I'm at this stage where I guess I'm still not used to the lifestyle of working. It could be attributed to the unpredictable schedule, or the workload or the unforeseeable pace that is demanded of me at where I work. I mean, my life feels very drained to the point that makes me wonder if I could ever take a break. Taking a day of leave would send the world into frenzy mode. And I have absolutely no mood to remain in that pace.

Why, I thought. Why do I feel lost this way? At mass, I was reminded at the age-old wisdom l received some time back. Discipline. Discipline to the mundane and necessary things are key to get over obstacles in life. I mean, why do I feel carefree when I'm on a foreign land? My basic needs are satisfied, and that's what you call a holiday.. what if the needs were not met? You call that hunger games. That is where preparation is crucial. I was reminded by a show which spoke about horse trainers/ riders for horse betting. You need to be ready physically and mentally in order to win a race. Similarly, this preparation for me is in the form of prayer and rest.

So, goodnight. There's more of the lord's training tomorrow.