xxx typed*:
mind (blog)
(Saturday, 29 September 2007-)
+9/29/2007 08:52:00 am]*
Title: morals or morales?-
exams now are demoralising. maths are problematic for losing the steam during the paper, meanwhile using the excuse of having a blank mind never seems right.
so, tons of things happened. worsened things. or maybe the grafitti tiff jie jie drew made things a little better i guess...
ok, i've got this feelin that marian's cousin doesn't trust me or smth. it's like.. he was tryin to tell tiff something then for that tiny split second, he glanced at me. the next moment, he said nothing. i dunno, maybe i'm thinkin too much, but this actually kicked off my moody life at starbucks. wish that this it just my illusion. ya. or maybe i've been faced with the so many different types of people these days who curse and swear and give bad comments that i hurt someone this time round. hope i was wrong or i can turn things round.
hell came at night. wanyu's scream was chaos. it's mad for her to do this, but really, chuck should have been in a betta attitude. it's like, even if the first step was wrong, maybe he should have tried to make up in the next?? marian n cuiyi scolded him, but that optimistic... fark!!!! no, act big attitude was just urghhhh. another thing was that thank whoeva who calmed things on either side. i actually felt disgusted by the scream. in the end, she just went back to her way of gossipin n b*ching.. perhaps she'd have known all sorts of ppl exist. no?
sis olivia sent an email about her last day at work. honestly, the words "is nothing but a happy ending" just sounds like some assurance or smth. yes it should be. then, for the N years i've known her, she'd never open her heart thru laughter for others. but there's smth i won't be worryin. it's her faith. wish her well.
peace to allLabels: #$%^, curses, fights, grafitti, smiles?, strength, Thanksgiving, troubles, trust, wishyawell
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Friday, 7 September 2007-)
+9/07/2007 11:45:00 pm]*
Title: Words of Wisdom-
things can turn for the better or for the worse... its important to be content, to have the courage to change the things we can, the serenity to accept the things we cannot, and the wisdom to know the difference
yea, that's what dom said to me moments ago... ok la. i'll try to forget her and really recover, then mug super duper hard... trust me, ever since i broke my damn promise by going out. i'm not gonna slack again.
but she's still attractive... just let go of the past and fight for promos!! yea. hahaha :DLabels: advices, dominic, Intelligence, Thanksgiving
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Tuesday, 7 August 2007-)
+8/07/2007 09:18:00 pm]*
Title: sick-
hey.
terence is sick today. ya. what lame start. anyway, both in and outside also ill.
so... let's see the outside first. the super enthu me was so into mugging that put me on coca cola drugs n lasted me through the silent night at two. erm, actually doing overdue hw like maths n econs. ya. then this morning, walked like a zombie to wherever i went.
now, going to the psychological part. in lt3 today, the adeno-karjuno-virus struck. alright. i meant kj finally couldn't stop disturbing me when previously, he only gave those funny smirks. yet today, he did much more horrendous things.
it's when kj n lis were right behind her seat n peacefully waiting for me to enter the lt door. i'm usually one of those last few of the class to get in n so, as usual, i scan the whole place for my class. n it's very norm to catch a glimpse of her. when i found that my beloved class were behind her class, a little excited in fact. but before i step any closer, a long bamboo-like person named kj were right behind her. apparently he's eagerly waiting to gimme that smile again. but i acted blur n ignored him n got a seat beside j lo. no choice actually. for being late. that's why the view was a total shit. yet, for some kinda reason, j lo went to the loo n the despo me just snatched his seat. sit beside matthias. a much better seat. at least closer to kj n try to shut his damn mouth up. but more imptly, seeing the adorable face...
during the lect. the tcher was so useless that there's absolute time for lis n kj to write stuff on my notes. liselle's words are ok, but kj's ones made me to draw more stuff just to hide the word that he's been forcing me to lip-read from him every time he feels like giving me trouble. ok, this actually made me feel the sudden urge to decorate the part of the page with literature stuff like shakespeare n times of the 1800s. yea. globe theatre. quotes from him... n whole lots of trash. (-btw, all thanks to eldds last time for me to digress on my notes...)
so, i think after all the beggings n pleads not to start talking anything unnecessary in which i so dearly failed. i really think the class have made the secret very clear already. or maybe, she might even know it too!! but anyway, there wasn't any problems going on after the lect n things seemed to be alright. relax a little for now i guess...
but it's quite funny to see n hear someone scream in the lt just because she leaned back n broke the chair...:D
so... i was supposed to be super dead today, but by the time i finished defending myself from all the evil acts from kj, the rest of the time was sleep. even in the miss han's class. gp tut. yup. even the a-little-pretty female tcher couldn't keep me awake. how pathetic i am.
btw, thanks to those who cared for me. as in concerned about me being sick. belle, maple, cailing, tiff, chris...
and also, wish those who are also sick, like debbie n chris to get well soon!!
peace^.^v!!Labels: clarabelle, fights, kj, kpo, nickwah, smiles?, Thanksgiving, troubles, wishyawell
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Tuesday, 31 July 2007-)
+7/31/2007 09:06:00 pm]*
Title: Lessons-
heyyyyyyyyy.
i'm chao! tired. feel like everything's over. no more troubles. yay!! speaking of trouble, it reminds me of the 茶煲s people have been giving me these days. but, i will always forgive them. not forgetting them though. yea. learnt alot today.
one was at sd. be understanding. not in the way that many always do; by quoting without understanding. but feel for those who wish to express their feelings. just can't reali describe in words here. yea.
learnt to manage my temperament even though many busybodies would have been observing me n my reactions whenever some special things happen. haha, starting to get mysterious... btw, dee ang's still a good lecturer. can balance between content teaching n sleep-management. that's why he's still my best tcher, though i still suck at his subject.
realised that chem is the only subject that doesn't need to mug alot. doing tuts r just enough to get past tests. well, see how things turn out when results come out!! and... if not reali that good, sorry to those around me!! like hongtaa, eunice, yuhao... hope u peeped the correct ones!! btw, also to try n shut some bloody lips from some assholes whose enthusiasm has become a pain in the neck for others. eg. nick.
found that people are actually concerned about me. example one. denis was jumping and in an excited mood or smth after school while trying to help when she had some kinda inspiration from her sd lesson. hm, thanks so much. but really, seeing her in such a hopeful mind and... err... her tiny little size made me believe she's abit like a little angel, or cupid, n trying her very best to get the most out of everything.
numberrrrr... alrightTT! i'll stop being retarded n list all the things that i never remember. still, even if i missed anything, hope they're remembered by others who had good times recalling them.
I had my share, wish you had yours too!!
another thing. help me to learn that life's full of things that awaits us despite some setbacks. yeah, i think clare did it completely.
i feel much relieved now, after the hectic eom. but alot more things r needed to be done! recruitment, tutorials, planning... sounds a little, but it takes a long time for a good piece of work. really.
what's lost cannot be taken.Labels: advices, blessed, Intelligence, kpo, nickwah, pain, reflection, smiles, Thanksgiving
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Wednesday, 18 July 2007-)
+7/18/2007 06:04:00 pm]*
Title: code, or quotes?-
hey.
this title is dedicated to yza for being confused with the pronounciation of the two words about the wr yesterday. or the day before? oh, forgot completely... but, amazing foreigners we have in the class...
drama serials. i hate them at times. for the entire life of shows, they always tend to tell us the idealistic of life, like 緣份是要自己爭取... pardon me for using trad. chinese... but yea, sounds logical. but it's these unreal things, together with the negative ones, that leave us hanging in mid-air. the notion of dunno whether the wings will stop flappin or if they will continue to lift us is scary. just like the do-or-die times.
for myself, the most common approach is to start talking to her, and hoping she'll accept me and stuff like that; it was my sole intention since the start - just to impress her by being one of the best, if not the only, in all sorts things - for myself to do so much ****, even tiring myself to the extreme for a place in the exco. yup, sounds like the perfect way of life. but so what? does it mean she'll definitely notice it? or will this be miraculously told to her out of nowhere? so what if she knows of it? be accepted straightaway as if i'm going for an interview and believing that showing off all the previous certificates will guarantee me something? that's when i started to ask myself why on earth do i commit myself to never-growing, lame-and-idiotic actions like staring, for half a milli second, whenever i spot her in school, or try to gain every opportunity to surf the net... conclusion? to know more about someone who has good looks (-ok, that's besides the point...), can behave so differently with lots of fun and laughter in school yet feel so down when getting to the com at night, and most importantly, admire her personality to stay strong despite the setbacks that has happened.
then there's other lines that try to balance the magical world of perfection with the obstacles in life by giving statements like... ok, i forgot the exact words, but it's something about this idea; 鍾意一個人唔一定要同佢係埋一齊. it meant that liking someone doesn't mean that both must come together. true, if things are one-sided, it's pointless. so i'll just let things fix itself out for the time being...
well, enough of trash. so, lizzy finally found out. but actually she'd known it centuries ago... there're so many clues with the so many contacts she had. well, good for her. and for moments ago, i just realised that more people are knowing this already. just hope that i can rest in peace while i try to get better with some stupid illness.
btw, thanks to denis for givin advices aft drama today... but still, back to same old rule. wait till i recover.
smiles Labels: chinese, creepy, fantasies, hallucination, QnA, smiles, Thanksgiving
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Wednesday, 20 June 2007-)
+6/20/2007 12:56:00 pm]*
Title: Yo ho!! Backy!!-
hey the previous days were fantastic.
the things that gave me lots of laughter,
forced me to be smarter,
made me believe that i can care for one another.
then some things were simply fabulouso.
sneaked into a casino,
and right beside goofy, posed!
but there were things that made me sad
when my stomach turned bad,
the irritating electric woolen blanket forced me mad,
the coughing illness went into dad,
disliked the suckky sleeping hours i had...
i also finally understand,
who the hell i am.
not that we had a bad camp,
just that the path is again brightened with a lamp.
but love and life's precious,
don't lose it.
be cautious,
it might just be the deadliest.Labels: holiday, Thanksgiving
yup, so that's what happened (:
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xxx typed*:
blog
(Saturday, 29 September 2007-)
+9/29/2007 08:52:00 am]*
Title: morals or morales?-
exams now are demoralising. maths are problematic for losing the steam during the paper, meanwhile using the excuse of having a blank mind never seems right.
so, tons of things happened. worsened things. or maybe the grafitti tiff jie jie drew made things a little better i guess...
ok, i've got this feelin that marian's cousin doesn't trust me or smth. it's like.. he was tryin to tell tiff something then for that tiny split second, he glanced at me. the next moment, he said nothing. i dunno, maybe i'm thinkin too much, but this actually kicked off my moody life at starbucks. wish that this it just my illusion. ya. or maybe i've been faced with the so many different types of people these days who curse and swear and give bad comments that i hurt someone this time round. hope i was wrong or i can turn things round.
hell came at night. wanyu's scream was chaos. it's mad for her to do this, but really, chuck should have been in a betta attitude. it's like, even if the first step was wrong, maybe he should have tried to make up in the next?? marian n cuiyi scolded him, but that optimistic... fark!!!! no, act big attitude was just urghhhh. another thing was that thank whoeva who calmed things on either side. i actually felt disgusted by the scream. in the end, she just went back to her way of gossipin n b*ching.. perhaps she'd have known all sorts of ppl exist. no?
sis olivia sent an email about her last day at work. honestly, the words "is nothing but a happy ending" just sounds like some assurance or smth. yes it should be. then, for the N years i've known her, she'd never open her heart thru laughter for others. but there's smth i won't be worryin. it's her faith. wish her well.
peace to allLabels: #$%^, curses, fights, grafitti, smiles?, strength, Thanksgiving, troubles, trust, wishyawell
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Friday, 7 September 2007-)
+9/07/2007 11:45:00 pm]*
Title: Words of Wisdom-
things can turn for the better or for the worse... its important to be content, to have the courage to change the things we can, the serenity to accept the things we cannot, and the wisdom to know the difference
yea, that's what dom said to me moments ago... ok la. i'll try to forget her and really recover, then mug super duper hard... trust me, ever since i broke my damn promise by going out. i'm not gonna slack again.
but she's still attractive... just let go of the past and fight for promos!! yea. hahaha :DLabels: advices, dominic, Intelligence, Thanksgiving
yup, so that's what happened (:
________________________________________________________________________________
(Tuesday, 7 August 2007-)
+8/07/2007 09:18:00 pm]*
Title: sick-
hey.
terence is sick today. ya. what lame start. anyway, both in and outside also ill.
so... let's see the outside first. the super enthu me was so into mugging that put me on coca cola drugs n lasted me through the silent night at two. erm, actually doing overdue hw like maths n econs. ya. then this morning, walked like a zombie to wherever i went.
now, going to the psychological part. in lt3 today, the adeno-karjuno-virus struck. alright. i meant kj finally couldn't stop disturbing me when previously, he only gave those funny smirks. yet today, he did much more horrendous things.
it's when kj n lis were right behind her seat n peacefully waiting for me to enter the lt door. i'm usually one of those last few of the class to get in n so, as usual, i scan the whole place for my class. n it's very norm to catch a glimpse of her. when i found that my beloved class were behind her class, a little excited in fact. but before i step any closer, a long bamboo-like person named kj were right behind her. apparently he's eagerly waiting to gimme that smile again. but i acted blur n ignored him n got a seat beside j lo. no choice actually. for being late. that's why the view was a total shit. yet, for some kinda reason, j lo went to the loo n the despo me just snatched his seat. sit beside matthias. a much better seat. at least closer to kj n try to shut his damn mouth up. but more imptly, seeing the adorable face...
during the lect. the tcher was so useless that there's absolute time for lis n kj to write stuff on my notes. liselle's words are ok, but kj's ones made me to draw more stuff just to hide the word that he's been forcing me to lip-read from him every time he feels like giving me trouble. ok, this actually made me feel the sudden urge to decorate the part of the page with literature stuff like shakespeare n times of the 1800s. yea. globe theatre. quotes from him... n whole lots of trash. (-btw, all thanks to eldds last time for me to digress on my notes...)
so, i think after all the beggings n pleads not to start talking anything unnecessary in which i so dearly failed. i really think the class have made the secret very clear already. or maybe, she might even know it too!! but anyway, there wasn't any problems going on after the lect n things seemed to be alright. relax a little for now i guess...
but it's quite funny to see n hear someone scream in the lt just because she leaned back n broke the chair...:D
so... i was supposed to be super dead today, but by the time i finished defending myself from all the evil acts from kj, the rest of the time was sleep. even in the miss han's class. gp tut. yup. even the a-little-pretty female tcher couldn't keep me awake. how pathetic i am.
btw, thanks to those who cared for me. as in concerned about me being sick. belle, maple, cailing, tiff, chris...
and also, wish those who are also sick, like debbie n chris to get well soon!!
peace^.^v!!Labels: clarabelle, fights, kj, kpo, nickwah, smiles?, Thanksgiving, troubles, wishyawell
yup, so that's what happened (:
________________________________________________________________________________
(Tuesday, 31 July 2007-)
+7/31/2007 09:06:00 pm]*
Title: Lessons-
heyyyyyyyyy.
i'm chao! tired. feel like everything's over. no more troubles. yay!! speaking of trouble, it reminds me of the 茶煲s people have been giving me these days. but, i will always forgive them. not forgetting them though. yea. learnt alot today.
one was at sd. be understanding. not in the way that many always do; by quoting without understanding. but feel for those who wish to express their feelings. just can't reali describe in words here. yea.
learnt to manage my temperament even though many busybodies would have been observing me n my reactions whenever some special things happen. haha, starting to get mysterious... btw, dee ang's still a good lecturer. can balance between content teaching n sleep-management. that's why he's still my best tcher, though i still suck at his subject.
realised that chem is the only subject that doesn't need to mug alot. doing tuts r just enough to get past tests. well, see how things turn out when results come out!! and... if not reali that good, sorry to those around me!! like hongtaa, eunice, yuhao... hope u peeped the correct ones!! btw, also to try n shut some bloody lips from some assholes whose enthusiasm has become a pain in the neck for others. eg. nick.
found that people are actually concerned about me. example one. denis was jumping and in an excited mood or smth after school while trying to help when she had some kinda inspiration from her sd lesson. hm, thanks so much. but really, seeing her in such a hopeful mind and... err... her tiny little size made me believe she's abit like a little angel, or cupid, n trying her very best to get the most out of everything.
numberrrrr... alrightTT! i'll stop being retarded n list all the things that i never remember. still, even if i missed anything, hope they're remembered by others who had good times recalling them.
I had my share, wish you had yours too!!
another thing. help me to learn that life's full of things that awaits us despite some setbacks. yeah, i think clare did it completely.
i feel much relieved now, after the hectic eom. but alot more things r needed to be done! recruitment, tutorials, planning... sounds a little, but it takes a long time for a good piece of work. really.
what's lost cannot be taken.Labels: advices, blessed, Intelligence, kpo, nickwah, pain, reflection, smiles, Thanksgiving
yup, so that's what happened (:
________________________________________________________________________________
(Wednesday, 18 July 2007-)
+7/18/2007 06:04:00 pm]*
Title: code, or quotes?-
hey.
this title is dedicated to yza for being confused with the pronounciation of the two words about the wr yesterday. or the day before? oh, forgot completely... but, amazing foreigners we have in the class...
drama serials. i hate them at times. for the entire life of shows, they always tend to tell us the idealistic of life, like 緣份是要自己爭取... pardon me for using trad. chinese... but yea, sounds logical. but it's these unreal things, together with the negative ones, that leave us hanging in mid-air. the notion of dunno whether the wings will stop flappin or if they will continue to lift us is scary. just like the do-or-die times.
for myself, the most common approach is to start talking to her, and hoping she'll accept me and stuff like that; it was my sole intention since the start - just to impress her by being one of the best, if not the only, in all sorts things - for myself to do so much ****, even tiring myself to the extreme for a place in the exco. yup, sounds like the perfect way of life. but so what? does it mean she'll definitely notice it? or will this be miraculously told to her out of nowhere? so what if she knows of it? be accepted straightaway as if i'm going for an interview and believing that showing off all the previous certificates will guarantee me something? that's when i started to ask myself why on earth do i commit myself to never-growing, lame-and-idiotic actions like staring, for half a milli second, whenever i spot her in school, or try to gain every opportunity to surf the net... conclusion? to know more about someone who has good looks (-ok, that's besides the point...), can behave so differently with lots of fun and laughter in school yet feel so down when getting to the com at night, and most importantly, admire her personality to stay strong despite the setbacks that has happened.
then there's other lines that try to balance the magical world of perfection with the obstacles in life by giving statements like... ok, i forgot the exact words, but it's something about this idea; 鍾意一個人唔一定要同佢係埋一齊. it meant that liking someone doesn't mean that both must come together. true, if things are one-sided, it's pointless. so i'll just let things fix itself out for the time being...
well, enough of trash. so, lizzy finally found out. but actually she'd known it centuries ago... there're so many clues with the so many contacts she had. well, good for her. and for moments ago, i just realised that more people are knowing this already. just hope that i can rest in peace while i try to get better with some stupid illness.
btw, thanks to denis for givin advices aft drama today... but still, back to same old rule. wait till i recover.
smiles Labels: chinese, creepy, fantasies, hallucination, QnA, smiles, Thanksgiving
yup, so that's what happened (:
________________________________________________________________________________
(Wednesday, 20 June 2007-)
+6/20/2007 12:56:00 pm]*
Title: Yo ho!! Backy!!-
hey the previous days were fantastic.
the things that gave me lots of laughter,
forced me to be smarter,
made me believe that i can care for one another.
then some things were simply fabulouso.
sneaked into a casino,
and right beside goofy, posed!
but there were things that made me sad
when my stomach turned bad,
the irritating electric woolen blanket forced me mad,
the coughing illness went into dad,
disliked the suckky sleeping hours i had...
i also finally understand,
who the hell i am.
not that we had a bad camp,
just that the path is again brightened with a lamp.
but love and life's precious,
don't lose it.
be cautious,
it might just be the deadliest.Labels: holiday, Thanksgiving
yup, so that's what happened (:
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