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(Sunday, 22 February 2009-)
+2/22/2009 01:16:00 am]*

Title: Brave And Daring-

honestly things have not been going well for my friends, increasingly. for orientation, some individuals' selfishness disgusted me and the worst was that the supposed better shows were either photocopied from the previous year or made with poor presentation. in other words, they were bad.

i was also talking to jojo. he said he saw it on the newspaper the previous night, and immediately i got real mad about myself, just because on that night i was flipping it through and even browsed through it, almost every column about it for quite awhile. but the thing was, i could miss it entirely! then late that night i felt i was such a disappointment for being so unattentive.

there were shocks along the way, including a story that wayne told during one of the densely vegetated nights. so in total, there're three this month. jojo was telling me why there're so many this month huh? all i could think was, oh, you've no idea how many out there there are! every time i think of either of the three, anyone outside will see that extra layer of water at my eye. can't help it, they just come naturally. these situations are becoming lesser now, but i'm still learning to control them. besides, i'm sure they'll stay strong.

talking about learning, this month i've been trying to control myself what not to do, what not to say. everything here needs to think through, its purpose, its plan and its outcome. thankfully jess warned me just now, but i'm still afraid that i might still cross the line between 'friend' and 'rude'.

one happier moment is that my cousin's bf just proposed to her up on the concert on 15th! the funny thing was that the bf wrote in to radio station to exp why he wanted the tickets, so at the concert, almost every one working at the concert knew and gave them two special seats. in the end, the concert wasn't really a concert after all. on youtube, some ml even video-ed it! so funny la!

Dear Lord, i can imagine how it feels to be in all my friends' shoes, the sense of feeling why time couldn't be on our side; the sense that we could all spend our time better. please bless them to be back on track no matter what happens as soon as possible, gain experience from life and take good care of their health. bless their families to stay strong too and get through the bad times. let them have faith in themselves that with Your guidance and Your strength, they will pull it through. and i'm sorry to say this prayer here, but i do hope that everyone else can also learn from this to spend time more efficiently. i pray.

yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Sunday, 8 February 2009-)
+2/08/2009 03:08:00 pm]*

Title: The Game Is On Again-

this day my dad decided that he was going to toa payoh even though the initial plan was to go to paya lebar.

when we were heading to this wrong direction, i was really scared and afraid that i might bump into people and try to strike a conversation even though i wish to. i was even more afraid that all those times would cramp into my head and i would lose my real identity when i meet them. in fact, i kept seeing that i would look away even if i not want to when these people appear. after all, it's a sunday and people do move around for healthy social activities.

then, i told myself, don't forget what you have been praying for all these days and that your prayers will be answered, which was how i gave up on fearing of what was about to happen.

and guess what? we went to paya lebar. dad said they sound a little similar, but as usual, that wasn't too convincing. so all these insane thoughts were pointless. later, we went to somewhere near north bridge road, which made me laugh and drove me mad about what i was thinking earlier. hmm. such a complicated mind.

honestly, i find that i'm one who cannot express or describe things well. so whatever i think is different from what i speak out even if i try to, then whatever i say is usually heard differently from what i speak. and when what goes into my head is different from what i hear, nothing's right. aiyo. such complex insensible brain.

here's a line picked, a poor excuse for what i'm doing, but it's still true. in fact, sometimes i think that the truth hurts more than others. playing a game with an upper hand is always good, but never be complacent as any slip-ups - especially with handphones - can be quite costly.

yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Sunday, 1 February 2009-)
+2/01/2009 09:50:00 am]*

Title: pray-

thanks for the blessings given so far. i know everything happening on me are the best things i can possibly get,despite all the pains. i'm grateful, and please shower them to all my friends too. they must be trying to live on with their lives now, but please do bless them to stay healthy, stay happy. some might have forgotten me by now, but please guide them to move in the right way in life. then all those who think that they are blur or are actually blur, please let them to take that one step boldly and be confident. for those that i have lost trust in, please allow me to try accept their situation and please do not let me have the mind of playing them around. one last thing, please bless them to have a good week ahead. i pray.

yup, so that's what happened (:
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xxx typed*: blog

(Sunday, 22 February 2009-)
+2/22/2009 01:16:00 am]*

Title: Brave And Daring-

honestly things have not been going well for my friends, increasingly. for orientation, some individuals' selfishness disgusted me and the worst was that the supposed better shows were either photocopied from the previous year or made with poor presentation. in other words, they were bad.

i was also talking to jojo. he said he saw it on the newspaper the previous night, and immediately i got real mad about myself, just because on that night i was flipping it through and even browsed through it, almost every column about it for quite awhile. but the thing was, i could miss it entirely! then late that night i felt i was such a disappointment for being so unattentive.

there were shocks along the way, including a story that wayne told during one of the densely vegetated nights. so in total, there're three this month. jojo was telling me why there're so many this month huh? all i could think was, oh, you've no idea how many out there there are! every time i think of either of the three, anyone outside will see that extra layer of water at my eye. can't help it, they just come naturally. these situations are becoming lesser now, but i'm still learning to control them. besides, i'm sure they'll stay strong.

talking about learning, this month i've been trying to control myself what not to do, what not to say. everything here needs to think through, its purpose, its plan and its outcome. thankfully jess warned me just now, but i'm still afraid that i might still cross the line between 'friend' and 'rude'.

one happier moment is that my cousin's bf just proposed to her up on the concert on 15th! the funny thing was that the bf wrote in to radio station to exp why he wanted the tickets, so at the concert, almost every one working at the concert knew and gave them two special seats. in the end, the concert wasn't really a concert after all. on youtube, some ml even video-ed it! so funny la!

Dear Lord, i can imagine how it feels to be in all my friends' shoes, the sense of feeling why time couldn't be on our side; the sense that we could all spend our time better. please bless them to be back on track no matter what happens as soon as possible, gain experience from life and take good care of their health. bless their families to stay strong too and get through the bad times. let them have faith in themselves that with Your guidance and Your strength, they will pull it through. and i'm sorry to say this prayer here, but i do hope that everyone else can also learn from this to spend time more efficiently. i pray.

yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Sunday, 8 February 2009-)
+2/08/2009 03:08:00 pm]*

Title: The Game Is On Again-

this day my dad decided that he was going to toa payoh even though the initial plan was to go to paya lebar.

when we were heading to this wrong direction, i was really scared and afraid that i might bump into people and try to strike a conversation even though i wish to. i was even more afraid that all those times would cramp into my head and i would lose my real identity when i meet them. in fact, i kept seeing that i would look away even if i not want to when these people appear. after all, it's a sunday and people do move around for healthy social activities.

then, i told myself, don't forget what you have been praying for all these days and that your prayers will be answered, which was how i gave up on fearing of what was about to happen.

and guess what? we went to paya lebar. dad said they sound a little similar, but as usual, that wasn't too convincing. so all these insane thoughts were pointless. later, we went to somewhere near north bridge road, which made me laugh and drove me mad about what i was thinking earlier. hmm. such a complicated mind.

honestly, i find that i'm one who cannot express or describe things well. so whatever i think is different from what i speak out even if i try to, then whatever i say is usually heard differently from what i speak. and when what goes into my head is different from what i hear, nothing's right. aiyo. such complex insensible brain.

here's a line picked, a poor excuse for what i'm doing, but it's still true. in fact, sometimes i think that the truth hurts more than others. playing a game with an upper hand is always good, but never be complacent as any slip-ups - especially with handphones - can be quite costly.

yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Sunday, 1 February 2009-)
+2/01/2009 09:50:00 am]*

Title: pray-

thanks for the blessings given so far. i know everything happening on me are the best things i can possibly get,despite all the pains. i'm grateful, and please shower them to all my friends too. they must be trying to live on with their lives now, but please do bless them to stay healthy, stay happy. some might have forgotten me by now, but please guide them to move in the right way in life. then all those who think that they are blur or are actually blur, please let them to take that one step boldly and be confident. for those that i have lost trust in, please allow me to try accept their situation and please do not let me have the mind of playing them around. one last thing, please bless them to have a good week ahead. i pray.

yup, so that's what happened (:
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