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(Saturday, 13 October 2007-)
+10/13/2007 09:57:00 am]*
Title: Wasted-
Hey
i didn't enjoy the open house yesterday. i was so tired that my enthu lasted like... 5mins?? should be.. anw, this stupid feeling dragged me towards being anti-social. or perhaps, useless in the promotion of the sch. ya.
then out of nowhere finding myself running out from the weirdest group of crowds... and, saw that left that ...little sister/ girlfriend/ pal/ partner (whichever!!)... for the day off to somewhere else. feel so sorry for her :-o "sorry jie jie" hahaha!! :D ... looking back, thought i should have been frank about this. so that others would leave me alone. yet, the entire coordination of everyone in our group was kinda in chaos. or at least, i felt.
don't tell me i'm pessimistic. but i'm the type where i tend to fill the gaps, and in this case, everyone were busy ahead with the displaying of their talents that made the booth a complete waste. i mean, there was no need for the second board, 3 other chairs... so on. when people asked about us.. there's this sense that everyone would stare at each other before answering.
fine. we didn't talk about our booth in the end, cuz we had nothing to say. then almost every performer got distracted by fin. even so, i thought that bev shouldn't let go of her anger straight away. and, hello! she might affect others.!! it's not the matter of whose mood was carried away by the way...
one nice thing was the varied outfits, despite some odd ones, ya. or maybe, the whacks on the shuttle made my life abit better..
oh!! i've got this formula for this year's people...
hockey = pretty
dance = hot
drama = cute
volleyball = mixed of all...
ps.. don't me wrong... ya!!
so, i thought i could asked tiff what happened. it seems that there were horrid things. perhaps that's a good sign, at least those who gave her trouble most prolly won't even consider this sch. oh btw, i bet no one likes them too.
lastly, wished that wanyu can get over with that soon. please let her know that there're so many friends in the world who are having the same problem.. or similar ones.
btw, gotta admire the way people can stay at mad jacks and wait for 30 mins before ordering, then leave that place in 2.5 hours later.. marvy!! haha :D
try to smile world!! (:
BECAUSE YOU ARE GOD'S GREATEST GIFT TO MANKIND.Labels: #$%^, backstab, complains, concentrate?, emo, events, play, reflection, wishyawell
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Saturday, 29 September 2007-)
+9/29/2007 08:52:00 am]*
Title: morals or morales?-
exams now are demoralising. maths are problematic for losing the steam during the paper, meanwhile using the excuse of having a blank mind never seems right.
so, tons of things happened. worsened things. or maybe the grafitti tiff jie jie drew made things a little better i guess...
ok, i've got this feelin that marian's cousin doesn't trust me or smth. it's like.. he was tryin to tell tiff something then for that tiny split second, he glanced at me. the next moment, he said nothing. i dunno, maybe i'm thinkin too much, but this actually kicked off my moody life at starbucks. wish that this it just my illusion. ya. or maybe i've been faced with the so many different types of people these days who curse and swear and give bad comments that i hurt someone this time round. hope i was wrong or i can turn things round.
hell came at night. wanyu's scream was chaos. it's mad for her to do this, but really, chuck should have been in a betta attitude. it's like, even if the first step was wrong, maybe he should have tried to make up in the next?? marian n cuiyi scolded him, but that optimistic... fark!!!! no, act big attitude was just urghhhh. another thing was that thank whoeva who calmed things on either side. i actually felt disgusted by the scream. in the end, she just went back to her way of gossipin n b*ching.. perhaps she'd have known all sorts of ppl exist. no?
sis olivia sent an email about her last day at work. honestly, the words "is nothing but a happy ending" just sounds like some assurance or smth. yes it should be. then, for the N years i've known her, she'd never open her heart thru laughter for others. but there's smth i won't be worryin. it's her faith. wish her well.
peace to allLabels: #$%^, curses, fights, grafitti, smiles?, strength, Thanksgiving, troubles, trust, wishyawell
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Thursday, 27 September 2007-)
+9/27/2007 06:37:00 pm]*
Title: screwdrivers-
Super screwed papers these days.
Life's so mad that I seriously need a map -
I'm completely lost!
Eg.?
I realised I've turned into a mad mugga
Dumping all my eq
N losing my patience on evryfing...
Would have scolded people for blockin at bus stop too!
But... I'm still kind, I know. -.-'''
btw, Can You Guys Don't KC Me Theze Days??
There Is Nothing For Ya To Guess... (best is that you study for everything...)
::sigh:: I can't stop ya either if that's your way of de-stressin...
I'M SO SORRY TO SAY THIS, BUT TIFFANIE JIE JIE IS ... ... kinda crazy (: haha!!
smiles, or abit la... (:Labels: #$%^, smiles?
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Tuesday, 18 September 2007-)
+9/18/2007 12:00:00 am]*
Title: Lost My Words-
Hey.
Terence hates the way things turn out. The feeling of being kept in the dark is shit. All the more is that two people are actually doing that. Both of which I've worked quite closely this year. One of them even better. Yes, when there's some forms of tone and languages that spilled out in the middle of breaks here and there which were extremely disturbing.
Now, the virus thinks I'm a super threat to him that I'll actually torture him LIKE the way he did to me since a few months ago. Why the fuck must he believe that once I find out I'll spread to the whole world. Fine, perhaps this person don't know me yet. Or maybe, he has only seen this side of me being slashed by his every word of jokes. Rather, I've not known him well enough to gain his trust I guess...
The other one?? Lost for words.
Tried to bring a (: but this bothered me for the entire day... Hope it gets better tomorrow.Labels: #$%^
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Sunday, 26 August 2007-)
+8/26/2007 11:33:00 am]*
Title: Encouragement-
it's retreat yest.
there're tons of fun things, like having ppl in my grp 17. nadine, erika, nicholas, ian, milu, bianca, kelvin n me!!
it's very heartening that no one actually isolated me since i'm not a catholic n knew nuts about some things.
thankfully, fantastic facil. valerie. put me into active participation n tried to include me in some grp things.
some activities were very insightful, made me re-think into my life n some who seem to be weak at times.
despite during a talk when i dozed off a little...
SO, people were asking me if i'm interested in being baptised (i have no idea if i'm spelling it right, sorry!).
but the thing's that mum n dad aren't really into supporting me in this!
anw, moments ago, i tried to convince dad with what i learnt these two days to stay a little positive in life instead of being so critical in his word when telling abt his life at work.
here's the convo.
"hey dad, i'm just thinking if you can stay a little optimistic in life? (he was complaining about the food in the coffee shop nearest to my house to MUM n I, not to the shop keeper. yet he always go to that same old place...)"
"well, i go by my principle... trying to help others. actually, i'm envious of your aunt... (yes, digressing...)"
"or can you try to think things in a better way?"
"i'm already at my best. btw, if one day you see me getting a complete change and care nothing in this world, you might just see me (does a gesture of jumping off a building) like that you know?"
"but.. i'm not asking you to be totally different. i'm hoping you can try. or have you tried this before?"
"(not answering me) well, you won't understand what i'm doing...(then started to read his textbook in tax or smth...)"
"... (finished my drink n tears were kinda flowing out while drinking. mum was kinda trying to strike a convo about where i'm gonna study later. i kept total silence. perhaps she saw. anw, left the both of them immediately aft the drink."
i never stopped crying. that's when i thought of what i planted in the tree yest. 'avoid quarrels with mum n dad'... ya, there's a mini quarrel, n now prolly a cold war. i have abs no idea how to keep a commitment. what i hoped was to try tell dad what i learnt n what he could learn too. but apparently he took things wrongly. hey anyone out there! tell me what insensitive thing i've done!!!!!!! Arghhhh!!! !~@#)!!
so, dad n mum just came by n saw me crying. yea, she's tearing too. but dad said this "so it's bcoz of that!??" both then left. n dad shouted this at the damn bloody top of the freaking voice " the both of you are mad!!"
i dunno. i really wish if i can counsel him...
btw, praise me for the vulgarities i used... i mean, not so offensive right? :PLabels: #$%^
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Saturday, 4 August 2007-)
+8/04/2007 08:22:00 pm]*
Title: blur-
ello...
i need enlightenment. can anyone tell me how many cliques are there altogether in drama?? yep, the bored me on the bus just drew a map that tries to link up everyone during the times when i notice them. in sessions, breaks. whatever. but what i found out was quite surprising.
so far there's two big cliques. five small ones. two of the seven overlap at times. four freelancers. two suck ups. and there are two that I'm unsure of. yea. these are just those whom i do think are gonna be permanent for the rest of the year.
appalling. the only thing that i can think of. hearing of things that are so unreal from people tells me they deserve all the f**k they get. so what if there're different groups? can't they think of accepting others' faults and forgive them? even if they can't, is there no way people try to convince the rest to get to good terms? why on earth must those who are ending the teenage life very soon still act like infants? things just get nasty when one dislikes person x, almost all hate it. what f**king hell this is??
still, if you guys believe that the drama spirit has turned sour and it's getting corrosive, i am always here to listen...
but most importantly, stay happy with life. and if possible, update me of the bitching too ::winks::!! yea. shine me from the darkness.Labels: #$%^, advices, backstab, complains, curses, smiles?, strength, troubles, unfair
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Sunday, 29 July 2007-)
+7/29/2007 08:39:00 pm]*
Title: Reflections-
hey.
i've been finding myself very unreal and irritating to many others. like doing things that do not please people in any way. or at least that's what i do feel. or even, that's when i start to believe that i'm a hated figure in many's eyes. it's like, cheating in truth or dare game, unknowingly disturbing others when they're busy, randomly talking to others without knowing if they're free or happy to talk to... too many.
please bless me that i'll let this problem soon enough and be back to my own ways without being a fake shell that hides all my characteristics to others. free me.Labels: #$%^
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Friday, 27 July 2007-)
+7/27/2007 10:24:00 pm]*
Title: Gameover-
the storm's just my type of day.
things just went like a piece of shit. it's like, ever after things went spreading through people, that same day was the one that killed everything. ok, even kj knows about it. the super quiet one. but real sad that i completely lost all that feeling. it went like this, seeing her after school and trying to strike a convo with her made her get pissed. totally far too off, ridiculous thing. so, i really saddened. now i'm over her now. but it's a pity that they only found out today.Labels: #$%^
yup, so that's what happened (:
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blog
(Saturday, 13 October 2007-)
+10/13/2007 09:57:00 am]*
Title: Wasted-
Hey
i didn't enjoy the open house yesterday. i was so tired that my enthu lasted like... 5mins?? should be.. anw, this stupid feeling dragged me towards being anti-social. or perhaps, useless in the promotion of the sch. ya.
then out of nowhere finding myself running out from the weirdest group of crowds... and, saw that left that ...little sister/ girlfriend/ pal/ partner (whichever!!)... for the day off to somewhere else. feel so sorry for her :-o "sorry jie jie" hahaha!! :D ... looking back, thought i should have been frank about this. so that others would leave me alone. yet, the entire coordination of everyone in our group was kinda in chaos. or at least, i felt.
don't tell me i'm pessimistic. but i'm the type where i tend to fill the gaps, and in this case, everyone were busy ahead with the displaying of their talents that made the booth a complete waste. i mean, there was no need for the second board, 3 other chairs... so on. when people asked about us.. there's this sense that everyone would stare at each other before answering.
fine. we didn't talk about our booth in the end, cuz we had nothing to say. then almost every performer got distracted by fin. even so, i thought that bev shouldn't let go of her anger straight away. and, hello! she might affect others.!! it's not the matter of whose mood was carried away by the way...
one nice thing was the varied outfits, despite some odd ones, ya. or maybe, the whacks on the shuttle made my life abit better..
oh!! i've got this formula for this year's people...
hockey = pretty
dance = hot
drama = cute
volleyball = mixed of all...
ps.. don't me wrong... ya!!
so, i thought i could asked tiff what happened. it seems that there were horrid things. perhaps that's a good sign, at least those who gave her trouble most prolly won't even consider this sch. oh btw, i bet no one likes them too.
lastly, wished that wanyu can get over with that soon. please let her know that there're so many friends in the world who are having the same problem.. or similar ones.
btw, gotta admire the way people can stay at mad jacks and wait for 30 mins before ordering, then leave that place in 2.5 hours later.. marvy!! haha :D
try to smile world!! (:
BECAUSE YOU ARE GOD'S GREATEST GIFT TO MANKIND.Labels: #$%^, backstab, complains, concentrate?, emo, events, play, reflection, wishyawell
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Saturday, 29 September 2007-)
+9/29/2007 08:52:00 am]*
Title: morals or morales?-
exams now are demoralising. maths are problematic for losing the steam during the paper, meanwhile using the excuse of having a blank mind never seems right.
so, tons of things happened. worsened things. or maybe the grafitti tiff jie jie drew made things a little better i guess...
ok, i've got this feelin that marian's cousin doesn't trust me or smth. it's like.. he was tryin to tell tiff something then for that tiny split second, he glanced at me. the next moment, he said nothing. i dunno, maybe i'm thinkin too much, but this actually kicked off my moody life at starbucks. wish that this it just my illusion. ya. or maybe i've been faced with the so many different types of people these days who curse and swear and give bad comments that i hurt someone this time round. hope i was wrong or i can turn things round.
hell came at night. wanyu's scream was chaos. it's mad for her to do this, but really, chuck should have been in a betta attitude. it's like, even if the first step was wrong, maybe he should have tried to make up in the next?? marian n cuiyi scolded him, but that optimistic... fark!!!! no, act big attitude was just urghhhh. another thing was that thank whoeva who calmed things on either side. i actually felt disgusted by the scream. in the end, she just went back to her way of gossipin n b*ching.. perhaps she'd have known all sorts of ppl exist. no?
sis olivia sent an email about her last day at work. honestly, the words "is nothing but a happy ending" just sounds like some assurance or smth. yes it should be. then, for the N years i've known her, she'd never open her heart thru laughter for others. but there's smth i won't be worryin. it's her faith. wish her well.
peace to allLabels: #$%^, curses, fights, grafitti, smiles?, strength, Thanksgiving, troubles, trust, wishyawell
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Thursday, 27 September 2007-)
+9/27/2007 06:37:00 pm]*
Title: screwdrivers-
Super screwed papers these days.
Life's so mad that I seriously need a map -
I'm completely lost!
Eg.?
I realised I've turned into a mad mugga
Dumping all my eq
N losing my patience on evryfing...
Would have scolded people for blockin at bus stop too!
But... I'm still kind, I know. -.-'''
btw, Can You Guys Don't KC Me Theze Days??
There Is Nothing For Ya To Guess... (best is that you study for everything...)
::sigh:: I can't stop ya either if that's your way of de-stressin...
I'M SO SORRY TO SAY THIS, BUT TIFFANIE JIE JIE IS ... ... kinda crazy (: haha!!
smiles, or abit la... (:Labels: #$%^, smiles?
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Tuesday, 18 September 2007-)
+9/18/2007 12:00:00 am]*
Title: Lost My Words-
Hey.
Terence hates the way things turn out. The feeling of being kept in the dark is shit. All the more is that two people are actually doing that. Both of which I've worked quite closely this year. One of them even better. Yes, when there's some forms of tone and languages that spilled out in the middle of breaks here and there which were extremely disturbing.
Now, the virus thinks I'm a super threat to him that I'll actually torture him LIKE the way he did to me since a few months ago. Why the fuck must he believe that once I find out I'll spread to the whole world. Fine, perhaps this person don't know me yet. Or maybe, he has only seen this side of me being slashed by his every word of jokes. Rather, I've not known him well enough to gain his trust I guess...
The other one?? Lost for words.
Tried to bring a (: but this bothered me for the entire day... Hope it gets better tomorrow.Labels: #$%^
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Sunday, 26 August 2007-)
+8/26/2007 11:33:00 am]*
Title: Encouragement-
it's retreat yest.
there're tons of fun things, like having ppl in my grp 17. nadine, erika, nicholas, ian, milu, bianca, kelvin n me!!
it's very heartening that no one actually isolated me since i'm not a catholic n knew nuts about some things.
thankfully, fantastic facil. valerie. put me into active participation n tried to include me in some grp things.
some activities were very insightful, made me re-think into my life n some who seem to be weak at times.
despite during a talk when i dozed off a little...
SO, people were asking me if i'm interested in being baptised (i have no idea if i'm spelling it right, sorry!).
but the thing's that mum n dad aren't really into supporting me in this!
anw, moments ago, i tried to convince dad with what i learnt these two days to stay a little positive in life instead of being so critical in his word when telling abt his life at work.
here's the convo.
"hey dad, i'm just thinking if you can stay a little optimistic in life? (he was complaining about the food in the coffee shop nearest to my house to MUM n I, not to the shop keeper. yet he always go to that same old place...)"
"well, i go by my principle... trying to help others. actually, i'm envious of your aunt... (yes, digressing...)"
"or can you try to think things in a better way?"
"i'm already at my best. btw, if one day you see me getting a complete change and care nothing in this world, you might just see me (does a gesture of jumping off a building) like that you know?"
"but.. i'm not asking you to be totally different. i'm hoping you can try. or have you tried this before?"
"(not answering me) well, you won't understand what i'm doing...(then started to read his textbook in tax or smth...)"
"... (finished my drink n tears were kinda flowing out while drinking. mum was kinda trying to strike a convo about where i'm gonna study later. i kept total silence. perhaps she saw. anw, left the both of them immediately aft the drink."
i never stopped crying. that's when i thought of what i planted in the tree yest. 'avoid quarrels with mum n dad'... ya, there's a mini quarrel, n now prolly a cold war. i have abs no idea how to keep a commitment. what i hoped was to try tell dad what i learnt n what he could learn too. but apparently he took things wrongly. hey anyone out there! tell me what insensitive thing i've done!!!!!!! Arghhhh!!! !~@#)!!
so, dad n mum just came by n saw me crying. yea, she's tearing too. but dad said this "so it's bcoz of that!??" both then left. n dad shouted this at the damn bloody top of the freaking voice " the both of you are mad!!"
i dunno. i really wish if i can counsel him...
btw, praise me for the vulgarities i used... i mean, not so offensive right? :PLabels: #$%^
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Saturday, 4 August 2007-)
+8/04/2007 08:22:00 pm]*
Title: blur-
ello...
i need enlightenment. can anyone tell me how many cliques are there altogether in drama?? yep, the bored me on the bus just drew a map that tries to link up everyone during the times when i notice them. in sessions, breaks. whatever. but what i found out was quite surprising.
so far there's two big cliques. five small ones. two of the seven overlap at times. four freelancers. two suck ups. and there are two that I'm unsure of. yea. these are just those whom i do think are gonna be permanent for the rest of the year.
appalling. the only thing that i can think of. hearing of things that are so unreal from people tells me they deserve all the f**k they get. so what if there're different groups? can't they think of accepting others' faults and forgive them? even if they can't, is there no way people try to convince the rest to get to good terms? why on earth must those who are ending the teenage life very soon still act like infants? things just get nasty when one dislikes person x, almost all hate it. what f**king hell this is??
still, if you guys believe that the drama spirit has turned sour and it's getting corrosive, i am always here to listen...
but most importantly, stay happy with life. and if possible, update me of the bitching too ::winks::!! yea. shine me from the darkness.Labels: #$%^, advices, backstab, complains, curses, smiles?, strength, troubles, unfair
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Sunday, 29 July 2007-)
+7/29/2007 08:39:00 pm]*
Title: Reflections-
hey.
i've been finding myself very unreal and irritating to many others. like doing things that do not please people in any way. or at least that's what i do feel. or even, that's when i start to believe that i'm a hated figure in many's eyes. it's like, cheating in truth or dare game, unknowingly disturbing others when they're busy, randomly talking to others without knowing if they're free or happy to talk to... too many.
please bless me that i'll let this problem soon enough and be back to my own ways without being a fake shell that hides all my characteristics to others. free me.Labels: #$%^
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Friday, 27 July 2007-)
+7/27/2007 10:24:00 pm]*
Title: Gameover-
the storm's just my type of day.
things just went like a piece of shit. it's like, ever after things went spreading through people, that same day was the one that killed everything. ok, even kj knows about it. the super quiet one. but real sad that i completely lost all that feeling. it went like this, seeing her after school and trying to strike a convo with her made her get pissed. totally far too off, ridiculous thing. so, i really saddened. now i'm over her now. but it's a pity that they only found out today.Labels: #$%^
yup, so that's what happened (:
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