xxx typed*:
mind (blog)
(Monday, 6 August 2007-)
+8/06/2007 09:29:00 pm]*
Title: rebirth-
*Born Again
Live Again
Rise Again*
that's what eldds brought me. a motto to remember. apparently i my mind died yesterday when i subconsciously penned this on paper...
save me.
i'm living in a cell,
the world of darkenss with a little glimpse of light as entertainment.
hardly anyone who knows me will get what i'm thinking.
the light that enters is such fine strip that allows me to see only the little of the limited desires i have.
the complaints i made will echo in a louder, cruder, ruder tone that bursts my ear drums.
the punches i exert will only cause the marks on my knuckles to be redder.
the tears rolling will speed up with any blow through me.
save me.
save me.
lonely fella with useless possessions mean nothing can be done in the cell.
then many times, thick ropes try to fit into the hole to bring me out of the prison.
but the rope is nowhere to be seen by the time it fits the hole.
believing shouting for help through the hole was a folly.
it's pointless.
my body is ever-trapped here.
hittng something senseless means damaging oneself the equivalent.
crying means blaming.
save me.
but for some kind of miraculous reason, there's some rebirth feeling right at morn. even doing all the shit stuff at pe and not even getting a glimpse of her then meant nothing at all. alright, please bless me that i'll live again n rise again soon.
and also bless those who are down for the past few days to recover soon. or hope they retain their power for the final challenge at the end of the year.
HAHA! so many hidden things...Labels: mind, rebirth, reflection, smiles?, stress, troubles, wishyawell
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Wednesday, 25 July 2007-)
+7/25/2007 07:10:00 pm]*
Title: sleep-
things are definitely going haywire.
stoning very much in drama after school hours did not help. i know it's very wrong for me that i don't listen much when there's the post session meeting, despite the fact that it does seem a little better that i've asked alot lesser questions that doubted my intelligence for the so many times that happened before. perhaps not this time round i guess...
instead, i kept thinking of the ponytail that tiff had. haha, just feels weird inside. but this instantly reminded me of her. it's too similar!! all the more she's putting this tail these days... well actually, i'm a little excited n abit of nervy that the imaginary she was in the lt.. but, erm.. that's just about the brain playing tricks when one's too tired... yea, and tiff was actually telling me about the fantasies she's going through when receiving some gift from the cute fella from ******. according to her... alright. i think it's best that she stays hopeful about this dream while i shut my darn mouth on this any further. yea.
btw, i think it's quite dead for me to really go ahead with what meiling said. wanting to offer but lacking the power. ya.
and also, thanks to dom for giving 11:23 minute talk about things... not trying to be sarcarstic!! actually, it's just me. i always wanted to join in the fun with all my friends, just that there are some things that no one can really help me unless i sit down n work through things on my own. just like the prayer this morning.Labels: concentrate?, dominic, fantasies, hallucination, offer, reflection, strength, stress, tails, troubles
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Friday, 13 July 2007-)
+7/13/2007 09:38:00 pm]*
Title: match-
heya
i cried just now. it's not the times when i feel like crying like a baby n juz wail like a loser. instead, mum n dad were there... before that, when i yelled at myself ever since mum shouted at me to take the damn drowsy medicine which i didn't wanna take, she's in a terrible mood. until i mentioned she wouldn't have understood what i was feeling. there's juz too many things to do n there's no time to make up for this loss. n i don't wanna lose this too.
anw, there's just too many things that turned haywired today.
still couldn't recover from taking the medicine mum asked me to the night before. felt light-weighted whenever walking in school. even resorted to removing my spects during assembly. yup, i seldom do that. only if i'm just too occupied with gambling on every chance to rest my eyes and possibly, the whole me. but amazingly/shockingly/unexpectedly, asked to do the task of calling ppl for cip. argh. what's new!?? (-i still love the way satiya's accent and i think, aju's actions for these words. so coolios!!). then asked if i can make it for outings these days. um, didn't think much when coming to them. my empty mind juz had no space to think them. for the replies, the best is that people are asking me questions instead of answering them. wth. somemore they don't feel sorry for misinterpreting others' ideas or wasting other's time. well, that's what i really hoped if they're a little polite or better, if they answer to the point la!! ok, perhaps that's my fault. i was not in a mood to entertain or be entertained. in the end, got caps in the reply from wanyu. haha, still don't think she sounds angry. but who cares? the euphoria feeling got me over it. :)
so, wanyu's ok. but gabby sounded pissed in sms. i have no idea whether she's too bored in lesson or whatsoever that she just wanted to sms ppl. i dunno. so, when i'm in physics lecture, concentrated fully. and ignored everything else. quite useful actually. learnt things very well. hmm, but made gabby think i'm being a jackass to leave her in space with no certainties. but there're other things that worsened, i'm sure. very sure. all from the final call. she sounded bored with the so how? type of saying. so hope someone can tell me what actually i did. just most are blinded by giddy head. pardon me. i seriously don't un why so many people are protecting her right from start. it's just my nature to either to do work or have fun what... anw, but to those who did, thanks for your advice though. epecially to hana (-hope i'm right...). it's very meaningful.
so thank dominic for enlightening me that my way was wrong. btw, cailing n meiling were also there. hope they'll also learn much from that, even though his overall convo with chan had so much insights that i found it quite chim n a little hinting would have passed the idea across them so easily. haha :D had lots of fun listening to them. juz reminded me of the smart convo practice. so, think of what should've been done...
as for the so many people whom have been accusing me for an evil fella these few days, i wish to say this. i'm not trying to create chaos amongst people. i just wish to get things done or get my butts in peace. then somemore, so sorry to be trying to beg for mercy or smth lidat, please pardon me for being harsh to anyone. i'm sick n with every possible chance, i'll avoid ppl. the giddyness just made me even diao clarissa in quadrangle today when i never failed to act cool or walk past her quickly since the start of the week. haha, hopeless terence. :D and you see, taking these drowsy drugs yet still wanna stay awake in school is the toughest of all, just like being so stressed up with things yet still gotta do work in drama. not a good example, but hope you un...
felt much relieved when allowed to take rest of my mind since told what happened to cailing. thanks for being such a good listener ^.^v!!
btw, happy birthday DARREN!!
still, i don't believe that seeing her gives no more excitement, even though my eyes just can't stop looking away once i spotted her.
so, as predicted, the d-day arrived. see whether it tallies with my prediction some time ago...http://ebterry.blogspot.com/2007/05/midsummer-nights-bedtime-dream.html
anw, i'm getting tired...it's taking it's effect soon.and i guess i'll have only a limited life from now. btw, what a date today is.
你们休想和我撑到恆,最多你班契弟扑少几条街!! :)Labels: emo, giddy, influence, Intelligence, shagged, smiles, stress
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Thursday, 12 July 2007-)
+7/12/2007 09:12:00 pm]*
Title: Lost-
hey.
i've this feeling that everything's gone since the day started...
felt super duper sianz at morning. even being able to see her in the pac meant nothing to me. or maybe brother michael from sji was much more interesting. yep, he spoke in such a way that he sound like a wise man. i mean, really. he was able to develop his speech that analysed the topics he raised, islam n hindu. in all, good to see that we have people who can interest me alot in speeches. perhaps i should've suggested to go sji centuries ago...
well, also in chem lect. just too tired to do any funny stuff like staring or whatsoever. even though she's about... four seats away? so began my tired journey...
none worth remembering... haha
but it's always weird when i saw many people with some similar tails tied together. try to name some, if i bothered to remember... clarisse, victoria, natalie, pamela (-i think it's this name... meiling's classmate...)... haha. the shape looks like an art paintbrush from far. but when near, there're some who put glued-pigtail. anyway, enough of hair obsession. haha :D sounds like i've been admiring them for ages...
so, trying to help ana with key thingy made some animal bark around the school quadrangle about shells. then for some funny reason, angeline was crazy. haha :D was jogigng back to the class n along the way, angie was posing what i was doing. i really felt like pulling her hair pony tail.. then seeing so many of her class staring n laughing at the two monkeys right in front of them, i just ran past them with a smile :) i suppose they're dismissed from games... how jealous... haha :)
some stupid question given by mr ho.
Three men went to a motel. The motel manager said a room cost $30, so each man put up $10 and went to their room. A little while later the manager realized the room was only $25, so he sent the bellboy back to the three guys room with $5. On the way to the room the bellboy couldn't figure out how to split the $5 evenly between the 3 men, so he gave each one of them $1 and he kept the other $2.
This meant that the 3 men paid $9 each for the room for a total of $27. Add the $2 that the bellboy kept = $29.
Where did the other dollar go?
what crazed one that forced me to run dunno how many rounds...haha :D
i realised that my hands are not reali needed to clap. as long as i remain as my entertainer, others remain happy by watching, i'd love to stay in a situation where there's hope for everything rather than to fight to stay on a tough fight like some others do.Labels: clap, Intelligence, riddle, stress
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Sunday, 8 July 2007-)
+7/08/2007 09:51:00 pm]*
Title: let-
i think it's time to let go. what won't happen will never happen. hope things will just be washed away that easily. cuz i'm getting the feeling that the start'd be crazy. and i'm beginning to think that i might not be able to afford to give up some things... here i am trying to forget, the remembrance gets stronger. i don't know if i'm doing the right thing, but should i wait n think over n over again? or go straight to the point, as in make it or break it? or search for others in the woods? argh!! i give up!!Labels: emo, mind, stress
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Tuesday, 3 July 2007-)
+7/03/2007 08:27:00 pm]*
Title: long day-
救命啊!!今日個班死扑街玩残我啊!!一时有条契弟詰住晒,個投另一条契弟佐住地球转!!
alright, pardon me for my fantastically fouled language in cantonese... just couldn't take it today. btw, i don't think that this language can be understood in mandarin... wth, such complicated things in the chinese thing. oh wells. btw, i don't think any of the six of us survived, so it's kinda amazing that i can still type some crappy stuff now.
first of all, talk about my group. totally new team. denis cailing n someone from cedar's, michelle (-bless me that i'm right...). jeesus christ!! it's a quiet group mann!! the first two were shh, the last was total silence. but can someone please tell her, none of the group members will eat her up. well, i was like this too when sec two... curtain boy... oh!! those days... back to her, she was answering mr chan in such perfect answers as to why did u decide to join into this cip event? ans? oh, it's bcuz we have an arts modulus now n i feel that it might help me in learning arts... i'm just speechless. it's cuz i'm fine with straightforward replies. but maybe, it's what she feels la. sigh, i'm just in bad mood after coffee. btw, she looks like cally. a little i guess...
denis then started distracting me. though one sentence, i couldn't tahan that i stuttered lots of times... cuz it's just in my head all the while.
ic meeting was haywire. all're dead n thankfully i had nothing much to care about.
take care guys, we'll pull through. hope none of us gets sick. (-even if dom's kinda...)Labels: stress
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Monday, 2 July 2007-)
+7/02/2007 09:34:00 am]*
Title: Themeless post-
hey.
i'm bored by the lots of things to do. yup, as always. cuz it's either there's nothing to do or plenty. trashbag... oh wells. i've promised myself to practise for exam tmr, ask chris abt some things (-yes... it's all work...), double-reconfirm on the people tmr, make some notes for the sat thingy, remind maple for class funds and stuff like that. alright, it's here cuz that probably i won't remember all. everyone should have known that, i guess... :D
anyway, i've just found some ppl to add and so surprisingly, me thot of special names ah!!. pro siaz...
so yest, went out with dad to get some IT stuff. yup, cuz he's sick la. and had some... ... giddy medicine. sent as his personal guard... argh. whatever :D. so met shaine, then later mrs ong. kinda surprise though. but things were just the hello gestures. haha, bet they could've been good at lip reading...
ok, i'm trying very hard not to get distracted but the feeling of it seems to come back to whatever i do. things like when i'm revising my spa thingy, or downloading stuff from school website... it's just whole lot of things that's coming to my mind...
fine! this post is too lame, talking things that have no meaning at all, just not the me. jumbled things everywhere!! hope things will turn well.
it's sad when one tries to reach the other n the
other just moves on. the distance will always be the same..
love everyone
around you, and you'll feel the love...
Labels: concentrate?, stress
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Saturday, 23 June 2007-)
+6/23/2007 02:55:00 pm]*
Title: Crashed into pieces-
it seems like there's a huge pile of load up that might just hit me any time. i can't take it anymore. well, here's why.
it's just countdowns to the midyrs and now, two days left. or, 1.5 left... the best thing is, my chem's empty, econs die, maths a 'lil hopeful and can only bank on my last - phys. see, if things go on like this, i won't make past yr 1.
next, the grp has been callin me to attend smth to give baby sharon some sort of farewell. dinesh was like negotiating with me, darren kinda persuaded me... not that i want to miss this thing on purpose, but reali, everyone around's studying hard. and i seriously think that i'll be the only one who seems so confident to have some spare time other than my subjects. but erm, i only started studyin on wednesday. today's saturday.
fine, perhaps i'll find time tmr to study. now as for smth that's after midyrs, had a call that cut off my studying time and blew away my momentum to mug by mr chan. haha, not that serious though. but, he was giving me task that i couldn't even get properly. hearing bits and pieces. and wanted to hear my thoughts n inputs. wth. plan cip that i've nvr done before?? (-well, thanks to pet's translation...) arghh, maybe i'll just leave this alone till mon...
sigh, just carry on with those notes... hope i don't doze off...Labels: shagged, stress
yup, so that's what happened (:
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xxx typed*:
blog
(Monday, 6 August 2007-)
+8/06/2007 09:29:00 pm]*
Title: rebirth-
*Born Again
Live Again
Rise Again*
that's what eldds brought me. a motto to remember. apparently i my mind died yesterday when i subconsciously penned this on paper...
save me.
i'm living in a cell,
the world of darkenss with a little glimpse of light as entertainment.
hardly anyone who knows me will get what i'm thinking.
the light that enters is such fine strip that allows me to see only the little of the limited desires i have.
the complaints i made will echo in a louder, cruder, ruder tone that bursts my ear drums.
the punches i exert will only cause the marks on my knuckles to be redder.
the tears rolling will speed up with any blow through me.
save me.
save me.
lonely fella with useless possessions mean nothing can be done in the cell.
then many times, thick ropes try to fit into the hole to bring me out of the prison.
but the rope is nowhere to be seen by the time it fits the hole.
believing shouting for help through the hole was a folly.
it's pointless.
my body is ever-trapped here.
hittng something senseless means damaging oneself the equivalent.
crying means blaming.
save me.
but for some kind of miraculous reason, there's some rebirth feeling right at morn. even doing all the shit stuff at pe and not even getting a glimpse of her then meant nothing at all. alright, please bless me that i'll live again n rise again soon.
and also bless those who are down for the past few days to recover soon. or hope they retain their power for the final challenge at the end of the year.
HAHA! so many hidden things...Labels: mind, rebirth, reflection, smiles?, stress, troubles, wishyawell
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Wednesday, 25 July 2007-)
+7/25/2007 07:10:00 pm]*
Title: sleep-
things are definitely going haywire.
stoning very much in drama after school hours did not help. i know it's very wrong for me that i don't listen much when there's the post session meeting, despite the fact that it does seem a little better that i've asked alot lesser questions that doubted my intelligence for the so many times that happened before. perhaps not this time round i guess...
instead, i kept thinking of the ponytail that tiff had. haha, just feels weird inside. but this instantly reminded me of her. it's too similar!! all the more she's putting this tail these days... well actually, i'm a little excited n abit of nervy that the imaginary she was in the lt.. but, erm.. that's just about the brain playing tricks when one's too tired... yea, and tiff was actually telling me about the fantasies she's going through when receiving some gift from the cute fella from ******. according to her... alright. i think it's best that she stays hopeful about this dream while i shut my darn mouth on this any further. yea.
btw, i think it's quite dead for me to really go ahead with what meiling said. wanting to offer but lacking the power. ya.
and also, thanks to dom for giving 11:23 minute talk about things... not trying to be sarcarstic!! actually, it's just me. i always wanted to join in the fun with all my friends, just that there are some things that no one can really help me unless i sit down n work through things on my own. just like the prayer this morning.Labels: concentrate?, dominic, fantasies, hallucination, offer, reflection, strength, stress, tails, troubles
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Friday, 13 July 2007-)
+7/13/2007 09:38:00 pm]*
Title: match-
heya
i cried just now. it's not the times when i feel like crying like a baby n juz wail like a loser. instead, mum n dad were there... before that, when i yelled at myself ever since mum shouted at me to take the damn drowsy medicine which i didn't wanna take, she's in a terrible mood. until i mentioned she wouldn't have understood what i was feeling. there's juz too many things to do n there's no time to make up for this loss. n i don't wanna lose this too.
anw, there's just too many things that turned haywired today.
still couldn't recover from taking the medicine mum asked me to the night before. felt light-weighted whenever walking in school. even resorted to removing my spects during assembly. yup, i seldom do that. only if i'm just too occupied with gambling on every chance to rest my eyes and possibly, the whole me. but amazingly/shockingly/unexpectedly, asked to do the task of calling ppl for cip. argh. what's new!?? (-i still love the way satiya's accent and i think, aju's actions for these words. so coolios!!). then asked if i can make it for outings these days. um, didn't think much when coming to them. my empty mind juz had no space to think them. for the replies, the best is that people are asking me questions instead of answering them. wth. somemore they don't feel sorry for misinterpreting others' ideas or wasting other's time. well, that's what i really hoped if they're a little polite or better, if they answer to the point la!! ok, perhaps that's my fault. i was not in a mood to entertain or be entertained. in the end, got caps in the reply from wanyu. haha, still don't think she sounds angry. but who cares? the euphoria feeling got me over it. :)
so, wanyu's ok. but gabby sounded pissed in sms. i have no idea whether she's too bored in lesson or whatsoever that she just wanted to sms ppl. i dunno. so, when i'm in physics lecture, concentrated fully. and ignored everything else. quite useful actually. learnt things very well. hmm, but made gabby think i'm being a jackass to leave her in space with no certainties. but there're other things that worsened, i'm sure. very sure. all from the final call. she sounded bored with the so how? type of saying. so hope someone can tell me what actually i did. just most are blinded by giddy head. pardon me. i seriously don't un why so many people are protecting her right from start. it's just my nature to either to do work or have fun what... anw, but to those who did, thanks for your advice though. epecially to hana (-hope i'm right...). it's very meaningful.
so thank dominic for enlightening me that my way was wrong. btw, cailing n meiling were also there. hope they'll also learn much from that, even though his overall convo with chan had so much insights that i found it quite chim n a little hinting would have passed the idea across them so easily. haha :D had lots of fun listening to them. juz reminded me of the smart convo practice. so, think of what should've been done...
as for the so many people whom have been accusing me for an evil fella these few days, i wish to say this. i'm not trying to create chaos amongst people. i just wish to get things done or get my butts in peace. then somemore, so sorry to be trying to beg for mercy or smth lidat, please pardon me for being harsh to anyone. i'm sick n with every possible chance, i'll avoid ppl. the giddyness just made me even diao clarissa in quadrangle today when i never failed to act cool or walk past her quickly since the start of the week. haha, hopeless terence. :D and you see, taking these drowsy drugs yet still wanna stay awake in school is the toughest of all, just like being so stressed up with things yet still gotta do work in drama. not a good example, but hope you un...
felt much relieved when allowed to take rest of my mind since told what happened to cailing. thanks for being such a good listener ^.^v!!
btw, happy birthday DARREN!!
still, i don't believe that seeing her gives no more excitement, even though my eyes just can't stop looking away once i spotted her.
so, as predicted, the d-day arrived. see whether it tallies with my prediction some time ago...http://ebterry.blogspot.com/2007/05/midsummer-nights-bedtime-dream.html
anw, i'm getting tired...it's taking it's effect soon.and i guess i'll have only a limited life from now. btw, what a date today is.
你们休想和我撑到恆,最多你班契弟扑少几条街!! :)Labels: emo, giddy, influence, Intelligence, shagged, smiles, stress
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Thursday, 12 July 2007-)
+7/12/2007 09:12:00 pm]*
Title: Lost-
hey.
i've this feeling that everything's gone since the day started...
felt super duper sianz at morning. even being able to see her in the pac meant nothing to me. or maybe brother michael from sji was much more interesting. yep, he spoke in such a way that he sound like a wise man. i mean, really. he was able to develop his speech that analysed the topics he raised, islam n hindu. in all, good to see that we have people who can interest me alot in speeches. perhaps i should've suggested to go sji centuries ago...
well, also in chem lect. just too tired to do any funny stuff like staring or whatsoever. even though she's about... four seats away? so began my tired journey...
none worth remembering... haha
but it's always weird when i saw many people with some similar tails tied together. try to name some, if i bothered to remember... clarisse, victoria, natalie, pamela (-i think it's this name... meiling's classmate...)... haha. the shape looks like an art paintbrush from far. but when near, there're some who put glued-pigtail. anyway, enough of hair obsession. haha :D sounds like i've been admiring them for ages...
so, trying to help ana with key thingy made some animal bark around the school quadrangle about shells. then for some funny reason, angeline was crazy. haha :D was jogigng back to the class n along the way, angie was posing what i was doing. i really felt like pulling her hair pony tail.. then seeing so many of her class staring n laughing at the two monkeys right in front of them, i just ran past them with a smile :) i suppose they're dismissed from games... how jealous... haha :)
some stupid question given by mr ho.
Three men went to a motel. The motel manager said a room cost $30, so each man put up $10 and went to their room. A little while later the manager realized the room was only $25, so he sent the bellboy back to the three guys room with $5. On the way to the room the bellboy couldn't figure out how to split the $5 evenly between the 3 men, so he gave each one of them $1 and he kept the other $2.
This meant that the 3 men paid $9 each for the room for a total of $27. Add the $2 that the bellboy kept = $29.
Where did the other dollar go?
what crazed one that forced me to run dunno how many rounds...haha :D
i realised that my hands are not reali needed to clap. as long as i remain as my entertainer, others remain happy by watching, i'd love to stay in a situation where there's hope for everything rather than to fight to stay on a tough fight like some others do.Labels: clap, Intelligence, riddle, stress
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Sunday, 8 July 2007-)
+7/08/2007 09:51:00 pm]*
Title: let-
i think it's time to let go. what won't happen will never happen. hope things will just be washed away that easily. cuz i'm getting the feeling that the start'd be crazy. and i'm beginning to think that i might not be able to afford to give up some things... here i am trying to forget, the remembrance gets stronger. i don't know if i'm doing the right thing, but should i wait n think over n over again? or go straight to the point, as in make it or break it? or search for others in the woods? argh!! i give up!!Labels: emo, mind, stress
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Tuesday, 3 July 2007-)
+7/03/2007 08:27:00 pm]*
Title: long day-
救命啊!!今日個班死扑街玩残我啊!!一时有条契弟詰住晒,個投另一条契弟佐住地球转!!
alright, pardon me for my fantastically fouled language in cantonese... just couldn't take it today. btw, i don't think that this language can be understood in mandarin... wth, such complicated things in the chinese thing. oh wells. btw, i don't think any of the six of us survived, so it's kinda amazing that i can still type some crappy stuff now.
first of all, talk about my group. totally new team. denis cailing n someone from cedar's, michelle (-bless me that i'm right...). jeesus christ!! it's a quiet group mann!! the first two were shh, the last was total silence. but can someone please tell her, none of the group members will eat her up. well, i was like this too when sec two... curtain boy... oh!! those days... back to her, she was answering mr chan in such perfect answers as to why did u decide to join into this cip event? ans? oh, it's bcuz we have an arts modulus now n i feel that it might help me in learning arts... i'm just speechless. it's cuz i'm fine with straightforward replies. but maybe, it's what she feels la. sigh, i'm just in bad mood after coffee. btw, she looks like cally. a little i guess...
denis then started distracting me. though one sentence, i couldn't tahan that i stuttered lots of times... cuz it's just in my head all the while.
ic meeting was haywire. all're dead n thankfully i had nothing much to care about.
take care guys, we'll pull through. hope none of us gets sick. (-even if dom's kinda...)Labels: stress
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Monday, 2 July 2007-)
+7/02/2007 09:34:00 am]*
Title: Themeless post-
hey.
i'm bored by the lots of things to do. yup, as always. cuz it's either there's nothing to do or plenty. trashbag... oh wells. i've promised myself to practise for exam tmr, ask chris abt some things (-yes... it's all work...), double-reconfirm on the people tmr, make some notes for the sat thingy, remind maple for class funds and stuff like that. alright, it's here cuz that probably i won't remember all. everyone should have known that, i guess... :D
anyway, i've just found some ppl to add and so surprisingly, me thot of special names ah!!. pro siaz...
so yest, went out with dad to get some IT stuff. yup, cuz he's sick la. and had some... ... giddy medicine. sent as his personal guard... argh. whatever :D. so met shaine, then later mrs ong. kinda surprise though. but things were just the hello gestures. haha, bet they could've been good at lip reading...
ok, i'm trying very hard not to get distracted but the feeling of it seems to come back to whatever i do. things like when i'm revising my spa thingy, or downloading stuff from school website... it's just whole lot of things that's coming to my mind...
fine! this post is too lame, talking things that have no meaning at all, just not the me. jumbled things everywhere!! hope things will turn well.
it's sad when one tries to reach the other n the
other just moves on. the distance will always be the same..
love everyone
around you, and you'll feel the love...
Labels: concentrate?, stress
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Saturday, 23 June 2007-)
+6/23/2007 02:55:00 pm]*
Title: Crashed into pieces-
it seems like there's a huge pile of load up that might just hit me any time. i can't take it anymore. well, here's why.
it's just countdowns to the midyrs and now, two days left. or, 1.5 left... the best thing is, my chem's empty, econs die, maths a 'lil hopeful and can only bank on my last - phys. see, if things go on like this, i won't make past yr 1.
next, the grp has been callin me to attend smth to give baby sharon some sort of farewell. dinesh was like negotiating with me, darren kinda persuaded me... not that i want to miss this thing on purpose, but reali, everyone around's studying hard. and i seriously think that i'll be the only one who seems so confident to have some spare time other than my subjects. but erm, i only started studyin on wednesday. today's saturday.
fine, perhaps i'll find time tmr to study. now as for smth that's after midyrs, had a call that cut off my studying time and blew away my momentum to mug by mr chan. haha, not that serious though. but, he was giving me task that i couldn't even get properly. hearing bits and pieces. and wanted to hear my thoughts n inputs. wth. plan cip that i've nvr done before?? (-well, thanks to pet's translation...) arghh, maybe i'll just leave this alone till mon...
sigh, just carry on with those notes... hope i don't doze off...Labels: shagged, stress
yup, so that's what happened (:
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