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(Tuesday, 31 July 2007-)
+7/31/2007 09:06:00 pm]*

Title: Lessons-

heyyyyyyyyy.
i'm chao! tired. feel like everything's over. no more troubles. yay!! speaking of trouble, it reminds me of the 茶煲s people have been giving me these days. but, i will always forgive them. not forgetting them though. yea. learnt alot today.

one was at sd. be understanding. not in the way that many always do; by quoting without understanding. but feel for those who wish to express their feelings. just can't reali describe in words here. yea.

learnt to manage my temperament even though many busybodies would have been observing me n my reactions whenever some special things happen. haha, starting to get mysterious... btw, dee ang's still a good lecturer. can balance between content teaching n sleep-management. that's why he's still my best tcher, though i still suck at his subject.

realised that chem is the only subject that doesn't need to mug alot. doing tuts r just enough to get past tests. well, see how things turn out when results come out!! and... if not reali that good, sorry to those around me!! like hongtaa, eunice, yuhao... hope u peeped the correct ones!! btw, also to try n shut some bloody lips from some assholes whose enthusiasm has become a pain in the neck for others. eg. nick.

found that people are actually concerned about me. example one. denis was jumping and in an excited mood or smth after school while trying to help when she had some kinda inspiration from her sd lesson. hm, thanks so much. but really, seeing her in such a hopeful mind and... err... her tiny little size made me believe she's abit like a little angel, or cupid, n trying her very best to get the most out of everything.

numberrrrr... alrightTT! i'll stop being retarded n list all the things that i never remember. still, even if i missed anything, hope they're remembered by others who had good times recalling them.
I had my share, wish you had yours too!!

another thing. help me to learn that life's full of things that awaits us despite some setbacks. yeah, i think clare did it completely.

i feel much relieved now, after the hectic eom. but alot more things r needed to be done! recruitment, tutorials, planning... sounds a little, but it takes a long time for a good piece of work. really.

what's lost cannot be taken.

Labels: advices, blessed, Intelligence, kpo, nickwah, pain, reflection, smiles, Thanksgiving

yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Monday, 30 July 2007-)
+7/30/2007 07:04:00 pm]*

Title: madness!!-

HEY!!
things are crazily fun now with all the screw ups with tests and stuff like that while i'm still in a calmed down state of no worries, sigh. how on earth can i do well?? but... the mind i'm going through is, who cares!??

before i digress a little, i saw this thingy above from someone's post that linked about five blogs away from mine. so... ya. retarded me. haha (:

ok, now goes back. ya. so it always seems as if the goal is reached, but when there's no limit in any method, it leaves me in huge dilemma.
alright, due to the fact that there's a growing number of people who wish to be kpo, i'll just try to minimise what i say.
the places include:
basketball court
canteen drinks stall
jap stall
lt3 ...

... the list might go on. but speaking of lt3, it's real un-normal, don't think there's such word though, to find our class people being so late in class that gotta grab any available seat around in the middle rows when we only dominated the last row and NO others. fine, being dominated. next was when there're three people (kj,ls,bel)behind n one on the right to disturb me with some funny things. yea, they know what. which was actually why i tried not to turn back even though i dearly wanted their econs notes for the test da nex lesson. then it's also when they really made my ears turn super red la!! the physical type u see? another was when someone burst into laughter in the midst of the lecture. if i'm right, it's either gabby or victoria, maybe carmen - the very fun types. sounded so mad that almost all stared at the her. thank goodness tyf wasn't there. can't imagine if she start stinging her rapunzel hair to all of us. anw, it's still quite interesting to see someone going haywire in front of a trainee teacher. haha (:

while at bball, fantastic record to find myself missing ALL of my shots further than ten feet. haha, btw, i got most of my shots on friday's practice shooting session... or maybe, the jinx from cheers by the whoever. haha (:

alright, standing at about less than 50 cm apart twice and doing nth just shows that i'm completely ready to chuck my mind totally on studies. nth else. so i'm quite immune to all kinds of bacteria by anybody else. except for the one n only virus, adeno-karjuno-phages. prolly the most deadly one on earth now...

still, bless all. especially to those going for cambridge tomr. miss u guys, dude!! hm... imagine my trip last year. probably with much more fun than theirs. haha(:!!

Labels: smiles

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(Sunday, 29 July 2007-)
+7/29/2007 08:39:00 pm]*

Title: Reflections-

hey.
i've been finding myself very unreal and irritating to many others. like doing things that do not please people in any way. or at least that's what i do feel. or even, that's when i start to believe that i'm a hated figure in many's eyes. it's like, cheating in truth or dare game, unknowingly disturbing others when they're busy, randomly talking to others without knowing if they're free or happy to talk to... too many.
please bless me that i'll let this problem soon enough and be back to my own ways without being a fake shell that hides all my characteristics to others. free me.

Labels: #$%^

yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Saturday, 28 July 2007-)
+7/28/2007 09:34:00 pm]*

Title: Ups n downs-

hey.
i'm really confused. i have no idea if i should ever give myself a chance, since she just admitted, or confessed -whatever u'd call it - in her blog that's she's in crap mood, and that she's not pissed particularly at me on fri. this means that i've no reason to give up right?? but thinking of the way she dumped my hopes was smth very sad. which is why i seemed ultimately sad n sian during the event at ogilvy centre today.

so, i was listening to this throughout the day '富士山下', a song that was kinda reminding me to move on with life instead of staying in a stupid environment.

...傷口應要結疤...
...要擁有必先懂失去怎接受...
...為何為好事淚流?...
...何不把悲哀感覺假設是來自你虛構?...
...怎麼可以將手腕忍痛劃損?...
...忘掉我跟你恩怨...

Anyway, back to today's event. i was still being an idiot. did things that were of trash service. even if people might say that everything's over. i was in such unsure state of what i'm supposed to do that i totally forgot my eventual aim. provide *service. wth. fine, hope i'll learn from it. even though this time round is much much better than the exhibition. far better. but could be better. i'm sure.

Lots of plastering of smiles today, given my mood to begin with. no wonder dorville said my smile was somewhat like a banana. so fake. haha, speechless... :)

so, to be better at remembering. it's a boost that i've remembered most of my guests whom i attended to today. faye, pia, sarah, lynn, ai ming, natalie (-as if i first time know her lidat...)... ya so on. btw, the ms faye's girl's quite cutee! adorable!! and, i heard she's superbly talented!! incredible!!

btw, thanks to yiutak for his brunch!! amazing!! subway was so good with some sharing with emily... just that mine had all the drips of whatever sauce all over.. -.-''' and to nat, it was very filling!! too bad!!

anyway, yiutak's face when bidding for his most desired painting was very scary... trust me. when competing with the other person for smth like 'all four seasons', he's calling his sis to bid n outbid her. wow. the tension was there. completely. and,... smth very interesting. whenever he was outbidded, his 'darn!' look was as if he was gonna kill all of us. there's even once when he banged the table. only for the emcee to be louder for the moment. wow... fight!! thank goodness the bid was eventually raised, and also he got back his smile after the whole event. :)

and, so. i find that i'm quite picky about things. talked most to nat, which is why the picture was quite meaningful. rather than taking without purpose most of the time. erm, although i can't rem much of what we talked about... haha, forever blur!! :D crappy stuff i guess.

btw, wish bev to get well soon!! yep, hope she understands that i'm too caught with stuff, and that i'll be supporting to recover spiritually... i know, it sounds superficial though. hope u un what i meant.

of course, happy belated birthday to denis!! it's quite funny when the nicholas guy, also the emcee, pronounced her name with reference to 'p' instead of 'd'...

ok, digress abit. please bless her not to lock her blog. i'm not the idiot to be anonymous n don't admit of giving comments. i just read them. so, please blesss me that i can continue learning from this person's life...

Labels: birthday, blessed, emo, events, fights, song, spelling, splat, treats, troubles, wishyawell

yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Friday, 27 July 2007-)
+7/27/2007 10:24:00 pm]*

Title: Gameover-

the storm's just my type of day.
things just went like a piece of shit. it's like, ever after things went spreading through people, that same day was the one that killed everything. ok, even kj knows about it. the super quiet one. but real sad that i completely lost all that feeling. it went like this, seeing her after school and trying to strike a convo with her made her get pissed. totally far too off, ridiculous thing. so, i really saddened. now i'm over her now. but it's a pity that they only found out today.

Labels: #$%^

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(Thursday, 26 July 2007-)
+7/26/2007 05:36:00 pm]*

Title: link?-

hey.

it's quite the first time i reali complained about my class. sadly. and all it started was because of some childish beliefs and immature thinking of someone. alright, i wasn't around when the whole conflict occurred. but coincidentally, what i saw was the worst of all. i'd bet that.

it's when i left the class to photocopy some worksheet taken from clarabelle. when i came back, nick n her were like fighting over her bag. you see, she alrdy told me that she's in a hurry. n when i came back so much later cuz of the slow auntie or more likely, my slow walking pace, it just seems like i was at the greatest fault. it seems that it was me that made her stay in class n fight with nick n in the end, waste more time.

during the comical tug-of-war, it's a pity that nick didn't realise she's alrdy not in a mood to play with him. that's why i was quite on belle's side. especially when the mind's ultimately blank when hurrying for smth else. yup, n i guess that's why she turned violent. not as in bringing weapons n start chopping him into pieces, but cursing all sorts of vulgarities or even thinking of targeting his balls. haha, actually i suggested that!! imagine if... nahh. ouch! :)

'wa, so un-gentlemanly...' with the irritated look as she stormed out of the class was smth that won't be forgotten that easily. the evil stare n eye-rolling.

actually it's nick's mentality that saddened me. you see, it's this morning that he started talking to belle. after a long fought cold war. n by afternoon? back to square 1. stupid right? then somemore it's his geh-kiang behaviour n super high ego mind that made NO bloody effort to be sincere in apologising. well, try to recall what he msg her... 'sorry.. don't angry.. me sorry :'(' smth along that line. wtf. it's just the act cute language that spoiled the whole thing. c'mon, someone's pissed n you try to please her by being spastic!?? even yuhao agreed with me. no wonder she nvr replied. btw, i can kinda understand that why this fella acted this way. as he tried his very best to explain, childhood's bad experience made him to be mentally firm. ya, smth lidat. but hello!?? what i actually meant was not to explain why he did that way, but try to leave his ego aside for awhile as he really say a sincere sorry. when things turn a little better then start to explain his pathetic upbringing that caused him to be so conservative. well, i guess some maris ppl are lidat... haha, love to stereotype nowadays :D

sigh, that's one of the two i heard today. another's between hongtaa n maple. but i don't really know what happened... so leave things to settle through time. after all, both of them are much logical n understanding ppl who will prolly care for the majority n welfare of the greater group. unlike wah, who's so emo these days with all sorts of lovey dovey songs that made hair stand. seriously, don't believe can go ask matthias.. especially when even playing his speaker on his phone during lesson. wth.

so, please someone help them to get over the tension peacefully. nick's the hopeless one. we all know that. but if possible, pls tell belle that it's not worth it to keep things stale. after all, we're all in the same class and we'll help each other as one body whenever the need arises. it's quite useless when we go on our way in times of emergency - we're no superman. so even if nick's not a gentleman, treat him as someone in need and your role is to be a da jie jie and lift him from his pile of low EQ to a decent member of our class. almost everyone have tried to convince him to think about what he's done. but beliefs won't change overnight. so only YOU can try to mend the problem. bury the hatchet and move on!! peace!! :)

btw, i think the pac opening's starting soon. hope it'll be a success!! even though i can't be there with a tired mind, i still believe all will enjoy it tonight. from the performers, to emcees, audience right to the backstage strong people! wish ya all the best!!
peace!!

Labels: advices, clarabelle, complains, curses, fights, nickwah, shagged, strength, t15

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(Wednesday, 25 July 2007-)
+7/25/2007 07:10:00 pm]*

Title: sleep-

things are definitely going haywire.
stoning very much in drama after school hours did not help. i know it's very wrong for me that i don't listen much when there's the post session meeting, despite the fact that it does seem a little better that i've asked alot lesser questions that doubted my intelligence for the so many times that happened before. perhaps not this time round i guess...
instead, i kept thinking of the ponytail that tiff had. haha, just feels weird inside. but this instantly reminded me of her. it's too similar!! all the more she's putting this tail these days... well actually, i'm a little excited n abit of nervy that the imaginary she was in the lt.. but, erm.. that's just about the brain playing tricks when one's too tired... yea, and tiff was actually telling me about the fantasies she's going through when receiving some gift from the cute fella from ******. according to her... alright. i think it's best that she stays hopeful about this dream while i shut my darn mouth on this any further. yea.
btw, i think it's quite dead for me to really go ahead with what meiling said. wanting to offer but lacking the power. ya.
and also, thanks to dom for giving 11:23 minute talk about things... not trying to be sarcarstic!! actually, it's just me. i always wanted to join in the fun with all my friends, just that there are some things that no one can really help me unless i sit down n work through things on my own. just like the prayer this morning.

Labels: concentrate?, dominic, fantasies, hallucination, offer, reflection, strength, stress, tails, troubles

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(Tuesday, 24 July 2007-)
+7/24/2007 07:22:00 pm]*

Title: very-

smiles are always lovely. but imagining that these disappear slowly into the dark forest because of tiny little pressures that add up to a huge pile is very painful. very, very hurting. you see, sash asked yest. penguin? today. last week? the two in class. it's like all of them expect instant replies whenever they see me la.
for the rest, i can forget a lil maybe. but it's a birthday for whoever's sake!! shouldn't she just say thks and smth lidat? there's no need to add stuff like 'Thx alot!hope u can get e gal u wan haha' la!! but anyway, it's quite obvious that my mind has quite given up hope very much already. even though the time is quite the most perfect i'd find... anyway, thanks to her that kinda wanted to find out abt this gossip thingy...
btw, on the train where there's only angeline, penguin n i, i foolishly uttered smth like 'seems so near, yet feels so far'. i know it's called the cliche that was created centuries ago la. but it still applies. trashbag! anyway, angie didn't know what's happening, so it made me to just make up some exam stuff and miraculously,... it fitted to her!! phew!! imagine her talking a whole hell lot of things to any random fella... sigh..
or rather, for lestee, it's the best bust to say smth like this. super duper funny. 'eh, walao they so late then dunno i can stay in time for the cake...' erm, hello?! peimin's just beside me huh? nvm, that scenario was the highlight of the day.
the system's abit screwed. so the only photo upload some other time.
btw, the chat with cally moments ago reali lightened me a 'lil with things quite far from school work...
so, the smiles were lovely.

Labels: birthday, busted, celebrations, oops, pei min, penguin, smiles, t35

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(Sunday, 22 July 2007-)
+7/22/2007 06:29:00 pm]*

Title: please..-

hey
i'm feelin that i'm the only one
who's always pushed around.
in school; at home.
then with my headache still lurkin,
no one reali knows that they're actually
treating this poor fella like a fool.
i reali don't mind being one,
but please un that i'm also in pain.
please, make me stronger.
bless that others do be fine.
please, hear me.

Labels: complains, pain

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+7/22/2007 01:56:00 pm]*

Title: disappointment-

what a waste the most pretty one being knocked out...

(taken from tvb.hk...)
you see, this hottest one, cuz of her poor dance moves... how sad!!... but thank goodness, she still had some awards...

it's not as if i've been spanked like the worst ever loser on earth for ptm, or being laughed at like the most shittiest person to be one of the latest persons for the trash lecture. instead, it's coz of many things...

my brainwashed mum. i'm sorry, i know i should never think this way, but it's about time. really.
she's been always tellin me about managing my time for homework instead of all other things. true, but HELLO!??... there're other things like pw and... ya.

that's one. her care and concern has somewhat become an irritation these days. or maybe, the facial expression of gameover ever since telling her abt my trash results dampened my morale. real hard.

dad? no better. his do-or-die attitude in demanding and forcing me into being taught by this not-certified professional and always think that whatever he believes has been 'analysed' a milion times and therefore, correct. wow, really wish to know that alone helps. i mean, your lessons.

btw, another upset for all the people in the round table in the canteen for the bigshots meeting.. everyone's talking abt the agenda, gist, intro and things for the next batch of people. as for me, staring in the space between emily n meiling. not blank space, but you've guessed it. and also lots of distractions along the way.

ok, make it the last before my tears dry up. 2days ago, when the names were called up for the seven, and only two were left, there's a real dilemma. 'but there're 2 more best choice other than me!' one was called up. so remaining 2 of us. sry that i din't even think of others in the list... just before they called the final name, i was having this mentality of 'alright, if it (in order to keep the name in secret...) gets in, it's worthwhile... so, with a name for having a so-late alphabet, i was the last.
but standing with the other six was a real torture. especially literally seeing the glitter of tears in sadness in it made me feel it.if possible, i reali wished i could swap places with it or with my hallucinated mate. seriously, their passion was much higher. and their shocked faces on the floor was the one and only reason why my smiles were so unnatural. anyway, hope they can recover soon deep inside. but if those 'its' reali want, i can still offer my place, as long as i'm doing a worse job.

sigh, with the so many problems at hand, it'll take a million chances before i even think of starting my mission...

still, it never died.

Labels: complains, concentrate?, emo, offer

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(Friday, 20 July 2007-)
+7/20/2007 10:35:00 pm]*

Title: shoots!!-

it's amazing that there's many people around who know it already... i'm being sarcarstic. and during times after the darn match. the disturbance by the some who caused it was entirely annoying. it's like, there! there! in whispers that made me yala, i know la...stop mockin la with the act pitiful look. haha, everyone'd know it's a pleasure to watch games n laugh at some of the funny moments on the floor or at the bench.

so, pleased that my respected figures are kinda close to making it, if not succeed. but still, very good people to work with.

speaking back to the game, the result was never my main concern. it was just the wow, good job type. in the end, thanks to some marvy classmates. the shoutings were all by me. but of course, not better than other classes...

btw, my ec's damn hot in an indian costume that made me like wow...

and also, i do believe that people should not ever think that they're ugly in any way or feel bad because of their looks or things like that. they should always think that the attitude towards life is much more important...

i wonder how she's feelin on a friday night...

Labels: aura

yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Thursday, 19 July 2007-)
+7/19/2007 09:09:00 pm]*

Title: Received-

hey...
be glad that everyone's happy and full of smiles on our faces.
RHD, times where there's life all around us!!
and, please... let this excitement push me from zero to hero.
just to fight against all troubles.

if we feel love from getting smiles by others, why not offer it to the next person??
Smiles!! :))

Labels: events, pass, smiles, strength

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(Wednesday, 18 July 2007-)
+7/18/2007 06:04:00 pm]*

Title: code, or quotes?-

hey.
this title is dedicated to yza for being confused with the pronounciation of the two words about the wr yesterday. or the day before? oh, forgot completely... but, amazing foreigners we have in the class...

drama serials. i hate them at times. for the entire life of shows, they always tend to tell us the idealistic of life, like 緣份是要自己爭取... pardon me for using trad. chinese... but yea, sounds logical. but it's these unreal things, together with the negative ones, that leave us hanging in mid-air. the notion of dunno whether the wings will stop flappin or if they will continue to lift us is scary. just like the do-or-die times.

for myself, the most common approach is to start talking to her, and hoping she'll accept me and stuff like that; it was my sole intention since the start - just to impress her by being one of the best, if not the only, in all sorts things - for myself to do so much ****, even tiring myself to the extreme for a place in the exco. yup, sounds like the perfect way of life. but so what? does it mean she'll definitely notice it? or will this be miraculously told to her out of nowhere? so what if she knows of it? be accepted straightaway as if i'm going for an interview and believing that showing off all the previous certificates will guarantee me something? that's when i started to ask myself why on earth do i commit myself to never-growing, lame-and-idiotic actions like staring, for half a milli second, whenever i spot her in school, or try to gain every opportunity to surf the net... conclusion? to know more about someone who has good looks (-ok, that's besides the point...), can behave so differently with lots of fun and laughter in school yet feel so down when getting to the com at night, and most importantly, admire her personality to stay strong despite the setbacks that has happened.

then there's other lines that try to balance the magical world of perfection with the obstacles in life by giving statements like... ok, i forgot the exact words, but it's something about this idea; 鍾意一個人唔一定要同佢係埋一齊. it meant that liking someone doesn't mean that both must come together. true, if things are one-sided, it's pointless. so i'll just let things fix itself out for the time being...

well, enough of trash. so, lizzy finally found out. but actually she'd known it centuries ago... there're so many clues with the so many contacts she had. well, good for her. and for moments ago, i just realised that more people are knowing this already. just hope that i can rest in peace while i try to get better with some stupid illness.

btw, thanks to denis for givin advices aft drama today... but still, back to same old rule. wait till i recover.

smiles

Labels: chinese, creepy, fantasies, hallucination, QnA, smiles, Thanksgiving

yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Tuesday, 17 July 2007-)
+7/17/2007 06:12:00 pm]*

Title: No school-

hey

i still haven't got over that... but the exam today was in a great distraction when i was staring at someone quite in front of me. stoning at ponytails, yaya, wadever... so i kinda missed four crucial questions? yup, just wanna see how i screw things up later.

btw, life's not fun at all when there's the feelin of dying while waiting for things to happen.. it came bef n aft the paper. thk gdness things became better, 'cause of her smile... sigh, i'm still as childish as ever.

Labels: concentrate?, giddy, listening, smiles, tails

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(Monday, 16 July 2007-)
+7/16/2007 06:38:00 pm]*

Title: help! pain!-

um, i can't think of any title now... ...
so, nvm. the sun will set soon if i dont even start. anyway, things are quite unexpectable, i guess. the times when the brain isn't working for school stuff, it turns to the interesting things that happened. how cool they were. or maybe, how memorable they were. they just repeat as if you're afraid that they might just be forgotten some day. or something closer to my schoolmates; the times when i don't get hyper in wherever in school means just that i am emo. -.-''' and the most interesting part is that, only those who aren't that close can realise that their classmate is ill.

first, remember that i owe chan an apology, even though dom said it wasn't my fault.

so, it's real scary that i almost got myself into the biggest trouble in my life when during chem lecture. it's called'被人插背脊'. i was kinda tryin to know what the colourful words on the piece of paper that was passed between eunice n victoria... sry to digress, i super duper like colourful things!!... so i was always sitting a little higher, in a weird way. but yuhao's paper was blockin me!! but it turned more obvious when hongtaa was also looking at the same thing!! questioning of what i was staring forced me to crap about being amazed by his neat handwriting... yup, i guess he might've saw that me being so uneasy for the first time...haha :D

then at phys tutorial, the fella was so **-ed up that literally told me off about sleepin in class. got into a stinkin mood, but felt that he was kinda right, although i'd love to hear something more caring from my teacher...

for chinese, my empathy goes to the lao shi. he's on mc n yet reali stayed on so late just to finish his story in tb. seriously, i'd have just hecked care those students who never listen centuries ago... which was why for that whole lesson, fought on real hard just to stay awake n give him the utmost respect that he deserved.

but recently, i'd been findin myself givin fake smiles. it's those times where there're so many ppl who wish to say hi yet i can't just look away even though my ultimate tired look was there. felt sorry. try to rem them, ros, angie, binni... sigh. conclusion, don't ever remember things when blank. haha, everyone knows that. :)

Labels: backstab, emo, giddy, shagged, smiles?

yup, so that's what happened (:
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+7/16/2007 12:01:00 am]*

Title: Piling-

hey
potter's show was nice. but will tell it some day. anw, another thing to pile on my list as to why i should get my bloody ass out of the ExCo, what lousy way of seeing the qualities of people. turned to strengths only. in return, got a harsh piece of mail. verbally, not shooting me. but deep inside i know i caused the entire problem...
so anw, i'll shut my whatever that can possibly leak what has happened while i allow it to R.I.P...
peace though!!

Labels: emo, guilty, Intelligence, smiles?, splat

yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Saturday, 14 July 2007-)
+7/14/2007 10:38:00 pm]*

Title: Down to earth-

hey.
i don't know if i should be happy or not. reading things after the unlucky yesterday changed things completely.
alright. she kinda wrote that he's gone to be an ec instead of a bf in her eyes. to many, i'd've anticipated that my frens'd 'advice' me to go for it. get a happy ending. haha :D everything sounds idealistic.
but the thought of things learnt in ltc told me otherwise. this was said," when opportunity comes, what do you do? grab right? ok, grab. that's what cliches tell us. but so what if you grab it? what can you do huh?"
that's one of the many interesting ones the, but, anw, got this mentality that i won't commit totally. the idea of having to prolong a relationship is real tough while things might turn heart-breaking otherwise. fine, sound as if i've been successful... but no! not that stage yet... and according to dom today (-seen him too many days liao), there's a lack of trust in jc students, and i'm worried that i'll still not believe in others, let alone possiblly her?
smth to convince myself is the discipline makeover. all thanks to advices brought up by dom (-ahh.. him again!??). he's the one that shot the proud n arrogant terence down to earth. made him back to what he used to be with... "do things for others, avoid the p-word...". whatever i've done so far is just for the word. sorry. just regretting so much these dayz that i'm ready to opt out of the ExCo while snapping tauted strings with so many of my friends along my way here. i'm just not the choice.
sigh, i'm best at digressing... haha :D so i think i've made up my mind. make myself no-life n stay lp as much as possible. to the previous me, GAMEOVER.

Labels: elections, influenced, smiles?

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(Friday, 13 July 2007-)
+7/13/2007 09:38:00 pm]*

Title: match-

heya

i cried just now. it's not the times when i feel like crying like a baby n juz wail like a loser. instead, mum n dad were there... before that, when i yelled at myself ever since mum shouted at me to take the damn drowsy medicine which i didn't wanna take, she's in a terrible mood. until i mentioned she wouldn't have understood what i was feeling. there's juz too many things to do n there's no time to make up for this loss. n i don't wanna lose this too.

anw, there's just too many things that turned haywired today.

still couldn't recover from taking the medicine mum asked me to the night before. felt light-weighted whenever walking in school. even resorted to removing my spects during assembly. yup, i seldom do that. only if i'm just too occupied with gambling on every chance to rest my eyes and possibly, the whole me. but amazingly/shockingly/unexpectedly, asked to do the task of calling ppl for cip. argh. what's new!?? (-i still love the way satiya's accent and i think, aju's actions for these words. so coolios!!). then asked if i can make it for outings these days. um, didn't think much when coming to them. my empty mind juz had no space to think them. for the replies, the best is that people are asking me questions instead of answering them. wth. somemore they don't feel sorry for misinterpreting others' ideas or wasting other's time. well, that's what i really hoped if they're a little polite or better, if they answer to the point la!! ok, perhaps that's my fault. i was not in a mood to entertain or be entertained. in the end, got caps in the reply from wanyu. haha, still don't think she sounds angry. but who cares? the euphoria feeling got me over it. :)

so, wanyu's ok. but gabby sounded pissed in sms. i have no idea whether she's too bored in lesson or whatsoever that she just wanted to sms ppl. i dunno. so, when i'm in physics lecture, concentrated fully. and ignored everything else. quite useful actually. learnt things very well. hmm, but made gabby think i'm being a jackass to leave her in space with no certainties. but there're other things that worsened, i'm sure. very sure. all from the final call. she sounded bored with the so how? type of saying. so hope someone can tell me what actually i did. just most are blinded by giddy head. pardon me. i seriously don't un why so many people are protecting her right from start. it's just my nature to either to do work or have fun what... anw, but to those who did, thanks for your advice though. epecially to hana (-hope i'm right...). it's very meaningful.

so thank dominic for enlightening me that my way was wrong. btw, cailing n meiling were also there. hope they'll also learn much from that, even though his overall convo with chan had so much insights that i found it quite chim n a little hinting would have passed the idea across them so easily. haha :D had lots of fun listening to them. juz reminded me of the smart convo practice. so, think of what should've been done...

as for the so many people whom have been accusing me for an evil fella these few days, i wish to say this. i'm not trying to create chaos amongst people. i just wish to get things done or get my butts in peace. then somemore, so sorry to be trying to beg for mercy or smth lidat, please pardon me for being harsh to anyone. i'm sick n with every possible chance, i'll avoid ppl. the giddyness just made me even diao clarissa in quadrangle today when i never failed to act cool or walk past her quickly since the start of the week. haha, hopeless terence. :D and you see, taking these drowsy drugs yet still wanna stay awake in school is the toughest of all, just like being so stressed up with things yet still gotta do work in drama. not a good example, but hope you un...

felt much relieved when allowed to take rest of my mind since told what happened to cailing. thanks for being such a good listener ^.^v!!

btw, happy birthday DARREN!!

still, i don't believe that seeing her gives no more excitement, even though my eyes just can't stop looking away once i spotted her.

so, as predicted, the d-day arrived. see whether it tallies with my prediction some time ago...http://ebterry.blogspot.com/2007/05/midsummer-nights-bedtime-dream.html

anw, i'm getting tired...it's taking it's effect soon.and i guess i'll have only a limited life from now. btw, what a date today is.
你们休想和我撑到恆,最多你班契弟扑少几条街!! :)

Labels: emo, giddy, influence, Intelligence, shagged, smiles, stress

yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Thursday, 12 July 2007-)
+7/12/2007 09:12:00 pm]*

Title: Lost-

hey.
i've this feeling that everything's gone since the day started...
felt super duper sianz at morning. even being able to see her in the pac meant nothing to me. or maybe brother michael from sji was much more interesting. yep, he spoke in such a way that he sound like a wise man. i mean, really. he was able to develop his speech that analysed the topics he raised, islam n hindu. in all, good to see that we have people who can interest me alot in speeches. perhaps i should've suggested to go sji centuries ago...
well, also in chem lect. just too tired to do any funny stuff like staring or whatsoever. even though she's about... four seats away? so began my tired journey...
none worth remembering... haha
but it's always weird when i saw many people with some similar tails tied together. try to name some, if i bothered to remember... clarisse, victoria, natalie, pamela (-i think it's this name... meiling's classmate...)... haha. the shape looks like an art paintbrush from far. but when near, there're some who put glued-pigtail. anyway, enough of hair obsession. haha :D sounds like i've been admiring them for ages...
so, trying to help ana with key thingy made some animal bark around the school quadrangle about shells. then for some funny reason, angeline was crazy. haha :D was jogigng back to the class n along the way, angie was posing what i was doing. i really felt like pulling her hair pony tail.. then seeing so many of her class staring n laughing at the two monkeys right in front of them, i just ran past them with a smile :) i suppose they're dismissed from games... how jealous... haha :)
some stupid question given by mr ho.
Three men went to a motel. The motel manager said a room cost $30, so each man put up $10 and went to their room. A little while later the manager realized the room was only $25, so he sent the bellboy back to the three guys room with $5. On the way to the room the bellboy couldn't figure out how to split the $5 evenly between the 3 men, so he gave each one of them $1 and he kept the other $2.
This meant that the 3 men paid $9 each for the room for a total of $27. Add the $2 that the bellboy kept = $29.
Where did the other dollar go?
what crazed one that forced me to run dunno how many rounds...haha :D
i realised that my hands are not reali needed to clap. as long as i remain as my entertainer, others remain happy by watching, i'd love to stay in a situation where there's hope for everything rather than to fight to stay on a tough fight like some others do.

Labels: clap, Intelligence, riddle, stress

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(Wednesday, 11 July 2007-)
+7/11/2007 09:49:00 pm]*

Title: funny things when tired-

hey
real shagged today. couldn't believe that i'd actually still typing this out, but its alright. cuz it's real crazy.
slept for some parts of the elections thing, good thing that none caught me...
trying to f-up lots of things; sam called me to do smth for his pw, when i haven't even got mine completely done. and, i'm not even in his group, mind you. wth. singyen's leaving, and i reali wish all of us in 35 can give our best wishes to her before her flight on friday. aww.. it's so sad; i've got shift for the arts thing... and then there's more things to do for the round two of art exhibition, dom called just now. and i think i'll just collapse... then went to the doc. that's what he said...
well, i think it's a viral infection, so no antibiotics. and, there's no cough syrup which doesn't make you drowsy. and also, i'll give you an mc tomorrow, so rest well...
wth! i've got so many things to do and this fella just told me to rest. can't listen to him. truly.
btw, i was having hallucination ever since after chem practical. not cuz i was doing well for that, but cuz of the energy lost ever since i was so n2 right in the morning. somemore, dad left me alone to go take the bus!! sigh, life's hard. anyway, hope billy recovered... but the following were the things i thought i saw. i actually mistook tiff as her at times during the ice cream thingy. i dont know, it's just very creepy... but, thankfully, i am awake now. perhaps it's because of the number of times that i do see her nowadays. it's just so much more.

Labels: creepy, doctor, hallucination, shagged, smiles

yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Tuesday, 10 July 2007-)
+7/10/2007 08:33:00 pm]*

Title: Fantastic pleasures-

hey!
lots of entertainment throughout the day. not as in the tons of exercise or smth like that though.
right in first lesson, double the excitement!! cuz matching to the boring talk, seeing one at 11 o'clock n the other at 4 makes me turn my head more times than i'd done when listening to things like this. but, it's for a good cause. keep myself awake. i guess it's still acceptable...
next, didn't reali listen at chem lect. was basically staring at an angle to my left, although it'd been much better if i took lissy's seat. cuz hers was just the perfect one!! while doing that, i was noticing jher so much that my lens was zooming into her details. as in her beautiful face, earrings, cool pony tail... simply amazing. but when she turned back, i was so cowardly looking away.
aft lesson, went to prepare for t35 outing. saw her some time before leaving, and i really suppose it's quite obvious that my eyes couldn't control by wandering at the same location.
...Everything that I do reminds me of you...
outing to sakae at borders!! as usual, i shh... scared to offend people so coolios like eun; just got da feelin she'll give the -.-''' face, so just shut up should be the best option when hanging around like this... (: but it's alright, i shouldn't worry too much... in the end, it was the stupid germs dad passed to me that made me dumb actually. haha, angeline actually asked why... (: still, too quiet. for that, tired? :) more of fantasising... anw, candice n clare made the day fun with lots of smiles n laughter... terrie, my twin!! also crazy!! :) haha, when i see these people much less often...
btw, please bless carmen to recover soon, penguin to be less horny, singyen to stay happy while still in sg, billy to get well from his head injury frm basketball... and of course, everyone to keep staying positive!!

Labels: smiles

yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Monday, 9 July 2007-)
+7/09/2007 08:47:00 pm]*

Title: uneasy-

今日在学校哭了. 唔知點解,一听到将会登上最高职位的個D人选,我心就开始有種非常冷淡的感觉,一D都唔觉得自己有冇能力衬得起佢地.佢地咁多个都含有超大的潜能,但在我心目中佢地個個都是'懶酷'個类,至令我觉得要面对佢地個班'契弟'一年多,我将会讨厌這个充满血腥同仇恨的"社会".
真对不起,无意玩中文,但為一D豬士八卦人士睇完我寫D然后個個都变晒'扬生扬太'.
不过,我想這还是沒人會明白...

Labels: elections, emo, kpo

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(Sunday, 8 July 2007-)
+7/08/2007 09:51:00 pm]*

Title: let-

i think it's time to let go. what won't happen will never happen. hope things will just be washed away that easily. cuz i'm getting the feeling that the start'd be crazy. and i'm beginning to think that i might not be able to afford to give up some things... here i am trying to forget, the remembrance gets stronger. i don't know if i'm doing the right thing, but should i wait n think over n over again? or go straight to the point, as in make it or break it? or search for others in the woods? argh!! i give up!!

Labels: emo, mind, stress

yup, so that's what happened (:
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+7/08/2007 07:05:00 pm]*

Title: creepy days-

hey.
not because i was scared of the previous days' coincidence that i wasn't here, but cuz of the schedule. hope u understand...
yep, on fri kena 搵老趁by lots of people. in the end, waited in school for two hours for doing nothing. only went to the arts house by seven... wth!?? felt outcasted then by not knowing cartoons and stuff... well, i simply forgot most of them. but i doubt if anyone'd believe that. dipper, saw this:

cool right? :P ok, can't reali see, it's 69 actually... haha :)

yest, in ew outfit. argh, whatever. ****!! the event's quite a success, with dom giving the confidence. seriously, i'd've felt lost without his soo clear instructions. but i screwed things up once or twice... ... i'm still thinking about it... ok, let it pass... hoped that worked :)

anyway, amazed by the cheerleaders group. btw, most of them should be the most informative and be the most formal. but on fri, all five of them were b**ch-posing. 'hello!? the event's tmr!!' that's what i was thinking... alright, they're good in the end, though some un pro things. hope they learnt... shoots!! hate myself for sounding so workaholic!!... so the cheerleading team are as follow: pet g, emily, keley, tiff, wanyu. yup, they're good.

other good people: my beloved bravo-o group - cailing, denis, michelle (-she finally felt comfy by talking!! yay!! was so scared she didn't... haha :D)... the strong guys from t2, marvy planters to kill time... of course, my fantabulous senior ics: dom, chan, yiutak, nicole (-she's got unique surname!!) and pett!!

back to the event, the final guest. guest of honour, was late. way too late. even trash talking weren't enough to cut time. haha :) all got bored to death. oh, dom was so on to whip all into perfect conditions. yep, he called me to wake ppl up. anyway, ms low was the best of all guest. not because i'm scared someone'll report or smth, but reali, she's the only one who didnt come n see see then move on. ok, there're the things besides the scheduled ones like giving tokens n cerfiticates... (-dom's england rocks!!:)
-chose her desired page to pen her thoughts in gold. it's full page long!! (-btw, michelle designed the borders... wow!!)
-continued calmly even though there're kpos trying to read on the spot behind her...
-questioned lots to know more
-had smiles all the time (-oh!! she n michelle had some sorta similar smile...)
-went to every single painting (all thanks to bro paul; we're so un-pro!! haha :D)
-gave a speech that sounded touching...

oh, things that were mad. spilled drinks at recept table.... slacking on it... seeing the fourth winner smiling at one corner when she was late but was already attending the sharing session and chan said that she wasn't around, what cheeky smile (-oh, her pony tail reminded of minhang!!)... seeing the cj winners looking so awkward when talking about their paintings (-natalie n some other name... i forgot!! oops!!)... me acting like dom to 擦鞋to the guests... drove the unifem lady to go crazy...

lastly, felt some aura when got a handshake from bro n called my name!! also found that vp was quite interesting.. the tiny talk made me feel a little comfy with such great figures. haha still fantasising ...

there might be things i missed. hope they'll always stay in those who remebered them.

thank goodness was called by ju out for some talkin... all the better than the gals' cameras at boat quay, or walking in group of seven (-check the date out!!)... rem lots of funny things, with ws, justin, sweez.. haha :D anyway, caught in more dilemma when dr. love (-yup, that fella's self proclaiming... haha :D) was saying smth similar to meiling. hmm... ws seems right.. see how things go!
peace!

Labels: aura, boat quay, creepy, splat

yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Friday, 6 July 2007-)
+7/06/2007 12:26:00 am]*

Title: to get to the better-

hey.

feelin depressed when i sense that she's unhappy n in such low morale, even though some things cannot be seen on the outside. just hope she gets much better as days go by... and also, she'll learn that anger is something that should not stay on in life.

peace!

Labels: emo

yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Thursday, 5 July 2007-)
+7/05/2007 07:32:00 pm]*

Title: Control-

everything's about control. nothing in this world is beyond control. it's only those who fail to know will fail to control.

alright, not the most appropriate starts, but this sound so chim thing actually came from martini today.. he's kinda into lit today.. and i'm influenced by that. see? that's being controlled by others unknowingly.. and for me, cannot even control myself to avoid being such a poser.

time has healed all wounds that have been caused during the holidays for thinking of events that will never repeat, fantasising about things that might not even happen in reality and also disbelieving that guts will eventually overcome the dilemma that's stuck in my head for ages. and so thankfully, staying strong with family n friends giving endless amounts of fun laughter peace and joy that not only washes away the pain inside, but also enlightens that some things will never stay the same. so why not allow our minds to be positive when things are against us? or more importantly, why not keep the good times in our heads instead of letting them pass as if nothing has happened or be in a act-cool state? certainly, putting oneself into an image of false identity just tells others that there's no trust between friends. and possibly in future, there'll be feelings of betrayal and distrust. i do not want this to happen, wish just to chuck the shell of liar away, never to see that again. but it's true and abvious that none wants others to have unnecessary worries or fears for themselves when there's some things that isn't at the right time to make comments. or rather, there's no good time to do this. it might cause them to have more troubles! everyone's has their own problems, emotional or physical, and it's never predictable. what's more? who knows if these things might help a little or worsen things? so it's a matter whether the brain can control what and when to speak on, after chunks of crap above.

being able to control oneself's actions is a virtue. as in by not doing some random or absurd things. well, did that exactly in lt5 n pe today. but what's good means that there's something better. should've avoided showing all sorts of fingers to people. rude. i don't mean that those who never do these are too 'holley' or to many, un-guyish. but the least not at publlic! that's where control comes in again. if only things were done privately, it wouldn't have caused much fuss talking about the morals and stuff like that. still, the best solution is of course to control the things to do for the right things at the right time.

but there's also a lack control during the long day in school. slept for close to an hour in total was one wrong example of failing to monitor my own behaviour to do some school work instead of getting into dreams.

things to acknowledge are firstly, http://lifestyle.msn.com/relationships/couplesandmarriage/articlerb.aspx?cp-documentid=5073966&GT1=10217 where i got interested into reading this article and getting emo or whatever people call it, martini's philosophical mind and shaine's spontaneous brain which inspired me to talk so much rubbish here, last, liselle who said that literature was something which had no special hidden agenda originally, only that people think too much trying to guess them.. which meant that anything i bull-ed here has no meaning at all, only that those kpo people who have so much time will think of decoding the words. hope no one's that crazy... haha :).

there's one note: control is hard, which is why we need to master this art and get to the highest level...
Haha :D i can't believe that it just sounds like some martial arts or something...
peace to all!

Labels: influence

yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Wednesday, 4 July 2007-)
+7/04/2007 05:25:00 pm]*

Title: Never be replaced-

Hey hey!!!

alright, i'm real tired that screwed my sms with gabrielle, was quiet with yuhao in the bus n slept during the pathetic three minute-break between the last two lessons. sry for giving my worst attitude..

but today's THE day that should n will nvr be missed.

in econs lect.
was completely stunned at the way when i saw singyen... it's not like the way i've nvr seen her before, but just suddenly someone familiar, yet whom i didn't expect to appear was standing at the doors n smiling... i was like what!!?? couldn't believe it. now still, i guess... anyway, i was holdin the box of notes then, so juz dumped them off quickly to the rest while wanting to join them... but my damn class, got their bruddy seats fast n i lost my seat that's close to them. well, near to jojo's.. which is still good! but he's tryin to wave to her.. probably she didn't see..

sometime before the lecture started, mr d ang was damn alert (-a bad thing for all of us!!) to spot her n kinda sent her out.. but she's real good to stay calm n walked off peacefully. i'd have been so gan jeong lah!! but nth worth during lect. haha! :D

during break.
was kinda late n gotta queue for a long time, so why not just go to see if gabby~ n singyen were there? yup, they're there!! cool! bitched abt jojo's actions when they kinda dao-ed him. so sorry, i didn't mean to actually. just that it's quite a nice way to start off...

was sitting just behind gabby~'s class table but was talkin to fifteen, so kinda missed as to when they left... was actually scared that someone from my crazy class might just shout things out loud in the canteen though. was like saying shuddap shuddap in my mind. anyway, amazing that i finished by eleven 35 (-what coincidence!!) when i usually do so by the fiftieth minute. whoosh!!

but, i was so smart that went to their class then. n i was right! they're all there! n also ppl like minhang letty jojo philip... btw, real nice for singyen to bring back donuts through hand carry, past the immigration counters, past the x rays, for dunno how many hrs of flight n straight to our school... alright, the exaggeration parts are all thanks to jojo. but it's so so cool (-it's seems to be the wrong word, but my vocab bank's running out!! haha :D) for her to give us such fantastic donuts!! i took the cinnamon one, i guess. but all i can say is that it tastes sweet, but not too extreme n seriously, it just feels like she just baked it or smth. cuz its not hard like rock or too soft!!

with food on my hand, i felt so guilty for the noise pollution the girls made to the next door when they screamed in jealousy. ok la, not reali, but they were literally fighting for food!! haha, funny scenario!! :D

singyen's camera was wow! haha, it's just that her face detection screen thingy caught the attention of the four of us. as if we never see cameras before.. bet u that the gals'd been thinkin this way.. haha :) took pics with it n philip n jojo seemed to be in an awesome position... two big boss! wasted he's not wearing penguin's spects. oh wait, WE LEFT PEI MIN, DANIEL (-though some wont miss him..) AND GERALDINE OUT!! aww.. even clare came by.. anyway, someone said we all looked stupid when not facing at camera..-.-''' but still, must give credit to our cam gal!! erm, not that fsv fella (-if u dont know its not ur loss!!) but victoria!! she's real patient n i tell ya, i'd been a little impatient if there're uncooperative ppl like me who usually dont look at the lens n the eyes just wander off to either see the flash light or the cam man's finger or even to the background!! yup, its just weird, but hey hey, i was very kuai horx!! oh ya, we, as in adding carmen angeline eunice, also did the gabby~ trademark pose.. was too cute!! (;

the bell meant i had to part with them. so sadd... ):

but really thank you so much that brought happiness to all of us during the break n for me (-possibly for some of us too), the surprise in lt2. i know it should be the other way round, but hope you do enjoy the adventure during econs n the smiles we had while loving your donuts!! (:

oral.
alot of things in during the kinda quiet oral. mocked at the doraemon n sleepin tcher, ppl reading the passage were going for rom, the shaking legs counting for me, staring into some things while waiting when chris didn't want to lend me peep into his ancient ezlink card.. and smth real exciting. helpin mandy with words. haha, didn't expect to actually, cuz my group was quite fast n aft i finished the first reading, mandy was beside already. so i kinda paced her (-i so damn dunno if i was listening to her reading), n read some words.. then the tcher said thirty seconds. so i just randomly picked some chim words n repeated them as if i'm very obsessed with them liddat. haha :D n reali helped her with one of them!! cool!! rescued someone!! but... had more than five errors, i bet. fine! let it pass man!!

aft that saw many ppl along the corridor... dont mention names here but that pet was kinda draggin me off to tell me to send sms to ppl. wth! dont need to drag right!! but later saw victoria alone outside library. then i was thinking that gabby~ n frens might have chosen to go out with singyen, dumping her.. but NO!! i shouldn't think that way!! we're all goody people! so i simply chucked this idea off. haha :D naughty terence!

Labels: donut, oral, singyen

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(Tuesday, 3 July 2007-)
+7/03/2007 08:27:00 pm]*

Title: long day-

救命啊!!今日個班死扑街玩残我啊!!一时有条契弟詰住晒,個投另一条契弟佐住地球转!!

alright, pardon me for my fantastically fouled language in cantonese... just couldn't take it today. btw, i don't think that this language can be understood in mandarin... wth, such complicated things in the chinese thing. oh wells. btw, i don't think any of the six of us survived, so it's kinda amazing that i can still type some crappy stuff now.

first of all, talk about my group. totally new team. denis cailing n someone from cedar's, michelle (-bless me that i'm right...). jeesus christ!! it's a quiet group mann!! the first two were shh, the last was total silence. but can someone please tell her, none of the group members will eat her up. well, i was like this too when sec two... curtain boy... oh!! those days... back to her, she was answering mr chan in such perfect answers as to why did u decide to join into this cip event? ans? oh, it's bcuz we have an arts modulus now n i feel that it might help me in learning arts... i'm just speechless. it's cuz i'm fine with straightforward replies. but maybe, it's what she feels la. sigh, i'm just in bad mood after coffee. btw, she looks like cally. a little i guess...

denis then started distracting me. though one sentence, i couldn't tahan that i stuttered lots of times... cuz it's just in my head all the while.

ic meeting was haywire. all're dead n thankfully i had nothing much to care about.

take care guys, we'll pull through. hope none of us gets sick. (-even if dom's kinda...)

Labels: stress

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+7/03/2007 10:51:00 am]*

Title: Stupidity-

hey.

its true that stupid people do stupid things.
oh, btw, it's right in the morning and i'm back at home!! thanks to the stupid spa...

horrible things happened. i had a corroded pipette filler that seemed to have been bitten by rats a thousand times at the tip and tiny bits of the rubber just came off. gross. asked for exchange even before trying to use it. and mr yeong dint bothered asking to test! haha, i always thot he's strict... so with the next one, worse. that sucker can't even suck!! but the tchers now seem dum sianz... but too bad, who call me to be so thick skin?? haha, its just that the gum in my mouth was giving the i-dont-give-a-damn look... oh, whatever...

it was also darn bruddy hot when fans were off. i was sweating like a muddy rhino la!! moo.. oh, that's a cow!! :) then sash broke some glass... aww... how demoralising it was... hope he's better... anyway, while i was semi-concentrating on the experiment, lots of idiotic stuff were running in my mind... like visualising master addison's WIDE smile when he did last time... and also thinking of the meaning of the term gg... what it really means... ? good game (in a sarcarstic way) or going...? and also like imagining some sad moments... had the 'walk away' song playing in my head...

and... was reading 陈宠物(pet tan)'s mail. too many words that my eyes hurt. i meant, the pain worsened. cuz this morning, i stupidly-cum-accidentally put detergent into there. wth. then the stupid me couldn't understand much of the words. seemed a little chim. hope the redness will go soon.

bless those taking spa later to do well!

love your eyes ^.^v!!

Labels: Intelligence

yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Monday, 2 July 2007-)
+7/02/2007 07:20:00 pm]*

Title: shadows-

Hey.

it's not something scary or what, but was while i was reading hannah's blog moments ago, through qazzie. erm, it's not like i'm trying to publicise her blog or smth. but really, it's very funny!! then with something like bitching her way of being a twin and stuff like that... so, after typing so much crap for the past minutes, pleasey pleasey go read her blog.. lots of fun reading it (-or at least i did la...)!! yup, pls go to qazzie's blog to view hers, or it seems like i'm stalking her or what by putting her code here so randomly... haha :) anyway, happy reading!!

Labels: read, smiles

yup, so that's what happened (:
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+7/02/2007 09:34:00 am]*

Title: Themeless post-

hey.

i'm bored by the lots of things to do. yup, as always. cuz it's either there's nothing to do or plenty. trashbag... oh wells. i've promised myself to practise for exam tmr, ask chris abt some things (-yes... it's all work...), double-reconfirm on the people tmr, make some notes for the sat thingy, remind maple for class funds and stuff like that. alright, it's here cuz that probably i won't remember all. everyone should have known that, i guess... :D

anyway, i've just found some ppl to add and so surprisingly, me thot of special names ah!!. pro siaz...

so yest, went out with dad to get some IT stuff. yup, cuz he's sick la. and had some... ... giddy medicine. sent as his personal guard... argh. whatever :D. so met shaine, then later mrs ong. kinda surprise though. but things were just the hello gestures. haha, bet they could've been good at lip reading...

ok, i'm trying very hard not to get distracted but the feeling of it seems to come back to whatever i do. things like when i'm revising my spa thingy, or downloading stuff from school website... it's just whole lot of things that's coming to my mind...

fine! this post is too lame, talking things that have no meaning at all, just not the me. jumbled things everywhere!! hope things will turn well.

it's sad when one tries to reach the other n the
other just moves on. the distance will always be the same..

love everyone
around you, and you'll feel the love...

Labels: concentrate?, stress

yup, so that's what happened (:
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xxx typed*: blog

(Tuesday, 31 July 2007-)
+7/31/2007 09:06:00 pm]*

Title: Lessons-

Labels: advices, blessed, Intelligence, kpo, nickwah, pain, reflection, smiles, Thanksgiving

yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Monday, 30 July 2007-)
+7/30/2007 07:04:00 pm]*

Title: madness!!-

Labels: smiles

yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Sunday, 29 July 2007-)
+7/29/2007 08:39:00 pm]*

Title: Reflections-

Labels: #$%^

yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Saturday, 28 July 2007-)
+7/28/2007 09:34:00 pm]*

Title: Ups n downs-

...傷口應要結疤...
...要擁有必先懂失去怎接受...
...為何為好事淚流?...
...何不把悲哀感覺假設是來自你虛構?...
...怎麼可以將手腕忍痛劃損?...
...忘掉我跟你恩怨...

Labels: birthday, blessed, emo, events, fights, song, spelling, splat, treats, troubles, wishyawell

yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Friday, 27 July 2007-)
+7/27/2007 10:24:00 pm]*

Title: Gameover-

Labels: #$%^

yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Thursday, 26 July 2007-)
+7/26/2007 05:36:00 pm]*

Title: link?-

Labels: advices, clarabelle, complains, curses, fights, nickwah, shagged, strength, t15

yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Wednesday, 25 July 2007-)
+7/25/2007 07:10:00 pm]*

Title: sleep-

Labels: concentrate?, dominic, fantasies, hallucination, offer, reflection, strength, stress, tails, troubles

yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Tuesday, 24 July 2007-)
+7/24/2007 07:22:00 pm]*

Title: very-

Labels: birthday, busted, celebrations, oops, pei min, penguin, smiles, t35

yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Sunday, 22 July 2007-)
+7/22/2007 06:29:00 pm]*

Title: please..-

Labels: complains, pain

yup, so that's what happened (:
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+7/22/2007 01:56:00 pm]*

Title: disappointment-

what a waste the most pretty one being knocked out...

Labels: complains, concentrate?, emo, offer

yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Friday, 20 July 2007-)
+7/20/2007 10:35:00 pm]*

Title: shoots!!-

Labels: aura

yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Thursday, 19 July 2007-)
+7/19/2007 09:09:00 pm]*

Title: Received-

Labels: events, pass, smiles, strength

yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Wednesday, 18 July 2007-)
+7/18/2007 06:04:00 pm]*

Title: code, or quotes?-

Labels: chinese, creepy, fantasies, hallucination, QnA, smiles, Thanksgiving

yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Tuesday, 17 July 2007-)
+7/17/2007 06:12:00 pm]*

Title: No school-

Labels: concentrate?, giddy, listening, smiles, tails

yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Monday, 16 July 2007-)
+7/16/2007 06:38:00 pm]*

Title: help! pain!-

Labels: backstab, emo, giddy, shagged, smiles?

yup, so that's what happened (:
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+7/16/2007 12:01:00 am]*

Title: Piling-

Labels: emo, guilty, Intelligence, smiles?, splat

yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Saturday, 14 July 2007-)
+7/14/2007 10:38:00 pm]*

Title: Down to earth-

Labels: elections, influenced, smiles?

yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Friday, 13 July 2007-)
+7/13/2007 09:38:00 pm]*

Title: match-

Labels: emo, giddy, influence, Intelligence, shagged, smiles, stress

yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Thursday, 12 July 2007-)
+7/12/2007 09:12:00 pm]*

Title: Lost-

Labels: clap, Intelligence, riddle, stress

yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Wednesday, 11 July 2007-)
+7/11/2007 09:49:00 pm]*

Title: funny things when tired-

Labels: creepy, doctor, hallucination, shagged, smiles

yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Tuesday, 10 July 2007-)
+7/10/2007 08:33:00 pm]*

Title: Fantastic pleasures-

Labels: smiles

yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Monday, 9 July 2007-)
+7/09/2007 08:47:00 pm]*

Title: uneasy-

Labels: elections, emo, kpo

yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Sunday, 8 July 2007-)
+7/08/2007 09:51:00 pm]*

Title: let-

Labels: emo, mind, stress

yup, so that's what happened (:
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+7/08/2007 07:05:00 pm]*

Title: creepy days-

Labels: aura, boat quay, creepy, splat

yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Friday, 6 July 2007-)
+7/06/2007 12:26:00 am]*

Title: to get to the better-

Labels: emo

yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Thursday, 5 July 2007-)
+7/05/2007 07:32:00 pm]*

Title: Control-

Labels: influence

yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Wednesday, 4 July 2007-)
+7/04/2007 05:25:00 pm]*

Title: Never be replaced-

Labels: donut, oral, singyen

yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Tuesday, 3 July 2007-)
+7/03/2007 08:27:00 pm]*

Title: long day-

Labels: stress

yup, so that's what happened (:
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+7/03/2007 10:51:00 am]*

Title: Stupidity-

Labels: Intelligence

yup, so that's what happened (:
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(Monday, 2 July 2007-)
+7/02/2007 07:20:00 pm]*

Title: shadows-

Labels: read, smiles

yup, so that's what happened (:
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+7/02/2007 09:34:00 am]*

Title: Themeless post-

Labels: concentrate?, stress

yup, so that's what happened (:
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