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(Saturday, 13 October 2007-)
+10/13/2007 09:57:00 am]*

Title: Wasted-

Hey

i didn't enjoy the open house yesterday. i was so tired that my enthu lasted like... 5mins?? should be.. anw, this stupid feeling dragged me towards being anti-social. or perhaps, useless in the promotion of the sch. ya.

then out of nowhere finding myself running out from the weirdest group of crowds... and, saw that left that ...little sister/ girlfriend/ pal/ partner (whichever!!)... for the day off to somewhere else. feel so sorry for her :-o "sorry jie jie" hahaha!! :D ... looking back, thought i should have been frank about this. so that others would leave me alone. yet, the entire coordination of everyone in our group was kinda in chaos. or at least, i felt.

don't tell me i'm pessimistic. but i'm the type where i tend to fill the gaps, and in this case, everyone were busy ahead with the displaying of their talents that made the booth a complete waste. i mean, there was no need for the second board, 3 other chairs... so on. when people asked about us.. there's this sense that everyone would stare at each other before answering.

fine. we didn't talk about our booth in the end, cuz we had nothing to say. then almost every performer got distracted by fin. even so, i thought that bev shouldn't let go of her anger straight away. and, hello! she might affect others.!! it's not the matter of whose mood was carried away by the way...

one nice thing was the varied outfits, despite some odd ones, ya. or maybe, the whacks on the shuttle made my life abit better..

oh!! i've got this formula for this year's people...
hockey = pretty
dance = hot
drama = cute
volleyball = mixed of all...
ps.. don't me wrong... ya!!

so, i thought i could asked tiff what happened. it seems that there were horrid things. perhaps that's a good sign, at least those who gave her trouble most prolly won't even consider this sch. oh btw, i bet no one likes them too.

lastly, wished that wanyu can get over with that soon. please let her know that there're so many friends in the world who are having the same problem.. or similar ones.

btw, gotta admire the way people can stay at mad jacks and wait for 30 mins before ordering, then leave that place in 2.5 hours later.. marvy!! haha :D

try to smile world!! (:
BECAUSE YOU ARE GOD'S GREATEST GIFT TO MANKIND.

Labels: #$%^, backstab, complains, concentrate?, emo, events, play, reflection, wishyawell

yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Saturday, 4 August 2007-)
+8/04/2007 08:22:00 pm]*

Title: blur-

ello...
i need enlightenment. can anyone tell me how many cliques are there altogether in drama?? yep, the bored me on the bus just drew a map that tries to link up everyone during the times when i notice them. in sessions, breaks. whatever. but what i found out was quite surprising.
so far there's two big cliques. five small ones. two of the seven overlap at times. four freelancers. two suck ups. and there are two that I'm unsure of. yea. these are just those whom i do think are gonna be permanent for the rest of the year.
appalling. the only thing that i can think of. hearing of things that are so unreal from people tells me they deserve all the f**k they get. so what if there're different groups? can't they think of accepting others' faults and forgive them? even if they can't, is there no way people try to convince the rest to get to good terms? why on earth must those who are ending the teenage life very soon still act like infants? things just get nasty when one dislikes person x, almost all hate it. what f**king hell this is??
still, if you guys believe that the drama spirit has turned sour and it's getting corrosive, i am always here to listen...
but most importantly, stay happy with life. and if possible, update me of the bitching too ::winks::!! yea. shine me from the darkness.

Labels: #$%^, advices, backstab, complains, curses, smiles?, strength, troubles, unfair

yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Thursday, 26 July 2007-)
+7/26/2007 05:36:00 pm]*

Title: link?-

hey.

it's quite the first time i reali complained about my class. sadly. and all it started was because of some childish beliefs and immature thinking of someone. alright, i wasn't around when the whole conflict occurred. but coincidentally, what i saw was the worst of all. i'd bet that.

it's when i left the class to photocopy some worksheet taken from clarabelle. when i came back, nick n her were like fighting over her bag. you see, she alrdy told me that she's in a hurry. n when i came back so much later cuz of the slow auntie or more likely, my slow walking pace, it just seems like i was at the greatest fault. it seems that it was me that made her stay in class n fight with nick n in the end, waste more time.

during the comical tug-of-war, it's a pity that nick didn't realise she's alrdy not in a mood to play with him. that's why i was quite on belle's side. especially when the mind's ultimately blank when hurrying for smth else. yup, n i guess that's why she turned violent. not as in bringing weapons n start chopping him into pieces, but cursing all sorts of vulgarities or even thinking of targeting his balls. haha, actually i suggested that!! imagine if... nahh. ouch! :)

'wa, so un-gentlemanly...' with the irritated look as she stormed out of the class was smth that won't be forgotten that easily. the evil stare n eye-rolling.

actually it's nick's mentality that saddened me. you see, it's this morning that he started talking to belle. after a long fought cold war. n by afternoon? back to square 1. stupid right? then somemore it's his geh-kiang behaviour n super high ego mind that made NO bloody effort to be sincere in apologising. well, try to recall what he msg her... 'sorry.. don't angry.. me sorry :'(' smth along that line. wtf. it's just the act cute language that spoiled the whole thing. c'mon, someone's pissed n you try to please her by being spastic!?? even yuhao agreed with me. no wonder she nvr replied. btw, i can kinda understand that why this fella acted this way. as he tried his very best to explain, childhood's bad experience made him to be mentally firm. ya, smth lidat. but hello!?? what i actually meant was not to explain why he did that way, but try to leave his ego aside for awhile as he really say a sincere sorry. when things turn a little better then start to explain his pathetic upbringing that caused him to be so conservative. well, i guess some maris ppl are lidat... haha, love to stereotype nowadays :D

sigh, that's one of the two i heard today. another's between hongtaa n maple. but i don't really know what happened... so leave things to settle through time. after all, both of them are much logical n understanding ppl who will prolly care for the majority n welfare of the greater group. unlike wah, who's so emo these days with all sorts of lovey dovey songs that made hair stand. seriously, don't believe can go ask matthias.. especially when even playing his speaker on his phone during lesson. wth.

so, please someone help them to get over the tension peacefully. nick's the hopeless one. we all know that. but if possible, pls tell belle that it's not worth it to keep things stale. after all, we're all in the same class and we'll help each other as one body whenever the need arises. it's quite useless when we go on our way in times of emergency - we're no superman. so even if nick's not a gentleman, treat him as someone in need and your role is to be a da jie jie and lift him from his pile of low EQ to a decent member of our class. almost everyone have tried to convince him to think about what he's done. but beliefs won't change overnight. so only YOU can try to mend the problem. bury the hatchet and move on!! peace!! :)

btw, i think the pac opening's starting soon. hope it'll be a success!! even though i can't be there with a tired mind, i still believe all will enjoy it tonight. from the performers, to emcees, audience right to the backstage strong people! wish ya all the best!!
peace!!

Labels: advices, clarabelle, complains, curses, fights, nickwah, shagged, strength, t15

yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Sunday, 22 July 2007-)
+7/22/2007 06:29:00 pm]*

Title: please..-

hey
i'm feelin that i'm the only one
who's always pushed around.
in school; at home.
then with my headache still lurkin,
no one reali knows that they're actually
treating this poor fella like a fool.
i reali don't mind being one,
but please un that i'm also in pain.
please, make me stronger.
bless that others do be fine.
please, hear me.

Labels: complains, pain

yup, so that's what happened (:
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+7/22/2007 01:56:00 pm]*

Title: disappointment-

what a waste the most pretty one being knocked out...

(taken from tvb.hk...)
you see, this hottest one, cuz of her poor dance moves... how sad!!... but thank goodness, she still had some awards...

it's not as if i've been spanked like the worst ever loser on earth for ptm, or being laughed at like the most shittiest person to be one of the latest persons for the trash lecture. instead, it's coz of many things...

my brainwashed mum. i'm sorry, i know i should never think this way, but it's about time. really.
she's been always tellin me about managing my time for homework instead of all other things. true, but HELLO!??... there're other things like pw and... ya.

that's one. her care and concern has somewhat become an irritation these days. or maybe, the facial expression of gameover ever since telling her abt my trash results dampened my morale. real hard.

dad? no better. his do-or-die attitude in demanding and forcing me into being taught by this not-certified professional and always think that whatever he believes has been 'analysed' a milion times and therefore, correct. wow, really wish to know that alone helps. i mean, your lessons.

btw, another upset for all the people in the round table in the canteen for the bigshots meeting.. everyone's talking abt the agenda, gist, intro and things for the next batch of people. as for me, staring in the space between emily n meiling. not blank space, but you've guessed it. and also lots of distractions along the way.

ok, make it the last before my tears dry up. 2days ago, when the names were called up for the seven, and only two were left, there's a real dilemma. 'but there're 2 more best choice other than me!' one was called up. so remaining 2 of us. sry that i din't even think of others in the list... just before they called the final name, i was having this mentality of 'alright, if it (in order to keep the name in secret...) gets in, it's worthwhile... so, with a name for having a so-late alphabet, i was the last.
but standing with the other six was a real torture. especially literally seeing the glitter of tears in sadness in it made me feel it.if possible, i reali wished i could swap places with it or with my hallucinated mate. seriously, their passion was much higher. and their shocked faces on the floor was the one and only reason why my smiles were so unnatural. anyway, hope they can recover soon deep inside. but if those 'its' reali want, i can still offer my place, as long as i'm doing a worse job.

sigh, with the so many problems at hand, it'll take a million chances before i even think of starting my mission...

still, it never died.

Labels: complains, concentrate?, emo, offer

yup, so that's what happened (:
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xxx typed*: blog

(Saturday, 13 October 2007-)
+10/13/2007 09:57:00 am]*

Title: Wasted-