Hello. It's 2014 and today I want to start a new life when I will not be affected by what people say because this has been my greatest flaw so far.

A little updates about me now is that I'm in my third year of school in NUS in the field of civil engineering and that I have a lovely girlfriend by the name of Amelia. Sure there has been difficult times but I'm glad we are more or less over the assumption stage. But occasionally irrational mood swings moments do recur.

Anyway, today is a good day because it's a day where Deacons Jude David amd Terence Kasavan got ordained as priests. I only knew Jude through my RCIY journey when he occasionally came by for a few speeches, but it was also this persistent crazy person that dropped by with a fb message once in awhile to check how I was doing. How nice right! So, it is this man who makes me think about what I want to do in my life. He said, "how could I say that God does not exist when he has been journeying with me for so long?" He went on to talk about more stuff which I cannot recall. One step at a time, they say.

Then I began to think about the possibility of me becoming a religious, and funny to heat this voice say, "it's a long process, don't think so far. Get yourself a faith community first, let alone you might need to stand in front of people to speak of God. Even if you could speak of God, you need to believe what you say. That's another long process, so do step one first alright?"

So onto what happened just now. I met people like Jon and Kenneth and Andre Theng who in one way or the other made it possible to have an experience during the ordination to change my heart from a heart of stone to a stone of flesh during the course of it. It was this faith community that unconditionally gives from the heart that softened me. No more the selfish giving mentality. And from this I know that I am at fault for turning up late, and this is my first resolution. To dare to take the first step to ask. There is nothing to lose in asking.

The second community I met is the SEng people for supper and their post movie thing. So, much love there hehe.

The second resolution I am making is something Andre Lim suggested during supper just now. He brought up this thing of having a resolution and I said mine is to be fit. It still stands, because I think that if I'm not then I'd have trouble surviving when difficulties come my way.

I think that's my resolution for this year.

Labels: 2014, ordination, resolution, SEng