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(Sunday 30 December 2007-)
+12/30/2007 09:42:00 am]*
Title: General's lessons-
(taken from newsweek)
Hey.
For the past week I've learnt loads. mr jenkins had opened up many perspectives as to how we can possibly see things.
Example, with this pointless as it seems script-
A: hello
B: hello
A: how's everything?
B: fine i guess.
A: do you know what time it is?
B: no, not exactly.
A: don't you have a watch?
B: no, not on me.
A: well.
B: well what?
A: what did you do last night?
B: what do you mean?
A: what did you do last night?
B: nothing.
A: nothing?
B: i said, nothing.
A: i'm sorry i asked.
B: it's alright.
yes i merely thought it could only be used in the kitchen where a parent was trying to interrogate a child, which was plausible when bev n matt did that eventually. but i was more interested in the idea roger gave, which was the change in setting. he made gabrielle n cailing act out in a gossipy scene, smth that never crossed my mind.
as common as the bev-matt scene put forward, it was smth i couldn't forget till now since whatever matthew felt as that character came again on the next day when i was approached with a question during lunch by su. in fact it was rather hilarious if i was being noticed anyone would have thought i was influenced by matt's acting skills - so exaggerating!
anw, practising scenes with alexandria just blew my confidence on stage. i mean, it's good in the sense that there was much laughter, but i have nooo idea why, facing her meant that i'd be laughing out even before the scene started. haha :D but prolly it was smth mr jenkins might not like. who knows! (:
oh, acting spastic and nerdy of mine with cailing this unglam assumed-to-be hot jogger character was extremely fun, cos her bucked mask was whoa! i have no idea if she's laughing inside, but her masks made her do so on the outside! hahaha :D
besides, mr jenkins taught us how a scriptwriter portrays a person who lets out all his secrets he never wanted to say in his entire life through drinking. and it's all these little things that most audience miss out often, which is why i tend to watch replays of movies if possible to learn about those minute details. he also told us that drama is about remembering the special moments and studying the two sides of a human nature. it's like, you might see a person who's of a low status (physically weak) often, but at different times when needed they can turn out being high status (demanding verbally). that's what i like personally since exploring more characters requires a great deal of adventurous mentality.
anw, our facil group shiok is amazing! we're cool in the sense that we don't speak so loud normally as if the whole world needs to hear us. and when needed we, i mean, the rest gave tons of fantabulous ideas that i never thought of! that's like whoa! haha :D
ohoh!! my mass dance partner! she's victoria. it's not as if i've only known her for the first time or smth, in fact i saw her quite some time ago, for whatever reason. ANYWAY, the mix and match in pairings made me leave my actual ig partner look for the menveer, but i felt EXTREMELY bad!! hope my "sorrys" helped a little! or maybe it's su's honour too! FINE it doesn't help being too optimistic haha :D
and!! i heard this on hairspray "plastic looks spastic".
enough said, toodles! whee! (:
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Saturday 29 December 2007-)
+12/29/2007 07:38:00 am]*
Title: Silence-
Politics, politics, politics.
It was yesterday that I knew who Bhutto was, yet I've no idea if I should ever trust whatever the media said, whether she's a hero or a villian; the media'd have honoured her with loads of great things she'd done, and the government officials'd have been wishing that she would be forgotten soon.
Currently I'm very confused by what news have been telling me about Bhutto's death. On one side eyewitnesses told what they saw, on the other organisations spoke about their plans. Then one candidate never wants her to compete while the government claims to hold those responsible. Really, I see no reason for telling lies around the world while keeping the facts inside. Maybe yes, you can call it 'fun' at the start, but for long, no! What's more? Where's the real benefit behind AQ's aim? Or Mush's intentions? Either one must be lying, so the reason for these? Politics.
Sigh, I've been living under this for the past three years, but this year it's worse; i'm not elaborating any further since i did some time ago, and there're lots of 'why's involved. Well honestly it's rather fun to study all sorts of political stuff, but with me inside this horrendous circle? erm, no. I always wondered if people could think before acting, but again, shouldn't we take advantage of what they can't offer while we can?
Another example, right at home.
Pardon me for this boring post, cos facil thingy's much much better to comment on, but just like what i heard about in the hidden museum with all sorts of prisoner-like tortures, and losing life or changed fate within seconds of difference, this must be out. As i was reading the articles online they brought tears when it's the can't help it feeling gets in us and the unfair world being all around us. just like su, she sounded full of hatred in the lt earlier. i can understand a little but wished if everyone can keep this line in mind, the world's a better place for sure.
'Love your enemies'
it's tough, but definitely worth the try!
okok smile! (:
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Wednesday 26 December 2007-)
+12/26/2007 10:05:00 pm]*
Title: University student-
Hey.
I couldn't stop laughing with this quote of the day.
(It was in a setting of an interview and a female university student was being interviewed for being shortlisted for the tickets to the national day parade)
student (in a timid tone): erm, i tell you a secret k?
interviewer: alright.
student: i want to help the world (speaking in a proud mood and nodding her head many many times)
interviewer: ...
student: really! i want to help!
...
...
...
This went on, but it was the most unexpected answer was given for the self-initiated question. Yet it just blurred me too much as to whether to stone at this answer or to laugh at it. For some reason, I chose the latter. I don't have an idea why, at least I know my body feels tired but my soul's driving me on. whoosh! fight for tmr! haha (:
btw i won't tell who this student is, but it's quite obvious today. anw, gags!
~smile!
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Monday 24 December 2007-)
+12/24/2007 01:33:00 pm]*
Title: Jumbled up, jumbled up!-
22 Dec
It was my second time taking bus 57 in my life. The previous happened more than 11 months ago, yet every bit of it still came to my head as I recalled during the ride. Nothing felt as warm as
that seat.
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I've been wondering if I should end this game. Definitely it's not the best deal ever seeing hatred feelings fly whenever people meet. Those spoilt brats, they assume how people behave only by the little number of hours they happen to come across. Really, I couldn't do anything to help that, but I do wish that people give a balanced view of everything.
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I missed much of the eagles party thingy I guess, but knowing more people was indeed fun! and!! someone who speaks more than yza!! :)
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I don't believe it! The worst player scored the winning goal! Yes, Bendtner played horribly bad against Tottenham, and I was thinking,
how on earth can a crappy person with slow feet, poor positioning and rubbish teamwork be fit onto the pitch!?
Anyway, I liked the way the second goal was scored. It was an unintentional screen by Adebayor which was super nice!
Alright, to be fair, Tott was unlucky to have missed the penalty though... But no wonder they didn't come out as winners ;)
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23 Dec
Hey! I've thought of a new serial. An inspired one, to be precise.
It's about a royal family with n number of kids where the king had x number of wives, and producing the oddest types of children ever, who fight all day, without fail. All the wives passed away before the king, but he knew he would soon be joining them, so he spent time on thinking which kids would get the rule the empire instead. In the end, he picked 7 kids, but in fact, one of them was born idiot. He was the only male minister amongst the female leaders, but the king didn't want his dumb son to be bullied, so he was chosen amongst his stronger-willed stepbrothers. In less than 4 months' time, the entire empire will have war with more than ten other states. There is no favouritism involved here, but everyone knows that the chance to lead at war would bring much glory to their respective mothers. With the general deciding on post appointments, each of the kids will have to impress him to prove their worth to lead the war. However, different people used different methods at this early stage...
I'm pretty sure things will turn out disastrous to me, but if (1) I can't stop anything to it, (2) I don't want to feel unhappy about it, then (3) I'll make myself happy about it!
But really, I wish this serial can end.
PLEASE, PROVE YOUR WORTH!
Anw, try to be happy k!! :) smile!
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Friday 21 December 2007-)
+12/21/2007 10:09:00 pm]*
Title: Tick Tock, Tick Tock...-
Hello.
This is a special day, for all the good and bad reasons.
Since some time earlier today my mind was revolving around the question someone asked me about something (trying to lighten my mood here..). It never left me even now, and that's how it went 'how you know if a person likes another?' I had a hard time giving examples, but this person who asked just slammed right at my face with a criticism. Either way, the first that came to me was momma. I do know that it's not right to use others as example, moreover I'm not supposed to tell anyone about it. Yet I did it. One good thing's that, I didn't spill any name. Nor the questioner should guess in anyway. I'm sure this person won't.
That's when I was thinking, why should I fight on towards a goal with two goalies? Yes there's no point; passing the first goalie called 'studies' who's running on and closing down space, the other called 'family', one who never leaves its spot. But thankfully there are goalposts called 'school events', things which might possibly help or perhaps not.
Now what makes me relate to this goal? What's so attractive about scoring this? What's the prize to it? What's the aim for this? What, what, what... there are just so many to think about, but there's always the tendency to digress from it, which is also why this problem still bothers me.
ALRIGHT! Now onto some betta things!
Alex is super duper niceeee! The sunflower she gave to six of us was plastic, but it looked so awesome from far! Basically everything was nice, just that I got a little shock by the capitalised words. Still, she was as funnnnny as before. haha!! btw, she's just the kids programme diehard fan! OHOH! I gotta remember to watch those shows soon!:D
Anyway, what actually struck me the most was this: the things mr tay said about suggesting scripts to mr jenkins. He said "you guys can look for scripts around... those political ones... like the situation in cambodia, oh sorry, myanmar..." Somehow all those memories just came back. Those sad false hopes that I've given to them replayed beneath my skull as I stared blankly onto the tiles on the floor.
Speaking of 'slam' just brings me back to the new session with the scriptwriter, mr roger jenkins. This man's professional, insightful and he speaks with authority. Either way, he told us off with our trashy skills, which was true when it was so obvious that the effort wasn't up to the max. Then the fact was certain when the body language and the way we wanted to project didn't coincide at all. But the last group was way above the rest. Just too good with such short time.
The housing system almost killed me when I opened the file. It's actually nothing much, just that the numbers weren't fair. That's all. And the ****, they're cos of many reasons; like the bad word when my router die-ded just now, i wanted to shout at shan since all three councillors from maesot group are in the same house, leaving shufei jiejie n i out of the happy family. ya. and the last is that I'm close to 'dead' when I'm soo 'damn' tired! Tick Tock, Tick Tock... it's late now!! :)
ok, smile! ;)
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Thursday 20 December 2007-)
+12/20/2007 11:40:00 pm]*
Title: My Favourite!! <3-
超憎以傢咁樣,食唔安、坐唔落,曛又唔琳喔。不過,卖飛彿始終係過啲休休闲闲、低低能能,可以笑到癫。哇!真係劲正!! :)
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Wednesday 19 December 2007-)
+12/19/2007 10:00:00 pm]*
Title: Stars-
Hey
Tonight's the time when I don't believe what I saw, since everyone said stars cannot be seen in Singapore. Just while I was walking home past a place behind my block which had no street light at all minutes ago, I raised my tired head up to the sky. Thinking that this monsoon season might cover me with red dangerously-looking clouds, I just too a glimpse. But this never made me overlook the incredibly bright half moon ahead of me. With a glance across what's above me, I ironically spotted the orion star when it's not the brightest amongst all. Instead it was the only one I could recognise from the mawai camp. Looked further there laid the mars, something that never flickers and it's a red light which is too apparent to see the difference from the rest of the spots there.
Sometimes I just wonder why we have to believe what we hear. If we do see or feel things ourselves, won't they be much more fulfilling? :)
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Tuesday 18 December 2007-)
+12/18/2007 08:51:00 pm]*
Title: Join the sporting world!-
Everything here's adapted...
I spoke to some people before and they told me that (this person) is not
a popular figure...
... I would never want (this person) in charge of my
team...
... The only reason (this person) has risen this high is because of
(this person)'s political skills. (This person) repeats something so often that people believe it to be true...
... Is (this person) the puppet master, or just
the marionette?
Hey.
So that's what I read on the newspaper since I ever did n years ago. It's rather amusing that I don't read much, but when I do it seems as if I've been missing lots of entertainment all over the world. hehe :D
Anyway I'm real thankful for anyone and everyone who has tried allowing me to adapt into this harsh world with all sorts of awful realities and stabbing sessions throughout these years. Especially this year when people have been telling more stories than ever, I found that I've learnt more. Yup. That's all. :)
um... just in case, the quote's not directed to anyone, so...
~smile!! :)
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Monday 17 December 2007-)
+12/17/2007 10:57:00 pm]*
Title: Incubating!!-
These gals are savvy and mandy! Cool eh? :)
Pardon me for these random pics, cos I thought I needed a little breather after the mass dance practice yesterday. In fact it was too shocking with everything that happened.
Poof! I forgot them all! haha, I wish!
Anyway these gals, I saw them on the disney incubator. They're so pretty and their song whole wide world's quite nice too!
~oh! I'm off! :)
yup, so that's what happened (:
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+12/17/2007 10:38:00 am]*
Title: Crying on a van-
Every time I hear the word ‘移民' from anyone, especially in Chinese, I could feel my eyes burning even before I notice that myself. It never happened when others say words like ‘immigrants’ or ‘refugees’, strangely. Maybe that’s because… these words are heard so often that somehow just seem to be clichés whenever I come across them.
This burning sensation sometimes fades away; frequently when I’m either too tired or something else must be on my mind. Yet on other occasions, those eyes of mine tend to feel rather heavy as little things attempt their way through my eyelashes while they lead me to every single line that ran while I was on the van in Mae Sot.
It was on a Saturday when our van had to leave the school near the western side of Thailand which was quite close to Burma after being there for a week, meeting the lovely daring kids and hospitable teachers and seniors. Almost all didn’t want to leave, especially when we could create bonds with them that were so tight even for the few days.
Before boarding the van it was very nice to see everyone giving their smiles and trying to gain every bit of time to see us enjoying ourselves being their guests. But by the time everyone really got on and our vehicle started moving, my little glimpse out of the window somehow seemed to zoom at Mimiso, a Grade 2 girl there.
She was facing away from the van. I can’t describe what she was doing exactly, but it’s like those crying scenes when you see on dramas where you could only see half the face.
That’s when the Chinese words came in. I’m in a similar situation as those kids. They’ve foresee a problem at their hometown, they fled to somewhere else. Yes, my parents wanted to come to Singapore when they were afraid of the crisis. But if you compare both cases, the outcomes are very different. I’m lucky in the sense that I’ve got an identity, a nationality, yet those children who have lots of potential in them, they don’t. Instead, they’re called ‘illegal immigrants’, or ‘refugees’ when the locals had to name them ‘migrants’ only. So why can’t they be called the same too?
It’s very unfair that everyone is born to live with varying head starts. Some are fortunate; they get their silver spoon, or maybe they get to be cute and chubby. Perhaps, some take in just enough carbohydrates to keep them breathing, others don’t even live that long. Those kids never had much flesh. From what we eat with at least 3 dishes for lunch compared to theirs which was porridge for all three meals when I’m pretty sure their definition of ‘porridge’ very much differs from what we ate for breakfast in Mae Sot, it was rather obvious that the kids’ lives depended heavily on the carbos and laughter everyone brought about.
Then, I was admiring the way how strong those little ones were right in front of us. They knew we were leaving, similar to what might have happened to them a year earlier, yet they clung onto us whenever possible. What really gave me a smile deep from the heart was when the children were asking for our contact numbers. It’s true that they won’t have much chance to call us really, but it’s the optimism in them that struck me that day. The belief that they can build long-term friendship with us was too touching when urban people seldom do. In Singapore, people lose their friends because of their fear of not being accepted. Yet in the school, everyone was more concerned about accepting new guests and this was something I missed from the trip; their hospitality.
While I was giving my contact number to one of the older kids there, someone asked me if I would be going back to their school the following year. He was Hongteh, whom I thought he was the most athletic person around. Knowing that it would be impossible to leave with the major exam coming up next year, I was too quick to answer this, “two years later” with the amount of confidence I never gave before. But on the van, I realised I will be wrong when there’s ns for two years!
By then when I was reflecting this on the van I truly broke down; with those hopeful eyes wishing that we’ll be back to see them, I couldn’t believe I was giving them a false hope. All those games we played all those bonds we formed; they’d all be gone with a lie. What’s worse when the children there don’t have much time left at that school? Three years later almost half of them would leave for work, more likely I wouldn’t get the chance to meet them again…
The tear tap was on its maximum, regardless if my eyelids were even closed. The previous time I had so much tears was when my maternal granddad passed away while I was nine. I knew the guys on the last row must be staring at me, but their attention was much diverted to Shan when she started earlier. But when I began to question why both of us cried, it made me feel worse since I know that my fate would be completely different if there was any slight decision change by my parents. Had they not chosen this island here, I wouldn’t have known so many kind souls around. I might even be one of them with barely the hope of knowing things beyond my surroundings!
Jo gave me a pat when we stopped some time to see the Friendship Bridge. It seemed like he was forcing those droplets out further when all those memories somehow refreshed all over again, because I knew deep inside that no one else would understand that I was so close from losing everything. Yet out in the sun everything seemed to dry up. Maybe it’s also the peer pressure that everyone else might be seeing how embarrassed I’d be which closed the tap. Perhaps the funny flash that came to my mind that I’d be resembling those cartoon characters who are unaware of the obstacles on the road as they fall flat onto the ground digressed my teary moments.
Currently I’ve been keeping myself busy or real tired whenever possible to get my mind off the false hope or the Chinese words. But they never looked to leave me anytime soon when I don’t sleep well at night with lots of weird dreams. The last time I remembered having dreams at night was close to 4 months ago!
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Saturday 15 December 2007-)
+12/15/2007 02:01:00 am]*
Title: Ever Ever After-
Hey.
I've just realised how vulnerable we can be when we think of the words 'forever'. It's always good that we stay positive and allow our minds focus on the happier side of things, where we can remain cheerful and 'sing' for all we want, because that's when we evade from illnesses like depression. However, it is also true that we ought to know the limit one has before this elastic band snaps.
Just like the movie, Giselle was living in her own world of fantasies with fairy tales and lovey dovey songs filling her minds all the time. Her idea was that definitely, someone out there will know how she's feeling and come to be her love.
Yet, it was Robert who was trying to keep his lost friend sane in this realistic world. He was right when he spoke about relationships at the straight-forward viewpoint that many individuals would think today, which is that when the chemistry's gone it's time for separation.
I truly admire the way Robert sees things for that's when simplicity comes in. Keep a clear mind, and you'll find your happiness.
Indeed, happiness could come from Giselle too. Living in storybooks mean that she wouldn't need to bother the life problems that humans face daily, like fear of going hungry the next day, fear of losing their jobs soon, or maybe even fear of being backstabbed (or the more common word, 'b*tched') when many others show their appreciation for what you've done with a smile!
Anyway (after all the crap above), keeping hopes high even if things don't turn out the way we planned will make us be happy, rather than being ignorant to the problems around the world. More importantly, it's best that we all learn from our mistakes!!
Storybook endings, fairy tales coming true
Deep down inside we wanna believe they still do
And a secret is taught, it's our favorite part of the story
Let's just admit we all want to make it too
Ever ever after
If we just don't get it our own way
Ever ever after
It may only be a wish away
Start a new fashion, wear your heart on your sleeve
Sometimes you reach what's real just by making believe
Unafraid, unashamed
There is joy to be claimed in this world
You even might wind up being glad to be you
Ever ever after
Though the world will tell you its not smart
Ever ever after
The world can be yours if you let your heart
Believe in ever after
No wonder your heart feels its flying
Your head feels its spinning
Each happy ending's a brand new beginning
Let yourself be enchanted, you just might break through
To ever ever after
Forever could even start today
Ever ever after
Maybe its just one wish away
Your ever ever after
Ever, ever ever after
I've been dreaming of a true love's kiss
Oh forever ever after
That's the song in 'enchanted'. Truly, the movie was too hilarious! OH! Amy Adams was real superb!! So were the other casts too!!
~nights!! smile!! :D
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Thursday 13 December 2007-)
+12/13/2007 10:14:00 pm]*
Title: Maths Equation: Happy Vs. Emo-
Hey.
Have a look at this equation.
If Emo = Tired and Tired = No Happy,
Then Emo = No Happy, vice versa. i.e. No Emo = Happy
So, 0 = Emo – No Happy and 0 = Happy – No Emo
=> Happy – No Emo = Emo – No Happy
=> Happy + No Happy = Emo + No Emo
=> Happy (1 + No) = Emo (1 + No)
Therefore, Happy = Emo
Fine. It makes no sense at all, because I'm not in a mood to be sensible today, maybe for the rest of the month too!
Anyway, I think I'm real dead by now, for all the rush since this morning.
So, I went to Tiffanie's place to make up for the time when I couldn't go for a sleepover last night early, only to find that her bed and room and teddy bear were all so awesome!! Plus plus!! joash was so funny when his little-boy-like hugging of the teddy was right in front of me!! (:
Next, I didn't join the rest when they were supposed to go to the zoo and meet there...
Meanwhile, I was super duper late in meeting the mae sot group; close to an hour late!! Yet, 'surprisingly' I wasn't the last! Well, it's alright anyway, cos that's not the point. What was crazy was that I happened to bump those fellas who went for sleepover at ps! OH dang! how wierd to see them there!!
The day was meant for fun instead of strict work, so we spent tons of time doing nothing but on thinking what movie to watch, pooling, arcading, bowling, icecreaming. Yep, we didn't watch enchanted cos the seats just sulked. Along the way, it was quite cool to see Shan scoring the most amongst us all at bowling.
Anyway, kc was rather mad to anyhow associate me with things around me; like getting the same bag with jojo, similar colour shirt with grace... I'm still rolling my eyes when I think of it now. haha :)
Alright, last thing. I'm having boosebumps now after the problem was once again picked up ever since I dumped it long time ago. But I do know that it ought to be solved soon, so maybe it can be done pretty soon! (: Bless me that I do get help!! Pleaseeeeee!!
Ok, gotta say this again. Theodore's very cute!! (:
Oh No!! I just thought of hannah's smiley equation again. HAHAHA!! :D
Anyway, my unexpectedly new disc made me HAPPY!! really!! (:
~smile!
yup, so that's what happened (:
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+12/13/2007 12:24:00 am]*
Title: happier-
Hey
I feel very blessed by the little amount of rain that came today, cos it was so heavy for the past days and I was feeling moody too. Instead, the happy times I had today with the mawai people and also adam + jo-ash from kahang kinda washed off the sadness I’ve been experiencing since leaving those kids in Thailand. They were definitely funny and cool to talk to!!
Oh! Theodore was really cute, especially when Jesse McCartney voiced over it as they chimpunks sang altogether!!
~smile!
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Wednesday 12 December 2007-)
+12/12/2007 12:40:00 pm]*
Title: Playing with numbers (:-
Hey.
What do numbers mean?
395, 71265344, 380, 3515, 404, 409, 10, 54, 22, 06423
They mean something when explained, so why people can't? (:
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Tuesday 11 December 2007-)
+12/11/2007 01:59:00 pm]*
Title: Getting in order-
Hey...
That's how I put my warm fuzzzzzzies in sequence:
~Violet
~Elane
~Tim
~Jojo
~Shu Fei
~Marilyn
~Shan
~Grace
~Kc
~Teachers
Um. I've got this spark to blog this since shufei just sms-ed about it to everyone, and I thought it'd be better to remember this part of my life when someone else in the group has done it. So, why shouldn't I? By the way, the sequence above was who I was writing about since the last night in Thailand. As for the reason to this order?? It all came from my fire nature of randomness!! HAHA!! Of course not!! It's because I was thinking of the person just before writing to them. Yes! It sounds so scandalous!! Oh! Anyway, I felt I was a little unfair in the sense that I think I didn't fill some of my mates with LOTS of cheesy stuff than the others... but trust me, I STILL SOUND VERY HYPER IN ALL OF THEM!!!!!!
~smiles to all!!! :) :) :)
yup, so that's what happened (:
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+12/11/2007 10:02:00 am]*
Title: Breakfast!-
Hey!
I'm still dreaming of the breakfast over in mae sot. The atmosphere is something just like what you'll see in hk; you get served with cups of tea even before ordering, there's sugar in huge containers that you can make every drink of yours very sweet :), and the most incredible part, they try to serve everyone at the same time.
Well, there was the 'chok' as the locals call it. Yes, porridge. I have no idea then why I was repeating that word over and over again while at that shop, but now I do. Looking back, this word sounds weird. It's like canto with teochew... shoots! I got confused! haha :D Anyway, it was nice that it tasted between drinking porridge and eating glue for breakfast. But the ginger was crazy! They added so much that I was practically crying for most of the time!! Alright, they are good for the digestive system... haha :)
By the way, the soup noodle was fabulous! From first sight it seems like those japanese noodles that was close to transparent! Then the soup was also very clear! The amazing part is, they had ingredients which is close to extinction in Sg; things like internal organs... yes, they aren't healthy, but it's something new! HA! :D
Last thing, 'pak si you'. It's the Thai version of fried kuay tiao, except that there were more vegetables there. And!! There's lots of ingredients too!! (:
ps. I guess why this post is up since I'm trying to adapt back to the Singapore food, or maybe, breakfast. It's not as if I puked when eating this morning, but the pleasure of enjoying it wasn't there ;)
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Monday 10 December 2007-)
+12/10/2007 09:50:00 pm]*
Title: Compare: Sg vs Th-
I think I miss the sunny days with clear blue skies and the cool dark nights where there were shiny dots right above us, yet dry and dusty all over in Mae Sot. Compared to the rainy days and chilling yet dangerously looking nights I’ve experienced today, I never wished to leave yesterday.
The atmosphere today is also very different from the past week. I’ve been filled with lots of lovey dovey and peaceful feeling with no sense of unfriendliness since 6 days ago. On the other hand, I think there’s a lot of 弹药 when I was listening to the conversation today. Haha, but that’s good in the sense that it actually fills me in when I was absent for many days. There were insights to the guerrilla attacks and assassinations, which were rather entertaining at times. But my frequency needed to tune itself a little when the people today speak so much faster than those a few days earlier. But I think I’m much better now that I have learnt to speak up!
Anyway, when I remember more about the trip, I’ll have more!! (:
yup, so that's what happened (:
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+12/10/2007 09:51:00 am]*
Title: Reflect!-
其实我现在觉得几好玩,又有啲过隐,因为上星期去泰囯的旅程的确让我學了不少东西。再加上现在读了‘朋友仔’所写的字条,才发现自己在不知不觉中使人有多么不同的印象。不过,我总觉得我们不可能像以前一样,那么疯狂的。我最担心的是他日我这9位好朋友再也不会接受我这种另类又奇怪的性格,把那星期所有使人快乐的事情都给忘了。
Anyway, I realised something, fire type of people have a lot to talk about. Eg, me. When I opened them and saw the number of words in it, that’s when I got a little scared that I bored the rest with loads of crap. Then there were the no-nonsense lines that were so straight forward!! Haha, maybe I’ve wasted too much ink on writing!! (:
只希望自己的错觉都是错的…
~Smile though!!!! HAHAHA :D
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Sunday 9 December 2007-)
+12/09/2007 11:00:00 pm]*
Title: ocip-
Hey.
I don't think there's much I remember now when most of the ocip trip was noted in the reflection sheets which were given to mr and mrs leong.
But whatever that's not there will be here!!
OK! So, I loved the way mr n mrs leong did the reflections on different days. There were really new ideas in placed and I was rather impressed with that. Oh! There was the pair share on night 2, 'banana' group share on night 3, system essays on night 4, break for rehearsal on night 5 and hearing mrs leong "quarrel and fighting with mr leong and decided to give one question each (she sounded so serious at first that I believed it!! But she looked like she was laughing at me for my gullibility...) which was part of the post reflection and self-evaluation as they included the scenarios during the week on the night 6 (last one). And!! The warm fuzzies!! They weren't anything new, but the idea was definitely the most influential amongst all!
By the way, the air here was quite bad that I almost had sore throat on the first 3 days. Then subsequent days it was so bad that I had running nose till now! Um, the m*g**nt school had lots of sand and often, when people run over it, everywhere gets blur because of the sand!
Please bless Marilyn n shufei jie jie to get well after they weren't feeling too good these days.
Oh!! I seriously think our group are too lucky to be in this trip. I bet none of the other groups would have gone through like ours; as in, our programmes were only partly written in the schedule!!! We had additional things like visiting the local clinic, attending a movie screening about ZOA (they had a theme of 'do good, and speak about it') and also getting to know activists; those which just came by via coincidence. I'm rather sure that if Sondra knew that, she might want to come with us too!
Personally, I learnt from ultra-violent Violet and her Earth quality by being the guy slave-driver and time keeper every morning. BUT weirdly, this morning she almost died when all of us were ready to leave the hotel building while she just woke up! Apparently she was totally flat-dead since this morning, but really gotta thank her for teaching me about time-management overseas :)
Another person to thank must be Shan. If she didn't remind me to wake kc n co. up, they'd also been late. Now, here's the funny scene. Kc agreed with tim that he'd pick up my phone call as morning call. I called at 20 minutes late already, yet kc told me he slept again! Really, it's this little spark of Water quality that makes me think that I should care for my friends more often, especially in situations like this... I really can't imagine if I left them alone this morning!
The next is our driver. I don't know his name, but I was awake this morning to witness how he saved our butts along the roads. Despite the bumps, he was real daring and adventurous that he overtook trucks ahead swiftly even though it was a two-laned road while there were vehicles coming in the opposite direction. He also tried his very best to avoid the humps from the poorly repaired bitumen roads. The way he swerved, the way we zoomed... Knowing that we are all safe now shows that he really deserved all the praise I'm giving him now. I think seeing him every morning and greeting him with smiles by all of us really did make him believe that we do trust him. One more thing about him is that he seemed to know every single road in Thailand when he could almost drive to any place around our hotel, especially when he mostly work in Bangkok! He's just too awesome!
There's no one else left, just that I truly admired the way those kids wanted to take my number and asking when I'd be back to visit them. I want to asap, but it's very obvious that I can't for at least 3 years! sigh... I guess I'll have to stop feeling the drops of water in my eyes now, 'cause I told them I might visit them 2 years later! NOOO!! I'm going to break my promise!!
Help me get over with my problem soon, since it started yesterday already!
~smiles! (:
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Sunday 2 December 2007-)
+12/02/2007 05:43:00 pm]*
Title: Nope!!-
Hey!
I don’t like the way life’s going on currently.
Everyone with smiles seemed to have left since yesterday; yes, my relatives flew, so did the smiles on daddy n mummy’s face. Maybe those were fake ones after all, especially when mum was asking me this, ‘did you miss them?’ I replied, ‘as long as I spent every second well.’ I do know that it’s such a foolish textbook answer, but indeed, most of the time I was smiling when they were here, and most of it came from the heart.
Yet, I’m very upset at the way I’m behaving. I’m living in this selfish world that cared no one’s feelings. Maybe that’s why I got daddy mad last night. I wished I could be better.
Alright, last thing. All I see is merely pictures with smiles posing for the cameras. Some shots might be really feeling happy inside, which are good, some aren’t. I don’t like that, but I do love the pose that she did.
SMILES!! (:
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Saturday 1 December 2007-)
+12/01/2007 11:59:00 pm]*
Title: World AIDS Day-
Hey!
Today's World AIDS Day.
Always
Initiate,
Do
Social work.
To everyone on earth, SMILE!! (:
yup, so that's what happened (:
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+12/01/2007 01:26:00 am]*
Title: Replies-
HEY!!
I knew it!! If you read the thanksgiving post well, the first was "thanks to radio disney". HAHAHAHA!!
Then st mary's is at bukit batok.
Recently I realised that there are so many ways to describe things. Especially those crude ones, they can also be told in a nicer codey way. That's why I super duper love my aunts!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3
Smile!!! cos it's the nicest thing to see... :)
yup, so that's what happened (:
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+12/01/2007 12:37:00 am]*
Title: Frustration-
Planning means talking crap without action.
I never wanted to say this, but it's just too tiring to keep it.
Smile anyway!!!! (:
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Sunday 30 December 2007-)
+12/30/2007 09:42:00 am]*
Title: General's lessons-
(taken from newsweek)
Hey.
For the past week I've learnt loads. mr jenkins had opened up many perspectives as to how we can possibly see things.
Example, with this pointless as it seems script-
A: hello
B: hello
A: how's everything?
B: fine i guess.
A: do you know what time it is?
B: no, not exactly.
A: don't you have a watch?
B: no, not on me.
A: well.
B: well what?
A: what did you do last night?
B: what do you mean?
A: what did you do last night?
B: nothing.
A: nothing?
B: i said, nothing.
A: i'm sorry i asked.
B: it's alright.
yes i merely thought it could only be used in the kitchen where a parent was trying to interrogate a child, which was plausible when bev n matt did that eventually. but i was more interested in the idea roger gave, which was the change in setting. he made gabrielle n cailing act out in a gossipy scene, smth that never crossed my mind.
as common as the bev-matt scene put forward, it was smth i couldn't forget till now since whatever matthew felt as that character came again on the next day when i was approached with a question during lunch by su. in fact it was rather hilarious if i was being noticed anyone would have thought i was influenced by matt's acting skills - so exaggerating!
anw, practising scenes with alexandria just blew my confidence on stage. i mean, it's good in the sense that there was much laughter, but i have nooo idea why, facing her meant that i'd be laughing out even before the scene started. haha :D but prolly it was smth mr jenkins might not like. who knows! (:
oh, acting spastic and nerdy of mine with cailing this unglam assumed-to-be hot jogger character was extremely fun, cos her bucked mask was whoa! i have no idea if she's laughing inside, but her masks made her do so on the outside! hahaha :D
besides, mr jenkins taught us how a scriptwriter portrays a person who lets out all his secrets he never wanted to say in his entire life through drinking. and it's all these little things that most audience miss out often, which is why i tend to watch replays of movies if possible to learn about those minute details. he also told us that drama is about remembering the special moments and studying the two sides of a human nature. it's like, you might see a person who's of a low status (physically weak) often, but at different times when needed they can turn out being high status (demanding verbally). that's what i like personally since exploring more characters requires a great deal of adventurous mentality.
anw, our facil group shiok is amazing! we're cool in the sense that we don't speak so loud normally as if the whole world needs to hear us. and when needed we, i mean, the rest gave tons of fantabulous ideas that i never thought of! that's like whoa! haha :D
ohoh!! my mass dance partner! she's victoria. it's not as if i've only known her for the first time or smth, in fact i saw her quite some time ago, for whatever reason. ANYWAY, the mix and match in pairings made me leave my actual ig partner look for the menveer, but i felt EXTREMELY bad!! hope my "sorrys" helped a little! or maybe it's su's honour too! FINE it doesn't help being too optimistic haha :D
and!! i heard this on hairspray "plastic looks spastic".
enough said, toodles! whee! (:
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Saturday 29 December 2007-)
+12/29/2007 07:38:00 am]*
Title: Silence-
Politics, politics, politics.
It was yesterday that I knew who Bhutto was, yet I've no idea if I should ever trust whatever the media said, whether she's a hero or a villian; the media'd have honoured her with loads of great things she'd done, and the government officials'd have been wishing that she would be forgotten soon.
Currently I'm very confused by what news have been telling me about Bhutto's death. On one side eyewitnesses told what they saw, on the other organisations spoke about their plans. Then one candidate never wants her to compete while the government claims to hold those responsible. Really, I see no reason for telling lies around the world while keeping the facts inside. Maybe yes, you can call it 'fun' at the start, but for long, no! What's more? Where's the real benefit behind AQ's aim? Or Mush's intentions? Either one must be lying, so the reason for these? Politics.
Sigh, I've been living under this for the past three years, but this year it's worse; i'm not elaborating any further since i did some time ago, and there're lots of 'why's involved. Well honestly it's rather fun to study all sorts of political stuff, but with me inside this horrendous circle? erm, no. I always wondered if people could think before acting, but again, shouldn't we take advantage of what they can't offer while we can?
Another example, right at home.
Pardon me for this boring post, cos facil thingy's much much better to comment on, but just like what i heard about in the hidden museum with all sorts of prisoner-like tortures, and losing life or changed fate within seconds of difference, this must be out. As i was reading the articles online they brought tears when it's the can't help it feeling gets in us and the unfair world being all around us. just like su, she sounded full of hatred in the lt earlier. i can understand a little but wished if everyone can keep this line in mind, the world's a better place for sure.
'Love your enemies'
it's tough, but definitely worth the try!
okok smile! (:
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Wednesday 26 December 2007-)
+12/26/2007 10:05:00 pm]*
Title: University student-
Hey.
I couldn't stop laughing with this quote of the day.
(It was in a setting of an interview and a female university student was being interviewed for being shortlisted for the tickets to the national day parade)
student (in a timid tone): erm, i tell you a secret k?
interviewer: alright.
student: i want to help the world (speaking in a proud mood and nodding her head many many times)
interviewer: ...
student: really! i want to help!
...
...
...
This went on, but it was the most unexpected answer was given for the self-initiated question. Yet it just blurred me too much as to whether to stone at this answer or to laugh at it. For some reason, I chose the latter. I don't have an idea why, at least I know my body feels tired but my soul's driving me on. whoosh! fight for tmr! haha (:
btw i won't tell who this student is, but it's quite obvious today. anw, gags!
~smile!
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Monday 24 December 2007-)
+12/24/2007 01:33:00 pm]*
Title: Jumbled up, jumbled up!-
22 Dec
It was my second time taking bus 57 in my life. The previous happened more than 11 months ago, yet every bit of it still came to my head as I recalled during the ride. Nothing felt as warm as
that seat.
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I've been wondering if I should end this game. Definitely it's not the best deal ever seeing hatred feelings fly whenever people meet. Those spoilt brats, they assume how people behave only by the little number of hours they happen to come across. Really, I couldn't do anything to help that, but I do wish that people give a balanced view of everything.
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I missed much of the eagles party thingy I guess, but knowing more people was indeed fun! and!! someone who speaks more than yza!! :)
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I don't believe it! The worst player scored the winning goal! Yes, Bendtner played horribly bad against Tottenham, and I was thinking,
how on earth can a crappy person with slow feet, poor positioning and rubbish teamwork be fit onto the pitch!?
Anyway, I liked the way the second goal was scored. It was an unintentional screen by Adebayor which was super nice!
Alright, to be fair, Tott was unlucky to have missed the penalty though... But no wonder they didn't come out as winners ;)
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23 Dec
Hey! I've thought of a new serial. An inspired one, to be precise.
It's about a royal family with n number of kids where the king had x number of wives, and producing the oddest types of children ever, who fight all day, without fail. All the wives passed away before the king, but he knew he would soon be joining them, so he spent time on thinking which kids would get the rule the empire instead. In the end, he picked 7 kids, but in fact, one of them was born idiot. He was the only male minister amongst the female leaders, but the king didn't want his dumb son to be bullied, so he was chosen amongst his stronger-willed stepbrothers. In less than 4 months' time, the entire empire will have war with more than ten other states. There is no favouritism involved here, but everyone knows that the chance to lead at war would bring much glory to their respective mothers. With the general deciding on post appointments, each of the kids will have to impress him to prove their worth to lead the war. However, different people used different methods at this early stage...
I'm pretty sure things will turn out disastrous to me, but if (1) I can't stop anything to it, (2) I don't want to feel unhappy about it, then (3) I'll make myself happy about it!
But really, I wish this serial can end.
PLEASE, PROVE YOUR WORTH!
Anw, try to be happy k!! :) smile!
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Friday 21 December 2007-)
+12/21/2007 10:09:00 pm]*
Title: Tick Tock, Tick Tock...-
Hello.
This is a special day, for all the good and bad reasons.
Since some time earlier today my mind was revolving around the question someone asked me about something (trying to lighten my mood here..). It never left me even now, and that's how it went 'how you know if a person likes another?' I had a hard time giving examples, but this person who asked just slammed right at my face with a criticism. Either way, the first that came to me was momma. I do know that it's not right to use others as example, moreover I'm not supposed to tell anyone about it. Yet I did it. One good thing's that, I didn't spill any name. Nor the questioner should guess in anyway. I'm sure this person won't.
That's when I was thinking, why should I fight on towards a goal with two goalies? Yes there's no point; passing the first goalie called 'studies' who's running on and closing down space, the other called 'family', one who never leaves its spot. But thankfully there are goalposts called 'school events', things which might possibly help or perhaps not.
Now what makes me relate to this goal? What's so attractive about scoring this? What's the prize to it? What's the aim for this? What, what, what... there are just so many to think about, but there's always the tendency to digress from it, which is also why this problem still bothers me.
ALRIGHT! Now onto some betta things!
Alex is super duper niceeee! The sunflower she gave to six of us was plastic, but it looked so awesome from far! Basically everything was nice, just that I got a little shock by the capitalised words. Still, she was as funnnnny as before. haha!! btw, she's just the kids programme diehard fan! OHOH! I gotta remember to watch those shows soon!:D
Anyway, what actually struck me the most was this: the things mr tay said about suggesting scripts to mr jenkins. He said "you guys can look for scripts around... those political ones... like the situation in cambodia, oh sorry, myanmar..." Somehow all those memories just came back. Those sad false hopes that I've given to them replayed beneath my skull as I stared blankly onto the tiles on the floor.
Speaking of 'slam' just brings me back to the new session with the scriptwriter, mr roger jenkins. This man's professional, insightful and he speaks with authority. Either way, he told us off with our trashy skills, which was true when it was so obvious that the effort wasn't up to the max. Then the fact was certain when the body language and the way we wanted to project didn't coincide at all. But the last group was way above the rest. Just too good with such short time.
The housing system almost killed me when I opened the file. It's actually nothing much, just that the numbers weren't fair. That's all. And the ****, they're cos of many reasons; like the bad word when my router die-ded just now, i wanted to shout at shan since all three councillors from maesot group are in the same house, leaving shufei jiejie n i out of the happy family. ya. and the last is that I'm close to 'dead' when I'm soo 'damn' tired! Tick Tock, Tick Tock... it's late now!! :)
ok, smile! ;)
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Thursday 20 December 2007-)
+12/20/2007 11:40:00 pm]*
Title: My Favourite!! <3-
超憎以傢咁樣,食唔安、坐唔落,曛又唔琳喔。不過,卖飛彿始終係過啲休休闲闲、低低能能,可以笑到癫。哇!真係劲正!! :)
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Wednesday 19 December 2007-)
+12/19/2007 10:00:00 pm]*
Title: Stars-
Hey
Tonight's the time when I don't believe what I saw, since everyone said stars cannot be seen in Singapore. Just while I was walking home past a place behind my block which had no street light at all minutes ago, I raised my tired head up to the sky. Thinking that this monsoon season might cover me with red dangerously-looking clouds, I just too a glimpse. But this never made me overlook the incredibly bright half moon ahead of me. With a glance across what's above me, I ironically spotted the orion star when it's not the brightest amongst all. Instead it was the only one I could recognise from the mawai camp. Looked further there laid the mars, something that never flickers and it's a red light which is too apparent to see the difference from the rest of the spots there.
Sometimes I just wonder why we have to believe what we hear. If we do see or feel things ourselves, won't they be much more fulfilling? :)
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Tuesday 18 December 2007-)
+12/18/2007 08:51:00 pm]*
Title: Join the sporting world!-
Everything here's adapted...
I spoke to some people before and they told me that (this person) is not
a popular figure...
... I would never want (this person) in charge of my
team...
... The only reason (this person) has risen this high is because of
(this person)'s political skills. (This person) repeats something so often that people believe it to be true...
... Is (this person) the puppet master, or just
the marionette?
Hey.
So that's what I read on the newspaper since I ever did n years ago. It's rather amusing that I don't read much, but when I do it seems as if I've been missing lots of entertainment all over the world. hehe :D
Anyway I'm real thankful for anyone and everyone who has tried allowing me to adapt into this harsh world with all sorts of awful realities and stabbing sessions throughout these years. Especially this year when people have been telling more stories than ever, I found that I've learnt more. Yup. That's all. :)
um... just in case, the quote's not directed to anyone, so...
~smile!! :)
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Monday 17 December 2007-)
+12/17/2007 10:57:00 pm]*
Title: Incubating!!-
These gals are savvy and mandy! Cool eh? :)
Pardon me for these random pics, cos I thought I needed a little breather after the mass dance practice yesterday. In fact it was too shocking with everything that happened.
Poof! I forgot them all! haha, I wish!
Anyway these gals, I saw them on the disney incubator. They're so pretty and their song whole wide world's quite nice too!
~oh! I'm off! :)
yup, so that's what happened (:
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+12/17/2007 10:38:00 am]*
Title: Crying on a van-
Every time I hear the word ‘移民' from anyone, especially in Chinese, I could feel my eyes burning even before I notice that myself. It never happened when others say words like ‘immigrants’ or ‘refugees’, strangely. Maybe that’s because… these words are heard so often that somehow just seem to be clichés whenever I come across them.
This burning sensation sometimes fades away; frequently when I’m either too tired or something else must be on my mind. Yet on other occasions, those eyes of mine tend to feel rather heavy as little things attempt their way through my eyelashes while they lead me to every single line that ran while I was on the van in Mae Sot.
It was on a Saturday when our van had to leave the school near the western side of Thailand which was quite close to Burma after being there for a week, meeting the lovely daring kids and hospitable teachers and seniors. Almost all didn’t want to leave, especially when we could create bonds with them that were so tight even for the few days.
Before boarding the van it was very nice to see everyone giving their smiles and trying to gain every bit of time to see us enjoying ourselves being their guests. But by the time everyone really got on and our vehicle started moving, my little glimpse out of the window somehow seemed to zoom at Mimiso, a Grade 2 girl there.
She was facing away from the van. I can’t describe what she was doing exactly, but it’s like those crying scenes when you see on dramas where you could only see half the face.
That’s when the Chinese words came in. I’m in a similar situation as those kids. They’ve foresee a problem at their hometown, they fled to somewhere else. Yes, my parents wanted to come to Singapore when they were afraid of the crisis. But if you compare both cases, the outcomes are very different. I’m lucky in the sense that I’ve got an identity, a nationality, yet those children who have lots of potential in them, they don’t. Instead, they’re called ‘illegal immigrants’, or ‘refugees’ when the locals had to name them ‘migrants’ only. So why can’t they be called the same too?
It’s very unfair that everyone is born to live with varying head starts. Some are fortunate; they get their silver spoon, or maybe they get to be cute and chubby. Perhaps, some take in just enough carbohydrates to keep them breathing, others don’t even live that long. Those kids never had much flesh. From what we eat with at least 3 dishes for lunch compared to theirs which was porridge for all three meals when I’m pretty sure their definition of ‘porridge’ very much differs from what we ate for breakfast in Mae Sot, it was rather obvious that the kids’ lives depended heavily on the carbos and laughter everyone brought about.
Then, I was admiring the way how strong those little ones were right in front of us. They knew we were leaving, similar to what might have happened to them a year earlier, yet they clung onto us whenever possible. What really gave me a smile deep from the heart was when the children were asking for our contact numbers. It’s true that they won’t have much chance to call us really, but it’s the optimism in them that struck me that day. The belief that they can build long-term friendship with us was too touching when urban people seldom do. In Singapore, people lose their friends because of their fear of not being accepted. Yet in the school, everyone was more concerned about accepting new guests and this was something I missed from the trip; their hospitality.
While I was giving my contact number to one of the older kids there, someone asked me if I would be going back to their school the following year. He was Hongteh, whom I thought he was the most athletic person around. Knowing that it would be impossible to leave with the major exam coming up next year, I was too quick to answer this, “two years later” with the amount of confidence I never gave before. But on the van, I realised I will be wrong when there’s ns for two years!
By then when I was reflecting this on the van I truly broke down; with those hopeful eyes wishing that we’ll be back to see them, I couldn’t believe I was giving them a false hope. All those games we played all those bonds we formed; they’d all be gone with a lie. What’s worse when the children there don’t have much time left at that school? Three years later almost half of them would leave for work, more likely I wouldn’t get the chance to meet them again…
The tear tap was on its maximum, regardless if my eyelids were even closed. The previous time I had so much tears was when my maternal granddad passed away while I was nine. I knew the guys on the last row must be staring at me, but their attention was much diverted to Shan when she started earlier. But when I began to question why both of us cried, it made me feel worse since I know that my fate would be completely different if there was any slight decision change by my parents. Had they not chosen this island here, I wouldn’t have known so many kind souls around. I might even be one of them with barely the hope of knowing things beyond my surroundings!
Jo gave me a pat when we stopped some time to see the Friendship Bridge. It seemed like he was forcing those droplets out further when all those memories somehow refreshed all over again, because I knew deep inside that no one else would understand that I was so close from losing everything. Yet out in the sun everything seemed to dry up. Maybe it’s also the peer pressure that everyone else might be seeing how embarrassed I’d be which closed the tap. Perhaps the funny flash that came to my mind that I’d be resembling those cartoon characters who are unaware of the obstacles on the road as they fall flat onto the ground digressed my teary moments.
Currently I’ve been keeping myself busy or real tired whenever possible to get my mind off the false hope or the Chinese words. But they never looked to leave me anytime soon when I don’t sleep well at night with lots of weird dreams. The last time I remembered having dreams at night was close to 4 months ago!
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Saturday 15 December 2007-)
+12/15/2007 02:01:00 am]*
Title: Ever Ever After-
Hey.
I've just realised how vulnerable we can be when we think of the words 'forever'. It's always good that we stay positive and allow our minds focus on the happier side of things, where we can remain cheerful and 'sing' for all we want, because that's when we evade from illnesses like depression. However, it is also true that we ought to know the limit one has before this elastic band snaps.
Just like the movie, Giselle was living in her own world of fantasies with fairy tales and lovey dovey songs filling her minds all the time. Her idea was that definitely, someone out there will know how she's feeling and come to be her love.
Yet, it was Robert who was trying to keep his lost friend sane in this realistic world. He was right when he spoke about relationships at the straight-forward viewpoint that many individuals would think today, which is that when the chemistry's gone it's time for separation.
I truly admire the way Robert sees things for that's when simplicity comes in. Keep a clear mind, and you'll find your happiness.
Indeed, happiness could come from Giselle too. Living in storybooks mean that she wouldn't need to bother the life problems that humans face daily, like fear of going hungry the next day, fear of losing their jobs soon, or maybe even fear of being backstabbed (or the more common word, 'b*tched') when many others show their appreciation for what you've done with a smile!
Anyway (after all the crap above), keeping hopes high even if things don't turn out the way we planned will make us be happy, rather than being ignorant to the problems around the world. More importantly, it's best that we all learn from our mistakes!!
Storybook endings, fairy tales coming true
Deep down inside we wanna believe they still do
And a secret is taught, it's our favorite part of the story
Let's just admit we all want to make it too
Ever ever after
If we just don't get it our own way
Ever ever after
It may only be a wish away
Start a new fashion, wear your heart on your sleeve
Sometimes you reach what's real just by making believe
Unafraid, unashamed
There is joy to be claimed in this world
You even might wind up being glad to be you
Ever ever after
Though the world will tell you its not smart
Ever ever after
The world can be yours if you let your heart
Believe in ever after
No wonder your heart feels its flying
Your head feels its spinning
Each happy ending's a brand new beginning
Let yourself be enchanted, you just might break through
To ever ever after
Forever could even start today
Ever ever after
Maybe its just one wish away
Your ever ever after
Ever, ever ever after
I've been dreaming of a true love's kiss
Oh forever ever after
That's the song in 'enchanted'. Truly, the movie was too hilarious! OH! Amy Adams was real superb!! So were the other casts too!!
~nights!! smile!! :D
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Thursday 13 December 2007-)
+12/13/2007 10:14:00 pm]*
Title: Maths Equation: Happy Vs. Emo-
Hey.
Have a look at this equation.
If Emo = Tired and Tired = No Happy,
Then Emo = No Happy, vice versa. i.e. No Emo = Happy
So, 0 = Emo – No Happy and 0 = Happy – No Emo
=> Happy – No Emo = Emo – No Happy
=> Happy + No Happy = Emo + No Emo
=> Happy (1 + No) = Emo (1 + No)
Therefore, Happy = Emo
Fine. It makes no sense at all, because I'm not in a mood to be sensible today, maybe for the rest of the month too!
Anyway, I think I'm real dead by now, for all the rush since this morning.
So, I went to Tiffanie's place to make up for the time when I couldn't go for a sleepover last night early, only to find that her bed and room and teddy bear were all so awesome!! Plus plus!! joash was so funny when his little-boy-like hugging of the teddy was right in front of me!! (:
Next, I didn't join the rest when they were supposed to go to the zoo and meet there...
Meanwhile, I was super duper late in meeting the mae sot group; close to an hour late!! Yet, 'surprisingly' I wasn't the last! Well, it's alright anyway, cos that's not the point. What was crazy was that I happened to bump those fellas who went for sleepover at ps! OH dang! how wierd to see them there!!
The day was meant for fun instead of strict work, so we spent tons of time doing nothing but on thinking what movie to watch, pooling, arcading, bowling, icecreaming. Yep, we didn't watch enchanted cos the seats just sulked. Along the way, it was quite cool to see Shan scoring the most amongst us all at bowling.
Anyway, kc was rather mad to anyhow associate me with things around me; like getting the same bag with jojo, similar colour shirt with grace... I'm still rolling my eyes when I think of it now. haha :)
Alright, last thing. I'm having boosebumps now after the problem was once again picked up ever since I dumped it long time ago. But I do know that it ought to be solved soon, so maybe it can be done pretty soon! (: Bless me that I do get help!! Pleaseeeeee!!
Ok, gotta say this again. Theodore's very cute!! (:
Oh No!! I just thought of hannah's smiley equation again. HAHAHA!! :D
Anyway, my unexpectedly new disc made me HAPPY!! really!! (:
~smile!
yup, so that's what happened (:
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+12/13/2007 12:24:00 am]*
Title: happier-
Hey
I feel very blessed by the little amount of rain that came today, cos it was so heavy for the past days and I was feeling moody too. Instead, the happy times I had today with the mawai people and also adam + jo-ash from kahang kinda washed off the sadness I’ve been experiencing since leaving those kids in Thailand. They were definitely funny and cool to talk to!!
Oh! Theodore was really cute, especially when Jesse McCartney voiced over it as they chimpunks sang altogether!!
~smile!
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Wednesday 12 December 2007-)
+12/12/2007 12:40:00 pm]*
Title: Playing with numbers (:-
Hey.
What do numbers mean?
395, 71265344, 380, 3515, 404, 409, 10, 54, 22, 06423
They mean something when explained, so why people can't? (:
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Tuesday 11 December 2007-)
+12/11/2007 01:59:00 pm]*
Title: Getting in order-
Hey...
That's how I put my warm fuzzzzzzies in sequence:
~Violet
~Elane
~Tim
~Jojo
~Shu Fei
~Marilyn
~Shan
~Grace
~Kc
~Teachers
Um. I've got this spark to blog this since shufei just sms-ed about it to everyone, and I thought it'd be better to remember this part of my life when someone else in the group has done it. So, why shouldn't I? By the way, the sequence above was who I was writing about since the last night in Thailand. As for the reason to this order?? It all came from my fire nature of randomness!! HAHA!! Of course not!! It's because I was thinking of the person just before writing to them. Yes! It sounds so scandalous!! Oh! Anyway, I felt I was a little unfair in the sense that I think I didn't fill some of my mates with LOTS of cheesy stuff than the others... but trust me, I STILL SOUND VERY HYPER IN ALL OF THEM!!!!!!
~smiles to all!!! :) :) :)
yup, so that's what happened (:
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+12/11/2007 10:02:00 am]*
Title: Breakfast!-
Hey!
I'm still dreaming of the breakfast over in mae sot. The atmosphere is something just like what you'll see in hk; you get served with cups of tea even before ordering, there's sugar in huge containers that you can make every drink of yours very sweet :), and the most incredible part, they try to serve everyone at the same time.
Well, there was the 'chok' as the locals call it. Yes, porridge. I have no idea then why I was repeating that word over and over again while at that shop, but now I do. Looking back, this word sounds weird. It's like canto with teochew... shoots! I got confused! haha :D Anyway, it was nice that it tasted between drinking porridge and eating glue for breakfast. But the ginger was crazy! They added so much that I was practically crying for most of the time!! Alright, they are good for the digestive system... haha :)
By the way, the soup noodle was fabulous! From first sight it seems like those japanese noodles that was close to transparent! Then the soup was also very clear! The amazing part is, they had ingredients which is close to extinction in Sg; things like internal organs... yes, they aren't healthy, but it's something new! HA! :D
Last thing, 'pak si you'. It's the Thai version of fried kuay tiao, except that there were more vegetables there. And!! There's lots of ingredients too!! (:
ps. I guess why this post is up since I'm trying to adapt back to the Singapore food, or maybe, breakfast. It's not as if I puked when eating this morning, but the pleasure of enjoying it wasn't there ;)
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Monday 10 December 2007-)
+12/10/2007 09:50:00 pm]*
Title: Compare: Sg vs Th-
I think I miss the sunny days with clear blue skies and the cool dark nights where there were shiny dots right above us, yet dry and dusty all over in Mae Sot. Compared to the rainy days and chilling yet dangerously looking nights I’ve experienced today, I never wished to leave yesterday.
The atmosphere today is also very different from the past week. I’ve been filled with lots of lovey dovey and peaceful feeling with no sense of unfriendliness since 6 days ago. On the other hand, I think there’s a lot of 弹药 when I was listening to the conversation today. Haha, but that’s good in the sense that it actually fills me in when I was absent for many days. There were insights to the guerrilla attacks and assassinations, which were rather entertaining at times. But my frequency needed to tune itself a little when the people today speak so much faster than those a few days earlier. But I think I’m much better now that I have learnt to speak up!
Anyway, when I remember more about the trip, I’ll have more!! (:
yup, so that's what happened (:
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+12/10/2007 09:51:00 am]*
Title: Reflect!-
其实我现在觉得几好玩,又有啲过隐,因为上星期去泰囯的旅程的确让我學了不少东西。再加上现在读了‘朋友仔’所写的字条,才发现自己在不知不觉中使人有多么不同的印象。不过,我总觉得我们不可能像以前一样,那么疯狂的。我最担心的是他日我这9位好朋友再也不会接受我这种另类又奇怪的性格,把那星期所有使人快乐的事情都给忘了。
Anyway, I realised something, fire type of people have a lot to talk about. Eg, me. When I opened them and saw the number of words in it, that’s when I got a little scared that I bored the rest with loads of crap. Then there were the no-nonsense lines that were so straight forward!! Haha, maybe I’ve wasted too much ink on writing!! (:
只希望自己的错觉都是错的…
~Smile though!!!! HAHAHA :D
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Sunday 9 December 2007-)
+12/09/2007 11:00:00 pm]*
Title: ocip-
Hey.
I don't think there's much I remember now when most of the ocip trip was noted in the reflection sheets which were given to mr and mrs leong.
But whatever that's not there will be here!!
OK! So, I loved the way mr n mrs leong did the reflections on different days. There were really new ideas in placed and I was rather impressed with that. Oh! There was the pair share on night 2, 'banana' group share on night 3, system essays on night 4, break for rehearsal on night 5 and hearing mrs leong "quarrel and fighting with mr leong and decided to give one question each (she sounded so serious at first that I believed it!! But she looked like she was laughing at me for my gullibility...) which was part of the post reflection and self-evaluation as they included the scenarios during the week on the night 6 (last one). And!! The warm fuzzies!! They weren't anything new, but the idea was definitely the most influential amongst all!
By the way, the air here was quite bad that I almost had sore throat on the first 3 days. Then subsequent days it was so bad that I had running nose till now! Um, the m*g**nt school had lots of sand and often, when people run over it, everywhere gets blur because of the sand!
Please bless Marilyn n shufei jie jie to get well after they weren't feeling too good these days.
Oh!! I seriously think our group are too lucky to be in this trip. I bet none of the other groups would have gone through like ours; as in, our programmes were only partly written in the schedule!!! We had additional things like visiting the local clinic, attending a movie screening about ZOA (they had a theme of 'do good, and speak about it') and also getting to know activists; those which just came by via coincidence. I'm rather sure that if Sondra knew that, she might want to come with us too!
Personally, I learnt from ultra-violent Violet and her Earth quality by being the guy slave-driver and time keeper every morning. BUT weirdly, this morning she almost died when all of us were ready to leave the hotel building while she just woke up! Apparently she was totally flat-dead since this morning, but really gotta thank her for teaching me about time-management overseas :)
Another person to thank must be Shan. If she didn't remind me to wake kc n co. up, they'd also been late. Now, here's the funny scene. Kc agreed with tim that he'd pick up my phone call as morning call. I called at 20 minutes late already, yet kc told me he slept again! Really, it's this little spark of Water quality that makes me think that I should care for my friends more often, especially in situations like this... I really can't imagine if I left them alone this morning!
The next is our driver. I don't know his name, but I was awake this morning to witness how he saved our butts along the roads. Despite the bumps, he was real daring and adventurous that he overtook trucks ahead swiftly even though it was a two-laned road while there were vehicles coming in the opposite direction. He also tried his very best to avoid the humps from the poorly repaired bitumen roads. The way he swerved, the way we zoomed... Knowing that we are all safe now shows that he really deserved all the praise I'm giving him now. I think seeing him every morning and greeting him with smiles by all of us really did make him believe that we do trust him. One more thing about him is that he seemed to know every single road in Thailand when he could almost drive to any place around our hotel, especially when he mostly work in Bangkok! He's just too awesome!
There's no one else left, just that I truly admired the way those kids wanted to take my number and asking when I'd be back to visit them. I want to asap, but it's very obvious that I can't for at least 3 years! sigh... I guess I'll have to stop feeling the drops of water in my eyes now, 'cause I told them I might visit them 2 years later! NOOO!! I'm going to break my promise!!
Help me get over with my problem soon, since it started yesterday already!
~smiles! (:
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Sunday 2 December 2007-)
+12/02/2007 05:43:00 pm]*
Title: Nope!!-
Hey!
I don’t like the way life’s going on currently.
Everyone with smiles seemed to have left since yesterday; yes, my relatives flew, so did the smiles on daddy n mummy’s face. Maybe those were fake ones after all, especially when mum was asking me this, ‘did you miss them?’ I replied, ‘as long as I spent every second well.’ I do know that it’s such a foolish textbook answer, but indeed, most of the time I was smiling when they were here, and most of it came from the heart.
Yet, I’m very upset at the way I’m behaving. I’m living in this selfish world that cared no one’s feelings. Maybe that’s why I got daddy mad last night. I wished I could be better.
Alright, last thing. All I see is merely pictures with smiles posing for the cameras. Some shots might be really feeling happy inside, which are good, some aren’t. I don’t like that, but I do love the pose that she did.
SMILES!! (:
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Saturday 1 December 2007-)
+12/01/2007 11:59:00 pm]*
Title: World AIDS Day-
Hey!
Today's World AIDS Day.
Always
Initiate,
Do
Social work.
To everyone on earth, SMILE!! (:
yup, so that's what happened (:
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+12/01/2007 01:26:00 am]*
Title: Replies-
HEY!!
I knew it!! If you read the thanksgiving post well, the first was "thanks to radio disney". HAHAHAHA!!
Then st mary's is at bukit batok.
Recently I realised that there are so many ways to describe things. Especially those crude ones, they can also be told in a nicer codey way. That's why I super duper love my aunts!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3
Smile!!! cos it's the nicest thing to see... :)
yup, so that's what happened (:
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+12/01/2007 12:37:00 am]*
Title: Frustration-
Planning means talking crap without action.
I never wanted to say this, but it's just too tiring to keep it.
Smile anyway!!!! (:
yup, so that's what happened (:
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