xxx typed*:
mind (blog)
(Thursday, 4 October 2007-)
+10/04/2007 11:35:00 pm]*
Title: help!!-
hey.
i feel so troubled. it's so tiring that i can never sleep early or wake up late. then i'm also broke.
thank goodness that i learnt how to clear corrupted files. pheew!! :D
but... i wanna see the hockey pics!!! :P
oh!! the cafe's cool. but this mousey game's betta...
anw, byee for now!! :D
are you tired?? cuz you've been running through
my head...
see?? that's what happens when my mind's suppperrrr blur... hahaha :D i'm serious!!Labels: hallucination
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Saturday, 22 September 2007-)
+9/22/2007 09:45:00 pm]*
Title: Stuck in space-
trash! i'm gonna crash and die in the promos. cuz of one simple thing. my brain calls me to stop studying!! every moment i tried to pick up my pencil and jot points. there's this knock on my brain that gives me hell of my mind.
ya, that's it. nothing that fantastic. with reasons like... sleeping late when felt giddy a few hours before yest nite, woke up super early for some uncomfy reason, thought of one weirdo email from tagged, had tons of distractions like the stupid phone games which i still cannot delete them and got intro-ed to the war-thingy game on facebook...
ya, still thinking of that email. i'll post it here someday. sounded gross. i mean, VERY.
oh!! i can guess ages well!! but sad thing is that, i couldn't rem how the younger one looked like... just anyhow guess by the older one actually... hey liselle!! show me pics k?? (:
mama says i should not touch the com these exam days. but what am i doing here?? sigh. anyway, just found a new way to psycho myself.
just adopt your new role, terence.
wiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii :D show your teeth and... smile!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
p.s. holding da button was fun... :)Labels: blessed, fantasies, hallucination, smiles
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Wednesday, 25 July 2007-)
+7/25/2007 07:10:00 pm]*
Title: sleep-
things are definitely going haywire.
stoning very much in drama after school hours did not help. i know it's very wrong for me that i don't listen much when there's the post session meeting, despite the fact that it does seem a little better that i've asked alot lesser questions that doubted my intelligence for the so many times that happened before. perhaps not this time round i guess...
instead, i kept thinking of the ponytail that tiff had. haha, just feels weird inside. but this instantly reminded me of her. it's too similar!! all the more she's putting this tail these days... well actually, i'm a little excited n abit of nervy that the imaginary she was in the lt.. but, erm.. that's just about the brain playing tricks when one's too tired... yea, and tiff was actually telling me about the fantasies she's going through when receiving some gift from the cute fella from ******. according to her... alright. i think it's best that she stays hopeful about this dream while i shut my darn mouth on this any further. yea.
btw, i think it's quite dead for me to really go ahead with what meiling said. wanting to offer but lacking the power. ya.
and also, thanks to dom for giving 11:23 minute talk about things... not trying to be sarcarstic!! actually, it's just me. i always wanted to join in the fun with all my friends, just that there are some things that no one can really help me unless i sit down n work through things on my own. just like the prayer this morning.Labels: concentrate?, dominic, fantasies, hallucination, offer, reflection, strength, stress, tails, troubles
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Wednesday, 18 July 2007-)
+7/18/2007 06:04:00 pm]*
Title: code, or quotes?-
hey.
this title is dedicated to yza for being confused with the pronounciation of the two words about the wr yesterday. or the day before? oh, forgot completely... but, amazing foreigners we have in the class...
drama serials. i hate them at times. for the entire life of shows, they always tend to tell us the idealistic of life, like 緣份是要自己爭取... pardon me for using trad. chinese... but yea, sounds logical. but it's these unreal things, together with the negative ones, that leave us hanging in mid-air. the notion of dunno whether the wings will stop flappin or if they will continue to lift us is scary. just like the do-or-die times.
for myself, the most common approach is to start talking to her, and hoping she'll accept me and stuff like that; it was my sole intention since the start - just to impress her by being one of the best, if not the only, in all sorts things - for myself to do so much ****, even tiring myself to the extreme for a place in the exco. yup, sounds like the perfect way of life. but so what? does it mean she'll definitely notice it? or will this be miraculously told to her out of nowhere? so what if she knows of it? be accepted straightaway as if i'm going for an interview and believing that showing off all the previous certificates will guarantee me something? that's when i started to ask myself why on earth do i commit myself to never-growing, lame-and-idiotic actions like staring, for half a milli second, whenever i spot her in school, or try to gain every opportunity to surf the net... conclusion? to know more about someone who has good looks (-ok, that's besides the point...), can behave so differently with lots of fun and laughter in school yet feel so down when getting to the com at night, and most importantly, admire her personality to stay strong despite the setbacks that has happened.
then there's other lines that try to balance the magical world of perfection with the obstacles in life by giving statements like... ok, i forgot the exact words, but it's something about this idea; 鍾意一個人唔一定要同佢係埋一齊. it meant that liking someone doesn't mean that both must come together. true, if things are one-sided, it's pointless. so i'll just let things fix itself out for the time being...
well, enough of trash. so, lizzy finally found out. but actually she'd known it centuries ago... there're so many clues with the so many contacts she had. well, good for her. and for moments ago, i just realised that more people are knowing this already. just hope that i can rest in peace while i try to get better with some stupid illness.
btw, thanks to denis for givin advices aft drama today... but still, back to same old rule. wait till i recover.
smiles Labels: chinese, creepy, fantasies, hallucination, QnA, smiles, Thanksgiving
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Wednesday, 11 July 2007-)
+7/11/2007 09:49:00 pm]*
Title: funny things when tired-
hey
real shagged today. couldn't believe that i'd actually still typing this out, but its alright. cuz it's real crazy.
slept for some parts of the elections thing, good thing that none caught me...
trying to f-up lots of things; sam called me to do smth for his pw, when i haven't even got mine completely done. and, i'm not even in his group, mind you. wth. singyen's leaving, and i reali wish all of us in 35 can give our best wishes to her before her flight on friday. aww.. it's so sad; i've got shift for the arts thing... and then there's more things to do for the round two of art exhibition, dom called just now. and i think i'll just collapse... then went to the doc. that's what he said...
well, i think it's a viral infection, so no antibiotics. and, there's no cough syrup which doesn't make you drowsy. and also, i'll give you an mc tomorrow, so rest well...
wth! i've got so many things to do and this fella just told me to rest. can't listen to him. truly.
btw, i was having hallucination ever since after chem practical. not cuz i was doing well for that, but cuz of the energy lost ever since i was so n2 right in the morning. somemore, dad left me alone to go take the bus!! sigh, life's hard. anyway, hope billy recovered... but the following were the things i thought i saw. i actually mistook tiff as her at times during the ice cream thingy. i dont know, it's just very creepy... but, thankfully, i am awake now. perhaps it's because of the number of times that i do see her nowadays. it's just so much more.Labels: creepy, doctor, hallucination, shagged, smiles
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Saturday, 30 June 2007-)
+6/30/2007 10:44:00 am]*
Title: maddy-
hey
life's just weird these days. here i have some strange dreams about different people, like jack's cca mate trying to get me on a date (-damn stupid...) and this morn, alex's face was with my little cousins.
then some crazed ppl just asked some lame questions. i mean for me it is, but for them, just being kpo.. two actually.
then the maddest of all was pet. called ppl to dump me into the dam pool. i just rem three of them. her, leonard n chao... hmm, i think... and, i'll track the last one down too... just too sudden man, it's like all the others are eh u got bring ur clothes or not... eh where's ur spects arh... can see or not??... gimme ur valuables... grab him... then there's four idiots, grabbed my four little limbs n threw me into the pool. just like ppl dumping the corpse into the sea or smth like that. just madness. then when i came up, a whole row of drama ppl staring la! like seeing if i'm dead or not. wth. some more first to be thrown in the rain!! alright, sounds retarded...
but before that, there're some good pics taken with some good lookin ppl... hehe :)
but the party yest was fun. some ppl gettin real drunk. heard shuanne was one. nat also, wobbly feet. haha :D and also sondra n shu were like fighting..?? haha, put me in real trouble... haha :D loved the way we were. prob all the guys were in the pool. but oh! matt's hurt, hope he's well soon... n also cake fight. sigh, but i was so cold that i just stood around n hear the 'i never' game. hmm, lots of secrets were out... haha :D
liked the way ketsu was tellin abt the trend of fashion now. sounds amazing.
gonna die when i'm goin to do planning now. wish me luck!! hrs of work!!Labels: celebrations, fights, hallucination, kpo, splat, troubles
yup, so that's what happened (:
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xxx typed*:
blog
(Thursday, 4 October 2007-)
+10/04/2007 11:35:00 pm]*
Title: help!!-
hey.
i feel so troubled. it's so tiring that i can never sleep early or wake up late. then i'm also broke.
thank goodness that i learnt how to clear corrupted files. pheew!! :D
but... i wanna see the hockey pics!!! :P
oh!! the cafe's cool. but this mousey game's betta...
anw, byee for now!! :D
are you tired?? cuz you've been running through
my head...
see?? that's what happens when my mind's suppperrrr blur... hahaha :D i'm serious!!Labels: hallucination
yup, so that's what happened (:
________________________________________________________________________________
(Saturday, 22 September 2007-)
+9/22/2007 09:45:00 pm]*
Title: Stuck in space-
trash! i'm gonna crash and die in the promos. cuz of one simple thing. my brain calls me to stop studying!! every moment i tried to pick up my pencil and jot points. there's this knock on my brain that gives me hell of my mind.
ya, that's it. nothing that fantastic. with reasons like... sleeping late when felt giddy a few hours before yest nite, woke up super early for some uncomfy reason, thought of one weirdo email from tagged, had tons of distractions like the stupid phone games which i still cannot delete them and got intro-ed to the war-thingy game on facebook...
ya, still thinking of that email. i'll post it here someday. sounded gross. i mean, VERY.
oh!! i can guess ages well!! but sad thing is that, i couldn't rem how the younger one looked like... just anyhow guess by the older one actually... hey liselle!! show me pics k?? (:
mama says i should not touch the com these exam days. but what am i doing here?? sigh. anyway, just found a new way to psycho myself.
just adopt your new role, terence.
wiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii :D show your teeth and... smile!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
p.s. holding da button was fun... :)Labels: blessed, fantasies, hallucination, smiles
yup, so that's what happened (:
________________________________________________________________________________
(Wednesday, 25 July 2007-)
+7/25/2007 07:10:00 pm]*
Title: sleep-
things are definitely going haywire.
stoning very much in drama after school hours did not help. i know it's very wrong for me that i don't listen much when there's the post session meeting, despite the fact that it does seem a little better that i've asked alot lesser questions that doubted my intelligence for the so many times that happened before. perhaps not this time round i guess...
instead, i kept thinking of the ponytail that tiff had. haha, just feels weird inside. but this instantly reminded me of her. it's too similar!! all the more she's putting this tail these days... well actually, i'm a little excited n abit of nervy that the imaginary she was in the lt.. but, erm.. that's just about the brain playing tricks when one's too tired... yea, and tiff was actually telling me about the fantasies she's going through when receiving some gift from the cute fella from ******. according to her... alright. i think it's best that she stays hopeful about this dream while i shut my darn mouth on this any further. yea.
btw, i think it's quite dead for me to really go ahead with what meiling said. wanting to offer but lacking the power. ya.
and also, thanks to dom for giving 11:23 minute talk about things... not trying to be sarcarstic!! actually, it's just me. i always wanted to join in the fun with all my friends, just that there are some things that no one can really help me unless i sit down n work through things on my own. just like the prayer this morning.Labels: concentrate?, dominic, fantasies, hallucination, offer, reflection, strength, stress, tails, troubles
yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Wednesday, 18 July 2007-)
+7/18/2007 06:04:00 pm]*
Title: code, or quotes?-
hey.
this title is dedicated to yza for being confused with the pronounciation of the two words about the wr yesterday. or the day before? oh, forgot completely... but, amazing foreigners we have in the class...
drama serials. i hate them at times. for the entire life of shows, they always tend to tell us the idealistic of life, like 緣份是要自己爭取... pardon me for using trad. chinese... but yea, sounds logical. but it's these unreal things, together with the negative ones, that leave us hanging in mid-air. the notion of dunno whether the wings will stop flappin or if they will continue to lift us is scary. just like the do-or-die times.
for myself, the most common approach is to start talking to her, and hoping she'll accept me and stuff like that; it was my sole intention since the start - just to impress her by being one of the best, if not the only, in all sorts things - for myself to do so much ****, even tiring myself to the extreme for a place in the exco. yup, sounds like the perfect way of life. but so what? does it mean she'll definitely notice it? or will this be miraculously told to her out of nowhere? so what if she knows of it? be accepted straightaway as if i'm going for an interview and believing that showing off all the previous certificates will guarantee me something? that's when i started to ask myself why on earth do i commit myself to never-growing, lame-and-idiotic actions like staring, for half a milli second, whenever i spot her in school, or try to gain every opportunity to surf the net... conclusion? to know more about someone who has good looks (-ok, that's besides the point...), can behave so differently with lots of fun and laughter in school yet feel so down when getting to the com at night, and most importantly, admire her personality to stay strong despite the setbacks that has happened.
then there's other lines that try to balance the magical world of perfection with the obstacles in life by giving statements like... ok, i forgot the exact words, but it's something about this idea; 鍾意一個人唔一定要同佢係埋一齊. it meant that liking someone doesn't mean that both must come together. true, if things are one-sided, it's pointless. so i'll just let things fix itself out for the time being...
well, enough of trash. so, lizzy finally found out. but actually she'd known it centuries ago... there're so many clues with the so many contacts she had. well, good for her. and for moments ago, i just realised that more people are knowing this already. just hope that i can rest in peace while i try to get better with some stupid illness.
btw, thanks to denis for givin advices aft drama today... but still, back to same old rule. wait till i recover.
smiles Labels: chinese, creepy, fantasies, hallucination, QnA, smiles, Thanksgiving
yup, so that's what happened (:
________________________________________________________________________________
(Wednesday, 11 July 2007-)
+7/11/2007 09:49:00 pm]*
Title: funny things when tired-
hey
real shagged today. couldn't believe that i'd actually still typing this out, but its alright. cuz it's real crazy.
slept for some parts of the elections thing, good thing that none caught me...
trying to f-up lots of things; sam called me to do smth for his pw, when i haven't even got mine completely done. and, i'm not even in his group, mind you. wth. singyen's leaving, and i reali wish all of us in 35 can give our best wishes to her before her flight on friday. aww.. it's so sad; i've got shift for the arts thing... and then there's more things to do for the round two of art exhibition, dom called just now. and i think i'll just collapse... then went to the doc. that's what he said...
well, i think it's a viral infection, so no antibiotics. and, there's no cough syrup which doesn't make you drowsy. and also, i'll give you an mc tomorrow, so rest well...
wth! i've got so many things to do and this fella just told me to rest. can't listen to him. truly.
btw, i was having hallucination ever since after chem practical. not cuz i was doing well for that, but cuz of the energy lost ever since i was so n2 right in the morning. somemore, dad left me alone to go take the bus!! sigh, life's hard. anyway, hope billy recovered... but the following were the things i thought i saw. i actually mistook tiff as her at times during the ice cream thingy. i dont know, it's just very creepy... but, thankfully, i am awake now. perhaps it's because of the number of times that i do see her nowadays. it's just so much more.Labels: creepy, doctor, hallucination, shagged, smiles
yup, so that's what happened (:
________________________________________________________________________________
(Saturday, 30 June 2007-)
+6/30/2007 10:44:00 am]*
Title: maddy-
hey
life's just weird these days. here i have some strange dreams about different people, like jack's cca mate trying to get me on a date (-damn stupid...) and this morn, alex's face was with my little cousins.
then some crazed ppl just asked some lame questions. i mean for me it is, but for them, just being kpo.. two actually.
then the maddest of all was pet. called ppl to dump me into the dam pool. i just rem three of them. her, leonard n chao... hmm, i think... and, i'll track the last one down too... just too sudden man, it's like all the others are eh u got bring ur clothes or not... eh where's ur spects arh... can see or not??... gimme ur valuables... grab him... then there's four idiots, grabbed my four little limbs n threw me into the pool. just like ppl dumping the corpse into the sea or smth like that. just madness. then when i came up, a whole row of drama ppl staring la! like seeing if i'm dead or not. wth. some more first to be thrown in the rain!! alright, sounds retarded...
but before that, there're some good pics taken with some good lookin ppl... hehe :)
but the party yest was fun. some ppl gettin real drunk. heard shuanne was one. nat also, wobbly feet. haha :D and also sondra n shu were like fighting..?? haha, put me in real trouble... haha :D loved the way we were. prob all the guys were in the pool. but oh! matt's hurt, hope he's well soon... n also cake fight. sigh, but i was so cold that i just stood around n hear the 'i never' game. hmm, lots of secrets were out... haha :D
liked the way ketsu was tellin abt the trend of fashion now. sounds amazing.
gonna die when i'm goin to do planning now. wish me luck!! hrs of work!!Labels: celebrations, fights, hallucination, kpo, splat, troubles
yup, so that's what happened (:
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