head in an act cute position. ok, not act cute. she's what... (-haha!!:D)
eventually i delivered my pen, but that was the critical factor that spurred me on for the day. nwd i was super duper N2 during chem tutorial today.
btw, it lasted throughout the day. even though lots of running at pe. n also, before the day ended, the group of her n her frens walked past my class. i was getting out of the back door. first thing i saw was her. a 'lil surprised. but said goodbye to all of them. felt good that i'm not so anti-social towards ppl.
but that smile still lingers.Labels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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+5/21/2007 06:54:00 pm]*
Title: A MIDSUMMER NIGHT'S bedtime DREAM-
hey that's what i was penning before i went to bed...
erm 20 may 2007, 2348hrs
it's bedtime now and mum n dad might have expected me to be sound by now. but NO, all bcuz of what was running in my head just now. it's been reapeating so many times that methinks i might have just spilled some words while packing my bag moments ago.
okay. just then, i had this gut feeling that i should either throw away this idea or start approaching her.
i was flippin through the drama script when there was an image of pet tan's reactions when she heard that there's a secret admirer somewhere near her. we're all at far east then i could literally imagine her gettin choke from her plate of rice...
alright back to my case, imagine this secret of mine(-okay, quite alot of ppl know that liao) that i like her is spread throughout when first, we only met (or reali chatted) for less than 10 times since i noticed her in cj, seems to be closer to her classmates than her all the time and last, seldom interact during lessons. ie. lectures.
it'd been so shocking for anyone when we're just hi-bye frens n yet suddenly such thing is heard by the other party. or perhaps, far worse from that.
pet's situation randomly crossed my mind. you see, it's kinda one-way traffic. for me, it's kinda the same. only diff's that pet's more lianzzz(-oops). haha :D
presently, my timetable tells me to go with studies. exams comin' in a few days n lots of filings overdue. gp's a topic that needs practice!! if i do smth horrendous, it's pointless to kill myself for her right?? what's more, she's beginning to mug hard already. alright, stop doing trash stuff!!
or if i dispose my notion, my schooling life will be meaningless with zero motivaion. mug, mug n mug. CCAs are just to get credits. be anti-social... be a hated figure in school.
i don't know what to do. 2b or not 2b. God, please guide me to something suitable for me. joy in social life or satisfaction in academics?? hope i'll dream of an answer soon.
shoots, my eyesight's worsening!! writing in complete darkness is a torture. but nvm, just a short while only...
0029hrs ENDLabels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Sunday 20 May 2007-)
+5/20/2007 03:35:00 pm]*
Title: thanks-
yo. can't believe that i'm bloggin at this exam time period.
anw, thanks to pet who is the only one who is so strong in drama. and, duh, the only one who can help mii to counter the so many political problems arisin nowadays... sigh, i can't shout n argue to those rascals who think they're so big shots like what she's been doing... for mii, can only do it to those small fries :D did once yesterday in st pauls rm. but one similarity in outcome. they still don't listen. wth. n btw, as i told pet, i've been running away from fighting with those so-called big shots n that's why i felt so incapable of handlin ppl. imagine mii still not learnin much from the exco. it'd've wasted much of their time.
credits also to sondra. she gave me a whole lot of craze aft drama yest though i had a bloody bad gastric problem n horrible throat. ok, a lil unique that we all were play actin to be couples after our late lunch.
feel good that i've got my interest in studies cuz of angie's inspiration. yeah, no more slack! juz that now's my tiny winy break. ;)
charles juz rock. he's got all the funny stuff at lunch yest. like wei sheng in mss last time. oops, both are in scouts! did the perfect style of acting like someone who's not so beng. erm, reference to gab tiggery. haha :D
n... acceptance by classmates in religious class. at least participated more on thurs. yay!! :>
lastly, to anyone who has brought smiles to me :D
hope i can bring happiness to everyone around me :)Labels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Friday 18 May 2007-)
+5/18/2007 07:53:00 pm]*
Title: feelin retard-
i've been out of com for so many days n i found i've lots of mails n unaccomplished daily tasks... sigh, lots to catch up!!
send the mail to juniors
do my files
do my tuts
think hard abt what to do to survive in jc, as what angie said today
read on the news on net, ma'am damo says bbc's good!!
plan of a period of time to train so i'll be able to compete in sports next yr. then be versatile in both drama(-like pet tan; damn pro!!) n in sports(-like gab; my latest role model!!)
forget abt the alphabetical sequence from 't' onwards. bothering me nowadays
how many more?? many many more!! haha :)
BUT!! there's smth i'm real sry, HAPPY BIRTHDAY baby sharon!! jus missed this, may 17!!
peace ^.^v!!Labels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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+5/18/2007 07:11:00 pm]*
Title: the good n the bad-
it’s sports carnival day. but i just nvr seem to like any of them every year. for the past few years, i can’t reali run so the saturdays were just a waste of time. this yr, good. involvement of all atudents. or at least most. but rubbish day for me. but anyway, glad that 33 won. they’re just too good.
our class was in the dumb peach orange t shirt n it’s so obvious from all the others. sounds cool, but feels quite extra. haha :) then we’re standing at the field for most of the time while cheering for those running on the tracks. shit, reminds me of the bad memories on 23 april... arghh. but thank goodness that our senior won smth. third i think. we could only stare. sigh, hope it gets over soon.
one thing: mr ang was real quick. nwd he got first in teachers’ race... but forgot that mr chris tay actually slipped n fall, so we don’t reali know how fast he is. and btw, shocked that he asked for hw when he’s in charge for frisbee. n also he started calling my jersey name, somewhat like the way the two sickos nick n john try to sound seductive. eww.
ultimate frisbee. grouped in 33, 26 n 7. dint play agst 26, cuz felt like tryin to let the rest play when i got this feeling of not fighting with others which might have broken bonds with some of them. but if i remembered right, these are the guys that will never mind if they aren’t playin!! wow, so N2. fine! we drew that game. 4-4. alright, someone would have told me that i was better for me to warm up n practise bef any competition, but i seriously dont believe it. that first game was the most impt of all!! okay, state the facts first. second game agst 7, won 10-0. class 26 lost to 33 at 3-0 n won t7 at 8-0. n it was up to us to fight for it. the game with 33 started without gab n me; we went to watch softball. ****. by right, conceding 5 would have meant that we’re tied with them. but hong taa n nick were on field with kj already, so i told myself that i’ll wait for turnover n let them be satisfied with what they were playin n i’ll takeover. then smth surprising. lost 4 goals in less than 5 mins. by the fifth goal, i swapped with honda. sounded like ****ing angry n forced him reali. sorry to him la. but thank goodness that he was kinda willing to do so. then the worst has yet to come. miraculously, i let in 3 goals n missed 2 scoring chances while seeing ana doing poor marking skills against larissa that seemed so pro, which for t7, i had perfect catching record larh! abit boasting, but that’s what made me pissed inside. yet on the outside, i was busy cheering my mates on. we all knew we’d lose. all we had left was just a tiny winy hope that can save us. by then, all our supporters were either gone to other games or stoning at the grandstand. i saw this while rushing to my base. how saddening!! in the end, missed the quarters my goal difference of 1. i’m at total fault. i think i dint mark the guy well enuf. thinking that i might reach for it, i simply jumped. at mid air, wrong choice. then that fella got the final goal. some more kj failed in this already earlier before. wth.
okay, forgone netball. had been asking if zul or yk would let me take that place in netball. those bunch of jackasses never allowed me to... i bet that they’re happy to get their 2nd place... but felt kinda lively when we cheered the T15 on by scoring 15 goals in the semis agst 14. did countdowns. okay, they’re good!! :D then at the final agst carmen’s class. 33(-again??). i did lots of screaming to our side. just to compete with the noise level at 33 side. wonder who’s that female voice whom i was trying to outbeat...?? haha, so obvious... anw, the rest of those ard me was kinda quiet when see that we’re losing. me is the only idiot being so spastic. yu hao felt real small agst that tall b baller from senior class. fast n strong, according to lestee. oh, rem it’s david guy. superb. instrumental to the team. n also their female scorer. heard it’s netball capt. nwd, only like missed 5 shots durin semi n final combined. okay, was dying for her to miss all the time. lost by 10 goals, but did 15 proud. good job!!
of course, during the netball games. lots of sightseeing.
went with 35 to go for lunch. or aft tea. wadever. felt odd wearing orange in the midst of reds, whites n the blue. it was kinda okay, just that i was stoning much when they all were talking...settled at cine basement. was still recovering from the lost n stayed shh most of the time. yup, my mind was blank. till all of them went off the table, except penguin n i. asked a question that i wasn’t willing to answer. “okay, they’re not here...” was what she said n so for me, just short ans. but the most shocking is that she actually said that i should owe her a favour if i... ok, write till this much. but seriously, it still lingers my mind now. then before leaving for home, saw gabby~’s fren. finally rem her name. clarissa. but felt bad when she said i was ignoring her whenever she walks past me or whatsoever. okay, no more such problems. but i had smth easier to rem frm now, gabby calls her sasa n her t shirt was this name too. so there’s no way i’ll dao her... but sory for the past...
felt good that she's cheerful these days. apparently the mind was cleared. but i dint get the chance to try talk about anythin... always with her clyc... fine, i just learnt this today "expect smethin n nth'll come... wish for nth n magic'll rise!!" okay, i guess tt's y denis says guys mature 3 yrs less... haha :D
wanna carry this forward from yest. binni said this
“hey i find that terence looks abit like pet tan...” =.= so random!! but nvm, another thing to add to my list!!Labels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Tuesday 15 May 2007-)
+5/15/2007 09:14:00 pm]*
Title: glance thru things-
feeling high, yet kept my cool. that's what happened to me in school today.
was so near to her in places like along the corridor and also in her class. but since there were so many of her peers around and that she was having fun, i just shut my brain and tried hard to stare at somewhere else. tough thing to do, but hey, rem? i'm an actor!! hiding things are my best acts... but i do know that things like this cannot be buried forever... even gav tried to say smth related to that. j lo said it yest. apparently that jackass spread it. okay, but thankfully, he was kinda quiet while at the corridor. it'd've been !@#$%^&... haha.
<--- i just don't believe it. yza's handwriting is soooo coooool!!!
oh, just forgot that i've got 3 big tasks 2b done by tonight... toodles!! :)Labels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Monday 14 May 2007-)
+5/14/2007 08:59:00 pm]*
Title: wierd-
if you tell me that drama is fun, i'd believe you.
if you tell me that my class loves poker games, i'd believe you.
if you tell me that drama ppl are cool, i'd believe you.
if you tell me that my class has lots of sickos, i'd believe you.
if you tell me that drama ppl are hot, i'd believe you.
BUT if you tell me that today is a normal day, i'd condemn you.
lots of strange things happened. wierdos.
had good comments about my hair. thanks to all. but i still think it makes me look like a 賊. thinking that the whole world is crazy or smth. or my world is insane. is it cuz ppl find those guyz様衰衰good looking?? wth. haha, dont know how to say those in english. oh, also heard smth like "still as blur"... thanks mann.
had been speaking of so many vulgarities today. no need for egs, but they all came so naturally. and even during chinese lesson, when it was so loud. sigh, couldn't believe it. hope i can change tmr, and that the religious program might clear me from these evil thoughts.
went to class 33 so early in the morning... err that's not my class. wanted to collect money from the 3 girls for the show, but i just forgot that even in first three months, they're almost everyday late. nwd couldn't clear my problems before the day started.
saw gabq's fren while passing t33... oops, dint realise that!! okay, kinda unexpected... and when i left for home just, that guy intended for night study. she? night staring... haha.
found that i'm kinda free to have time to blog here when there's night study in school... btw, i only heard this during announcements!!
happy late mom's day to all!!Labels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Sunday 13 May 2007-)
+5/13/2007 10:10:00 pm]*
Title: hippo's lines-
for the second weekend in a row, i haven't seen her for 4 days... or rather, i won't. not even in any of the lectures, cuz there isnt!! haha, but wait!.. smth sounds so familiar
"Four days will quickly steep themselves into night,
Four mights will quickly dream away in time"
hope it works for me. but i'm still hoping there can be a day where i can tell my tiny winy secrets without being disclosed. and erm, that's the real meaning of secrets. telling someone to release the stress or pain inside, and comfort those who are weak. well, i am...Labels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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+5/13/2007 03:05:00 pm]*
Title: trim the grass-
emo day to see myself being another swee liang after a mini makeover... hope i don't get laughs in future... pleaseLabels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Saturday 12 May 2007-)
+5/12/2007 09:33:00 am]*
Title: parliament house first timer-
yest was the preview. seemed useless, couldn't help but stare at how ppl did their jobs.
at the house, there's a "Raemand" guy who's has this action that's so ... ... that sarah has to imitate his err... broken wrist action. haha
while doing nth, went ard the place close to inside out. excited n a lil afraid to be caught out of position. fun though.
funny lit nite. almost all plays relate to brother paul. he accepted them all! incredible!! real open! i suppose he has this sense of his own humour... imagine other ppl... might have rejected somehow or rather...
i'll try guess what was the lit side that happened to the plays... okay maybe not, will take forever.. haha. but what i loved was the penguin!! erm, roy. kinda lame, but funny in such an atmosphere. ok, gong-fusing.. oh, i realised i know 3 penguins!!
felt envy of pinky.. talked about... ... then made fun of me... but alright. let's forget about it... no, i can't... sigh. but i can un why. wrong timing...
towards the end. jen won the best script prize. congrats to her, but i still don't know what is it about.. nvm.. i guess that's why she was busy with work bef our show yest.. haha :)
i've got no mood for srt. see how things go... she's got a grand hair!!
my sketch during phys tut
sneak preview @ backstage bef showLabels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Thursday 10 May 2007-)
+5/10/2007 10:18:00 pm]*
Title: can i stop?-
feeling shacked, oops, SHAGGED now. but have this gut damn idea that i must blog at this moment. ****, don’t know what to do...
hated the side of me today. was an extra in all aspects and so irritated myself throughout the bloody day. just had this idea of being the star of the day, but now i find it disgusting... in the parliament house when sharon needed the “music guy”, ie. fin, i shouted smth like “fin, GO!!” in angry tone. sorry to him or to the rest who were giving me the weird stares then. in fact, i disliked the effects of trying to do smth special yet in the end created unhappiness. but i think i did the right thing; he was just hiding in one of the seats, and i could jolly well see him!!
then before that, in the dance studio, i still can’t believe that i was acting like joel. the cute make up bloke. yup, reali acting on purpose. then i remembered gave me that strange feeling... perhaps i didn’t realised it was wrong, but i’m here to seek for forgiveness...
and also, skipped around the dance studio like the devil during renaissance night n yrs ago... real unproductive, seemed like spastic.sigh, smth’s wrong. very wrong.
during the rehearsal i had gastric pain. lasted all the way until we sat down at bk... lots of cam whores at the old parliament house n one funny clip, they said they’re gonna put it on utube. ‘ll tell ya then!! there were also lots of jokes n laughters, but every laugh i made, had pain right from the stomach. felt that juice was gushing thru the throat.. unbearable. at bk, qazim n doug formed the backbone for our entertainment. of course, biqi gab n binni also. but i was the one who went almost shhh... all the way. stoning i suppose. only laughter was when the 2 lead characters laughed for no reason but just to beat all the other groups in that. doug was L O U D!! haha =D, i reali laughed...
i just knew why i’m like this today.
got a bloody elbow after physics lecture. there’s a jackass in my class, for no reason, when i had to run past him just to grab smth from the class... bag i think... n prepare to help for drama, stuck his left elbow n crashed onto my chin. ouch, but so rush, i managed to flash the middle finger to him n told ana to tell him to “**** his own asshole...” that kinda calmed me for a moment. but i still find it too random n extreme... he just deserved it.
was down cuz given advices on better grooming. chao kinda gave me the idea that i should get a pair of contacts. but mum n dad nvr allowed!! so that’s the confusion... then there’re a whole lot of ppl said i should get my hair “styled” one day... somehow or rather on another day, i’d’ve accepted these comments. but today, i took them very seriously.
oh, in the morning, sash asked me about the same question at gp lect, but it’s kinda loud that i hope rachel, who was sitting in front, din’t hear that... it’s kinda worrying... haha
actually i had this idea of shutting down my system one day. rest my useless arms n memo-less brain by getting the asm hanged. hope i don't have to get to this stage.
thank goodness i had some activeness when she’s kinda lively in school. a chain-effect on me, haha. just felt that it was a pity not to see her when we left for the parliament house... aww, some more she’s not going on 1st june... hope things turn around... haha, impossible. :D
btw, the coke light at bk was boo... felt like zzz... nights!!
^.^v!! peaceLabels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Wednesday 9 May 2007-)
+5/09/2007 11:12:00 pm]*
Title: catching for breath-
felt real uneasy about the pimple above my lip today. everytime i start writing on the piece of paper, there’s just a bit of flesh that somehow or rather distracts me from writing smoothly. no wonder did writings real slowly.. haha :)
hong taa’s birthday. sang the song before gp lesson started. smart, cut some of the time seeing lengthy words
managed to sell 3 tickets to ppl in class33.. hmm, how ironic. but yay!! i did smth good!!
oh, seeing her with her usual way of stoning seemed funny, despite some giving a long face. what’s more!? her dark-framed oval spects just makes her look more like 清姨!! incredible!!
LTC without my so-called mate made me feel odd today. okay, was a lil rude, she’s tiffanie. i doubt if i spell it right. thank goodness there’s some of my classmates... but hey! just found that there are many ppl in my class who were supposed to go for this short talk. very short, haha :D anyway, saw clare in the talk. looked very different, but shan’t elaborate on that... too sensitive to blog. then joel was the joker of the theatre. “who’s afraid of heights?” first to raise hand. lol, mr tan, vp, answered him by “ wow, the big n tall ones are afraid of heights. then you must in fear everyday. don’t worry, you all will be down to earth before going up...” hey!!! it’s so critical!! lucky thing is that they can accept this.. phew!
the medicine was still in effect when drama. carried boxes, yet for a weight like this, it felt numb. also couldn’t help pet.. only to see her breakdown.. aww, sad. but nvm, bless that. kitty boomed since calculation was screwed. holes in pockets of all the departments, sigh. hope we pull the first show off.
went wrong bus while hurrying to compass. took 985 instead of 966, thank goodness in the end went to take cab at kallang. probably scared the driver when i banged the door before n after leaving the vehicle. he seemed obedient. then when he asked where i wanna go, i said this whole lot of chunk, as if i’m being the asm. haha, mixed my ientity!! :)
scary ride. damn fast. like more than 100km per hour in short roads, but too tired to care for safety...
some random quotes
“ i’ll think i’ll stay here to beautify the place and just to balance you...”
“ (sighs) i’d rather be a male prostitute than to be a teacher...”
peace :DLabels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Tuesday 8 May 2007-)
+5/08/2007 09:48:00 pm]*
Title: quotations-
econs lecture was total lameness, just some quotes, lack time so will be short
"(brian, i hope right) you become ash i also can recognise you ah..." sound so cantonese.. haha
as to the convo when john wore pe t shirt
"why u wear pe t shirt?
"i'm special."
"okay, i give you 5 mins. you better go change n be quick..."
"i got skin infection"
"tell me lah!"
"i got skin infection..." it's okay, john's a lil funny when serious..
lame joke.
"why the skeleton crossed the road?"
"he wanted to go to The Body Shop..."
"nestle owns loreal, n loreal owns body shop"
(imagine your milo is kinda higher rank than the perfume...)
yesterday's oxy-moron
"hey you are pretty ugly..." talking to someone in the class, juzt forgot who mr ang was referring to :DLabels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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+5/08/2007 09:27:00 pm]*
Title: poem, my first on blog-
Life’s unfair
People picked in the name of glory
Others left stranded, feeling empty
(Or maybe not for some)
Tossed around like trash-
Called upon needed
Dump aside when unimportant
Why?
Unequal strengths? Ha, bull
Tired of being enthu? Worse!
Cuz for one with horrible memory
Zero talent
Minimal sources n network
Sucky managing skills
And experience like exam marks
I gotta count myself lucky
Just by being kpo
Where learning this from renaissance dayz reali helped
Only to find wei qiang to be thousand times better
And here I am, imitating as his shadow
But hey! I’m here to shine!
Take all of us to the 40k feet (out beat simen, haha)
Round 1 tmr
Going in as a TnT group (wow, mr chan thot of this!!)
Will blow them all up!
K, lame
Hope to learn smth new though
I’m sure we’ll
But wait!! The ‘T’s haven’t reali talked
Tmr’ll start!!
peace, :DLabels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Sunday 6 May 2007-)
+5/06/2007 03:51:00 pm]*
Title: auch-
under immense pain. my arms, they cannot be straightened. muscles stretched when do so. imagine me marching with hands walking in a wierd way.. on the streets. ppl'd run off. eyes all on me (-in a bad way). now using a mouse as if i gotta reach for it. dad tried to gimme some massage. dint reali helped. still pain, suffering, agony, sadness!
realised why, did workout too much. now burnout. stupid, but learnt my first lesson. good thing is that, my mind's high!! i'll reveal that later... ...
peace ^.^v!
dont tire yourselfLabels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Saturday 5 May 2007-)
+5/05/2007 05:31:00 pm]*
Title: low IQ n EQ-
hey i just bumped into a garang guni guy at ground level under my block. he's a REAL a-ho. i was holding my hp n heading towards the lift lobby that ***ker stopped me by saying some words, chinese words that i can nvr un. neither do i wanna know. stupidly, i was so kpo that turned my featherlight head. fuck, he was asking if i'm gonna sell any handphones at home. but that jackass was bloody eyeing on the one i'm holding!! by then, i finally woke up. sigh, FINALLY. tried to bull smth to that fella n said that i'd some newspapers to give him, if he wanted. "当然garang guni要有报纸la!!" knn! that fucker say as if i'm surely gonna give him lidat. shit larh, should have given him that kind of stinking attitude n chao.. but okay, once a nincompoop, always a nincompoop(-still like that line), that jerk said he'd come up to my house to get the papers n see if i have any used handphones to sell. it happened. was damn scared when i got home.. but still gotta give him that. so took it out, but me, again SO dumb, when he left, i said smth like "erm so sorry, none is reali functioning.." and had to hear things like "never mind la! just see only.." can't tahan leh!! okay, i took out my hp, damn old one. the t230 one i think(-so ancient that i doubt if anyone remembers it). he seriously check you know. plug in the batttery n... ... too long-winded... ...just fallen asleep... zzz ...haha. dealt it at 4 bucks. oh, i just realised i dint negotiate!! wth, fucking blur!!... finally left, but he confessed that he actually wanted me to sell my red sexy bitchy phone, haha, just added the adjectives. "f-off," that's what my mind was telling.Labels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Thursday 3 May 2007-)
+5/03/2007 09:45:00 pm]*
Title: crisis-
habit crisis. is starting to walk like someone. kinda sloppy way. it’s like normal walking, but when the heels touch the ground, there’s this force that jerks the body upwards. then since the body won’t fly up, the head is kinda jerked n it’s that instant coordination that makes the entire body feel very lively n free. yet it’s still a crisis when it’s so random... haha. :)
health crisis. have been taking drugs since tuesday. today also. so stayed up late till one or two these dayz. price to pay? lil eyebags... haha, not reali that impt but sleepin in tutorials is the main problem. did minimum at maths lesson today. sigh.
fitness crisis. monday’s residue though. failed two stations. thank goodness there’s a second chance next week.
academic crisis. dint do any hw. still got pi 2b done. what!!?? gonna die soon..
physical crisis. feeling shacked. after 31 assisted pull ups, thanks to matthias. he just rocks... what more??
emotional crisis. darren said that my quote was in the IN newspaper. oh, how cool!! but different context. fine! i’d like to see this though.
material crisis. broke a part of my watch during pe and just now, my window handle in the living room. unbelievable.
life crisis. found that the drug isn’t stong enoug. feeling high. then a lil sleepy.. hahaLabels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Wednesday 2 May 2007-)
+5/02/2007 09:53:00 pm]*
Title: drinks for 3-
it’s a day worth remembering.
the scenario at the canteen was real funny. gavin as usual was talking in his ah beng way, even when gossiping.. haha, he was asking for mandy’s name when her class was just beside ours at break. took quite a while.. then gabriel came to the table. there was a moment of stoneness. he was staring at her while she did the same n smiled at the same time.. something fishy..
the coldness was gone s he stepped forward n reached his hand to her..
she took a two dollar note n placed on her hand. he answered this when gavin asked, “oh, we made a bet.” WTH!!?? what a spoiler.
went down late to the canteen cuz of voting n foolishly bought a fish n chips. but meiling said that chris tay was gonna ask for letter if late.. so when confused, cheong-ed to a table where someone i know take care of it.. saw philip, thought he won’t have training so he’d tc for me. but he was in a hurry. so left earlier, can’t blame him though, took too long. but i told myself that i owe him a drink. so will i for both lestee n victoria. they waited for me to finish my disgusting plate of cold hard food, yet the 3 o’clock bell never rang. didn’t finish then, so they left n hurried to their odac place (-oops, forgot where lestee said it was…). felt much better when he said they always go there last minute. oh, smth pai seh happened. one fries fell off my mouth n towards my trousers when either one was talking to me when i was eating. still feeling dumb abt that.
sharon did a cool way to test the cast’s fluidity. dance thru music!! nice, but i couldn’t join, had stuff to do. could only rock as i was walking in the lt. took a video, but told myself that i won’t bring this up again. they were pissed. it made me feel sad.
rosheni was asking me the same thing again. the answer became so cliché. but i decided not to be the spoiler n tell her the tiny winy bits of detail.. afraid of the spell. anyway, knowing that she’s (not ros) down i don’t wanna be an asshole n try anything bad. taking advantage of such stuff just seems bad.
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Tuesday 1 May 2007-)
+5/01/2007 03:08:00 pm]*
Title: moody-
horrible day to start off. reali bad tummy ache. then i didn't really know if the class would have asked me to go out for spiderman or smth.. apparently no calls, perhaps won't have at all.. anyway, would have become the spoiler if i went.
i have no intention of getting this skin but while trying to change into a new one, i got this previous one that i had. if i had some more time, i'd love to.. blah!
i'm feeling tired now. yet there're so many up coming tasks. no time to do things, those that'll make me a 'lil more happy..Labels: terence
yup, so that's what happened (:
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