xxx typed*:
mind (blog)
(Sunday, 28 October 2007-)
+10/28/2007 09:00:00 pm]*
Title: Tragedy-
Hey.
I witnessed an accident today. It was in the situation where two vehicles clashed in a tight road. Gruesome sight.
I didn't bother to care about the casualties there, but that's when I began to think more about life.
In a weird world called love, it is somewhat similar to a two-laned road. As the name suggests, there is no room for one way traffic, or the other parties cannot get to their wanted destination; if one side starts to get a little demanding and decides to occupy the centre of the two lanes, everyone going the opposite direction must reverse or risk being banged. In the end, crash. Yes, all will suffer. Maybe, the other car might be a lovey dovey couple and this caused the cupid-blessed pair to perish?
Anyway, maybe that's a symbol of me being emo. um, yes. Still, I have no idea what emo defines as... Answers anyone?? (:
So, I have this soft copy here with me. Yet, the fear of receiving this curse which is, another tragedy, happening in front of me never fails to leave me.
I think I know what to do. Go into the exam hall with an empty mind. Try to even if anything goes haywired. Then regurgitate whatever the script wants me to do in shorter time. Followed by listening to what momma has to say. Yes, he said he was going to talk to us in some serious tone.
But, please pardon me. Really, I'm not in any mood to do anything until the file is opened. And, it will only be opened until Thursday. Hope I do put up a good act when I listen tomorrow!
Sorry, I do need a clear mind.
Even if I can't smile, hope the world does!! (:Labels: smiles?
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Saturday, 29 September 2007-)
+9/29/2007 08:52:00 am]*
Title: morals or morales?-
exams now are demoralising. maths are problematic for losing the steam during the paper, meanwhile using the excuse of having a blank mind never seems right.
so, tons of things happened. worsened things. or maybe the grafitti tiff jie jie drew made things a little better i guess...
ok, i've got this feelin that marian's cousin doesn't trust me or smth. it's like.. he was tryin to tell tiff something then for that tiny split second, he glanced at me. the next moment, he said nothing. i dunno, maybe i'm thinkin too much, but this actually kicked off my moody life at starbucks. wish that this it just my illusion. ya. or maybe i've been faced with the so many different types of people these days who curse and swear and give bad comments that i hurt someone this time round. hope i was wrong or i can turn things round.
hell came at night. wanyu's scream was chaos. it's mad for her to do this, but really, chuck should have been in a betta attitude. it's like, even if the first step was wrong, maybe he should have tried to make up in the next?? marian n cuiyi scolded him, but that optimistic... fark!!!! no, act big attitude was just urghhhh. another thing was that thank whoeva who calmed things on either side. i actually felt disgusted by the scream. in the end, she just went back to her way of gossipin n b*ching.. perhaps she'd have known all sorts of ppl exist. no?
sis olivia sent an email about her last day at work. honestly, the words "is nothing but a happy ending" just sounds like some assurance or smth. yes it should be. then, for the N years i've known her, she'd never open her heart thru laughter for others. but there's smth i won't be worryin. it's her faith. wish her well.
peace to allLabels: #$%^, curses, fights, grafitti, smiles?, strength, Thanksgiving, troubles, trust, wishyawell
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Thursday, 27 September 2007-)
+9/27/2007 06:37:00 pm]*
Title: screwdrivers-
Super screwed papers these days.
Life's so mad that I seriously need a map -
I'm completely lost!
Eg.?
I realised I've turned into a mad mugga
Dumping all my eq
N losing my patience on evryfing...
Would have scolded people for blockin at bus stop too!
But... I'm still kind, I know. -.-'''
btw, Can You Guys Don't KC Me Theze Days??
There Is Nothing For Ya To Guess... (best is that you study for everything...)
::sigh:: I can't stop ya either if that's your way of de-stressin...
I'M SO SORRY TO SAY THIS, BUT TIFFANIE JIE JIE IS ... ... kinda crazy (: haha!!
smiles, or abit la... (:Labels: #$%^, smiles?
yup, so that's what happened (:
________________________________________________________________________________
(Tuesday, 7 August 2007-)
+8/07/2007 09:18:00 pm]*
Title: sick-
hey.
terence is sick today. ya. what lame start. anyway, both in and outside also ill.
so... let's see the outside first. the super enthu me was so into mugging that put me on coca cola drugs n lasted me through the silent night at two. erm, actually doing overdue hw like maths n econs. ya. then this morning, walked like a zombie to wherever i went.
now, going to the psychological part. in lt3 today, the adeno-karjuno-virus struck. alright. i meant kj finally couldn't stop disturbing me when previously, he only gave those funny smirks. yet today, he did much more horrendous things.
it's when kj n lis were right behind her seat n peacefully waiting for me to enter the lt door. i'm usually one of those last few of the class to get in n so, as usual, i scan the whole place for my class. n it's very norm to catch a glimpse of her. when i found that my beloved class were behind her class, a little excited in fact. but before i step any closer, a long bamboo-like person named kj were right behind her. apparently he's eagerly waiting to gimme that smile again. but i acted blur n ignored him n got a seat beside j lo. no choice actually. for being late. that's why the view was a total shit. yet, for some kinda reason, j lo went to the loo n the despo me just snatched his seat. sit beside matthias. a much better seat. at least closer to kj n try to shut his damn mouth up. but more imptly, seeing the adorable face...
during the lect. the tcher was so useless that there's absolute time for lis n kj to write stuff on my notes. liselle's words are ok, but kj's ones made me to draw more stuff just to hide the word that he's been forcing me to lip-read from him every time he feels like giving me trouble. ok, this actually made me feel the sudden urge to decorate the part of the page with literature stuff like shakespeare n times of the 1800s. yea. globe theatre. quotes from him... n whole lots of trash. (-btw, all thanks to eldds last time for me to digress on my notes...)
so, i think after all the beggings n pleads not to start talking anything unnecessary in which i so dearly failed. i really think the class have made the secret very clear already. or maybe, she might even know it too!! but anyway, there wasn't any problems going on after the lect n things seemed to be alright. relax a little for now i guess...
but it's quite funny to see n hear someone scream in the lt just because she leaned back n broke the chair...:D
so... i was supposed to be super dead today, but by the time i finished defending myself from all the evil acts from kj, the rest of the time was sleep. even in the miss han's class. gp tut. yup. even the a-little-pretty female tcher couldn't keep me awake. how pathetic i am.
btw, thanks to those who cared for me. as in concerned about me being sick. belle, maple, cailing, tiff, chris...
and also, wish those who are also sick, like debbie n chris to get well soon!!
peace^.^v!!Labels: clarabelle, fights, kj, kpo, nickwah, smiles?, Thanksgiving, troubles, wishyawell
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Monday, 6 August 2007-)
+8/06/2007 09:29:00 pm]*
Title: rebirth-
*Born Again
Live Again
Rise Again*
that's what eldds brought me. a motto to remember. apparently i my mind died yesterday when i subconsciously penned this on paper...
save me.
i'm living in a cell,
the world of darkenss with a little glimpse of light as entertainment.
hardly anyone who knows me will get what i'm thinking.
the light that enters is such fine strip that allows me to see only the little of the limited desires i have.
the complaints i made will echo in a louder, cruder, ruder tone that bursts my ear drums.
the punches i exert will only cause the marks on my knuckles to be redder.
the tears rolling will speed up with any blow through me.
save me.
save me.
lonely fella with useless possessions mean nothing can be done in the cell.
then many times, thick ropes try to fit into the hole to bring me out of the prison.
but the rope is nowhere to be seen by the time it fits the hole.
believing shouting for help through the hole was a folly.
it's pointless.
my body is ever-trapped here.
hittng something senseless means damaging oneself the equivalent.
crying means blaming.
save me.
but for some kind of miraculous reason, there's some rebirth feeling right at morn. even doing all the shit stuff at pe and not even getting a glimpse of her then meant nothing at all. alright, please bless me that i'll live again n rise again soon.
and also bless those who are down for the past few days to recover soon. or hope they retain their power for the final challenge at the end of the year.
HAHA! so many hidden things...Labels: mind, rebirth, reflection, smiles?, stress, troubles, wishyawell
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Saturday, 4 August 2007-)
+8/04/2007 08:22:00 pm]*
Title: blur-
ello...
i need enlightenment. can anyone tell me how many cliques are there altogether in drama?? yep, the bored me on the bus just drew a map that tries to link up everyone during the times when i notice them. in sessions, breaks. whatever. but what i found out was quite surprising.
so far there's two big cliques. five small ones. two of the seven overlap at times. four freelancers. two suck ups. and there are two that I'm unsure of. yea. these are just those whom i do think are gonna be permanent for the rest of the year.
appalling. the only thing that i can think of. hearing of things that are so unreal from people tells me they deserve all the f**k they get. so what if there're different groups? can't they think of accepting others' faults and forgive them? even if they can't, is there no way people try to convince the rest to get to good terms? why on earth must those who are ending the teenage life very soon still act like infants? things just get nasty when one dislikes person x, almost all hate it. what f**king hell this is??
still, if you guys believe that the drama spirit has turned sour and it's getting corrosive, i am always here to listen...
but most importantly, stay happy with life. and if possible, update me of the bitching too ::winks::!! yea. shine me from the darkness.Labels: #$%^, advices, backstab, complains, curses, smiles?, strength, troubles, unfair
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Monday, 16 July 2007-)
+7/16/2007 06:38:00 pm]*
Title: help! pain!-
um, i can't think of any title now... ...
so, nvm. the sun will set soon if i dont even start. anyway, things are quite unexpectable, i guess. the times when the brain isn't working for school stuff, it turns to the interesting things that happened. how cool they were. or maybe, how memorable they were. they just repeat as if you're afraid that they might just be forgotten some day. or something closer to my schoolmates; the times when i don't get hyper in wherever in school means just that i am emo. -.-''' and the most interesting part is that, only those who aren't that close can realise that their classmate is ill.
first, remember that i owe chan an apology, even though dom said it wasn't my fault.
so, it's real scary that i almost got myself into the biggest trouble in my life when during chem lecture. it's called'被人插背脊'. i was kinda tryin to know what the colourful words on the piece of paper that was passed between eunice n victoria... sry to digress, i super duper like colourful things!!... so i was always sitting a little higher, in a weird way. but yuhao's paper was blockin me!! but it turned more obvious when hongtaa was also looking at the same thing!! questioning of what i was staring forced me to crap about being amazed by his neat handwriting... yup, i guess he might've saw that me being so uneasy for the first time...haha :D
then at phys tutorial, the fella was so **-ed up that literally told me off about sleepin in class. got into a stinkin mood, but felt that he was kinda right, although i'd love to hear something more caring from my teacher...
for chinese, my empathy goes to the lao shi. he's on mc n yet reali stayed on so late just to finish his story in tb. seriously, i'd have just hecked care those students who never listen centuries ago... which was why for that whole lesson, fought on real hard just to stay awake n give him the utmost respect that he deserved.
but recently, i'd been findin myself givin fake smiles. it's those times where there're so many ppl who wish to say hi yet i can't just look away even though my ultimate tired look was there. felt sorry. try to rem them, ros, angie, binni... sigh. conclusion, don't ever remember things when blank. haha, everyone knows that. :)Labels: backstab, emo, giddy, shagged, smiles?
yup, so that's what happened (:
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+7/16/2007 12:01:00 am]*
Title: Piling-
hey
potter's show was nice. but will tell it some day. anw, another thing to pile on my list as to why i should get my bloody ass out of the ExCo, what lousy way of seeing the qualities of people. turned to strengths only. in return, got a harsh piece of mail. verbally, not shooting me. but deep inside i know i caused the entire problem...
so anw, i'll shut my whatever that can possibly leak what has happened while i allow it to R.I.P...
peace though!!Labels: emo, guilty, Intelligence, smiles?, splat
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Saturday, 14 July 2007-)
+7/14/2007 10:38:00 pm]*
Title: Down to earth-
hey.
i don't know if i should be happy or not. reading things after the unlucky yesterday changed things completely.
alright. she kinda wrote that he's gone to be an ec instead of a bf in her eyes. to many, i'd've anticipated that my frens'd 'advice' me to go for it. get a happy ending. haha :D everything sounds idealistic.
but the thought of things learnt in ltc told me otherwise. this was said," when opportunity comes, what do you do? grab right? ok, grab. that's what cliches tell us. but so what if you grab it? what can you do huh?"
that's one of the many interesting ones the, but, anw, got this mentality that i won't commit totally. the idea of having to prolong a relationship is real tough while things might turn heart-breaking otherwise. fine, sound as if i've been successful... but no! not that stage yet... and according to dom today (-seen him too many days liao), there's a lack of trust in jc students, and i'm worried that i'll still not believe in others, let alone possiblly her?
smth to convince myself is the discipline makeover. all thanks to advices brought up by dom (-ahh.. him again!??). he's the one that shot the proud n arrogant terence down to earth. made him back to what he used to be with... "do things for others, avoid the p-word...". whatever i've done so far is just for the word. sorry. just regretting so much these dayz that i'm ready to opt out of the ExCo while snapping tauted strings with so many of my friends along my way here. i'm just not the choice.
sigh, i'm best at digressing... haha :D so i think i've made up my mind. make myself no-life n stay lp as much as possible. to the previous me, GAMEOVER.Labels: elections, influenced, smiles?
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Monday, 25 June 2007-)
+6/25/2007 06:42:00 pm]*
Title: white flag-
broke down at phys paper today. tears flowed during the time when i was doing the mcq part. real demoralising. yup, lots of the twenty questions were the dont knows and i acually stoned by the fifteenth one.
the best part is, i told everyone that i was sleeping during then... now think i shouldn't have told lies. sorry.
but till now i still dont know why it happened. haha, wierdo mindo... :)
and feel real bad to give people long faces when they called me. try name them. liselle, clarisse, andrew, clarence, joshua, maple, chicky little... i'm sure there're many more, SORRY.
but thanks to some songs along my way home, i finally calmed down. but my eyes were once again wet.
sigh, just too weak.
but it gave me some sense of hope to fight on...
anyway, peace to all ^.^v!!Labels: break, smiles?
yup, so that's what happened (:
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xxx typed*:
blog
(Sunday, 28 October 2007-)
+10/28/2007 09:00:00 pm]*
Title: Tragedy-
Hey.
I witnessed an accident today. It was in the situation where two vehicles clashed in a tight road. Gruesome sight.
I didn't bother to care about the casualties there, but that's when I began to think more about life.
In a weird world called love, it is somewhat similar to a two-laned road. As the name suggests, there is no room for one way traffic, or the other parties cannot get to their wanted destination; if one side starts to get a little demanding and decides to occupy the centre of the two lanes, everyone going the opposite direction must reverse or risk being banged. In the end, crash. Yes, all will suffer. Maybe, the other car might be a lovey dovey couple and this caused the cupid-blessed pair to perish?
Anyway, maybe that's a symbol of me being emo. um, yes. Still, I have no idea what emo defines as... Answers anyone?? (:
So, I have this soft copy here with me. Yet, the fear of receiving this curse which is, another tragedy, happening in front of me never fails to leave me.
I think I know what to do. Go into the exam hall with an empty mind. Try to even if anything goes haywired. Then regurgitate whatever the script wants me to do in shorter time. Followed by listening to what momma has to say. Yes, he said he was going to talk to us in some serious tone.
But, please pardon me. Really, I'm not in any mood to do anything until the file is opened. And, it will only be opened until Thursday. Hope I do put up a good act when I listen tomorrow!
Sorry, I do need a clear mind.
Even if I can't smile, hope the world does!! (:Labels: smiles?
yup, so that's what happened (:
________________________________________________________________________________
(Saturday, 29 September 2007-)
+9/29/2007 08:52:00 am]*
Title: morals or morales?-
exams now are demoralising. maths are problematic for losing the steam during the paper, meanwhile using the excuse of having a blank mind never seems right.
so, tons of things happened. worsened things. or maybe the grafitti tiff jie jie drew made things a little better i guess...
ok, i've got this feelin that marian's cousin doesn't trust me or smth. it's like.. he was tryin to tell tiff something then for that tiny split second, he glanced at me. the next moment, he said nothing. i dunno, maybe i'm thinkin too much, but this actually kicked off my moody life at starbucks. wish that this it just my illusion. ya. or maybe i've been faced with the so many different types of people these days who curse and swear and give bad comments that i hurt someone this time round. hope i was wrong or i can turn things round.
hell came at night. wanyu's scream was chaos. it's mad for her to do this, but really, chuck should have been in a betta attitude. it's like, even if the first step was wrong, maybe he should have tried to make up in the next?? marian n cuiyi scolded him, but that optimistic... fark!!!! no, act big attitude was just urghhhh. another thing was that thank whoeva who calmed things on either side. i actually felt disgusted by the scream. in the end, she just went back to her way of gossipin n b*ching.. perhaps she'd have known all sorts of ppl exist. no?
sis olivia sent an email about her last day at work. honestly, the words "is nothing but a happy ending" just sounds like some assurance or smth. yes it should be. then, for the N years i've known her, she'd never open her heart thru laughter for others. but there's smth i won't be worryin. it's her faith. wish her well.
peace to allLabels: #$%^, curses, fights, grafitti, smiles?, strength, Thanksgiving, troubles, trust, wishyawell
yup, so that's what happened (:
________________________________________________________________________________
(Thursday, 27 September 2007-)
+9/27/2007 06:37:00 pm]*
Title: screwdrivers-
Super screwed papers these days.
Life's so mad that I seriously need a map -
I'm completely lost!
Eg.?
I realised I've turned into a mad mugga
Dumping all my eq
N losing my patience on evryfing...
Would have scolded people for blockin at bus stop too!
But... I'm still kind, I know. -.-'''
btw, Can You Guys Don't KC Me Theze Days??
There Is Nothing For Ya To Guess... (best is that you study for everything...)
::sigh:: I can't stop ya either if that's your way of de-stressin...
I'M SO SORRY TO SAY THIS, BUT TIFFANIE JIE JIE IS ... ... kinda crazy (: haha!!
smiles, or abit la... (:Labels: #$%^, smiles?
yup, so that's what happened (:
________________________________________________________________________________
(Tuesday, 7 August 2007-)
+8/07/2007 09:18:00 pm]*
Title: sick-
hey.
terence is sick today. ya. what lame start. anyway, both in and outside also ill.
so... let's see the outside first. the super enthu me was so into mugging that put me on coca cola drugs n lasted me through the silent night at two. erm, actually doing overdue hw like maths n econs. ya. then this morning, walked like a zombie to wherever i went.
now, going to the psychological part. in lt3 today, the adeno-karjuno-virus struck. alright. i meant kj finally couldn't stop disturbing me when previously, he only gave those funny smirks. yet today, he did much more horrendous things.
it's when kj n lis were right behind her seat n peacefully waiting for me to enter the lt door. i'm usually one of those last few of the class to get in n so, as usual, i scan the whole place for my class. n it's very norm to catch a glimpse of her. when i found that my beloved class were behind her class, a little excited in fact. but before i step any closer, a long bamboo-like person named kj were right behind her. apparently he's eagerly waiting to gimme that smile again. but i acted blur n ignored him n got a seat beside j lo. no choice actually. for being late. that's why the view was a total shit. yet, for some kinda reason, j lo went to the loo n the despo me just snatched his seat. sit beside matthias. a much better seat. at least closer to kj n try to shut his damn mouth up. but more imptly, seeing the adorable face...
during the lect. the tcher was so useless that there's absolute time for lis n kj to write stuff on my notes. liselle's words are ok, but kj's ones made me to draw more stuff just to hide the word that he's been forcing me to lip-read from him every time he feels like giving me trouble. ok, this actually made me feel the sudden urge to decorate the part of the page with literature stuff like shakespeare n times of the 1800s. yea. globe theatre. quotes from him... n whole lots of trash. (-btw, all thanks to eldds last time for me to digress on my notes...)
so, i think after all the beggings n pleads not to start talking anything unnecessary in which i so dearly failed. i really think the class have made the secret very clear already. or maybe, she might even know it too!! but anyway, there wasn't any problems going on after the lect n things seemed to be alright. relax a little for now i guess...
but it's quite funny to see n hear someone scream in the lt just because she leaned back n broke the chair...:D
so... i was supposed to be super dead today, but by the time i finished defending myself from all the evil acts from kj, the rest of the time was sleep. even in the miss han's class. gp tut. yup. even the a-little-pretty female tcher couldn't keep me awake. how pathetic i am.
btw, thanks to those who cared for me. as in concerned about me being sick. belle, maple, cailing, tiff, chris...
and also, wish those who are also sick, like debbie n chris to get well soon!!
peace^.^v!!Labels: clarabelle, fights, kj, kpo, nickwah, smiles?, Thanksgiving, troubles, wishyawell
yup, so that's what happened (:
________________________________________________________________________________
(Monday, 6 August 2007-)
+8/06/2007 09:29:00 pm]*
Title: rebirth-
*Born Again
Live Again
Rise Again*
that's what eldds brought me. a motto to remember. apparently i my mind died yesterday when i subconsciously penned this on paper...
save me.
i'm living in a cell,
the world of darkenss with a little glimpse of light as entertainment.
hardly anyone who knows me will get what i'm thinking.
the light that enters is such fine strip that allows me to see only the little of the limited desires i have.
the complaints i made will echo in a louder, cruder, ruder tone that bursts my ear drums.
the punches i exert will only cause the marks on my knuckles to be redder.
the tears rolling will speed up with any blow through me.
save me.
save me.
lonely fella with useless possessions mean nothing can be done in the cell.
then many times, thick ropes try to fit into the hole to bring me out of the prison.
but the rope is nowhere to be seen by the time it fits the hole.
believing shouting for help through the hole was a folly.
it's pointless.
my body is ever-trapped here.
hittng something senseless means damaging oneself the equivalent.
crying means blaming.
save me.
but for some kind of miraculous reason, there's some rebirth feeling right at morn. even doing all the shit stuff at pe and not even getting a glimpse of her then meant nothing at all. alright, please bless me that i'll live again n rise again soon.
and also bless those who are down for the past few days to recover soon. or hope they retain their power for the final challenge at the end of the year.
HAHA! so many hidden things...Labels: mind, rebirth, reflection, smiles?, stress, troubles, wishyawell
yup, so that's what happened (:
________________________________________________________________________________
(Saturday, 4 August 2007-)
+8/04/2007 08:22:00 pm]*
Title: blur-
ello...
i need enlightenment. can anyone tell me how many cliques are there altogether in drama?? yep, the bored me on the bus just drew a map that tries to link up everyone during the times when i notice them. in sessions, breaks. whatever. but what i found out was quite surprising.
so far there's two big cliques. five small ones. two of the seven overlap at times. four freelancers. two suck ups. and there are two that I'm unsure of. yea. these are just those whom i do think are gonna be permanent for the rest of the year.
appalling. the only thing that i can think of. hearing of things that are so unreal from people tells me they deserve all the f**k they get. so what if there're different groups? can't they think of accepting others' faults and forgive them? even if they can't, is there no way people try to convince the rest to get to good terms? why on earth must those who are ending the teenage life very soon still act like infants? things just get nasty when one dislikes person x, almost all hate it. what f**king hell this is??
still, if you guys believe that the drama spirit has turned sour and it's getting corrosive, i am always here to listen...
but most importantly, stay happy with life. and if possible, update me of the bitching too ::winks::!! yea. shine me from the darkness.Labels: #$%^, advices, backstab, complains, curses, smiles?, strength, troubles, unfair
yup, so that's what happened (:
________________________________________________________________________________
(Monday, 16 July 2007-)
+7/16/2007 06:38:00 pm]*
Title: help! pain!-
um, i can't think of any title now... ...
so, nvm. the sun will set soon if i dont even start. anyway, things are quite unexpectable, i guess. the times when the brain isn't working for school stuff, it turns to the interesting things that happened. how cool they were. or maybe, how memorable they were. they just repeat as if you're afraid that they might just be forgotten some day. or something closer to my schoolmates; the times when i don't get hyper in wherever in school means just that i am emo. -.-''' and the most interesting part is that, only those who aren't that close can realise that their classmate is ill.
first, remember that i owe chan an apology, even though dom said it wasn't my fault.
so, it's real scary that i almost got myself into the biggest trouble in my life when during chem lecture. it's called'被人插背脊'. i was kinda tryin to know what the colourful words on the piece of paper that was passed between eunice n victoria... sry to digress, i super duper like colourful things!!... so i was always sitting a little higher, in a weird way. but yuhao's paper was blockin me!! but it turned more obvious when hongtaa was also looking at the same thing!! questioning of what i was staring forced me to crap about being amazed by his neat handwriting... yup, i guess he might've saw that me being so uneasy for the first time...haha :D
then at phys tutorial, the fella was so **-ed up that literally told me off about sleepin in class. got into a stinkin mood, but felt that he was kinda right, although i'd love to hear something more caring from my teacher...
for chinese, my empathy goes to the lao shi. he's on mc n yet reali stayed on so late just to finish his story in tb. seriously, i'd have just hecked care those students who never listen centuries ago... which was why for that whole lesson, fought on real hard just to stay awake n give him the utmost respect that he deserved.
but recently, i'd been findin myself givin fake smiles. it's those times where there're so many ppl who wish to say hi yet i can't just look away even though my ultimate tired look was there. felt sorry. try to rem them, ros, angie, binni... sigh. conclusion, don't ever remember things when blank. haha, everyone knows that. :)Labels: backstab, emo, giddy, shagged, smiles?
yup, so that's what happened (:
________________________________________________________________________________
+7/16/2007 12:01:00 am]*
Title: Piling-
hey
potter's show was nice. but will tell it some day. anw, another thing to pile on my list as to why i should get my bloody ass out of the ExCo, what lousy way of seeing the qualities of people. turned to strengths only. in return, got a harsh piece of mail. verbally, not shooting me. but deep inside i know i caused the entire problem...
so anw, i'll shut my whatever that can possibly leak what has happened while i allow it to R.I.P...
peace though!!Labels: emo, guilty, Intelligence, smiles?, splat
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Saturday, 14 July 2007-)
+7/14/2007 10:38:00 pm]*
Title: Down to earth-
hey.
i don't know if i should be happy or not. reading things after the unlucky yesterday changed things completely.
alright. she kinda wrote that he's gone to be an ec instead of a bf in her eyes. to many, i'd've anticipated that my frens'd 'advice' me to go for it. get a happy ending. haha :D everything sounds idealistic.
but the thought of things learnt in ltc told me otherwise. this was said," when opportunity comes, what do you do? grab right? ok, grab. that's what cliches tell us. but so what if you grab it? what can you do huh?"
that's one of the many interesting ones the, but, anw, got this mentality that i won't commit totally. the idea of having to prolong a relationship is real tough while things might turn heart-breaking otherwise. fine, sound as if i've been successful... but no! not that stage yet... and according to dom today (-seen him too many days liao), there's a lack of trust in jc students, and i'm worried that i'll still not believe in others, let alone possiblly her?
smth to convince myself is the discipline makeover. all thanks to advices brought up by dom (-ahh.. him again!??). he's the one that shot the proud n arrogant terence down to earth. made him back to what he used to be with... "do things for others, avoid the p-word...". whatever i've done so far is just for the word. sorry. just regretting so much these dayz that i'm ready to opt out of the ExCo while snapping tauted strings with so many of my friends along my way here. i'm just not the choice.
sigh, i'm best at digressing... haha :D so i think i've made up my mind. make myself no-life n stay lp as much as possible. to the previous me, GAMEOVER.Labels: elections, influenced, smiles?
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Monday, 25 June 2007-)
+6/25/2007 06:42:00 pm]*
Title: white flag-
broke down at phys paper today. tears flowed during the time when i was doing the mcq part. real demoralising. yup, lots of the twenty questions were the dont knows and i acually stoned by the fifteenth one.
the best part is, i told everyone that i was sleeping during then... now think i shouldn't have told lies. sorry.
but till now i still dont know why it happened. haha, wierdo mindo... :)
and feel real bad to give people long faces when they called me. try name them. liselle, clarisse, andrew, clarence, joshua, maple, chicky little... i'm sure there're many more, SORRY.
but thanks to some songs along my way home, i finally calmed down. but my eyes were once again wet.
sigh, just too weak.
but it gave me some sense of hope to fight on...
anyway, peace to all ^.^v!!Labels: break, smiles?
yup, so that's what happened (:
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