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(Wednesday 31 October 2007-)
+10/31/2007 09:36:00 pm]*
Title: Crap?-
Hey.
it's quite tempting to slack off for other stuff. like playing and stuff. but here's something strange. i tried to open the file, it gave an error message. shoots! always thought of avoiding lizzy and cbelle, turned out destroying my entertainment here on the com. now i guess it's gone.
then i almost die-ded when the four of us walked from school all the way to novena while hearing the two less taller ones scream with all sorts of stuff behind us. gosh, then kj n i were struggling with staying awake. yes, save us!
thank God to bless a loving couple. :D
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Tuesday 30 October 2007-)
+10/30/2007 09:33:00 pm]*
Title: Irritated!-
Hello
Had a double blow. Morning see kris, night see dad. I'm real sorry to say this. but both have common stuff. loudhalers, they just bark before they speak any relevant point. randomly assume, these two fellas always think others will have some incredibles powers to read their mind before i show my frustration with this, 'what you mean?' or 'huh?'. the worst part. both give non-sensical leader-like comments.
Yep, that's all. Please bless them that they'd alter if they are going to be seen as normal by others. and yes, they are not now.
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Monday 29 October 2007-)
+10/29/2007 11:57:00 pm]*
Title: Please-
Please tell me that you are not tempting me.
How i wished you would be...
Anyway, i do not wish to say this, about what file that thing is. but i wish to say that i'm actually three months behind!! Yes, something like living in history. About one month to catch up for what i missed. how dearly.
So far, what i've been going through means that i'm going to land into accident soon. if you realised smth abt some prev post... anw, things are telling me that my life is getting gloomier every single day.
It's all the more that the feeling of 不甘心 that is still in the mind. dunno why, but i do feel this way all the time. please Lord, clear my brain. i feel that i'm getting out of control.
erm, i think i'm speaking to the four walls here. something that no one knows. cuz it's no longer safe here. wish that this place could be my place for some rest.
Ok! i'm in a little mood for this - i wish i was popular, then or maybe i could be cool to see a bunch of people interested in football when we see jamie reeves on our cheena exam day!!
(: yeah, really smile!!! (:
yup, so that's what happened (:
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+10/29/2007 10:55:00 pm]*
Title: By chance, Know the Actors' Syndrome-
Hey.
It's something like once in a milliion years whereby some passages of chunks of words that you so dearly want to view about the writing style or the content which makes you wanna re-think about what you have previously visualised it. Or perhaps, they just happen because of some screw ups here and there on the net and even the author doesn't know that the restricted articles are available online. Who knows?
Anyway, I love studying people. The different sides on different occasions. Maybe, the time you see this person now will be different to the next time you see the same person. There's this wierd feeling to try and find out what changes this. Over time, this feeling turns into a habit which makes it so normal to start staring into these characters.
Prolly, that's what you call an actors' syndrome. No idea completely, but I thought it's turning obvious when someone said that pictures are so different in different scenes!
Either way, be glad that momma cleared things up. But actually, of all the loads of words I heard over the entire convo, only two words shut me up. ___'_ _________. yep. That's all I want to say.
Terence!! control with the file!! don't let it kill you!!
Okaye! Smile everyone!! (:
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Sunday 28 October 2007-)
+10/28/2007 09:00:00 pm]*
Title: Tragedy-
Hey.
I witnessed an accident today. It was in the situation where two vehicles clashed in a tight road. Gruesome sight.
I didn't bother to care about the casualties there, but that's when I began to think more about life.
In a weird world called love, it is somewhat similar to a two-laned road. As the name suggests, there is no room for one way traffic, or the other parties cannot get to their wanted destination; if one side starts to get a little demanding and decides to occupy the centre of the two lanes, everyone going the opposite direction must reverse or risk being banged. In the end, crash. Yes, all will suffer. Maybe, the other car might be a lovey dovey couple and this caused the cupid-blessed pair to perish?
Anyway, maybe that's a symbol of me being emo. um, yes. Still, I have no idea what emo defines as... Answers anyone?? (:
So, I have this soft copy here with me. Yet, the fear of receiving this curse which is, another tragedy, happening in front of me never fails to leave me.
I think I know what to do. Go into the exam hall with an empty mind. Try to even if anything goes haywired. Then regurgitate whatever the script wants me to do in shorter time. Followed by listening to what momma has to say. Yes, he said he was going to talk to us in some serious tone.
But, please pardon me. Really, I'm not in any mood to do anything until the file is opened. And, it will only be opened until Thursday. Hope I do put up a good act when I listen tomorrow!
Sorry, I do need a clear mind.
Even if I can't smile, hope the world does!! (:Labels: smiles?
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Friday 26 October 2007-)
+10/26/2007 11:59:00 pm]*
Title: Scientific Research-
Hey.
Lately, I've been in this state of mind that since I won't foil one's plans, I'm considering to observe this creature instead.
This animal, loves to get closer to its mate when the year is ending in search for the happy ending by mating in foreign land. This is because, due to experts' prediction, to allow both creatures to be unfamiliar with the new grounds and as a result, won't consider all the problems that might arise during this mating season.
Another is that the males will break up from their own groups formed formerly in order to put all their efforts into the attraction of the female species. This is also why during this period of time you will find them swimming in random directions underwater and most probably also the reason that scientists have yet to locate each of the creature individually, even when the population is the highest to be found at this time.
They swim extremely fast at close to 40 km/h. Reason is still unknown to date, but there was suggestions that due to their vulnerability against viruses which can be found on many creatures in the sea and birds, they have been trained naturally to escape from them within their shortest possible time. The entire species undergo Natural Selection, a process whereby the character that supports the species longest like isolating itself at certain parts of the year will remain in the species for the longest time.
For example, the species might produce several sorts of characters; soft ones or strong-willed ones. Then when the softer character will cause the males unable to reach its goal if it allows others to take advantage of them, so the stronger characters will take over and cause them to act according to what is needed. The weaker character might still be present in them, but if it sustains, this soft character will perish.
Besides, they have unique appetite and eating habits. The females are able to feed themselves with jellyfish with their precision in preying on them, however, the males are poorer in searching for food. This makes them more likely to feed on what the females have brought for them. Instead, they tend to protect the females by helping them to remove the parasites and viruses on them. The reason has yet to be confirmed, but it is believed that the males try to attract their mates of the opposite sex to agree on their wish to be spouse with them or probably to re-pay for the food the females provide.
There is insufficient information about what happens after both sexes mate. However, the stronger males have been seen to be piggy-backing his mate while both of them leave the thick blue ocean for shelter in the corals instead.
oh! what is above is merely for records of what i have found through observation. definitely not to be used as scientific evidence. if there's more findings, this blog shall have more!
smiles!! (:
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Thursday 25 October 2007-)
+10/25/2007 10:51:00 pm]*
Title: Warning-
HEY IDIOT, YOU ARE ACTING VERY WEIRD AND WE ALL ARE DISAPPOINTED WITH YOU. LOVE IS NOT ABOUT PUTTING ON A MASK AND SHOW THE SIDE YOU WANT TO SHOW TO YOUR PARTNER. THAT'S FAKE! PLEASE REFLECT BEFORE I ACKNOWLEDGE YOU PUBLICLY. I MEAN IT. APPALLING!
Check Liselle's blog for more
Maybe, KJ's one will do too!
Bet they feel the way i do, just that i'm a little fury about that. grrr!!!
yup, so that's what happened (:
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+10/25/2007 07:54:00 pm]*
Title: Fear-
You Are An ENFP |
The Inspirer You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends.You are also unconventional, irreverent, and unimpressed by authority and rules.Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives.You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're quite the storyteller! In love, you are quite the charmer. And you are definitely willing to risk your heart.You often don't follow through with your flirting or professed feelings. And you do break a lot of hearts. At work, you are driven but not a workaholic. You just always seem to enjoy what you do.You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist. How you see yourself: compassionate, unselfish, and understanding When other people don't get you, they see you as: gushy, emotional, and unfocused |
Hey.
Just saw denis' blog and took this fun test. well, not what i think about myself. but actually just a taste of playing these random surveys again. seemed a little mysterious at first. yep. it isn't that true i guess, but i'm trying to take it as my character test or smth. here's worse, i read this horoscope thingy from an email.
S c o r p i o Oct 23 - Nov 21
SCORPIO MAN
A man with foggy clouds over him. He is sensitive and easily hurt and always feels lonely. He does not trust anyone but himself. Sounding so negative, but he has an amazingly charisma. He is a compassionate man. He absorbs other people sentimental feeling and pain.
He is a good psychiatrist and he could understand complex and confused feeling. He has a hidden power that he could use it to make things happen and do things well. He does not like people who never try to help themselves before asking other people for favors. He is the type of guy who mostly achieved his goal in life. Once he sets his mind for something, he will put all his energy and efforts in it, whether or not it is a small matter or a big project. One of the most successful man in all the Zodiac.
He is a very patient man and can waits for years to reach his goal. He hates thin feeling and weak determinations. He can not retreat or rest for long, for he thinks life has more questions and more answer to be searched.
If he is in love, you will get plenty of love from him, sometimes may be too much than you have asked for. He is serious about love and relationship and will not waste time with someone he does not love whether how pretty she is.
He hardly makes mistake. He could tell if you have any bad thought, and will not hesitate to tell you so. If you do not like straight forward sincere man, then pack your bag now. If you are an over sensitive person, try not to ask for his comments. He will tell you the truth; even you might not be able to take it. Example, if you ask him if you are fat (and you are fat), he will say "yes, as big as a balloon". He makes such comments because he cares for you, so do something about your weight and do not get up set with him.
If he says "you look pretty today", you can be proud because he will not say such think just to please you if he does not really mean it. There will be both kind of people, those who like him and those who hate him. If you are in love this guy, be strong and belief in your decision, do not be vulnerable. He remembers all his anger and will wait for his pay back time.
He is very serious about your promise; do not promise something you could not keep. He loves his friends and will do anything for his close friends. He likes you to take care of him, but not in front of his friend. He is a complex man and you will never understand what he means if you do not really know him. He is happy to know he is a complex figure. When he is thinking or when he needs his privacy, you should give him some space.
He memorize everything well. You may say something that you already forgotten, but he will remember every words. He wants to be respected and admired and at the same time he does not like people to have power over him.
When he falls in love, he really falls deep. A man in this Zodiac once in love, he will be sweeter than sugar. He does not like a plain and simple woman. A complex woman's mind is his venture. Always be interesting and able to talk to him about every things in any subjects. He does not like a woman who sits around waiting for his call.
What this part did was merely gave me a bloody shock of myself. i mean, i was never someone influential or with such weirdo charisma or anything like this. or maybe, my mind's still in the state of ltc where i was always admiring the strenths of everyone in amoeba group. Yet, some parts are quite right. prolly it's the failure to accept what is given to me. anyway, i've realised this:
A person gets emo when fatigue arrives and the brain cannot process emotions logically by thinking all sorts of funny feelings and jumbling them all up, causing mixed scenes in the mind.
Alright, enough of crap. Wish that those in ocip can get well. very sad to see so many people falling ill.
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Wednesday 24 October 2007-)
+10/24/2007 09:52:00 pm]*
Title: lovey dovey song 3-
Song by Janice - Chocolate Ice
Bring me to the sea of sugar and spice,
reminiscing through some chocolate ice.
Tick tock, take time to be gentle and kind.
You sweat cause you run and run all day in my mind...
Fly to the moon and the sun
and let's go have some fun.
Come and take my hand and free our soul again...
Fly to the moon and the sun
and let's go have some fun.
It's 123. my love is plain to see.
What i do for you, baby, do for me..
Let me serenade your soul when you're feeling down and low.
Let the music come alive; let tenderness arrive.
Let me serenade your soul when you're feeling down and low.
Boy (Girl), you make me feel so high... together we can fly. (:Labels: smiles, song
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Tuesday 23 October 2007-)
+10/23/2007 10:45:00 pm]*
Title: Surprise-
Hey.
it's been quite a norm to be late for school lately. today? perfect way to give the high spirit. i mean, absolutely. especially when there's NO teacher on duty to catch us. yes! saw xavier at the stairway too. late altogether! some more we're the first time sehh.. cool right? on the last day of school with assembly! seeing two fellas hide at stairs, thinking they're late when they are not!! fine. i'm confused with myself too, but you get my point.
reported to ms lee, flukely got away with it peacefully. c'mon. i rock! (:
for whichever reason, went up to class quite late, finding that there's cheeeeeesecake on my desk already. stunned. i mean, just didn't know how to react. there's actually full of feelings in my mind. here's how it went... omf! (thought of jumping as if there wasn't any ceiling at all...), but... don't over-react! don't break things in school!! or scream my weak lungs out, but no! noise pollution! maybe, start running around the class and hug everyone as if i've won nobel prize straight away. but, no clumsy elephants allowed sign was already in my mind...
before anything i noticed, there was tons of food around. food food food! the lovely cake by all of them, donut by letty, cheese cubes by someone, the little white chic choc i brought, cheese biscuits by t14 and also some snacks from their hamper for the best home class. bet that they must be thinking that i need to gobble food to grow into a hot hunk. well, i'll try to be one if i can, so i'll... ... STOP DREAMING!! hahaha (:
for the lovely cake, smashing cake on me was wasted la. should eat right? yet sash slammed it on me. funny fella. hilarious scene. wth. farny!!! oops! maybe not all in the class got the cake, but hoped they got my love for them. love telegraph.. HAHAHA :D
then, the touched feeling with smiles and those usual words don't seem like cliches anymore. the smiles people gave was real contagious. while i was still in the mood of dilemma of being happily mad or care if my frens cared for my behaviour, i thought i wasn't a good receiver. the smile i returned was plain. perhaps not the most politeful replies of all time, but wish that they somehow understood. in the end, i got a little high.
next were the handshakes from people. seemed so formal! but it's actually fine. rather than to see people dance around me or play pranks on me. it'd've been disastrous. ANYWAY, the shakes made it seem as if i must get a mini-shock like passing current through me like that. ::bzz::!! (: HAHAHA!!
um... actually, i thought that some presents were~ VERY unique. in fact, i didn't dare to open them - thinking that they must be some funny stuff; saw some yellow stuff. i have no idea whose is that from, but it kinda left me speechless after pulling it out a little. yep, that's it. Also! a stolen resident evil card with a short and sweet message. then another cute little pouch wrapper which could have been dropped out anytime with my clumsiness in carrying things. BUT, it's in safe hands. the last one, this person must have been taking art and crafts lesson lightly, or maybe, learning physics super duper well siaz. i don't know how to describe; paper bag made from metro which was completely original (~prolly a little design would work) but the handle, also from another piece of paper, was so tough that it never got a chance to break la! and, the shape resembles one for which bimbs wear. HAHAHA!! (:
anyway, digressing a little from that. loved that the fsv showed the cny performance. seeing alex, sherwin n gabriel tiggery was so funny!! then later in the canteen, got the shock of my fragile lifee. serious. i was buying drinks for myself n yuhao, then suddenly a school attendant cut the queue and asked me to buy for something. ok, so i did. then later for some wierdo reason, she stuffed 80cents into my shirt pocket. goodness! made us look like some illegal actions going on or smth. sigh. in the end, this fear lasted till i missed yuhao's drink. erm, it still haunts me.
oh! lessons were super fun. esp making fun of yuhao n shaine
but the greatest entertainment was the dinner. short and sweet it may seem, the whispers we shared excluding momma was rather interesting. one good thing, i won't ask anymore questions. just place my bets. (:
my feelings also goes out to josh for vomiting in canteen. in fact, the first thing i thought was serious trouble. pessimistic, but wish him well. (:
thank you all for the wishes.
the celebrations: lselle, matt da momma, cbelle, kj virus
present(donut): letty twin!! real one! (:
sms-es: minhang, wanyu, smarty james, jojo, jaslyn, guinevere, emily, tim da prop guy
friendster: philip, guishuen, peimin, brian, eugene, terrie twin!! (~by name), meiling, yk, seekei, kj, llewelyn
tags here: matt, cbelle
wishing out loud: chocolatey clare, gab n mandy, tiff, martin, carmen, elane, marilyn, isaac
msn: shuanne, sylvia, nat, satiya
great to find that people like jaslyn, sylvia n sat whose connection lost nowadays rebuilding it. (:
just talked to sat on msn. the feeling of studying hard yet screwing up for exams sucks. i know there's nothing i can do. but hope that i can be a listening ear to him. release his pressure maybe.
there might be some people whom i missed mentioning here. but i still loved the many things done which
(1) wished me, or kinda wished me
(2) made me happy (: oh!! new ec!!
(3) made me smarter! ::ting!!::
smiles! <3
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Monday 22 October 2007-)
+10/22/2007 11:36:00 pm]*
Title: Fun!-
Hey.
loved the way some things were these days.
there was the baking cupcakes session yest at shufei's aunt's place. nice place in fact... found that we could be lively even with four people. all cuz of jojo. haha :D he can think of random stuff all the time. best part is that, he could re-use those old jokes and stuff to regenerate the new ones for other groups of people. yup, super amazing!
then the selling of our products. it was full of laughter for all of us when we gotta put up a smile, even if we do not know the person at all or partly, and this made all of us feel the love by everyone involved.
perhaps it's bcuz of the way we think. we tend to see the best possible image of others when we meet for the first time. yes, that's what you call first impression. yet, when we know the other person inside out completely, we start to discover the bad sides of them. we don't like that. we hate that. thinking that we should discard this type of friend away. it's not the ideal one you hope for.
then, think again. why not think of the faults that we see in ourselves? perhaps we are much worse than our neighbours. character-wise or maybe even the attitude. haven't others tried over billions of times with millions of reasons to persuade themselves that you are not bad after all? haven't they thought of disliking you when they saw you immediately? don't you think that your perception is very shallow to believe what you imagine? why not try and accept that person you know? it might be a brand new start for friendships to be born.
be thankful to everyone around you. especially God. everything's in place when you feel the present. and He hoped that you'll act the way to serve others. only to find that we are offending Him all the time with our selfish thoughts or playful minds, without thinking that we might hurt others along the way. spiking was never a way He wanted us to be. just that we always find a way to spike anyone we dislike.
break that problem. let no hatred feeling for your friends. that's when you start to have dreams come true. (:
then there was this house warming yest at nat's place. some ppl asked me about it, then one fella didn't tell me what happened after i left. sigh. the same problem of diving my frail self into a million places. or 3 actually. ya. but, oh my! the food was one of the best catering i ate so far! you'd guessed it right? those usually suck. but it's gooody! and also the tennis game on x box. see kei sucked at it. i gotta be honest with it. sigh, hahahaha!!
wished that the flower given to denis can slightly make her feel betta, cuz i don't think she feels any happy when she walked past my class today. yeap, wishherwell! but thank goodness, she's got her new aim in life. that's smth good!
hoped bin made through. i don't know what he'd be doing, but i thought i was super inconsiderate to make all kinds of fun things when he's trying to smile a little. sorry, i'll support you! if you need any help, like being a tyrant to anybody in school -.-''' cheerup dude!! (:
BE FUN!!NY!! (:
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Saturday 20 October 2007-)
+10/20/2007 10:49:00 pm]*
Title: Rrefreshed!-
Hey
I have this feeling of not attending to what that f*-er said. So, that's besides the point for the day... YES!
baking at marilyn's house was awesome! (: didn't know how or when, there's always random dumb acts by all of us which made the day so comical... :D and, thankfully the girls actually called us into their world of convo, or tim n i will just stand by the edge of the window. alright, exaggeration -.-''' then there's some bored moments too, only to find that we ended up playing cards. yup, that's what happened (~how boring... ::yawns::) but it's super cool to see people like marilyn, elane n shan to talk n talk n talk... and, ya... tv serials was kinda hit topic huh? um... i could join in for short time only, for knowing bit of the little bit i know about these... anyway, my hands are still abit like the sugary scent, floury touch, funny butter aroma, chocolate taste, vanilla essence. amazing right? now... like after 5 hours still have all these. haha!!! :D
anyway, loved the way life was today. yupz!! (:
just now, went to some place for buf din. yes, called EliSH too. um... actually not in a mood to voice all my opinion out, so listened more. and saw more. found this... she's actually quite pretty and has a little hot body shape except for some gloomy face. so one day, i'll ask her to come to cj! yay!! (:
um.. was thinking **** for many cases today. as in for everything i saw linked this way. one way or another. sigh.. hahahahaha!! :D
oh yes, marilyn said this, "next time you can make cookie for your girlfriend..." while trying to like persuade me to mix the ingredients in the bowl. hmm... i wonder...HEY!! DON'T BE NAUGHTY terence k!!
playing with food..
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Thursday 18 October 2007-)
+10/18/2007 09:17:00 pm]*
Title: suddenly-
Hey.
currently i'm kinda anti-publishing for whateva reason instead, more of reading. i'm actually inspired by what hannah said. or rather, what she said were the oh, i didn't think of that! sorts which naturally gave me a smile and released some pressure off the work i was doing...
one of her lines
if you like a girl, but is afraid of rejection, then you are not a man
ya, it was what i wanted to tell my classmates who ARE STILL pondering. but i forgot how to.
so, i'll leave this post here for a short while. until i'm tired of this, disgracing myself with aimless posts.
When there was a time,
I hoped that I'd find
the smiles in your eyes
before we said a 'hi'.
For long we've never met.
Maybe, even sat
closely beside you;
love everything you do.
Tell me all your secrets, dear.
You can whisper in my ear
and everything that I will hear
can do nothing but to wipe away all your tears
If you give me that one chance
ask you out for just one dance.
I can show you,
my love will always be true.
For the time I spent with you,
wished that I could be your glue.
Thinking when i did smile,
it must be all because of... only you.
ok, i'm trying to adopt a new blogging style and blending with some old ones. in all, mixture of those which are interesting and capable for a noob like me. yes.
Thanks for liselle n co. for their interview which made me think hard about myself on the spot. really, questions were insightful. (: results don't matter actually, it's just the process of displaying my capabilities that was fun. what's more important was to see a smile on any of your faces deep inside - i did see that.
P.S. SOME WORDS WILL BE CUT, DAY BY DAY... (:
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Sunday 14 October 2007-)
+10/14/2007 03:40:00 pm]*
Title: Scared-
Hey.
I'm scared. not really scared, but it's more of a worry from promos. it's like.. most of my close friends are gonna leave this class, some even leaving the school. i know it's bcuz of their combi that they wanna change classes, maybe results requirement to transfer school (-perhaps more reasons...), yet i'm having this paranoia that i won't adapt to the new environment. and, yes. what happened in primary school made me feel this way.
i was kinda close to people like sean, keith, arif, guan hua, jeff, dawn, siobhan... ... centuries ago and the following year, all spread their wings and flapped off to different schools. some i don't even know where they've gone to. maybe there weren't phones then, so i couldn't really like chat with them now and then.. and now, i'm just thinking that they might feel abit odd for someone whom they don't know and can talk so friendly as if they've known for ages.
so now, i'm afraid. i wish no one would leave this place. the place where we all shared our joys and fun in. the more i think of this, the more i'm convincing myself that my life would turn bad next year. you might wanna tell me that oh, you'll meet new friends! but the way we all have written a meaningful chapter in our lives gives us the hint that we should extent this chapter to its fullest. yet, that's beyond our control.
imagine everyone turn cold towards each other the next time we meet. it seems sad; the bond we made tore apart by time...
ok, i'm bored with being so emo with all the stupid language i'm using. so to cut it short, please pray hard for yourselves that you'll pass this promos - flying colours, scraped thru... whichever!! bcuz i will pray for you guys!! (:
unless...
1. you wanna leave bcoz i'm such a bad influence and a GREAT one that you think it's much safer to stay away from me
OR
2. you've been cursing me so badly these days, yet you find the voodoo dolls are already useless and believe that you'll save your time on cursing on someone else instead
OR
3. you think i'm gonna be someone powerful next year and you don't wish to play the suck up game while insisting that you'll more likely to be successful in somewhere else
OR
4. you have this mindset that i'm gonna be so evil to out speak you all the time and humiliate you whenever i see you
OR
5. you think that you are so worthless to see me anymore
OR
6. you believe that seeing me is like seeing someone SO amazing that you feel like chopping yourself into a million pieces... all by yourself
OR
7. you think that i will trap you behind the doors of staircase 6 and bash you up as if you've put on some thick make-up before a rehearsal
OR
8. you visualise yourself as someone who's mentally ill and thinks that this doctor who's writing all these crap will kill you instantly
OR
9. you see me as someone who will give you 'sudden death' whenever you do a mistake
OR
10. you feel despised to read what i'm writing now
p.s. any condition mentioned above are just to boost morales of my saddddddd frenzzzzy... if there are any reasons not mentioned, please TAGgrrr!!
i don't know why or how... is this what you call mood swing??
oh! realised it's not really short after all!!
fine! -.-''' weirdo terence... haha (:
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Saturday 13 October 2007-)
+10/13/2007 10:50:00 pm]*
Title: smile!!-
Hey.
Terence feels happy! (:
um.. i dunno why, but sleeping for almost the whole day just makes everything coooolll!!! yupz. then after hours of dream... (-exaggeration) it's like whatever happened before are all forgotten! yay!! (: everything seems so happy and hopeful!! haha :D
best is listening to music. the downtown song just rocks my world now... ::boom::!! hahaha :D just thought that this means freedom. haha :D i'm not making any sense, but WHO CARES!!?? :))
btw, i've cleared some lame games on my phone.. credit to ME!! yay!! whichever csi thing.. SO, i can save space for sumfing else!! hahahahahahahhahahaha :D !! plus pointz!! (:
oh!! rem that there's tons of games, most that were *&^%$#@!! who'd thought of them!! prolly that's why we took more than 2.5 hours i guess...
::gasps:: now that's hard to breathe!!
Hahaha, but.. i'm sleepy now.. again!! :D
nights!! (:
wish all for sweet dreams!! (:
yup, so that's what happened (:
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+10/13/2007 09:57:00 am]*
Title: Wasted-
Hey
i didn't enjoy the open house yesterday. i was so tired that my enthu lasted like... 5mins?? should be.. anw, this stupid feeling dragged me towards being anti-social. or perhaps, useless in the promotion of the sch. ya.
then out of nowhere finding myself running out from the weirdest group of crowds... and, saw that left that ...little sister/ girlfriend/ pal/ partner (whichever!!)... for the day off to somewhere else. feel so sorry for her :-o "sorry jie jie" hahaha!! :D ... looking back, thought i should have been frank about this. so that others would leave me alone. yet, the entire coordination of everyone in our group was kinda in chaos. or at least, i felt.
don't tell me i'm pessimistic. but i'm the type where i tend to fill the gaps, and in this case, everyone were busy ahead with the displaying of their talents that made the booth a complete waste. i mean, there was no need for the second board, 3 other chairs... so on. when people asked about us.. there's this sense that everyone would stare at each other before answering.
fine. we didn't talk about our booth in the end, cuz we had nothing to say. then almost every performer got distracted by fin. even so, i thought that bev shouldn't let go of her anger straight away. and, hello! she might affect others.!! it's not the matter of whose mood was carried away by the way...
one nice thing was the varied outfits, despite some odd ones, ya. or maybe, the whacks on the shuttle made my life abit better..
oh!! i've got this formula for this year's people...
hockey = pretty
dance = hot
drama = cute
volleyball = mixed of all...
ps.. don't me wrong... ya!!
so, i thought i could asked tiff what happened. it seems that there were horrid things. perhaps that's a good sign, at least those who gave her trouble most prolly won't even consider this sch. oh btw, i bet no one likes them too.
lastly, wished that wanyu can get over with that soon. please let her know that there're so many friends in the world who are having the same problem.. or similar ones.
btw, gotta admire the way people can stay at mad jacks and wait for 30 mins before ordering, then leave that place in 2.5 hours later.. marvy!! haha :D
try to smile world!! (:
BECAUSE YOU ARE GOD'S GREATEST GIFT TO MANKIND.Labels: #$%^, backstab, complains, concentrate?, emo, events, play, reflection, wishyawell
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Thursday 11 October 2007-)
+10/11/2007 10:09:00 pm]*
Title: Swing-
Hey.
it's getting close. it's that i don't like the way things are now. everything's becoming hanging in mid air. and, btw... i'm not giving any crap to kris for this attitude he gives presently. and.. hello!! it's op and the content he's still trying to craft everything nicely as if his damn idea is definitely the best and that it'll keep the audience entertained while presenting them. this fella simply doesn't gives time and place for everyone to think about the group plan. what's more? this one isn't written stuff!!
fine. i'll save my energy to do work. anw, the teachers are giving hello with their frowns. then there're some who are even more saddistic. give semi results. wth! then act as if it's so mysterious. omfg. worse part, their pretending skills are shit. absolutely. and it's always the way of leaking abit that was irritating. that's when i was thinking out loud in class today.. it's disturbing. i'd rather they say nothing. what she's doing is to give us some mental preparation i suppose.. -.-''' (~ ya, i'm sure..) or she could've just told us straight away, save us the trouble of thinking of the trashes while not at work...
ok, forget exams. currently i'm in a 15-16 situation where i cannot concentrate properly. i know i should focus on the open house tmr, yet i'm just so tired mentally such that i'm feeling the voices at my ears about some people in school. alright, some include... i don't know why you sweat while bypassing her? or shut up as if there's superglue stuck to your mouth? or the most realistic one, why not look for another person to stare at?? or maybe, why your tastes are so random??... ... it'll never end. but what i'm trying to say is, no one should ever stay up till 2 when there's school the next day. for me, thanks to chris =.='''
sorry for this super duper extreme emo post...
Anyway, who'd give a darn for someone who's subconscious right?? (:
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Wednesday 10 October 2007-)
+10/10/2007 09:34:00 pm]*
Title: Ups and downs-
I'M FREAKING pissed. the so many troubles today was totally f-ed up.
completely sad about the possible results.
blardy maths saw miss lee shook her head
physics meant that screwed mcq plus cocked up short answers...
econs said that good attempt for question didn't mean good answers
chem hinted that some parts might pull me down.
thank God that there's some balance to life.
the alphonsus physics lecturer was freaking hilarious!
where we ended up laughing at all his clips and stories.
then gab was giving this comment...
imagine how nice to speak of that if they hear it...
BUT it's crazily funny!!
weirdly, it continued with rush hour..
good thing it was with purpose..
cjc -> ica -> smu -> cjc
terence was mad.
anw, felt i was abit bad to respond to mr leong this sloppy way.
still, fun race though.
at smu/ learnt the mini game in the seminar.
it was kinda inspiring for me that it's somehow similar to the cheating stick pyramid lis n gang were playing.
yeap. i'm still thinking of the sure win theory in that game. ya.
life ended crappy like shit.
in fact shouldn't have gone to novena.
i'd rather followed fin to lib than face this purposeless gathering.
unless... the smiles we shared before cuiyi n tiff left la.
still, i seemed like 劳隶兽 (cantonese language...)then..
after that. disaster.
FORGET IT. WHO GIVES A DANG!??
MY LANGUAGE WILL JUST TURN MORE VIOLENT..
ok.. i think i should start remembering birthdays. but so far it's kinda easy. yeap.! (:
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Tuesday 9 October 2007-)
+10/09/2007 09:29:00 pm]*
Title: while in love-
When you're in love,
You'll look over your left shoulder.
Umchio... (~it means like abit of hiding your smile...) and smile to yourself...
When you're in love,
You'll look over your right shoulder.
Smile sweetly and exclaim something...
Hey!
No worries... I'm not that mad to think of such predictions or poems maybe?
But anyway, matt or kj would understand..
So... I kinda like this group of people. it's like there's a mix of everything amongst us.
Just one thing, I think we're still abit too cold.
btw, realised that things can be so easily remembered if they're linked up.
and... mandy's overly high tone on msn was so funny!! but the amoeba pics are SO cool! (:
smiles!!
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Monday 8 October 2007-)
+10/08/2007 09:04:00 pm]*
Title: fishing-
i hate be a bother but i gotta say.
this world's getting crazier with everyday...
sometimes, it's best to know a little of something rather than knowing one great thing in detail. yes, it's like with that little impression you get always seems good. or perhaps, the best at least. but, as time goes by, more and more of the bad side in your great thing floats in while the little knowledge slowly fades away. cuz it's when you know more of the bad side attitudes change. the more they uncover themselves the deeper you know. yet the times when the lock is still intact there's this belief that there's a tiny step more to knowing the reality. before you know it, a thousand miles begin with a small step. while fishing, there's this tendency to toss the hook to the furthest when there's no dumb fish would want to come close to the bank for this tiny little bait while fighting with hundreds of enemies for the same prize. yet, imagine if the hook reaches so far that the strongest creatures of the sea could drag you off the comfortable shore you were previously sitting on under the warm lovely sun. still, no one fishes for a whale at shore. now start thinking about the trouble you need - releasing yourself from this entangled line of problem, saving yourself from the potential poachers who might be nearby and tear your flesh and soul apart, then regaining your confidence and composure to swim your butt back to shore. only to find that everything that happened was merely a dream. everything's all square. this so-called adventure seems fun, but thinking of the tons to be done? is it really worth trying? you should think for yourself. either to go ahead with what you were thinking and be thick-skinned for once or leave things as it is... i'm confused.
just i am now with the convo with gabby...
if only i knew some answers...
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Saturday 6 October 2007-)
+10/06/2007 07:07:00 pm]*
Title: before... ...-
First the com. Now my phone. Yep. they all died. next, my self? well, this phone should've died n years ago. i just merely prolonged its life... anyway, perhaps i'd not have lived long too. especially when my toe nail's gonna come off completely. ::ouch!!:: but thankfully the com survived man.. btw, seriously.. it seems that everything's gone now. all my energy, power and everything. boom! yea, lost.
Perhaps before anything happens, i'll rem that i've sociable frens who are never afraid of speaking up in today's outing, weirdo looks by the exco like binni getting into his best look or cuiyi in her worst (-as if i'll believe what she says) or alex in her chio outift while the rest of us in norm, fun frenz with fantastic outfits n cool attitudes who talk about any scope of life (-like the glam n unglam sides) while we spent a great time ice-skating smth that i never touched before, saddistic bunch on the table who just think about how to trap their enemies in the cheesy game, my foreign frens who never fail to make me wanna find out more about them for their funny accent or actions or even lungauge N those fusey fanatics who caused the entire quiet place into a market for 45 mins in a sports shop.
but then, if i don't wake up tomorrow morning, it might seem something good. or at least, i don't need to worry much more. as in, i don't have to think about this com dying again, the toe be without a nail, think about the crazy ideas created from the meeting for open house today, be scared of failing promos, fear of changing classes to some that i don't want to, think about my wishlist, take the darn cheena paper on mon, or maybe, get heart attack from killing my brain cells thinking of some irrelevant people... um, it really kills.
alright. i'm still thinking if i'll die by tomorrow. who knows man, if something disastrous happens. well, i'm feeling dead now...
anw, let's compare songs. i saw this on the newspaper the other day. imagine if isaac sees this... i bet he did.
At first I was afraid, I was petrified;
Kept thinking I could never turn Spurs into a top-four side;
But then I spent so many nights thinking how Stalteri did me wrong;
Am I a mong? But I'll just have to carry on.
And we'll be back, into fifth place;
I'll just wait till the transfer window to sign another waste of space;
I should have sold Paul Robinson, I should have dropped him from the team;
If I'd known for just one second he'd concede more goals than Derby County.
Go on, now, go, Bent, there's the door;
Just turn around now, 'cause you don't score goals anymore;
Weren't you the one we paid so much for than Thierry Henry;
I knew you'd crumble, I'd rather have Emile Heskey.
Oh no, 'cause I, I will survive;
As long as I win the next six games, I know I will stay alive;
I've got Tainio, who is shat, and Huddlestone, who's just fat;
But I'll survive, I will survive.
It took all the strength I had not to fall apart;
Kept trying hard to mend Defoe's relationship with his little tart;
And I spent, of, so many nights trying on John Barnes' tights;
And oh, I've cried, I want the Spurs job till I die!
And you see Keane, he hates me, too;
I subbed him off when we were winning, then we went and freaking drew;
And now I'm scratching my big chin, why can't I just sell Ledley King?
If I'm gonna save my skin, I'll need some politics-style spin.
so, that's the modified lyrics...
At first I was afraid I was petrified.
Kept thinking I could never live without you by my side.
But then I spent so many nights
Thinking how you did me wrong.
And I grew strong!
And I learned how to get along!
So now you're back from out of space.
I just walked in to find you here with that sad look upon your face.
I should have changed that stupid lock!
I should have made you leave your key!
If I had known for just one second you'd be back to bother me.
Go on now, go, walk out that door!
Just turn around now‚
cause you're not welcome any more.
Weren't you the one who tried to hurt (crush) me with goodbye?
Did I crumble
Did I lay down and die
Oh no, not I! I will survive!
Oh and as long as I know how to love I know I stay alive.
I've got all my life to live, I've got all my love to give.
And I'll survive!
I will survive! Hey, hey.
It took all the strength I had not to fall apart.
Kept tryin' hard to mend the pieces of my broken heart!
And I spent oh so many nights
just feeling sorry for myself. I used to cry!
But now I hold my head up high.
And you see me somebody new!
I'm not that chained-up little person still in love with you.
And so you feel like droppin' in,
and just expect me to be free,
now I'm saving all my loving for someone who is loving me!
http://www.oleo.tv/lyrics/gloria-gaynor/i-will-survive/
i've got this sudden feeling that i can't take this anymore... ... in fact, um.. i cried moments ago. yes, it's much better now. but so far, the best is to listen to music. these are the actual tools that forces the body to loosen things up or put the mind into subconscious mode. oh crap!! you know what?? my *-king phone's spoilt! shoots, there goes my music. btw, the lyrics above aren't a way to try convince myself or smth. just some interesting thing i saw... yupz.
and... i realised i'm kinda speaking like maggie q in the movie. a little 唔鹹唔淡 cantonese while including some act american english. yaya whateva. mad terence.
anyway. i must thank loads to my beloved frens who made my time fun these days. they're all memorable. they're lyk a dream that can never be forgotten... unless i get eaten up by Alzheimer’s disease (:
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Friday 5 October 2007-)
+10/05/2007 10:34:00 pm]*
Title: Loser... boo hoo...-
Heyyy..
i love amoeba.. completely!!!
btw, here's the equation for this week:
contact lenses = seeing gabriel n mandy = losing bloody toe = seeing huge tv screen = plenty of smiles = have water sports = feel lyk a loser = BE ENTERTAINED!! (:
anyway, thx to martini... we finally got an amoeba outing (-um.. i ps-ed them the last time round cuz of splatttttttttttttt...wth.) of ice-skating!! yaay!!
um... lazy to crap about everything today. so... hope my memories'll store that...
i can skate finally, after 30 mins of balancing and 6 hard-felt knocks with the icy floor. that actually includes the loser act of scaring debbie n tiff then falling myself instead... -.-'''
crazy arcade. martin has super fast hands while tiff acted as if she's the policegirl with the act cute pose... whatever...
oh... martin owes me a lecture...
and... his irritation of crapping to deb was super funny though...
'accepted' movie was coolios. mad storyline... btw, i'd love to be that guy to start a new school. imagining...
back to dreams!!
and... smiles!! (:
Labels: events, smiles
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Thursday 4 October 2007-)
+10/04/2007 11:35:00 pm]*
Title: help!!-
hey.
i feel so troubled. it's so tiring that i can never sleep early or wake up late. then i'm also broke.
thank goodness that i learnt how to clear corrupted files. pheew!! :D
but... i wanna see the hockey pics!!! :P
oh!! the cafe's cool. but this mousey game's betta...
anw, byee for now!! :D
are you tired?? cuz you've been running through
my head...
see?? that's what happens when my mind's suppperrrr blur... hahaha :D i'm serious!!Labels: hallucination
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Wednesday 3 October 2007-)
+10/03/2007 11:40:00 pm]*
Title: hot pics-
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Tuesday 2 October 2007-)
+10/02/2007 07:00:00 pm]*
Title: ::sigh::-
Hey.
I'm freaking pissed. the blardy com juz gave lots of troubles. then allllll my files are gone. forever. um, ignorant terence didn't learn to restore files... wth.
really wished if anyone can tell me how to revive them...
ya, wish... -.-'''
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Monday 1 October 2007-)
+10/01/2007 10:10:00 pm]*
Title: randomness-
HELLLOOO!!!
exams're over for me now. woooohhooooo!!! but um, not tryin to laugh at those takin la... wish you guys study hard!!! anw, i'll do a post review some time later...
first of all, i've this guilt lying inside me since the start of today. it's the problem of staring. alright, there're about lyk... 3 incidences whereby i actually stared at people randomly?? ya, and all of them were when i thought i saw someone familiar and made some weird actions to get a closer look. and if not mistaken, there's actually once where i looked through the eyes or smth, only to find disappointment... but... alamak!!! THREEE TIMES!!! ::sigh:: terence is that blind... perhaps it's time for new spects!! um, maybe they're getting thicker everyday... hope not!!
so, here's what's funny in public today... this place don't seem like the cj canteen??? with this number of people??? (:
that's actually why gab n shaine n yuhao left for kfc!! haha, just random guessin...
another thing. jacket party!! people exchanged jackets for fun sake. ya. i took kj's odac thing. although it never fits someone like me.... haha!! btw, nick wah n anast swap was another odd thing...
canoeing jacket could cover half of her butt n her dance one was lyk so small for him la!! (:
NOW TO THE POINT OF THE OUTING TODAY.
balls of fury was crazily funny... that's all. i'll try not to give anything or things will turn anti-climax. but the time where i could hear mine and liselle's laughter was when i got embedded in the midst of the show... SHHH!!! rem, anti-climax!!! :D
at ben & jerry's...
people were actually throwing eileen's popcorn into the dunno how many cups on the table to play or smth... so that's what the results were... meanwhile... kj n iz were playing a game of SUDDEN DEATH tie of tossing popcorn after drawing at 2-2. freaking hilarious!!
competitor one...
competitor two!
stormed into the addidas shop later for the fusey... i mean, fuseball game. super crazy!!!
see that hand above?? kj just seems so relaxed mann...
star goalkeeper!! gavin da paul robinson!!!
the coolios fuseball table...
my opponents super engrossed... why?? they've got a tough competitor what... smiles!! (:
alright, for this anti-climax pic, i'll have this:
sometimes you just gotta love the Mac.s cup... :D
and this kinda no link song... one day at a time by the jonas brothers. the lyrics are lyk... so way off logic la!!!! (:
Wednesday I came home from school
Did my homework in my room
then I watched some TV
I still miss you
Thursday morning went online
Got to school at half past nine
Wound up in detention
I still miss you
Everything I do (oh)
brings me back to you
And I die, One day at a time
'Cause I just cant seem to get you off my mind
No matter how I try, try to kill the time
well I think that I'm just going crazy
one day at a time
Friday I got out of bed
Tried to smile frowned instead
Burnt some toast for breakfast
I still miss you
Saturday I turned 16
Never dreamt you'd act so mean
You didn't even call me
But I still miss you
And When I turn 94
I think i'll miss u even more
And I die, One day at a time
'Cause I just can't seem to get you off my mind
No matter how I try, try to kill the time
well I think that I'm just going crazy
one day at a time
I miss you more than I did a minute ago
I Climb a mountain just to here your echo (hoo, hoo)
All I wanted was you
Tell me please do u think of me now and then
Cause if I never see you again
I still miss you
And I die, One day at a time
'Cause I just can't seem to get you off my mind
No matter how I try, try to kill the time
well I think that I'm just going crazy
one day at a time
(Oooo) one day at a time
Well I think that I'm just going crazy
one day at a time
Oo I think I'm going crazy ooooooo
One day at a time
taken from http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/jonasbrothers/onedayatatime.html
p.s. all these are done in commemoration of the belated chewren day that those people named below missed...:
iz
kj
cbelle
lis
matt
gavin
eileen
maple
anast
nick wah
terence
smiles!!! :DLabels: celebrations, clap, kids, nickwah, smiles, stare, treats, wishyawell
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Wednesday 31 October 2007-)
+10/31/2007 09:36:00 pm]*
Title: Crap?-
Hey.
it's quite tempting to slack off for other stuff. like playing and stuff. but here's something strange. i tried to open the file, it gave an error message. shoots! always thought of avoiding lizzy and cbelle, turned out destroying my entertainment here on the com. now i guess it's gone.
then i almost die-ded when the four of us walked from school all the way to novena while hearing the two less taller ones scream with all sorts of stuff behind us. gosh, then kj n i were struggling with staying awake. yes, save us!
thank God to bless a loving couple. :D
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Tuesday 30 October 2007-)
+10/30/2007 09:33:00 pm]*
Title: Irritated!-
Hello
Had a double blow. Morning see kris, night see dad. I'm real sorry to say this. but both have common stuff. loudhalers, they just bark before they speak any relevant point. randomly assume, these two fellas always think others will have some incredibles powers to read their mind before i show my frustration with this, 'what you mean?' or 'huh?'. the worst part. both give non-sensical leader-like comments.
Yep, that's all. Please bless them that they'd alter if they are going to be seen as normal by others. and yes, they are not now.
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Monday 29 October 2007-)
+10/29/2007 11:57:00 pm]*
Title: Please-
Please tell me that you are not tempting me.
How i wished you would be...
Anyway, i do not wish to say this, about what file that thing is. but i wish to say that i'm actually three months behind!! Yes, something like living in history. About one month to catch up for what i missed. how dearly.
So far, what i've been going through means that i'm going to land into accident soon. if you realised smth abt some prev post... anw, things are telling me that my life is getting gloomier every single day.
It's all the more that the feeling of 不甘心 that is still in the mind. dunno why, but i do feel this way all the time. please Lord, clear my brain. i feel that i'm getting out of control.
erm, i think i'm speaking to the four walls here. something that no one knows. cuz it's no longer safe here. wish that this place could be my place for some rest.
Ok! i'm in a little mood for this - i wish i was popular, then or maybe i could be cool to see a bunch of people interested in football when we see jamie reeves on our cheena exam day!!
(: yeah, really smile!!! (:
yup, so that's what happened (:
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+10/29/2007 10:55:00 pm]*
Title: By chance, Know the Actors' Syndrome-
Hey.
It's something like once in a milliion years whereby some passages of chunks of words that you so dearly want to view about the writing style or the content which makes you wanna re-think about what you have previously visualised it. Or perhaps, they just happen because of some screw ups here and there on the net and even the author doesn't know that the restricted articles are available online. Who knows?
Anyway, I love studying people. The different sides on different occasions. Maybe, the time you see this person now will be different to the next time you see the same person. There's this wierd feeling to try and find out what changes this. Over time, this feeling turns into a habit which makes it so normal to start staring into these characters.
Prolly, that's what you call an actors' syndrome. No idea completely, but I thought it's turning obvious when someone said that pictures are so different in different scenes!
Either way, be glad that momma cleared things up. But actually, of all the loads of words I heard over the entire convo, only two words shut me up. ___'_ _________. yep. That's all I want to say.
Terence!! control with the file!! don't let it kill you!!
Okaye! Smile everyone!! (:
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Sunday 28 October 2007-)
+10/28/2007 09:00:00 pm]*
Title: Tragedy-
Hey.
I witnessed an accident today. It was in the situation where two vehicles clashed in a tight road. Gruesome sight.
I didn't bother to care about the casualties there, but that's when I began to think more about life.
In a weird world called love, it is somewhat similar to a two-laned road. As the name suggests, there is no room for one way traffic, or the other parties cannot get to their wanted destination; if one side starts to get a little demanding and decides to occupy the centre of the two lanes, everyone going the opposite direction must reverse or risk being banged. In the end, crash. Yes, all will suffer. Maybe, the other car might be a lovey dovey couple and this caused the cupid-blessed pair to perish?
Anyway, maybe that's a symbol of me being emo. um, yes. Still, I have no idea what emo defines as... Answers anyone?? (:
So, I have this soft copy here with me. Yet, the fear of receiving this curse which is, another tragedy, happening in front of me never fails to leave me.
I think I know what to do. Go into the exam hall with an empty mind. Try to even if anything goes haywired. Then regurgitate whatever the script wants me to do in shorter time. Followed by listening to what momma has to say. Yes, he said he was going to talk to us in some serious tone.
But, please pardon me. Really, I'm not in any mood to do anything until the file is opened. And, it will only be opened until Thursday. Hope I do put up a good act when I listen tomorrow!
Sorry, I do need a clear mind.
Even if I can't smile, hope the world does!! (:Labels: smiles?
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Friday 26 October 2007-)
+10/26/2007 11:59:00 pm]*
Title: Scientific Research-
Hey.
Lately, I've been in this state of mind that since I won't foil one's plans, I'm considering to observe this creature instead.
This animal, loves to get closer to its mate when the year is ending in search for the happy ending by mating in foreign land. This is because, due to experts' prediction, to allow both creatures to be unfamiliar with the new grounds and as a result, won't consider all the problems that might arise during this mating season.
Another is that the males will break up from their own groups formed formerly in order to put all their efforts into the attraction of the female species. This is also why during this period of time you will find them swimming in random directions underwater and most probably also the reason that scientists have yet to locate each of the creature individually, even when the population is the highest to be found at this time.
They swim extremely fast at close to 40 km/h. Reason is still unknown to date, but there was suggestions that due to their vulnerability against viruses which can be found on many creatures in the sea and birds, they have been trained naturally to escape from them within their shortest possible time. The entire species undergo Natural Selection, a process whereby the character that supports the species longest like isolating itself at certain parts of the year will remain in the species for the longest time.
For example, the species might produce several sorts of characters; soft ones or strong-willed ones. Then when the softer character will cause the males unable to reach its goal if it allows others to take advantage of them, so the stronger characters will take over and cause them to act according to what is needed. The weaker character might still be present in them, but if it sustains, this soft character will perish.
Besides, they have unique appetite and eating habits. The females are able to feed themselves with jellyfish with their precision in preying on them, however, the males are poorer in searching for food. This makes them more likely to feed on what the females have brought for them. Instead, they tend to protect the females by helping them to remove the parasites and viruses on them. The reason has yet to be confirmed, but it is believed that the males try to attract their mates of the opposite sex to agree on their wish to be spouse with them or probably to re-pay for the food the females provide.
There is insufficient information about what happens after both sexes mate. However, the stronger males have been seen to be piggy-backing his mate while both of them leave the thick blue ocean for shelter in the corals instead.
oh! what is above is merely for records of what i have found through observation. definitely not to be used as scientific evidence. if there's more findings, this blog shall have more!
smiles!! (:
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Thursday 25 October 2007-)
+10/25/2007 10:51:00 pm]*
Title: Warning-
HEY IDIOT, YOU ARE ACTING VERY WEIRD AND WE ALL ARE DISAPPOINTED WITH YOU. LOVE IS NOT ABOUT PUTTING ON A MASK AND SHOW THE SIDE YOU WANT TO SHOW TO YOUR PARTNER. THAT'S FAKE! PLEASE REFLECT BEFORE I ACKNOWLEDGE YOU PUBLICLY. I MEAN IT. APPALLING!
Check Liselle's blog for more
Maybe, KJ's one will do too!
Bet they feel the way i do, just that i'm a little fury about that. grrr!!!
yup, so that's what happened (:
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+10/25/2007 07:54:00 pm]*
Title: Fear-
You Are An ENFP |
The Inspirer You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends.You are also unconventional, irreverent, and unimpressed by authority and rules.Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives.You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're quite the storyteller! In love, you are quite the charmer. And you are definitely willing to risk your heart.You often don't follow through with your flirting or professed feelings. And you do break a lot of hearts. At work, you are driven but not a workaholic. You just always seem to enjoy what you do.You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist. How you see yourself: compassionate, unselfish, and understanding When other people don't get you, they see you as: gushy, emotional, and unfocused |
Hey.
Just saw denis' blog and took this fun test. well, not what i think about myself. but actually just a taste of playing these random surveys again. seemed a little mysterious at first. yep. it isn't that true i guess, but i'm trying to take it as my character test or smth. here's worse, i read this horoscope thingy from an email.
S c o r p i o Oct 23 - Nov 21
SCORPIO MAN
A man with foggy clouds over him. He is sensitive and easily hurt and always feels lonely. He does not trust anyone but himself. Sounding so negative, but he has an amazingly charisma. He is a compassionate man. He absorbs other people sentimental feeling and pain.
He is a good psychiatrist and he could understand complex and confused feeling. He has a hidden power that he could use it to make things happen and do things well. He does not like people who never try to help themselves before asking other people for favors. He is the type of guy who mostly achieved his goal in life. Once he sets his mind for something, he will put all his energy and efforts in it, whether or not it is a small matter or a big project. One of the most successful man in all the Zodiac.
He is a very patient man and can waits for years to reach his goal. He hates thin feeling and weak determinations. He can not retreat or rest for long, for he thinks life has more questions and more answer to be searched.
If he is in love, you will get plenty of love from him, sometimes may be too much than you have asked for. He is serious about love and relationship and will not waste time with someone he does not love whether how pretty she is.
He hardly makes mistake. He could tell if you have any bad thought, and will not hesitate to tell you so. If you do not like straight forward sincere man, then pack your bag now. If you are an over sensitive person, try not to ask for his comments. He will tell you the truth; even you might not be able to take it. Example, if you ask him if you are fat (and you are fat), he will say "yes, as big as a balloon". He makes such comments because he cares for you, so do something about your weight and do not get up set with him.
If he says "you look pretty today", you can be proud because he will not say such think just to please you if he does not really mean it. There will be both kind of people, those who like him and those who hate him. If you are in love this guy, be strong and belief in your decision, do not be vulnerable. He remembers all his anger and will wait for his pay back time.
He is very serious about your promise; do not promise something you could not keep. He loves his friends and will do anything for his close friends. He likes you to take care of him, but not in front of his friend. He is a complex man and you will never understand what he means if you do not really know him. He is happy to know he is a complex figure. When he is thinking or when he needs his privacy, you should give him some space.
He memorize everything well. You may say something that you already forgotten, but he will remember every words. He wants to be respected and admired and at the same time he does not like people to have power over him.
When he falls in love, he really falls deep. A man in this Zodiac once in love, he will be sweeter than sugar. He does not like a plain and simple woman. A complex woman's mind is his venture. Always be interesting and able to talk to him about every things in any subjects. He does not like a woman who sits around waiting for his call.
What this part did was merely gave me a bloody shock of myself. i mean, i was never someone influential or with such weirdo charisma or anything like this. or maybe, my mind's still in the state of ltc where i was always admiring the strenths of everyone in amoeba group. Yet, some parts are quite right. prolly it's the failure to accept what is given to me. anyway, i've realised this:
A person gets emo when fatigue arrives and the brain cannot process emotions logically by thinking all sorts of funny feelings and jumbling them all up, causing mixed scenes in the mind.
Alright, enough of crap. Wish that those in ocip can get well. very sad to see so many people falling ill.
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Wednesday 24 October 2007-)
+10/24/2007 09:52:00 pm]*
Title: lovey dovey song 3-
Song by Janice - Chocolate Ice
Bring me to the sea of sugar and spice,
reminiscing through some chocolate ice.
Tick tock, take time to be gentle and kind.
You sweat cause you run and run all day in my mind...
Fly to the moon and the sun
and let's go have some fun.
Come and take my hand and free our soul again...
Fly to the moon and the sun
and let's go have some fun.
It's 123. my love is plain to see.
What i do for you, baby, do for me..
Let me serenade your soul when you're feeling down and low.
Let the music come alive; let tenderness arrive.
Let me serenade your soul when you're feeling down and low.
Boy (Girl), you make me feel so high... together we can fly. (:Labels: smiles, song
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Tuesday 23 October 2007-)
+10/23/2007 10:45:00 pm]*
Title: Surprise-
Hey.
it's been quite a norm to be late for school lately. today? perfect way to give the high spirit. i mean, absolutely. especially when there's NO teacher on duty to catch us. yes! saw xavier at the stairway too. late altogether! some more we're the first time sehh.. cool right? on the last day of school with assembly! seeing two fellas hide at stairs, thinking they're late when they are not!! fine. i'm confused with myself too, but you get my point.
reported to ms lee, flukely got away with it peacefully. c'mon. i rock! (:
for whichever reason, went up to class quite late, finding that there's cheeeeeesecake on my desk already. stunned. i mean, just didn't know how to react. there's actually full of feelings in my mind. here's how it went... omf! (thought of jumping as if there wasn't any ceiling at all...), but... don't over-react! don't break things in school!! or scream my weak lungs out, but no! noise pollution! maybe, start running around the class and hug everyone as if i've won nobel prize straight away. but, no clumsy elephants allowed sign was already in my mind...
before anything i noticed, there was tons of food around. food food food! the lovely cake by all of them, donut by letty, cheese cubes by someone, the little white chic choc i brought, cheese biscuits by t14 and also some snacks from their hamper for the best home class. bet that they must be thinking that i need to gobble food to grow into a hot hunk. well, i'll try to be one if i can, so i'll... ... STOP DREAMING!! hahaha (:
for the lovely cake, smashing cake on me was wasted la. should eat right? yet sash slammed it on me. funny fella. hilarious scene. wth. farny!!! oops! maybe not all in the class got the cake, but hoped they got my love for them. love telegraph.. HAHAHA :D
then, the touched feeling with smiles and those usual words don't seem like cliches anymore. the smiles people gave was real contagious. while i was still in the mood of dilemma of being happily mad or care if my frens cared for my behaviour, i thought i wasn't a good receiver. the smile i returned was plain. perhaps not the most politeful replies of all time, but wish that they somehow understood. in the end, i got a little high.
next were the handshakes from people. seemed so formal! but it's actually fine. rather than to see people dance around me or play pranks on me. it'd've been disastrous. ANYWAY, the shakes made it seem as if i must get a mini-shock like passing current through me like that. ::bzz::!! (: HAHAHA!!
um... actually, i thought that some presents were~ VERY unique. in fact, i didn't dare to open them - thinking that they must be some funny stuff; saw some yellow stuff. i have no idea whose is that from, but it kinda left me speechless after pulling it out a little. yep, that's it. Also! a stolen resident evil card with a short and sweet message. then another cute little pouch wrapper which could have been dropped out anytime with my clumsiness in carrying things. BUT, it's in safe hands. the last one, this person must have been taking art and crafts lesson lightly, or maybe, learning physics super duper well siaz. i don't know how to describe; paper bag made from metro which was completely original (~prolly a little design would work) but the handle, also from another piece of paper, was so tough that it never got a chance to break la! and, the shape resembles one for which bimbs wear. HAHAHA!! (:
anyway, digressing a little from that. loved that the fsv showed the cny performance. seeing alex, sherwin n gabriel tiggery was so funny!! then later in the canteen, got the shock of my fragile lifee. serious. i was buying drinks for myself n yuhao, then suddenly a school attendant cut the queue and asked me to buy for something. ok, so i did. then later for some wierdo reason, she stuffed 80cents into my shirt pocket. goodness! made us look like some illegal actions going on or smth. sigh. in the end, this fear lasted till i missed yuhao's drink. erm, it still haunts me.
oh! lessons were super fun. esp making fun of yuhao n shaine
but the greatest entertainment was the dinner. short and sweet it may seem, the whispers we shared excluding momma was rather interesting. one good thing, i won't ask anymore questions. just place my bets. (:
my feelings also goes out to josh for vomiting in canteen. in fact, the first thing i thought was serious trouble. pessimistic, but wish him well. (:
thank you all for the wishes.
the celebrations: lselle, matt da momma, cbelle, kj virus
present(donut): letty twin!! real one! (:
sms-es: minhang, wanyu, smarty james, jojo, jaslyn, guinevere, emily, tim da prop guy
friendster: philip, guishuen, peimin, brian, eugene, terrie twin!! (~by name), meiling, yk, seekei, kj, llewelyn
tags here: matt, cbelle
wishing out loud: chocolatey clare, gab n mandy, tiff, martin, carmen, elane, marilyn, isaac
msn: shuanne, sylvia, nat, satiya
great to find that people like jaslyn, sylvia n sat whose connection lost nowadays rebuilding it. (:
just talked to sat on msn. the feeling of studying hard yet screwing up for exams sucks. i know there's nothing i can do. but hope that i can be a listening ear to him. release his pressure maybe.
there might be some people whom i missed mentioning here. but i still loved the many things done which
(1) wished me, or kinda wished me
(2) made me happy (: oh!! new ec!!
(3) made me smarter! ::ting!!::
smiles! <3
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Monday 22 October 2007-)
+10/22/2007 11:36:00 pm]*
Title: Fun!-
Hey.
loved the way some things were these days.
there was the baking cupcakes session yest at shufei's aunt's place. nice place in fact... found that we could be lively even with four people. all cuz of jojo. haha :D he can think of random stuff all the time. best part is that, he could re-use those old jokes and stuff to regenerate the new ones for other groups of people. yup, super amazing!
then the selling of our products. it was full of laughter for all of us when we gotta put up a smile, even if we do not know the person at all or partly, and this made all of us feel the love by everyone involved.
perhaps it's bcuz of the way we think. we tend to see the best possible image of others when we meet for the first time. yes, that's what you call first impression. yet, when we know the other person inside out completely, we start to discover the bad sides of them. we don't like that. we hate that. thinking that we should discard this type of friend away. it's not the ideal one you hope for.
then, think again. why not think of the faults that we see in ourselves? perhaps we are much worse than our neighbours. character-wise or maybe even the attitude. haven't others tried over billions of times with millions of reasons to persuade themselves that you are not bad after all? haven't they thought of disliking you when they saw you immediately? don't you think that your perception is very shallow to believe what you imagine? why not try and accept that person you know? it might be a brand new start for friendships to be born.
be thankful to everyone around you. especially God. everything's in place when you feel the present. and He hoped that you'll act the way to serve others. only to find that we are offending Him all the time with our selfish thoughts or playful minds, without thinking that we might hurt others along the way. spiking was never a way He wanted us to be. just that we always find a way to spike anyone we dislike.
break that problem. let no hatred feeling for your friends. that's when you start to have dreams come true. (:
then there was this house warming yest at nat's place. some ppl asked me about it, then one fella didn't tell me what happened after i left. sigh. the same problem of diving my frail self into a million places. or 3 actually. ya. but, oh my! the food was one of the best catering i ate so far! you'd guessed it right? those usually suck. but it's gooody! and also the tennis game on x box. see kei sucked at it. i gotta be honest with it. sigh, hahahaha!!
wished that the flower given to denis can slightly make her feel betta, cuz i don't think she feels any happy when she walked past my class today. yeap, wishherwell! but thank goodness, she's got her new aim in life. that's smth good!
hoped bin made through. i don't know what he'd be doing, but i thought i was super inconsiderate to make all kinds of fun things when he's trying to smile a little. sorry, i'll support you! if you need any help, like being a tyrant to anybody in school -.-''' cheerup dude!! (:
BE FUN!!NY!! (:
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Saturday 20 October 2007-)
+10/20/2007 10:49:00 pm]*
Title: Rrefreshed!-
Hey
I have this feeling of not attending to what that f*-er said. So, that's besides the point for the day... YES!
baking at marilyn's house was awesome! (: didn't know how or when, there's always random dumb acts by all of us which made the day so comical... :D and, thankfully the girls actually called us into their world of convo, or tim n i will just stand by the edge of the window. alright, exaggeration -.-''' then there's some bored moments too, only to find that we ended up playing cards. yup, that's what happened (~how boring... ::yawns::) but it's super cool to see people like marilyn, elane n shan to talk n talk n talk... and, ya... tv serials was kinda hit topic huh? um... i could join in for short time only, for knowing bit of the little bit i know about these... anyway, my hands are still abit like the sugary scent, floury touch, funny butter aroma, chocolate taste, vanilla essence. amazing right? now... like after 5 hours still have all these. haha!!! :D
anyway, loved the way life was today. yupz!! (:
just now, went to some place for buf din. yes, called EliSH too. um... actually not in a mood to voice all my opinion out, so listened more. and saw more. found this... she's actually quite pretty and has a little hot body shape except for some gloomy face. so one day, i'll ask her to come to cj! yay!! (:
um.. was thinking **** for many cases today. as in for everything i saw linked this way. one way or another. sigh.. hahahahaha!! :D
oh yes, marilyn said this, "next time you can make cookie for your girlfriend..." while trying to like persuade me to mix the ingredients in the bowl. hmm... i wonder...HEY!! DON'T BE NAUGHTY terence k!!
playing with food..
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Thursday 18 October 2007-)
+10/18/2007 09:17:00 pm]*
Title: suddenly-
Hey.
currently i'm kinda anti-publishing for whateva reason instead, more of reading. i'm actually inspired by what hannah said. or rather, what she said were the oh, i didn't think of that! sorts which naturally gave me a smile and released some pressure off the work i was doing...
one of her lines
if you like a girl, but is afraid of rejection, then you are not a man
ya, it was what i wanted to tell my classmates who ARE STILL pondering. but i forgot how to.
so, i'll leave this post here for a short while. until i'm tired of this, disgracing myself with aimless posts.
When there was a time,
I hoped that I'd find
the smiles in your eyes
before we said a 'hi'.
For long we've never met.
Maybe, even sat
closely beside you;
love everything you do.
Tell me all your secrets, dear.
You can whisper in my ear
and everything that I will hear
can do nothing but to wipe away all your tears
If you give me that one chance
ask you out for just one dance.
I can show you,
my love will always be true.
For the time I spent with you,
wished that I could be your glue.
Thinking when i did smile,
it must be all because of... only you.
ok, i'm trying to adopt a new blogging style and blending with some old ones. in all, mixture of those which are interesting and capable for a noob like me. yes.
Thanks for liselle n co. for their interview which made me think hard about myself on the spot. really, questions were insightful. (: results don't matter actually, it's just the process of displaying my capabilities that was fun. what's more important was to see a smile on any of your faces deep inside - i did see that.
P.S. SOME WORDS WILL BE CUT, DAY BY DAY... (:
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Sunday 14 October 2007-)
+10/14/2007 03:40:00 pm]*
Title: Scared-
Hey.
I'm scared. not really scared, but it's more of a worry from promos. it's like.. most of my close friends are gonna leave this class, some even leaving the school. i know it's bcuz of their combi that they wanna change classes, maybe results requirement to transfer school (-perhaps more reasons...), yet i'm having this paranoia that i won't adapt to the new environment. and, yes. what happened in primary school made me feel this way.
i was kinda close to people like sean, keith, arif, guan hua, jeff, dawn, siobhan... ... centuries ago and the following year, all spread their wings and flapped off to different schools. some i don't even know where they've gone to. maybe there weren't phones then, so i couldn't really like chat with them now and then.. and now, i'm just thinking that they might feel abit odd for someone whom they don't know and can talk so friendly as if they've known for ages.
so now, i'm afraid. i wish no one would leave this place. the place where we all shared our joys and fun in. the more i think of this, the more i'm convincing myself that my life would turn bad next year. you might wanna tell me that oh, you'll meet new friends! but the way we all have written a meaningful chapter in our lives gives us the hint that we should extent this chapter to its fullest. yet, that's beyond our control.
imagine everyone turn cold towards each other the next time we meet. it seems sad; the bond we made tore apart by time...
ok, i'm bored with being so emo with all the stupid language i'm using. so to cut it short, please pray hard for yourselves that you'll pass this promos - flying colours, scraped thru... whichever!! bcuz i will pray for you guys!! (:
unless...
1. you wanna leave bcoz i'm such a bad influence and a GREAT one that you think it's much safer to stay away from me
OR
2. you've been cursing me so badly these days, yet you find the voodoo dolls are already useless and believe that you'll save your time on cursing on someone else instead
OR
3. you think i'm gonna be someone powerful next year and you don't wish to play the suck up game while insisting that you'll more likely to be successful in somewhere else
OR
4. you have this mindset that i'm gonna be so evil to out speak you all the time and humiliate you whenever i see you
OR
5. you think that you are so worthless to see me anymore
OR
6. you believe that seeing me is like seeing someone SO amazing that you feel like chopping yourself into a million pieces... all by yourself
OR
7. you think that i will trap you behind the doors of staircase 6 and bash you up as if you've put on some thick make-up before a rehearsal
OR
8. you visualise yourself as someone who's mentally ill and thinks that this doctor who's writing all these crap will kill you instantly
OR
9. you see me as someone who will give you 'sudden death' whenever you do a mistake
OR
10. you feel despised to read what i'm writing now
p.s. any condition mentioned above are just to boost morales of my saddddddd frenzzzzy... if there are any reasons not mentioned, please TAGgrrr!!
i don't know why or how... is this what you call mood swing??
oh! realised it's not really short after all!!
fine! -.-''' weirdo terence... haha (:
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Saturday 13 October 2007-)
+10/13/2007 10:50:00 pm]*
Title: smile!!-
Hey.
Terence feels happy! (:
um.. i dunno why, but sleeping for almost the whole day just makes everything coooolll!!! yupz. then after hours of dream... (-exaggeration) it's like whatever happened before are all forgotten! yay!! (: everything seems so happy and hopeful!! haha :D
best is listening to music. the downtown song just rocks my world now... ::boom::!! hahaha :D just thought that this means freedom. haha :D i'm not making any sense, but WHO CARES!!?? :))
btw, i've cleared some lame games on my phone.. credit to ME!! yay!! whichever csi thing.. SO, i can save space for sumfing else!! hahahahahahahhahahaha :D !! plus pointz!! (:
oh!! rem that there's tons of games, most that were *&^%$#@!! who'd thought of them!! prolly that's why we took more than 2.5 hours i guess...
::gasps:: now that's hard to breathe!!
Hahaha, but.. i'm sleepy now.. again!! :D
nights!! (:
wish all for sweet dreams!! (:
yup, so that's what happened (:
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+10/13/2007 09:57:00 am]*
Title: Wasted-
Hey
i didn't enjoy the open house yesterday. i was so tired that my enthu lasted like... 5mins?? should be.. anw, this stupid feeling dragged me towards being anti-social. or perhaps, useless in the promotion of the sch. ya.
then out of nowhere finding myself running out from the weirdest group of crowds... and, saw that left that ...little sister/ girlfriend/ pal/ partner (whichever!!)... for the day off to somewhere else. feel so sorry for her :-o "sorry jie jie" hahaha!! :D ... looking back, thought i should have been frank about this. so that others would leave me alone. yet, the entire coordination of everyone in our group was kinda in chaos. or at least, i felt.
don't tell me i'm pessimistic. but i'm the type where i tend to fill the gaps, and in this case, everyone were busy ahead with the displaying of their talents that made the booth a complete waste. i mean, there was no need for the second board, 3 other chairs... so on. when people asked about us.. there's this sense that everyone would stare at each other before answering.
fine. we didn't talk about our booth in the end, cuz we had nothing to say. then almost every performer got distracted by fin. even so, i thought that bev shouldn't let go of her anger straight away. and, hello! she might affect others.!! it's not the matter of whose mood was carried away by the way...
one nice thing was the varied outfits, despite some odd ones, ya. or maybe, the whacks on the shuttle made my life abit better..
oh!! i've got this formula for this year's people...
hockey = pretty
dance = hot
drama = cute
volleyball = mixed of all...
ps.. don't me wrong... ya!!
so, i thought i could asked tiff what happened. it seems that there were horrid things. perhaps that's a good sign, at least those who gave her trouble most prolly won't even consider this sch. oh btw, i bet no one likes them too.
lastly, wished that wanyu can get over with that soon. please let her know that there're so many friends in the world who are having the same problem.. or similar ones.
btw, gotta admire the way people can stay at mad jacks and wait for 30 mins before ordering, then leave that place in 2.5 hours later.. marvy!! haha :D
try to smile world!! (:
BECAUSE YOU ARE GOD'S GREATEST GIFT TO MANKIND.Labels: #$%^, backstab, complains, concentrate?, emo, events, play, reflection, wishyawell
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Thursday 11 October 2007-)
+10/11/2007 10:09:00 pm]*
Title: Swing-
Hey.
it's getting close. it's that i don't like the way things are now. everything's becoming hanging in mid air. and, btw... i'm not giving any crap to kris for this attitude he gives presently. and.. hello!! it's op and the content he's still trying to craft everything nicely as if his damn idea is definitely the best and that it'll keep the audience entertained while presenting them. this fella simply doesn't gives time and place for everyone to think about the group plan. what's more? this one isn't written stuff!!
fine. i'll save my energy to do work. anw, the teachers are giving hello with their frowns. then there're some who are even more saddistic. give semi results. wth! then act as if it's so mysterious. omfg. worse part, their pretending skills are shit. absolutely. and it's always the way of leaking abit that was irritating. that's when i was thinking out loud in class today.. it's disturbing. i'd rather they say nothing. what she's doing is to give us some mental preparation i suppose.. -.-''' (~ ya, i'm sure..) or she could've just told us straight away, save us the trouble of thinking of the trashes while not at work...
ok, forget exams. currently i'm in a 15-16 situation where i cannot concentrate properly. i know i should focus on the open house tmr, yet i'm just so tired mentally such that i'm feeling the voices at my ears about some people in school. alright, some include... i don't know why you sweat while bypassing her? or shut up as if there's superglue stuck to your mouth? or the most realistic one, why not look for another person to stare at?? or maybe, why your tastes are so random??... ... it'll never end. but what i'm trying to say is, no one should ever stay up till 2 when there's school the next day. for me, thanks to chris =.='''
sorry for this super duper extreme emo post...
Anyway, who'd give a darn for someone who's subconscious right?? (:
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Wednesday 10 October 2007-)
+10/10/2007 09:34:00 pm]*
Title: Ups and downs-
I'M FREAKING pissed. the so many troubles today was totally f-ed up.
completely sad about the possible results.
blardy maths saw miss lee shook her head
physics meant that screwed mcq plus cocked up short answers...
econs said that good attempt for question didn't mean good answers
chem hinted that some parts might pull me down.
thank God that there's some balance to life.
the alphonsus physics lecturer was freaking hilarious!
where we ended up laughing at all his clips and stories.
then gab was giving this comment...
imagine how nice to speak of that if they hear it...
BUT it's crazily funny!!
weirdly, it continued with rush hour..
good thing it was with purpose..
cjc -> ica -> smu -> cjc
terence was mad.
anw, felt i was abit bad to respond to mr leong this sloppy way.
still, fun race though.
at smu/ learnt the mini game in the seminar.
it was kinda inspiring for me that it's somehow similar to the cheating stick pyramid lis n gang were playing.
yeap. i'm still thinking of the sure win theory in that game. ya.
life ended crappy like shit.
in fact shouldn't have gone to novena.
i'd rather followed fin to lib than face this purposeless gathering.
unless... the smiles we shared before cuiyi n tiff left la.
still, i seemed like 劳隶兽 (cantonese language...)then..
after that. disaster.
FORGET IT. WHO GIVES A DANG!??
MY LANGUAGE WILL JUST TURN MORE VIOLENT..
ok.. i think i should start remembering birthdays. but so far it's kinda easy. yeap.! (:
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Tuesday 9 October 2007-)
+10/09/2007 09:29:00 pm]*
Title: while in love-
When you're in love,
You'll look over your left shoulder.
Umchio... (~it means like abit of hiding your smile...) and smile to yourself...
When you're in love,
You'll look over your right shoulder.
Smile sweetly and exclaim something...
Hey!
No worries... I'm not that mad to think of such predictions or poems maybe?
But anyway, matt or kj would understand..
So... I kinda like this group of people. it's like there's a mix of everything amongst us.
Just one thing, I think we're still abit too cold.
btw, realised that things can be so easily remembered if they're linked up.
and... mandy's overly high tone on msn was so funny!! but the amoeba pics are SO cool! (:
smiles!!
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Monday 8 October 2007-)
+10/08/2007 09:04:00 pm]*
Title: fishing-
i hate be a bother but i gotta say.
this world's getting crazier with everyday...
sometimes, it's best to know a little of something rather than knowing one great thing in detail. yes, it's like with that little impression you get always seems good. or perhaps, the best at least. but, as time goes by, more and more of the bad side in your great thing floats in while the little knowledge slowly fades away. cuz it's when you know more of the bad side attitudes change. the more they uncover themselves the deeper you know. yet the times when the lock is still intact there's this belief that there's a tiny step more to knowing the reality. before you know it, a thousand miles begin with a small step. while fishing, there's this tendency to toss the hook to the furthest when there's no dumb fish would want to come close to the bank for this tiny little bait while fighting with hundreds of enemies for the same prize. yet, imagine if the hook reaches so far that the strongest creatures of the sea could drag you off the comfortable shore you were previously sitting on under the warm lovely sun. still, no one fishes for a whale at shore. now start thinking about the trouble you need - releasing yourself from this entangled line of problem, saving yourself from the potential poachers who might be nearby and tear your flesh and soul apart, then regaining your confidence and composure to swim your butt back to shore. only to find that everything that happened was merely a dream. everything's all square. this so-called adventure seems fun, but thinking of the tons to be done? is it really worth trying? you should think for yourself. either to go ahead with what you were thinking and be thick-skinned for once or leave things as it is... i'm confused.
just i am now with the convo with gabby...
if only i knew some answers...
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Saturday 6 October 2007-)
+10/06/2007 07:07:00 pm]*
Title: before... ...-
First the com. Now my phone. Yep. they all died. next, my self? well, this phone should've died n years ago. i just merely prolonged its life... anyway, perhaps i'd not have lived long too. especially when my toe nail's gonna come off completely. ::ouch!!:: but thankfully the com survived man.. btw, seriously.. it seems that everything's gone now. all my energy, power and everything. boom! yea, lost.
Perhaps before anything happens, i'll rem that i've sociable frens who are never afraid of speaking up in today's outing, weirdo looks by the exco like binni getting into his best look or cuiyi in her worst (-as if i'll believe what she says) or alex in her chio outift while the rest of us in norm, fun frenz with fantastic outfits n cool attitudes who talk about any scope of life (-like the glam n unglam sides) while we spent a great time ice-skating smth that i never touched before, saddistic bunch on the table who just think about how to trap their enemies in the cheesy game, my foreign frens who never fail to make me wanna find out more about them for their funny accent or actions or even lungauge N those fusey fanatics who caused the entire quiet place into a market for 45 mins in a sports shop.
but then, if i don't wake up tomorrow morning, it might seem something good. or at least, i don't need to worry much more. as in, i don't have to think about this com dying again, the toe be without a nail, think about the crazy ideas created from the meeting for open house today, be scared of failing promos, fear of changing classes to some that i don't want to, think about my wishlist, take the darn cheena paper on mon, or maybe, get heart attack from killing my brain cells thinking of some irrelevant people... um, it really kills.
alright. i'm still thinking if i'll die by tomorrow. who knows man, if something disastrous happens. well, i'm feeling dead now...
anw, let's compare songs. i saw this on the newspaper the other day. imagine if isaac sees this... i bet he did.
At first I was afraid, I was petrified;
Kept thinking I could never turn Spurs into a top-four side;
But then I spent so many nights thinking how Stalteri did me wrong;
Am I a mong? But I'll just have to carry on.
And we'll be back, into fifth place;
I'll just wait till the transfer window to sign another waste of space;
I should have sold Paul Robinson, I should have dropped him from the team;
If I'd known for just one second he'd concede more goals than Derby County.
Go on, now, go, Bent, there's the door;
Just turn around now, 'cause you don't score goals anymore;
Weren't you the one we paid so much for than Thierry Henry;
I knew you'd crumble, I'd rather have Emile Heskey.
Oh no, 'cause I, I will survive;
As long as I win the next six games, I know I will stay alive;
I've got Tainio, who is shat, and Huddlestone, who's just fat;
But I'll survive, I will survive.
It took all the strength I had not to fall apart;
Kept trying hard to mend Defoe's relationship with his little tart;
And I spent, of, so many nights trying on John Barnes' tights;
And oh, I've cried, I want the Spurs job till I die!
And you see Keane, he hates me, too;
I subbed him off when we were winning, then we went and freaking drew;
And now I'm scratching my big chin, why can't I just sell Ledley King?
If I'm gonna save my skin, I'll need some politics-style spin.
so, that's the modified lyrics...
At first I was afraid I was petrified.
Kept thinking I could never live without you by my side.
But then I spent so many nights
Thinking how you did me wrong.
And I grew strong!
And I learned how to get along!
So now you're back from out of space.
I just walked in to find you here with that sad look upon your face.
I should have changed that stupid lock!
I should have made you leave your key!
If I had known for just one second you'd be back to bother me.
Go on now, go, walk out that door!
Just turn around now‚
cause you're not welcome any more.
Weren't you the one who tried to hurt (crush) me with goodbye?
Did I crumble
Did I lay down and die
Oh no, not I! I will survive!
Oh and as long as I know how to love I know I stay alive.
I've got all my life to live, I've got all my love to give.
And I'll survive!
I will survive! Hey, hey.
It took all the strength I had not to fall apart.
Kept tryin' hard to mend the pieces of my broken heart!
And I spent oh so many nights
just feeling sorry for myself. I used to cry!
But now I hold my head up high.
And you see me somebody new!
I'm not that chained-up little person still in love with you.
And so you feel like droppin' in,
and just expect me to be free,
now I'm saving all my loving for someone who is loving me!
http://www.oleo.tv/lyrics/gloria-gaynor/i-will-survive/
i've got this sudden feeling that i can't take this anymore... ... in fact, um.. i cried moments ago. yes, it's much better now. but so far, the best is to listen to music. these are the actual tools that forces the body to loosen things up or put the mind into subconscious mode. oh crap!! you know what?? my *-king phone's spoilt! shoots, there goes my music. btw, the lyrics above aren't a way to try convince myself or smth. just some interesting thing i saw... yupz.
and... i realised i'm kinda speaking like maggie q in the movie. a little 唔鹹唔淡 cantonese while including some act american english. yaya whateva. mad terence.
anyway. i must thank loads to my beloved frens who made my time fun these days. they're all memorable. they're lyk a dream that can never be forgotten... unless i get eaten up by Alzheimer’s disease (:
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Friday 5 October 2007-)
+10/05/2007 10:34:00 pm]*
Title: Loser... boo hoo...-
Heyyy..
i love amoeba.. completely!!!
btw, here's the equation for this week:
contact lenses = seeing gabriel n mandy = losing bloody toe = seeing huge tv screen = plenty of smiles = have water sports = feel lyk a loser = BE ENTERTAINED!! (:
anyway, thx to martini... we finally got an amoeba outing (-um.. i ps-ed them the last time round cuz of splatttttttttttttt...wth.) of ice-skating!! yaay!!
um... lazy to crap about everything today. so... hope my memories'll store that...
i can skate finally, after 30 mins of balancing and 6 hard-felt knocks with the icy floor. that actually includes the loser act of scaring debbie n tiff then falling myself instead... -.-'''
crazy arcade. martin has super fast hands while tiff acted as if she's the policegirl with the act cute pose... whatever...
oh... martin owes me a lecture...
and... his irritation of crapping to deb was super funny though...
'accepted' movie was coolios. mad storyline... btw, i'd love to be that guy to start a new school. imagining...
back to dreams!!
and... smiles!! (:
Labels: events, smiles
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Thursday 4 October 2007-)
+10/04/2007 11:35:00 pm]*
Title: help!!-
hey.
i feel so troubled. it's so tiring that i can never sleep early or wake up late. then i'm also broke.
thank goodness that i learnt how to clear corrupted files. pheew!! :D
but... i wanna see the hockey pics!!! :P
oh!! the cafe's cool. but this mousey game's betta...
anw, byee for now!! :D
are you tired?? cuz you've been running through
my head...
see?? that's what happens when my mind's suppperrrr blur... hahaha :D i'm serious!!Labels: hallucination
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Wednesday 3 October 2007-)
+10/03/2007 11:40:00 pm]*
Title: hot pics-
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Tuesday 2 October 2007-)
+10/02/2007 07:00:00 pm]*
Title: ::sigh::-
Hey.
I'm freaking pissed. the blardy com juz gave lots of troubles. then allllll my files are gone. forever. um, ignorant terence didn't learn to restore files... wth.
really wished if anyone can tell me how to revive them...
ya, wish... -.-'''
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Monday 1 October 2007-)
+10/01/2007 10:10:00 pm]*
Title: randomness-
HELLLOOO!!!
exams're over for me now. woooohhooooo!!! but um, not tryin to laugh at those takin la... wish you guys study hard!!! anw, i'll do a post review some time later...
first of all, i've this guilt lying inside me since the start of today. it's the problem of staring. alright, there're about lyk... 3 incidences whereby i actually stared at people randomly?? ya, and all of them were when i thought i saw someone familiar and made some weird actions to get a closer look. and if not mistaken, there's actually once where i looked through the eyes or smth, only to find disappointment... but... alamak!!! THREEE TIMES!!! ::sigh:: terence is that blind... perhaps it's time for new spects!! um, maybe they're getting thicker everyday... hope not!!
so, here's what's funny in public today... this place don't seem like the cj canteen??? with this number of people??? (:
that's actually why gab n shaine n yuhao left for kfc!! haha, just random guessin...
another thing. jacket party!! people exchanged jackets for fun sake. ya. i took kj's odac thing. although it never fits someone like me.... haha!! btw, nick wah n anast swap was another odd thing...
canoeing jacket could cover half of her butt n her dance one was lyk so small for him la!! (:
NOW TO THE POINT OF THE OUTING TODAY.
balls of fury was crazily funny... that's all. i'll try not to give anything or things will turn anti-climax. but the time where i could hear mine and liselle's laughter was when i got embedded in the midst of the show... SHHH!!! rem, anti-climax!!! :D
at ben & jerry's...
people were actually throwing eileen's popcorn into the dunno how many cups on the table to play or smth... so that's what the results were... meanwhile... kj n iz were playing a game of SUDDEN DEATH tie of tossing popcorn after drawing at 2-2. freaking hilarious!!
competitor one...
competitor two!
stormed into the addidas shop later for the fusey... i mean, fuseball game. super crazy!!!
see that hand above?? kj just seems so relaxed mann...
star goalkeeper!! gavin da paul robinson!!!
the coolios fuseball table...
my opponents super engrossed... why?? they've got a tough competitor what... smiles!! (:
alright, for this anti-climax pic, i'll have this:
sometimes you just gotta love the Mac.s cup... :D
and this kinda no link song... one day at a time by the jonas brothers. the lyrics are lyk... so way off logic la!!!! (:
Wednesday I came home from school
Did my homework in my room
then I watched some TV
I still miss you
Thursday morning went online
Got to school at half past nine
Wound up in detention
I still miss you
Everything I do (oh)
brings me back to you
And I die, One day at a time
'Cause I just cant seem to get you off my mind
No matter how I try, try to kill the time
well I think that I'm just going crazy
one day at a time
Friday I got out of bed
Tried to smile frowned instead
Burnt some toast for breakfast
I still miss you
Saturday I turned 16
Never dreamt you'd act so mean
You didn't even call me
But I still miss you
And When I turn 94
I think i'll miss u even more
And I die, One day at a time
'Cause I just can't seem to get you off my mind
No matter how I try, try to kill the time
well I think that I'm just going crazy
one day at a time
I miss you more than I did a minute ago
I Climb a mountain just to here your echo (hoo, hoo)
All I wanted was you
Tell me please do u think of me now and then
Cause if I never see you again
I still miss you
And I die, One day at a time
'Cause I just can't seem to get you off my mind
No matter how I try, try to kill the time
well I think that I'm just going crazy
one day at a time
(Oooo) one day at a time
Well I think that I'm just going crazy
one day at a time
Oo I think I'm going crazy ooooooo
One day at a time
taken from http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/jonasbrothers/onedayatatime.html
p.s. all these are done in commemoration of the belated chewren day that those people named below missed...:
iz
kj
cbelle
lis
matt
gavin
eileen
maple
anast
nick wah
terence
smiles!!! :DLabels: celebrations, clap, kids, nickwah, smiles, stare, treats, wishyawell
yup, so that's what happened (:
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