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(Saturday, 29 September 2007-)
+9/29/2007 08:52:00 am]*
Title: morals or morales?-
exams now are demoralising. maths are problematic for losing the steam during the paper, meanwhile using the excuse of having a blank mind never seems right.
so, tons of things happened. worsened things. or maybe the grafitti tiff jie jie drew made things a little better i guess...
ok, i've got this feelin that marian's cousin doesn't trust me or smth. it's like.. he was tryin to tell tiff something then for that tiny split second, he glanced at me. the next moment, he said nothing. i dunno, maybe i'm thinkin too much, but this actually kicked off my moody life at starbucks. wish that this it just my illusion. ya. or maybe i've been faced with the so many different types of people these days who curse and swear and give bad comments that i hurt someone this time round. hope i was wrong or i can turn things round.
hell came at night. wanyu's scream was chaos. it's mad for her to do this, but really, chuck should have been in a betta attitude. it's like, even if the first step was wrong, maybe he should have tried to make up in the next?? marian n cuiyi scolded him, but that optimistic... fark!!!! no, act big attitude was just urghhhh. another thing was that thank whoeva who calmed things on either side. i actually felt disgusted by the scream. in the end, she just went back to her way of gossipin n b*ching.. perhaps she'd have known all sorts of ppl exist. no?
sis olivia sent an email about her last day at work. honestly, the words "is nothing but a happy ending" just sounds like some assurance or smth. yes it should be. then, for the N years i've known her, she'd never open her heart thru laughter for others. but there's smth i won't be worryin. it's her faith. wish her well.
peace to allLabels: #$%^, curses, fights, grafitti, smiles?, strength, Thanksgiving, troubles, trust, wishyawell
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Saturday, 4 August 2007-)
+8/04/2007 08:22:00 pm]*
Title: blur-
ello...
i need enlightenment. can anyone tell me how many cliques are there altogether in drama?? yep, the bored me on the bus just drew a map that tries to link up everyone during the times when i notice them. in sessions, breaks. whatever. but what i found out was quite surprising.
so far there's two big cliques. five small ones. two of the seven overlap at times. four freelancers. two suck ups. and there are two that I'm unsure of. yea. these are just those whom i do think are gonna be permanent for the rest of the year.
appalling. the only thing that i can think of. hearing of things that are so unreal from people tells me they deserve all the f**k they get. so what if there're different groups? can't they think of accepting others' faults and forgive them? even if they can't, is there no way people try to convince the rest to get to good terms? why on earth must those who are ending the teenage life very soon still act like infants? things just get nasty when one dislikes person x, almost all hate it. what f**king hell this is??
still, if you guys believe that the drama spirit has turned sour and it's getting corrosive, i am always here to listen...
but most importantly, stay happy with life. and if possible, update me of the bitching too ::winks::!! yea. shine me from the darkness.Labels: #$%^, advices, backstab, complains, curses, smiles?, strength, troubles, unfair
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Thursday, 26 July 2007-)
+7/26/2007 05:36:00 pm]*
Title: link?-
hey.
it's quite the first time i reali complained about my class. sadly. and all it started was because of some childish beliefs and immature thinking of someone. alright, i wasn't around when the whole conflict occurred. but coincidentally, what i saw was the worst of all. i'd bet that.
it's when i left the class to photocopy some worksheet taken from clarabelle. when i came back, nick n her were like fighting over her bag. you see, she alrdy told me that she's in a hurry. n when i came back so much later cuz of the slow auntie or more likely, my slow walking pace, it just seems like i was at the greatest fault. it seems that it was me that made her stay in class n fight with nick n in the end, waste more time.
during the comical tug-of-war, it's a pity that nick didn't realise she's alrdy not in a mood to play with him. that's why i was quite on belle's side. especially when the mind's ultimately blank when hurrying for smth else. yup, n i guess that's why she turned violent. not as in bringing weapons n start chopping him into pieces, but cursing all sorts of vulgarities or even thinking of targeting his balls. haha, actually i suggested that!! imagine if... nahh. ouch! :)
'wa, so un-gentlemanly...' with the irritated look as she stormed out of the class was smth that won't be forgotten that easily. the evil stare n eye-rolling.
actually it's nick's mentality that saddened me. you see, it's this morning that he started talking to belle. after a long fought cold war. n by afternoon? back to square 1. stupid right? then somemore it's his geh-kiang behaviour n super high ego mind that made NO bloody effort to be sincere in apologising. well, try to recall what he msg her... 'sorry.. don't angry.. me sorry :'(' smth along that line. wtf. it's just the act cute language that spoiled the whole thing. c'mon, someone's pissed n you try to please her by being spastic!?? even yuhao agreed with me. no wonder she nvr replied. btw, i can kinda understand that why this fella acted this way. as he tried his very best to explain, childhood's bad experience made him to be mentally firm. ya, smth lidat. but hello!?? what i actually meant was not to explain why he did that way, but try to leave his ego aside for awhile as he really say a sincere sorry. when things turn a little better then start to explain his pathetic upbringing that caused him to be so conservative. well, i guess some maris ppl are lidat... haha, love to stereotype nowadays :D
sigh, that's one of the two i heard today. another's between hongtaa n maple. but i don't really know what happened... so leave things to settle through time. after all, both of them are much logical n understanding ppl who will prolly care for the majority n welfare of the greater group. unlike wah, who's so emo these days with all sorts of lovey dovey songs that made hair stand. seriously, don't believe can go ask matthias.. especially when even playing his speaker on his phone during lesson. wth.
so, please someone help them to get over the tension peacefully. nick's the hopeless one. we all know that. but if possible, pls tell belle that it's not worth it to keep things stale. after all, we're all in the same class and we'll help each other as one body whenever the need arises. it's quite useless when we go on our way in times of emergency - we're no superman. so even if nick's not a gentleman, treat him as someone in need and your role is to be a da jie jie and lift him from his pile of low EQ to a decent member of our class. almost everyone have tried to convince him to think about what he's done. but beliefs won't change overnight. so only YOU can try to mend the problem. bury the hatchet and move on!! peace!! :)
btw, i think the pac opening's starting soon. hope it'll be a success!! even though i can't be there with a tired mind, i still believe all will enjoy it tonight. from the performers, to emcees, audience right to the backstage strong people! wish ya all the best!!
peace!!Labels: advices, clarabelle, complains, curses, fights, nickwah, shagged, strength, t15
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Wednesday, 25 July 2007-)
+7/25/2007 07:10:00 pm]*
Title: sleep-
things are definitely going haywire.
stoning very much in drama after school hours did not help. i know it's very wrong for me that i don't listen much when there's the post session meeting, despite the fact that it does seem a little better that i've asked alot lesser questions that doubted my intelligence for the so many times that happened before. perhaps not this time round i guess...
instead, i kept thinking of the ponytail that tiff had. haha, just feels weird inside. but this instantly reminded me of her. it's too similar!! all the more she's putting this tail these days... well actually, i'm a little excited n abit of nervy that the imaginary she was in the lt.. but, erm.. that's just about the brain playing tricks when one's too tired... yea, and tiff was actually telling me about the fantasies she's going through when receiving some gift from the cute fella from ******. according to her... alright. i think it's best that she stays hopeful about this dream while i shut my darn mouth on this any further. yea.
btw, i think it's quite dead for me to really go ahead with what meiling said. wanting to offer but lacking the power. ya.
and also, thanks to dom for giving 11:23 minute talk about things... not trying to be sarcarstic!! actually, it's just me. i always wanted to join in the fun with all my friends, just that there are some things that no one can really help me unless i sit down n work through things on my own. just like the prayer this morning.Labels: concentrate?, dominic, fantasies, hallucination, offer, reflection, strength, stress, tails, troubles
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Thursday, 19 July 2007-)
+7/19/2007 09:09:00 pm]*
Title: Received-
hey...
be glad that everyone's happy and full of smiles on our faces.
RHD, times where there's life all around us!!
and, please... let this excitement push me from zero to hero.
just to fight against all troubles.
if we feel love from getting smiles by others, why not offer it to the next person??
Smiles!! :))Labels: events, pass, smiles, strength
yup, so that's what happened (:
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xxx typed*:
blog
(Saturday, 29 September 2007-)
+9/29/2007 08:52:00 am]*
Title: morals or morales?-
exams now are demoralising. maths are problematic for losing the steam during the paper, meanwhile using the excuse of having a blank mind never seems right.
so, tons of things happened. worsened things. or maybe the grafitti tiff jie jie drew made things a little better i guess...
ok, i've got this feelin that marian's cousin doesn't trust me or smth. it's like.. he was tryin to tell tiff something then for that tiny split second, he glanced at me. the next moment, he said nothing. i dunno, maybe i'm thinkin too much, but this actually kicked off my moody life at starbucks. wish that this it just my illusion. ya. or maybe i've been faced with the so many different types of people these days who curse and swear and give bad comments that i hurt someone this time round. hope i was wrong or i can turn things round.
hell came at night. wanyu's scream was chaos. it's mad for her to do this, but really, chuck should have been in a betta attitude. it's like, even if the first step was wrong, maybe he should have tried to make up in the next?? marian n cuiyi scolded him, but that optimistic... fark!!!! no, act big attitude was just urghhhh. another thing was that thank whoeva who calmed things on either side. i actually felt disgusted by the scream. in the end, she just went back to her way of gossipin n b*ching.. perhaps she'd have known all sorts of ppl exist. no?
sis olivia sent an email about her last day at work. honestly, the words "is nothing but a happy ending" just sounds like some assurance or smth. yes it should be. then, for the N years i've known her, she'd never open her heart thru laughter for others. but there's smth i won't be worryin. it's her faith. wish her well.
peace to allLabels: #$%^, curses, fights, grafitti, smiles?, strength, Thanksgiving, troubles, trust, wishyawell
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Saturday, 4 August 2007-)
+8/04/2007 08:22:00 pm]*
Title: blur-
ello...
i need enlightenment. can anyone tell me how many cliques are there altogether in drama?? yep, the bored me on the bus just drew a map that tries to link up everyone during the times when i notice them. in sessions, breaks. whatever. but what i found out was quite surprising.
so far there's two big cliques. five small ones. two of the seven overlap at times. four freelancers. two suck ups. and there are two that I'm unsure of. yea. these are just those whom i do think are gonna be permanent for the rest of the year.
appalling. the only thing that i can think of. hearing of things that are so unreal from people tells me they deserve all the f**k they get. so what if there're different groups? can't they think of accepting others' faults and forgive them? even if they can't, is there no way people try to convince the rest to get to good terms? why on earth must those who are ending the teenage life very soon still act like infants? things just get nasty when one dislikes person x, almost all hate it. what f**king hell this is??
still, if you guys believe that the drama spirit has turned sour and it's getting corrosive, i am always here to listen...
but most importantly, stay happy with life. and if possible, update me of the bitching too ::winks::!! yea. shine me from the darkness.Labels: #$%^, advices, backstab, complains, curses, smiles?, strength, troubles, unfair
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Thursday, 26 July 2007-)
+7/26/2007 05:36:00 pm]*
Title: link?-
hey.
it's quite the first time i reali complained about my class. sadly. and all it started was because of some childish beliefs and immature thinking of someone. alright, i wasn't around when the whole conflict occurred. but coincidentally, what i saw was the worst of all. i'd bet that.
it's when i left the class to photocopy some worksheet taken from clarabelle. when i came back, nick n her were like fighting over her bag. you see, she alrdy told me that she's in a hurry. n when i came back so much later cuz of the slow auntie or more likely, my slow walking pace, it just seems like i was at the greatest fault. it seems that it was me that made her stay in class n fight with nick n in the end, waste more time.
during the comical tug-of-war, it's a pity that nick didn't realise she's alrdy not in a mood to play with him. that's why i was quite on belle's side. especially when the mind's ultimately blank when hurrying for smth else. yup, n i guess that's why she turned violent. not as in bringing weapons n start chopping him into pieces, but cursing all sorts of vulgarities or even thinking of targeting his balls. haha, actually i suggested that!! imagine if... nahh. ouch! :)
'wa, so un-gentlemanly...' with the irritated look as she stormed out of the class was smth that won't be forgotten that easily. the evil stare n eye-rolling.
actually it's nick's mentality that saddened me. you see, it's this morning that he started talking to belle. after a long fought cold war. n by afternoon? back to square 1. stupid right? then somemore it's his geh-kiang behaviour n super high ego mind that made NO bloody effort to be sincere in apologising. well, try to recall what he msg her... 'sorry.. don't angry.. me sorry :'(' smth along that line. wtf. it's just the act cute language that spoiled the whole thing. c'mon, someone's pissed n you try to please her by being spastic!?? even yuhao agreed with me. no wonder she nvr replied. btw, i can kinda understand that why this fella acted this way. as he tried his very best to explain, childhood's bad experience made him to be mentally firm. ya, smth lidat. but hello!?? what i actually meant was not to explain why he did that way, but try to leave his ego aside for awhile as he really say a sincere sorry. when things turn a little better then start to explain his pathetic upbringing that caused him to be so conservative. well, i guess some maris ppl are lidat... haha, love to stereotype nowadays :D
sigh, that's one of the two i heard today. another's between hongtaa n maple. but i don't really know what happened... so leave things to settle through time. after all, both of them are much logical n understanding ppl who will prolly care for the majority n welfare of the greater group. unlike wah, who's so emo these days with all sorts of lovey dovey songs that made hair stand. seriously, don't believe can go ask matthias.. especially when even playing his speaker on his phone during lesson. wth.
so, please someone help them to get over the tension peacefully. nick's the hopeless one. we all know that. but if possible, pls tell belle that it's not worth it to keep things stale. after all, we're all in the same class and we'll help each other as one body whenever the need arises. it's quite useless when we go on our way in times of emergency - we're no superman. so even if nick's not a gentleman, treat him as someone in need and your role is to be a da jie jie and lift him from his pile of low EQ to a decent member of our class. almost everyone have tried to convince him to think about what he's done. but beliefs won't change overnight. so only YOU can try to mend the problem. bury the hatchet and move on!! peace!! :)
btw, i think the pac opening's starting soon. hope it'll be a success!! even though i can't be there with a tired mind, i still believe all will enjoy it tonight. from the performers, to emcees, audience right to the backstage strong people! wish ya all the best!!
peace!!Labels: advices, clarabelle, complains, curses, fights, nickwah, shagged, strength, t15
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Wednesday, 25 July 2007-)
+7/25/2007 07:10:00 pm]*
Title: sleep-
things are definitely going haywire.
stoning very much in drama after school hours did not help. i know it's very wrong for me that i don't listen much when there's the post session meeting, despite the fact that it does seem a little better that i've asked alot lesser questions that doubted my intelligence for the so many times that happened before. perhaps not this time round i guess...
instead, i kept thinking of the ponytail that tiff had. haha, just feels weird inside. but this instantly reminded me of her. it's too similar!! all the more she's putting this tail these days... well actually, i'm a little excited n abit of nervy that the imaginary she was in the lt.. but, erm.. that's just about the brain playing tricks when one's too tired... yea, and tiff was actually telling me about the fantasies she's going through when receiving some gift from the cute fella from ******. according to her... alright. i think it's best that she stays hopeful about this dream while i shut my darn mouth on this any further. yea.
btw, i think it's quite dead for me to really go ahead with what meiling said. wanting to offer but lacking the power. ya.
and also, thanks to dom for giving 11:23 minute talk about things... not trying to be sarcarstic!! actually, it's just me. i always wanted to join in the fun with all my friends, just that there are some things that no one can really help me unless i sit down n work through things on my own. just like the prayer this morning.Labels: concentrate?, dominic, fantasies, hallucination, offer, reflection, strength, stress, tails, troubles
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Thursday, 19 July 2007-)
+7/19/2007 09:09:00 pm]*
Title: Received-
hey...
be glad that everyone's happy and full of smiles on our faces.
RHD, times where there's life all around us!!
and, please... let this excitement push me from zero to hero.
just to fight against all troubles.
if we feel love from getting smiles by others, why not offer it to the next person??
Smiles!! :))Labels: events, pass, smiles, strength
yup, so that's what happened (:
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