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(Thursday, 9 August 2007-)
+8/09/2007 07:46:00 am]*

Title: Doubts-

hey.

it's the list of things i wanna clear for myself.

i've this feeling that people in drama thinks that cuiyi's way to convince explanation ytd was too unreal when she was just shooting all her points. but just in case if you guys dunno. she's been repeating all her exact same points for about five times to the tchers, sc ppl, exco twice and to those who turned up for last friday's session. ya, so what u heard ytd was the sixth time. so please understand her awhile...

and, i also realised that the clique map cannot be uploaded in order to prevent people from being offended... sorry. i can let ya see directly if u want though... but if u do, promise me that you guys keep a positive attitude towards borrowing your names for my map.

thanks belle, i've learnt alot more about my environment at long john's...

oh!! the biggest joke of the century!! someone from hk cannot speak proper cantonese!! who?? chris the mugger!! it's like when playing pool where yk chris n i are left cuz the rest went to the lan shop. so one of them, prolly yk, suggested that we should start communicating in our supposed language. ok la, i'm always fine with things that sounds quite fun. so started talking all the slangs n ocassionally, tried to speak abit stupid. but hey hey! hey!!... this mugger is really stupid!! really speak like shit!! haha, too much mugging. not even time for things like learning his own native language. pardon me, but he sounds like all those foreigners who are trying hard to speak the not-so-weird type of cantonese...

i'm not crazy to do pw on a national day. it's just mugger chris!!

to tiff je je , i'm not really a noob who doesn't know how to wear my contact lenses k. it's just that i forgot how to.

um, i'm not dying without seeing her. despite the oval-ly rectanglular-ly shaped spects that makes her look a little cute!! yea, i've no idea why this needs clarification when i know it in the back of my brain... or maybe i don't seem to be.

and erm, i seriously need help n someone to accompany when going for school mass. it's during the national day mass right at morning and all thanks to joshua!! yup, he guided me quite alot when it's supposedly a norm n understood process for catholics in school. but for me, my lost soul blurred me in some of the steps in which i forgot from another mass in april i guess... still, mass helped me re-focus myself.

i prefered the serious play to skits on the celebrations ytd. not because i think pros is of magical standard to others, but the casts' ability to convey their message in a loud n clear manner. and it's kinda irritating that some people has got the emotions right in skits but in the end, when delivering their lines, their senseless mouths just stayed away from the mike. and almost all of us sitting at the back had the same response... "HUH!??" sorry, desiree siti krystal n denis... if in any chance you read this... hope you all learn!! anyway, every performance's content should be well credited for their efforts to develop their imagination for interesting ideas and link to the audience. :claps:!!

err. last here. it's creppy to occupy a table-for-twelve for three persons my parents n i... then received stares. all the time... btw, that's last night's dinper @ eastcoast park...

Labels: creepy

yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Wednesday, 18 July 2007-)
+7/18/2007 06:04:00 pm]*

Title: code, or quotes?-

hey.
this title is dedicated to yza for being confused with the pronounciation of the two words about the wr yesterday. or the day before? oh, forgot completely... but, amazing foreigners we have in the class...

drama serials. i hate them at times. for the entire life of shows, they always tend to tell us the idealistic of life, like 緣份是要自己爭取... pardon me for using trad. chinese... but yea, sounds logical. but it's these unreal things, together with the negative ones, that leave us hanging in mid-air. the notion of dunno whether the wings will stop flappin or if they will continue to lift us is scary. just like the do-or-die times.

for myself, the most common approach is to start talking to her, and hoping she'll accept me and stuff like that; it was my sole intention since the start - just to impress her by being one of the best, if not the only, in all sorts things - for myself to do so much ****, even tiring myself to the extreme for a place in the exco. yup, sounds like the perfect way of life. but so what? does it mean she'll definitely notice it? or will this be miraculously told to her out of nowhere? so what if she knows of it? be accepted straightaway as if i'm going for an interview and believing that showing off all the previous certificates will guarantee me something? that's when i started to ask myself why on earth do i commit myself to never-growing, lame-and-idiotic actions like staring, for half a milli second, whenever i spot her in school, or try to gain every opportunity to surf the net... conclusion? to know more about someone who has good looks (-ok, that's besides the point...), can behave so differently with lots of fun and laughter in school yet feel so down when getting to the com at night, and most importantly, admire her personality to stay strong despite the setbacks that has happened.

then there's other lines that try to balance the magical world of perfection with the obstacles in life by giving statements like... ok, i forgot the exact words, but it's something about this idea; 鍾意一個人唔一定要同佢係埋一齊. it meant that liking someone doesn't mean that both must come together. true, if things are one-sided, it's pointless. so i'll just let things fix itself out for the time being...

well, enough of trash. so, lizzy finally found out. but actually she'd known it centuries ago... there're so many clues with the so many contacts she had. well, good for her. and for moments ago, i just realised that more people are knowing this already. just hope that i can rest in peace while i try to get better with some stupid illness.

btw, thanks to denis for givin advices aft drama today... but still, back to same old rule. wait till i recover.

smiles

Labels: chinese, creepy, fantasies, hallucination, QnA, smiles, Thanksgiving

yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Wednesday, 11 July 2007-)
+7/11/2007 09:49:00 pm]*

Title: funny things when tired-

hey
real shagged today. couldn't believe that i'd actually still typing this out, but its alright. cuz it's real crazy.
slept for some parts of the elections thing, good thing that none caught me...
trying to f-up lots of things; sam called me to do smth for his pw, when i haven't even got mine completely done. and, i'm not even in his group, mind you. wth. singyen's leaving, and i reali wish all of us in 35 can give our best wishes to her before her flight on friday. aww.. it's so sad; i've got shift for the arts thing... and then there's more things to do for the round two of art exhibition, dom called just now. and i think i'll just collapse... then went to the doc. that's what he said...
well, i think it's a viral infection, so no antibiotics. and, there's no cough syrup which doesn't make you drowsy. and also, i'll give you an mc tomorrow, so rest well...
wth! i've got so many things to do and this fella just told me to rest. can't listen to him. truly.
btw, i was having hallucination ever since after chem practical. not cuz i was doing well for that, but cuz of the energy lost ever since i was so n2 right in the morning. somemore, dad left me alone to go take the bus!! sigh, life's hard. anyway, hope billy recovered... but the following were the things i thought i saw. i actually mistook tiff as her at times during the ice cream thingy. i dont know, it's just very creepy... but, thankfully, i am awake now. perhaps it's because of the number of times that i do see her nowadays. it's just so much more.

Labels: creepy, doctor, hallucination, shagged, smiles

yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Sunday, 8 July 2007-)
+7/08/2007 07:05:00 pm]*

Title: creepy days-

hey.
not because i was scared of the previous days' coincidence that i wasn't here, but cuz of the schedule. hope u understand...
yep, on fri kena 搵老趁by lots of people. in the end, waited in school for two hours for doing nothing. only went to the arts house by seven... wth!?? felt outcasted then by not knowing cartoons and stuff... well, i simply forgot most of them. but i doubt if anyone'd believe that. dipper, saw this:

cool right? :P ok, can't reali see, it's 69 actually... haha :)

yest, in ew outfit. argh, whatever. ****!! the event's quite a success, with dom giving the confidence. seriously, i'd've felt lost without his soo clear instructions. but i screwed things up once or twice... ... i'm still thinking about it... ok, let it pass... hoped that worked :)

anyway, amazed by the cheerleaders group. btw, most of them should be the most informative and be the most formal. but on fri, all five of them were b**ch-posing. 'hello!? the event's tmr!!' that's what i was thinking... alright, they're good in the end, though some un pro things. hope they learnt... shoots!! hate myself for sounding so workaholic!!... so the cheerleading team are as follow: pet g, emily, keley, tiff, wanyu. yup, they're good.

other good people: my beloved bravo-o group - cailing, denis, michelle (-she finally felt comfy by talking!! yay!! was so scared she didn't... haha :D)... the strong guys from t2, marvy planters to kill time... of course, my fantabulous senior ics: dom, chan, yiutak, nicole (-she's got unique surname!!) and pett!!

back to the event, the final guest. guest of honour, was late. way too late. even trash talking weren't enough to cut time. haha :) all got bored to death. oh, dom was so on to whip all into perfect conditions. yep, he called me to wake ppl up. anyway, ms low was the best of all guest. not because i'm scared someone'll report or smth, but reali, she's the only one who didnt come n see see then move on. ok, there're the things besides the scheduled ones like giving tokens n cerfiticates... (-dom's england rocks!!:)
-chose her desired page to pen her thoughts in gold. it's full page long!! (-btw, michelle designed the borders... wow!!)
-continued calmly even though there're kpos trying to read on the spot behind her...
-questioned lots to know more
-had smiles all the time (-oh!! she n michelle had some sorta similar smile...)
-went to every single painting (all thanks to bro paul; we're so un-pro!! haha :D)
-gave a speech that sounded touching...

oh, things that were mad. spilled drinks at recept table.... slacking on it... seeing the fourth winner smiling at one corner when she was late but was already attending the sharing session and chan said that she wasn't around, what cheeky smile (-oh, her pony tail reminded of minhang!!)... seeing the cj winners looking so awkward when talking about their paintings (-natalie n some other name... i forgot!! oops!!)... me acting like dom to 擦鞋to the guests... drove the unifem lady to go crazy...

lastly, felt some aura when got a handshake from bro n called my name!! also found that vp was quite interesting.. the tiny talk made me feel a little comfy with such great figures. haha still fantasising ...

there might be things i missed. hope they'll always stay in those who remebered them.

thank goodness was called by ju out for some talkin... all the better than the gals' cameras at boat quay, or walking in group of seven (-check the date out!!)... rem lots of funny things, with ws, justin, sweez.. haha :D anyway, caught in more dilemma when dr. love (-yup, that fella's self proclaiming... haha :D) was saying smth similar to meiling. hmm... ws seems right.. see how things go!
peace!

Labels: aura, boat quay, creepy, splat

yup, so that's what happened (:
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xxx typed*: blog

(Thursday, 9 August 2007-)
+8/09/2007 07:46:00 am]*

Title: Doubts-