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(Saturday, 13 October 2007-)
+10/13/2007 09:57:00 am]*

Title: Wasted-

Hey

i didn't enjoy the open house yesterday. i was so tired that my enthu lasted like... 5mins?? should be.. anw, this stupid feeling dragged me towards being anti-social. or perhaps, useless in the promotion of the sch. ya.

then out of nowhere finding myself running out from the weirdest group of crowds... and, saw that left that ...little sister/ girlfriend/ pal/ partner (whichever!!)... for the day off to somewhere else. feel so sorry for her :-o "sorry jie jie" hahaha!! :D ... looking back, thought i should have been frank about this. so that others would leave me alone. yet, the entire coordination of everyone in our group was kinda in chaos. or at least, i felt.

don't tell me i'm pessimistic. but i'm the type where i tend to fill the gaps, and in this case, everyone were busy ahead with the displaying of their talents that made the booth a complete waste. i mean, there was no need for the second board, 3 other chairs... so on. when people asked about us.. there's this sense that everyone would stare at each other before answering.

fine. we didn't talk about our booth in the end, cuz we had nothing to say. then almost every performer got distracted by fin. even so, i thought that bev shouldn't let go of her anger straight away. and, hello! she might affect others.!! it's not the matter of whose mood was carried away by the way...

one nice thing was the varied outfits, despite some odd ones, ya. or maybe, the whacks on the shuttle made my life abit better..

oh!! i've got this formula for this year's people...
hockey = pretty
dance = hot
drama = cute
volleyball = mixed of all...
ps.. don't me wrong... ya!!

so, i thought i could asked tiff what happened. it seems that there were horrid things. perhaps that's a good sign, at least those who gave her trouble most prolly won't even consider this sch. oh btw, i bet no one likes them too.

lastly, wished that wanyu can get over with that soon. please let her know that there're so many friends in the world who are having the same problem.. or similar ones.

btw, gotta admire the way people can stay at mad jacks and wait for 30 mins before ordering, then leave that place in 2.5 hours later.. marvy!! haha :D

try to smile world!! (:
BECAUSE YOU ARE GOD'S GREATEST GIFT TO MANKIND.

Labels: #$%^, backstab, complains, concentrate?, emo, events, play, reflection, wishyawell

yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Monday, 6 August 2007-)
+8/06/2007 09:29:00 pm]*

Title: rebirth-

*Born Again
Live Again
Rise Again*

that's what eldds brought me. a motto to remember. apparently i my mind died yesterday when i subconsciously penned this on paper...

save me.
i'm living in a cell,
the world of darkenss with a little glimpse of light as entertainment.
hardly anyone who knows me will get what i'm thinking.
the light that enters is such fine strip that allows me to see only the little of the limited desires i have.
the complaints i made will echo in a louder, cruder, ruder tone that bursts my ear drums.
the punches i exert will only cause the marks on my knuckles to be redder.
the tears rolling will speed up with any blow through me.
save me.

save me.
lonely fella with useless possessions mean nothing can be done in the cell.
then many times, thick ropes try to fit into the hole to bring me out of the prison.
but the rope is nowhere to be seen by the time it fits the hole.
believing shouting for help through the hole was a folly.
it's pointless.
my body is ever-trapped here.
hittng something senseless means damaging oneself the equivalent.
crying means blaming.
save me.

but for some kind of miraculous reason, there's some rebirth feeling right at morn. even doing all the shit stuff at pe and not even getting a glimpse of her then meant nothing at all. alright, please bless me that i'll live again n rise again soon.

and also bless those who are down for the past few days to recover soon. or hope they retain their power for the final challenge at the end of the year.

HAHA! so many hidden things...

Labels: mind, rebirth, reflection, smiles?, stress, troubles, wishyawell

yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Tuesday, 31 July 2007-)
+7/31/2007 09:06:00 pm]*

Title: Lessons-

heyyyyyyyyy.
i'm chao! tired. feel like everything's over. no more troubles. yay!! speaking of trouble, it reminds me of the 茶煲s people have been giving me these days. but, i will always forgive them. not forgetting them though. yea. learnt alot today.

one was at sd. be understanding. not in the way that many always do; by quoting without understanding. but feel for those who wish to express their feelings. just can't reali describe in words here. yea.

learnt to manage my temperament even though many busybodies would have been observing me n my reactions whenever some special things happen. haha, starting to get mysterious... btw, dee ang's still a good lecturer. can balance between content teaching n sleep-management. that's why he's still my best tcher, though i still suck at his subject.

realised that chem is the only subject that doesn't need to mug alot. doing tuts r just enough to get past tests. well, see how things turn out when results come out!! and... if not reali that good, sorry to those around me!! like hongtaa, eunice, yuhao... hope u peeped the correct ones!! btw, also to try n shut some bloody lips from some assholes whose enthusiasm has become a pain in the neck for others. eg. nick.

found that people are actually concerned about me. example one. denis was jumping and in an excited mood or smth after school while trying to help when she had some kinda inspiration from her sd lesson. hm, thanks so much. but really, seeing her in such a hopeful mind and... err... her tiny little size made me believe she's abit like a little angel, or cupid, n trying her very best to get the most out of everything.

numberrrrr... alrightTT! i'll stop being retarded n list all the things that i never remember. still, even if i missed anything, hope they're remembered by others who had good times recalling them.
I had my share, wish you had yours too!!

another thing. help me to learn that life's full of things that awaits us despite some setbacks. yeah, i think clare did it completely.

i feel much relieved now, after the hectic eom. but alot more things r needed to be done! recruitment, tutorials, planning... sounds a little, but it takes a long time for a good piece of work. really.

what's lost cannot be taken.

Labels: advices, blessed, Intelligence, kpo, nickwah, pain, reflection, smiles, Thanksgiving

yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Wednesday, 25 July 2007-)
+7/25/2007 07:10:00 pm]*

Title: sleep-

things are definitely going haywire.
stoning very much in drama after school hours did not help. i know it's very wrong for me that i don't listen much when there's the post session meeting, despite the fact that it does seem a little better that i've asked alot lesser questions that doubted my intelligence for the so many times that happened before. perhaps not this time round i guess...
instead, i kept thinking of the ponytail that tiff had. haha, just feels weird inside. but this instantly reminded me of her. it's too similar!! all the more she's putting this tail these days... well actually, i'm a little excited n abit of nervy that the imaginary she was in the lt.. but, erm.. that's just about the brain playing tricks when one's too tired... yea, and tiff was actually telling me about the fantasies she's going through when receiving some gift from the cute fella from ******. according to her... alright. i think it's best that she stays hopeful about this dream while i shut my darn mouth on this any further. yea.
btw, i think it's quite dead for me to really go ahead with what meiling said. wanting to offer but lacking the power. ya.
and also, thanks to dom for giving 11:23 minute talk about things... not trying to be sarcarstic!! actually, it's just me. i always wanted to join in the fun with all my friends, just that there are some things that no one can really help me unless i sit down n work through things on my own. just like the prayer this morning.

Labels: concentrate?, dominic, fantasies, hallucination, offer, reflection, strength, stress, tails, troubles